Dec/Jan Cycle buddies!!!!

wishing4baby · Post by **wishing4baby** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 4:59 pm

Thanks to everyone for the support.

dagnymichelle - I so feel your pain. This whole struggle is so hard...mentally, physically, emotionally and financially. I too have looked into the www.mindbodyinfertility.com thing. I struggle with spending more money on that and acupuncture. I don't know how much money we are going to need to actually keep doing IVF. My insurance doesn't cover IVF and I don't know what other options we are going to have to explore down the road. But that being said, I haven't ruled out attending their seminars.

I also am the same way with the research. I can't tell you how many times I have searched "multiple chemical pregnancies". I feel like if I just keep digging I will find my answer. We are probably much more knowledgeable about this stuff than women who have normal pregnancies...I so wish I was just normal

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I will be keeping you in my thoughts. I have to think our time will come one of these days.

Sprouthaus, thanks for saying my baby is out there. That is the only thought that keeps me going. How is your 2WW going?

AnnD - I totally agree with you on how close DH and I have gotten. We feel like we can get through anything together now. We are very lucky that we have this. How is the 2WW going?

Thanks for all the support ladies.

sprouthaus · Post by **sprouthaus** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 5:13 pm

W4B - You sound very strong today - quite an inspiration to us all. Thx for checking back on us still in 2ww - again, quite a show of strength. Don't forget to take care of yourself and take the time you need to heal.

I can't believe my 2ww is over tomorrow. I've been trying not to notice any symptoms or lack there of. It has been hard - but I've been keeping myself busy and as such, I don't feel one way or the other about what the outcome of this cycle will be. I'm sure if I get a BFN tomorrow, I'll be surprised at how devasted I feel again.

But, the recent scare with my nephew helps me accept that our time may not be here yet - it may be that I need to help my sister right now instead of focusing on me. I can't help but feel that I might've risked our chances of implantation by the heavy lifting I had to do during the 2ww - but, I wouldn't have changed a thing. My sister, BIL, neice and nephew needed my help and it was what I had to do.

I am very happy that we have a work holiday tomorrow - so DH and I can be at home together when we call to get the results (our RE leaves all results on a private voicemail that we access in the afternoon and retrieve our details from). It will be an added bonus to be able to drink our woes away if we do get a BFN.....

wishing4baby · Post by **wishing4baby** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 5:44 pm

sprouthaus - I will be thinking of you, hoping you get the best new years eve present ever!! Sounds like you are an amazing sister and aunt. I wouldn't worry about compromising the implantation. So much of this is out of our hands. I really believe if it is our time, it happens. I laid flat in bed for 5 DAYS! and still didn't get my BFP. If it is meant to be, the heavy lifting isn't going to effect anything. Heavy lifting and walking around isn't a reliable form of birth control for the regular population

...Try and relax and think good thoughts. I will be thinking of you.

sprouthaus · Post by **sprouthaus** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 5:51 pm

W4B - you are 100% RIGHT (as usual). Lifting and walking aren't forms of birth control - LOL!!!

I am going to take your advice and go home and do some meditation. For some reason, I am getting anxious today and have found myself trying to remember how I felt this day last cycle. I keep telling myself to STOP! I can't control what happens to me now so it is best to "let go and let god".

^^^^^^^^breathe^^^^^^^^

not hopeless yet · Post by **not hopeless yet** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 7:53 pm

Well everyone I had my transfer today... we had 8 out of 11 eggs fertilize on Christmas day. And unfortunately today is day 5 and only 1 embryo has become a blast. On the other hand we were only planning on transferring 1, so maybe this is the lucky one, right? I was hoping the others would grow and we could freeze them but right now i'm just happy to be in the dreaded 2ww!
Bad news is I got friggin' laid off yesterday afternoon! Yep, the day before my transfer and I had to start stressing about mortgage and finding a job (the architectural field in MA is totally dead right now so it's not looking good for me). I'm not trying to be a downer but it was just really bad timing. Plus now I figure if I'm lucky enough to get pregnant no one will want to hire me & even if they do I won't get maternity.
But right now I'm just praying for my embie to snuggle in tight!

Sprouthaus good luck tomorrow with the beta!

sprouthaus · Post by **sprouthaus** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 9:03 pm

NHY - Oh Brother! That is waaaaaay too much to deal with while going through IVF. I'm sorry to hear about your situation - is it effective immediately? Being off of work for the 2ww has really helped distract me - I don't think I was very effective at work the last 2ww

On the other hand - CONGRATS on transferring a blast! That sounds very fortunate and should counter any bad news on the job end.

So.....COMPLETELY off the infertility subject - our cleaning lady came today and brought us a belated xmas present. It is a VERY ugly vase. I am LMAO because we feel that we have to display it since she's in our house every 2 weeks cleaning!!!!!!!!!! A stupid problem to have, but funny none the less.

We don't want to offend her because she is very good. Whatcha gonna do?

Annie973 · Post by **Annie973** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 10:19 pm

JennJenn - Congratulations on your BFP. My RE said anything over 100 is strong so I think your number is good! I'm sure your number will double!

