November 2008 Stimming Buddies

[lynniecat]

Lee --

I am so so so sorry. You sound like me though, you have the resolve to carry on, book the appointment and keep moving. I find it helps to have a plan in place. Those frosties are so comforting. I have never had any myself, but I can only imagine that it helps ease the loss, but nothing really stops the sadness and grief at first. I hope one of these frosties will help and be your new little one!

[lynniecat]

So my bleeding has seemed to stop as of Sunday!

My monday beta at 20 DPO was 676 followed by 1991 at 22 DPO. My doctor is very excited. I am definitely way stressed out. I thought this was not going to stick at all with the super low beta and the bleeding, but now the bleeding has stopped and the beta has caught up!

Is this God playing a mean trick on me? I hope not. I am supposed to go Monday for an ultrasound. I will know then if we have a bean that is growing at the right rate. I sure hope so. I am very very nervous to go for fear of seeing an empty sac or a sac that is clearly too small or no sac at all! I almost want to not have the ultrasound as I can not bear a bad result.

The worry just never ends and the stories from our ladies here are both beautiful and devastating an I never know what it will be for me!

[lynniecat]

Update on everyone that is still posting!!!!


Hope33: Beta on 12/24 and results will be given on 12/25. Come on BFP and Christmas present (if you do not celebrate Christmas, then hopefully you will get a wonderful gift anyway!)!!!! I will be logging in and hope to see a wonderful BFP!!!

Mally: Little one did not stick taking a break before next cycle

Lee (Sara30): Sadly lost her Angel -- Heaven was short and needed her little one for a higher cause. Going for consult and has some awesome frosties waiting to snuggle up. Hopefully, heaven will be full of Angels this next time!


Sunshine: Trigger on December 16th, so retrieval should have been on the 18th, with transfer on the 21st or 23rd!


me (lynniecat): BFP, going got first ultrasound at 5.6 weeks on 12/22

[mally]

Hi Sara, sorry to hear about what happened, be strong , I am sure we will all have a smile on our faces soon.

Lynnie you are an inspiration, if I can recoup, how many embryos did you transfer, and how long was your bleeding? Does it mean some did not implant?

Mally

[Sunshine1974]

Sorry I disappeared for a few days. It's been a little crazy with everything that's been going on.

I took my HCG on Day 27 (12/16). My mom is afraid of needles, so my dad had to give me the shot and I had to teach him on the fly on how to do it. Was quite funny.

Day 29 (12/18 ) I went in for retrieval. However, usually under anesthesia I wake up crying. The last two times I was under (for for a video viewing the uterine lining & for the first IVF) I woke up fine. This one was less than fine. When I had gotten the laparoscopy in March I woke up into an anxiety attack and they had to sedate me again. This time thankfully it wasn't so bad but I woke up crying hysterically. They tried to get me off of the table and I had zero strength. They finally had to put me into a separate room away from the recovery area so as not to freak out the other women. They brought in the social worker who talked me down. We talked for awhile about how I was feeling (alone, scared, tired). After about 30 mins I was finally able to go back to recovery so they could monitor me. My dad was there to pick me up. I'm a little broke and I was starving so it was a toss up btwn having a really big breakfast or taking a cab ride home. I opted for the food, but I did regret not taking the cab. My left ovary is huge! It feels about the size of my uterus so any movement or pressure is extremely uncomfortable right now.

Back to logistics! They retrieved 25!!! Most were probably from my left ovary it's so big. They called me yesterday afternoon and told me 13 fertilized. I now have a tentative date for tomorrow at 11:15 in the morning. I will do whatever is needed, but am kind of hoping they call me in the morning and tell me I can wait until Day 5. This way I have a better chance of justifying working from home and relaxing without the commute. I know they say that laying down doesn't change anything, but at this point I am willing to try anything. With my condition they're not sure if it really plays a role in implantation, but if I can make the little guy stay in there longer, therefore heightening my chance of implantation, I'll take it.

We all want this so bad. And yes we are strangers, but to be honest for a bunch of women I've never met, this has been the most comforting to me. I've actually found women who truly understand what it is I'm going through and not judge, and not have these strange misconceptions and therefore make me crazy with their best intentions. Thank you all so much. My prayers are with you as yours are with me.

[lynniecat]

Sunshine,

Sorry to hear about such a traumatic retrieval. Sounds like the stress is really getting to you. It happens to us all at different points!
25 with 13 fertilized is just fantastic! I am hoping for a 5 day transfer for you! Good luck and let us know what happens!

[Sunshine1974]

Good morning ladies. I got a call at 8:30 this morning from the center. I can wait until Day 5! They said only 1 or 2 have arrested, so there are still more than 10 that are thriving.

I must admit I'm growing more nervous now. They waited until day 5 of my last transfer and 7 days later I got my period. I knew my little guys would do great, but I'm still very concerned about my uterus. There is still so little known about adenomyosis that no one is really sure if my chances are much lower than women older than me. I'm taking my progesterone 2x a day, and praying this works.

I did acupuncture last night in anticipation for today. I'm hoping I can get in one more tomorrow night.

Prayers for us all!

[hope33]

Hi guys,

how is everyone doing?

Sunshine- congratulations on such great ER numbers! Have you gotten an update on when the transfer will be happening? I wish you tons and tons of sticky vibes! Keep us posted!

lynniecat- how are you feeling?

Well 2 more days until testing day... I am nervous, one minute i am convinced it didn't work the next minute i am convincing myself that i am pregnant. I am EXTREMELY BLOATED! None of my pants fit me and my breasts are SO SWOLLEN and they hurt.... can this be just from the progesterone? i took a HPT and got a negative today- can it still be too early since i did a 3 day transfer? I know the last time i was pregnant with my DS i had tested the night before the beta and a very faint line came up that you can bearly see. I am still holding on to hope here. I littel bummed but i know i will get through this. Also my re called today and said that my progesterone was a little low and to increase the endomitrium to 4x a day and to take the prometrium orally at night.

