Dec/Jan Cycle buddies!!!!

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Sun Jan 11, 2009 4:12 pm

Annie... Congrats on your twins!! I don't remember if you posted you were having twins, but that is great! How exciting!

not hopeless yet · Post by **not hopeless yet** » Mon Jan 12, 2009 12:48 am

just wanted to say hi to everyone... I took a break from the boards after my BFN. But DH and I discussed doing a 2nd IVF later this year so we'll be able to meet with the RE next week to review everything.

sprouthaus glad to hear your RE says things still look good for you. Don't worry, I've broken down in my REs office before too. My emotions are always right on the brink.

Well good luck to everyone and I'll try to stay in touch.

sprouthaus · Post by **sprouthaus** » Tue Jan 13, 2009 4:46 pm

Hello everyone!

I hope all are feeling well - that those with BFPs are feeling strong and healthy and those with BFNs are starting to come out of the cloud of grief that follows. And for those still in process - go go go!

Thank you to all for all the kind words. It has been a giant source of comfort for me. The day I had my appt with RE was also the day my DH had to leave for a 2 week business trip. It was a very rough day. I'm still feeling pretty low - even though I'm trying to be positive. It has really shocked me how much the words "consider using donor eggs" has impacted me. I haven't felt grief like this since my sister passed away. How weird to feel grief over something I never had and thus couldn't lose!

I keep feeling like I'm forgetting something - like I've left the stove on, or didn't lock the door, or forgot a homework assignment. I feel anxious all the time like this - and I have to remind myself that I didn't forget anything, I'm just missing the baby I hoped to have.

See - I've been like this since Friday - poor, sad me in her own pity party! When, in actuality - its not over yet. RE wanted us to continue trying with my own eggs and she still thinks we have a chance (she doesn't think we have a 50% shot anymore though).

Next steps for us: Get myself out of this funk! Continue acupuncture and yoga! Stop all of this binging on sugar and booze (I had a bit of a weekend....) Seek a second opinion, and start preparing for cycle #3 with my own eggs, using ganirelix.

hugs and kisses to all

dagnymichelle · Post by **dagnymichelle** » Tue Jan 13, 2009 8:32 pm

Hey guys, I just got the MOST AMAZING book ever. It's called Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Toni Weschler. I knew some of the things that she talks about but there is gold galore in it. I am 38 now, so my time clock is doing double time. I would highly encourage all of the BFN folks to get this book ASAP.

What I realized is that we may have been missing some small but crucial things. We should all be charting our BBT according to her. I definitely realized some of the issues that we might be having. My luetal phase is short which make me wonder if that is why I started bleeding on 12dpt3dt.

http://www.amazon.com/Taking-Charge-You ... 123&sr=8-1

sprouthaus - It's so natural to grieve over this awesome yet horrible process. I attribute the missing something over what could I have done differently. There are thousands of things going through your mind. I'm glad you are going to do it one more time. I saw on one message board that there was something called DHEA maybe that helped get more and more mature eggs. In the mean time, chart your BBT and see if there is something else funky going on.

Good luck to the BFN's and super congrats for all the BFP's

sprouthaus · Post by **sprouthaus** » Wed Jan 14, 2009 2:44 pm

dagnymichelle - Thanks for all the helpful info. Sounds like you are reading a book similar to the ones I read after my first BFN. There is a lot of helpful info out there and it helps me feel more 'in control' of my cycles when I follow the wisdom and advice out there.

The grief was intense this time, and I have renewed effort to try again. It was weird, because the BFN didn't bother me so much as the finality of my RE finally admitting that I have lazy/poor/faulty ovaries.

tburks - Tburks - I remembered that you will be starting stims on the 21st or 22nd. keep us posted on your progress! I will be traveling on a business trip during this time, but I return on the 23rd and will cheer you on then!

london · Post by **london** » Thu Jan 15, 2009 7:56 pm

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Hello Ladies

How have you ladies been ?

Well today i can say I am bless the lupus is not active!!!

Also seen RE this morning and i am am responding well i think the biggest follie measured 17 so I go back on Sat!! ER will probably be on Monday Whew well on my way to a BFP!!

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Sat Jan 17, 2009 4:03 pm

Yayyy!! Congrats London! Good luck on your cycle!!

Sprouthaus... I'm sorry that you've had to deal with some unexpected news from your RE but it sounds like your RE still thinks you can move on with your own eggs. Yayy! And that's great that you are getting yourself in a positive frame of mind. That is so important during this process. I know that one day you will have your baby! Good luck on your business trip!