Sprouthaus - Good luck tomorrow!! I'll be praying that you get your BFP! You made me laugh about your cleaning lady story and the ugly vase lol.

W4B - It's good to hear from you. I'm sorry you are going through a hard time. I know you have been through more chemicals than I have but I had one last cycle and know how devastating it is. I really believe you will get your BFP soon and this will all be a bad memory.

NHY - So sorry to hear about your job. However, I have noticed a lot of times babies come at the worst time (financially speaking) and not when we're prepared and ready for it. So hopefully this is your time and the rest will work itself out.

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Tue Dec 30, 2008 11:37 pm

Dagnymichelle... I'm sorry to hear about the BFN. Researching after getting a BFN or even during the 2WW is what I do, too. I think it helps because you know inside you're not giving up. You're a fighter and one day you're going to have a beautiful baby one way or another. I agree with Sprouthaus. Take some time off to get your body to heal and be ready and healthier for the next round. Unfortunately, our insurance does not cover IVF. I wish it did.

W4B... I'm glad you and DH are stronger together. I don't think many couples could survive what we (IVF couples) go through. I think God puts us through challenges he knows we can survive with him by our side. And Sprouthaus is right. Your baby is out there. You have beautiful blasts waiting to be defrosted when you're ready!!

Sprouthaus...My prayers are with you! Fingers and toes crossed! I found an article about how some REs believe bed rest does not affect the outcome of IVF. Here's the article: http://www.ivf1.com/ivf-success-and-bedrest/
I'm glad to hear your family is okay now.

NHY... One blast is all it takes! I hope the 2WW goes by quickly for you. And I'm sorry to hear about your layoff. Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans. Let your embie snuggle in tight!!

As for me... still just waiting! No symptoms although every now and then I feel cramp-like pains. Pretty sure it's the meds. Oh well.... I won't know for another week.... ACK!!!

sprouthaus · Post by **sprouthaus** » Wed Dec 31, 2008 12:32 am

Just wanted to give a shout out to KMHTTC on her beta tomorrow - I've got my ovaries crossed for you!

Baby wishes to you.

ann d. - Thx for the link to the article - I'm going to read it now. Every little bit of support helps! My RE doesn't require bedrest as there are no studies proving it helps. My RE is very practical and I really appreciate that as I am a scientist and work in the pharmaceutical industry. If there is no clinical study to back up a theory, then it is only a theory. Course - that doesn't prevent me from doing acupuncture and massage to try to improve the quality of my eggs!

(In reality, I'm just addicted to how relaxed it makes me feel

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I don't know what has gotten into me, but I am CRAVING a glass of wine. It is like all I'm thinking about right now - at least I"ve got that going for me if we get a BFN.

not hopeless yet · Post by **not hopeless yet** » Wed Dec 31, 2008 3:09 pm

sprouthaus don't cross your ovaries - it might be painful! j/k

I can't wait to hear your test results later today. I can't believe your 2ww is over!

and i hope you're right that being off work during my wait will be a good distraction.

Happy New Year to all!

Gigi-29 · Post by **Gigi-29** » Wed Dec 31, 2008 7:13 pm

Sprouthaus - I'm thinking about you, hope everything is good!! That's funny about your cleaner and the vase!

KMHTTC - Your beta is today too, right??

Dagnymichelle and W4B - I wish you both well and I hope things do work out for you both in the future!!

NHY - That is rotten about the layoff!! My Dh and I were worried about that too at our works. It's such a bad time right now! I wish you the best!

KMHTTC · Post by **KMHTTC** » Wed Dec 31, 2008 8:06 pm

Hi everyone... Well I heard from my nurse and got a BFN today. I am totally shocked and just feel numb at this point. I was really expecting to hear good news. I feel like maybe we aren't meant to be parents... I know that my mood will pick up in a few days but I just feel stunned.

sprouthaus · Post by **sprouthaus** » Wed Dec 31, 2008 8:24 pm

Hello beautiful ladies. BFN for me as well. I am now sipping my first glass of wine of the evening

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Baby wishes to all in 2009. I hope to stay on the board and cheer on the rest of you in 2ww.

"This time next year, our troubles will be miles away" - xoxo

KMHTTC · Post by **KMHTTC** » Wed Dec 31, 2008 8:53 pm

Sorry to hear about the BFN Sprouthaus. I am also starting the night early and having a glass of wine...
I wish everyone all the best in 2009 and am hoping for many BFP's for the rest of the ladies.

wishing4baby · Post by **wishing4baby** » Wed Dec 31, 2008 9:26 pm

KMHTTC and Sprouthaus - I am so sorry. I was so hoping it would be good news for you both. I wish you weren't a part of our BFN club this cycle...there seems to be too many of us this time around.

But we can't give up. We hurt and grieve and then dust ourselves off and keep pushing. We are living for that day when we hold our baby in our arms and all this pain, hurt and anger will be forgotten.

I will be joining you both shortly with a drink...although I think I need something stronger than wine

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Here is to 2009 being our year...

Dec/Jan Cycle buddies!!!!

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