Hopefully i will have good news soon Will post again tommorrow....

[Sunshine1974]

Hope many many prayers for you. I hope this is it!

The doc called me early yesterday morning and told me to come in on Day 5, as they were doing rather well. Only 1 or 2 had arrested leaving more than 10. So tomorrow morning, we'll see how many more have made it, and they'll be putting 2 in and I'll have them cryo the rest.

Nervous, anxious and scared out of my mind. How do we ever stay sane with all of this?

[Sara30]

Hi Guys

Sorry have not been on for a few days to see how you are all doing, but it all seems good,

Hope I followed your post just now on the hpt question so it looks like things are definately going in the right direction!! I bet you can't wait for xmas day and its not because santa will visit!! Heres to that line getting darker for you.

Sunshine what a day to remember xmas eve you won't be forgetting that one in a hurry it has to be good luck for you. I don't know what sane is anymore!!

lynniecat how are you doing any more news on your betas?

Hi mally did not want to miss you out.

We have been very busy my excuse for not logging on over the last few days! we are foster carers and had 2 children arrive on an emergency placement so we will have our child who lives with us at the moment and 2 others for xmas now as well, so have been frantically xmas shopping to make sure they have pressies and buying in food as we were not going to do much this year as our child who lives with us was going to spend some of it with her family. it has been a godsend as I now have no time to mope about and have to be festive for the children!


I wish to send you all good luck, peace and happiness for christmas and hope that 2009 will bring us all a baby to hold.

Take care
Lee xx

[lynniecat]

Hope --- you sound preggers to me! Lee, that is great you are fostering, how wonderful! Sunshine, I am praying for those 10 embies of yours!


Had my ultrasound yesterday. Saw a yolk sac, but not a fetal pole. The doctor says this is ok and expects to see one next monday at my second ultrasound.

I sure hope so!

[hope33]

hello, everyone! it has been a crazy day.... after my re told me to take progesterone orally 2x a day in additon to the 4x a day endometrium that i am taking- i took one at bedtime last night and was fine- this morning i took another orally and in about 1 hour i felt so faint. the room was spinning, i felt numb and i felt like i was going to faint. my ds and i were decorating the tree at the time. Thank goodness i located the phone and called DH, he ran right over. then dry heeves started. this whole episode lasted about 1/2, after that i was feeling better. I think it was from the oral prgesterone- prometrium. i called my re and told him i did not tolerate it well and he told me only to take it at night in addition to the vaginal endometrium i am taking 4x a day. I will see how it goes tonight otherwise i will just put the prometrium and endometrium vaginally at night together. I wonder if my blood pressure dropped and that is why i felt that way????
on a better note: i took the First response test this morning and got a ghost line , i was going cross eyed trying to figure out if the line was really there. Showed it to DH and he said he saw the faint faint line too. So i guess i got my BFP. i will test again tonght and tomorrow to see if the line gets any darker.....

Sunshine did you go in today for transfer???? sending you sticky vibes your way! How are your little embies doing?

Lynniecat- i am sure you will see the fetal pole on monday. It must have been so great to see the little sac there. You are not testing anymore right? how do you feel?

Sara- wow you are a foster parent! That is totally amazing..... what a great thing you have so much postive energy and it is great that you are touching the lives of kids that really need the care. Congratulations and much kudos to you and your family- it is very special to have those kids in your home for Christmas. i am sure it take a lot off your mind.....

hi mally! How are you doing???

I will be on tomorrow again, i will post if i have any more news

[hope33]

Merry Christmas to all! Went in for my beta number yesterday and my re called me this morning , my first beta came in at 36.4. that is 9 days past 3 day transfer, isn't that really low? i am a bit concerned but trying to stay positive. Going in again tomorrow for anther beta.....
Speak to you all soon.

[lynniecat]

Keep us informed of beta 2, that is the real key! You would love it to double !

[Sunshine1974]

Lynnie Sending my prayers, this sounds like this is it!

Hope maybe the RE is right. I mean if you take the oral progesterone before bed you won't be active enough to get that reactions. Hope it went well for you.

This past Tuesday was my Day 5 transfers. Out of 24 retrieved 12 survived up to the Day 5. They chose the best 2 and gave me a picture of them too! I was so surprised, because they hadn't done that last time. My mom and I pray it was a sign. I've been trying to take it easy and do as little as possible so I stayed on the couch for nearly all of Tuesday, and worked from home on my couch on Wednesday. I got a call on Wednesday afternoon informing me that 5 embryos survived cryo!!! So from the last cycle and this one I now have 6!!! Yesterday, I stayed home most of the day and then very leisurely took the train to spend Christmas with my best friend and his partner, and my mom made me promise I'd take a cab home. Last night I was having problems sleeping because the ovarian tenderness has now been replaced by uterine sensitivity and it feels like it normally does a few days before my period. Today I did some part time work, mostly sitting up at my desk, but finally retired to the couch around 6:30pm and this is where I plan to be the rest of the weekend. I'm still suffering from the tenderness that feels like it could be my period, but I know I could be wrong. Trying so hard not to speculate, that I've take tylenol a few times today to make it go away so I can mentally think of other things. Barring getting my period between now and the new year, I'm due back at the doc's on Jan 2 for my blood test. They tried to get me to wait until Jan 5 but I had to remind the nurse that I was a Day 5 transfer NOT a Day 3. No way I was gonna wait 3 extra days!

Would any of you ladies happen to know how long after a day 5 transfer the little ones tend to implant? I'm searching on the web but haven't found anything yet.


I hope this post finds everyone doing well and in the best spirits