I'm so glad I found this website, I feel as though everyone here knows exactly what i'm talkign about and going through. Here's my situation:
In our first year we conceived purely by accident, but they found out it was ectopic and had to abort to prevent the tube bursting. I was really cut up about it and never really got over it, till 2 year later we coneived again, and i was 6 weeks before they found out it was ectopic and ruptured. Only this time it ruptured and I nearly died. Now its been a year and a half since that happened, and after doctoirs guaranteeing i'd be pregnant last year JUNE, it's now nearly another year, and nothing has happened. My little sister has just fallen pregnant after a one night stand and I'm not coping and nobody seems to understand why. They told me to get over the loss, told me stop trying - which i've done, i've actually given up hope, but I'm hurting so badly by all of this. Everyone thinks I'm crazy, over-reacting, selfish because i don't do baby showers - I actuallly avoid babies altogether because everytime I'm reminded about what i could've had and don't.
I'm 26 and my husband is 31.
We both desperately want to start a family, but it juist honestly seems like its never going to happen.
I know I will have another baby its just a matter of time. Just remember, you are in charge of your own destiny. There is nothing that we cant have, do, or be. Good luck to everyone and I pray for people like you and I every night for great things to happen for us!!!