Natasha, Espinoza, London and anyone else I may have forgotten.... Keep us posted on how you guys are doing during the 2WW and Beta day!

espinozal23 · Post by **espinozal23** » Sat Jan 17, 2009 4:58 pm

Hello Ladies

Hope that everyone is doing good i have been doing good so far just some mild cramping last night in the lower part of my stomach hope that is all part of it I didnt have any cramping last time and my AF came like four days before my BETA so I am trying to take it easy and relax but it is just so darn hard I just want to be able to see a positive on that crazy stick and I would feel some much better and every little thing I think to my self oh thats them implanting i just hope that I dont loose my mind before this 2ww is up

And oh yeah my BFF had a dream last night dont know if this means anything or not but when I talked to her this morning she said I was just getting ready to send you a text message I had a dream last night that you were having a boy Think it means anything

wishing4baby · Post by **wishing4baby** » Sat Jan 17, 2009 11:35 pm

Hi ladies, I have been checking in on how everyone is doing.

London, glad to hear you are doing well. I hope things keep going smoothly.

espinozal23, hang in there. I think your friends dream is very cool and should help you stay positive.

Ann D and all you pregnant ladies, how are things progressing for you?

We finally had our consult with the RE yesterday afternoon. In short he thinks it is the quality of my eggs. I guess you can have perfect looking blasts but that doesn't mean they are normal. He said women in the category I fall into sometimes have 70-100% abnormal embryos.

So, we are going to do another fresh cycle in Feb/March. He is going to freeze them on day 1, before they start progressing. We are then going to do PGD, but a newer kind of PGD that will be available in April. It will actually test all 23 chromosomes, instead of the usual 12 that current PGD tests. The testing won't be available until April, at which point he will unfreeze our embryos and do the testing. He also said we will never do another fresh transfer, as I only get pregnant during the FETs.

I am hoping beyond hope that we have some normal embryos. He never mentioned donor eggs, so he still thinks there is a chance we can use my own, it's just finding the right one.

I never thought I would be dealing with egg quality issues at 28, but I guess we just keep on moving forward until we get this thing figured out.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend

london · Post by **london** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 2:38 am

Hello ladies well today I went to RE and I was suppose to trigger at 8pm but I tiggered at at 8:40 was that ok I was not home and got side track also where do you administer your HCG i put it in my upper thigh.
I go for ER on Monday at 7am

espinozal23 · Post by **espinozal23** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:36 am

Hey London you may want to call RE forst thing monday morning because I was told that I had to do my trigger at exactly 10 p.m. no earlier and no later and that you had to be on time with this specific shot

Your RE may be different but I would call first thing monday morning

london · Post by **london** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:29 pm

Called the doctors and she said I was ok and i go to ER in the morning wish me luck hope I get some good embies!!

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 6:34 pm

W4B...It's good to hear from you! I'm glad that you are going to be making progress with your IVF journey. I think it is a good thing that you are doing the PGD and that they've come out with a new one testing all chromosomes b/c then you can either find what the problem is or you can rule out that it's an egg issue. Sometimes I wish I had answers, definite answers, as to why we didn't get pregnant with our first IVF cycle or FET, but other than it being a male factor we haven't found anything. So at least, this will get you a step closer to getting a BFP and having your baby!! Plus, I know I've said this, you are young. I wish I could have gotten pregnant around 30, but things work out the way they did for a reason.

London... Good luck with the ER!! Can't wait to hear the results!

As for me... I am 6 weeks and 3 days today. I have no symptoms, except for being really sleepy. I'm feeling the usual bloating and weight gain from the meds. I hate that part. But I'm seeing my RE once a week for u/s. I got to see the heartbeat on Friday. That was the weirdest thing. I teared up b/c we never got to that point during my last pregnancy. I didn't have DH come with me b/c the nurse advised me to wait until we see a heartbeat before he come in. She knows how nervous my DH gets...lol. So he is coming with me next Friday. We're taking it a week at a time. And our confidence about this being a good pregnancy is slowly rising. Just gotta keep the PMA!

Good luck to everyone in their 2WW!!

london · Post by **london** » Tue Jan 20, 2009 12:54 am

Hello ladies kind of sad today because at ER they only got 5 I could not beleive it I wonder what happen I am trying to stay positive but I just cannot with such low number and also i wanted to freeze some but I do not think that is possible now so now i am just praying that they all are good quality and do get a healthy one out of the bunch. What do you ladies think?

Annd D Good to hear the good process you are going to be ok you are in my prayers

espinozal23 sounds promising you almost there

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Tue Jan 20, 2009 1:24 am

London...Try not to lose hope. It must be devastating since this is not what you expected; but you have to remember it only takes 1 embryo to get pregnant. I have read about many women on this board with only a few embies and get a BFP! It's most important at this time to try to keep up the PMA, relax as much as possible, and get good bed rest. The rest is out of our hands. I'll be praying that your embies grow, grow, grow!!

Dec/Jan Cycle buddies!!!!

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