JAN/FEB/MAR 2009 Ladies!!! :arrow:

[Rosario]

to_have_fun08 For both cycles I have stimmed for 14 days max... Remember last cycle I didn't even use the Antagon, I trigged right after they saw my follies were big enough. I am sure this time will be all yours. You will get your BFP!!!!!!!

[SueQiwi]

to have fun~I am thinking of you and hoping those smaller follies get growing! Is there any way to get rid of that one big follicle so the others have a better chance? I really hope this works out for you. You deserve to be a Mum. you have been so supportive for so many people for so long! I just want it to be your turn now.

LadyJ , CAfisrtinvitro and other on the 2ww~Hang in there! Be good to yourselves! And keep those obsessive minds distracted! Those IVF shows sound so good to watch on TV. I wish we got those here in New Zealand--but can you believe we only have 2 TV channels at my house?!

Wondercat~ sounds like you are preggers!! Congratulations.

Aspot of tea~those embies sound high quality. your chances are good!

I had my second beta today and my level is 675 now. the nurse said that is right on target and I am very relieved! I am having the hyper-exhaustion and need a nap most afternoons. And I still have cramping. but that is about it for symptoms.

[babyluv]

Hi ladies, just posting an update.

Had my ER yesterday and it went well. My first ER was a piece of cake...20 eggs but I really wasn't in much pain, couldn't figure out what people were complaining about it. This time...HOLY COW! I took all the Darvocet I was prescribed, was on the heating pad all day and could barely get my pants on at night because of the pain! Same amount of eggs. I don't know what was different (different RE maybe?), but it sure did hurt. Much better today, but still sore.

At any rate, like I said I had 20 eggs, 15 mature, 12 fertlized with ICSI. I'm hoping they are good quality this time around. The numbers are pretty similar to my last IVF and by the end I only had 2 blasts, no frosties. We are pretty sure this is our last try at fertility because of the expense (no shared risk for us...didn't qualify because of past issues), so I'm hoping it works. At the moment I have a total peace about it...hoping that's a good sign!

I definitely plan on POAS if AF doesn't come because my beta is scheduled for two weeks from today...the same day DD goes in for open heart surgery (to repair a hole in her heart...routine, but still cutting open my little girl which is scaaaaary). As much as I want those beta numbers (cause I'm hoping they'll be high!), DD comes first. I'm hoping I can go in the next day. If AF comes before then, I'll put it off a few days. Last time I got AF 13 days after ER, so I knew well before beta (three days later) that it didn't work.

Anyway, congrats on all the BFPs and good luck to those waiting. I feel your pain and the 2ww totally sucks!! They'll call me Sat to let me know if I should still come in for 3dt, but most likely it will be 5dt.

[tabatha1975]

how many days did you all have to take lupron injections after the start of your period? my re told me to call when i have af, i was just wondering when i call and af arrives what's next? i'm anxious...

[Lady_J]

Good Morning Ladies.... Happy Friday!!! I have been having nightmares and I am not liking them. The other night, I dreamt that my daughter and I got kidnapped and held hostage by this serial killer. He was killing other women infront of us but not us. We finally got away and he chased us and I told my daughter to hide in Chuckee CHeese's.. finally when the killer got caught and I went back for my daughter, it turns out he killed her... And yesterday I dreamt that mystomach was hurting really bad and I went to the LR and I had gotten my AF... I have been waking up crying the last 2 days. I guess anxiety is kicking in. Well, on a good note, I cam home from work to a beatuiful surprise. My DH got me 3 Cockateil Birds, he set up a bog new cage and had the 3 birds in there. It was a pleasant surprise. My daughter loves them and my dog wants to eat them but one of them already does the sexy whistle and does the most beatiful whistles... its music to my ears. Now personals...

tabatha... Lupron is ongoing until u stop stims, usuaully the night u trigger. Most likeley u r on 20u of Lurpon.. once u start your AF, u will go in for baseline US and they will start u on Stims, and lower your Lupron to 10u. The Lupron is to keep u from ovulating anytime before ER. At least pretty soon u start Stims, so u r almost there hun. Good Luck, hope u get your AF soon.

babyluv... First of all, congrats on ER and having so many eggs. I hope they do well this time around and u get your BFP. As for your DD, hun, I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family thru this. I can not imagine the feelings u r going thru. Hope it all turns out well for you.

Sue... COngrats on your rising Beta. Everything sounds good. WHen do u have your US?

Chris... I hope everything turns around for you. So when is your next US?

[Wondercat]

Lady_J - Try not to let your mind get to you with those nightmares! I had terrible dreams the last time around, and kept waking up with the biggest feeling of dread. I don't know why, but I have been so much more relaxed this time around. The night before my ET I had a dream that I was on some kind of large boat that was in a big storm and there was a possibility we would have to abandon ship, but I was completely calm about it. And some other people were trying to help rescue this large, beautiful white pit bull, but she was too scared to leave the cabin she was in until I got there and then we both went up on deck together. I should add here that I love pit bulls - my 9-year-old pit mix just died from prostate cancer in October and I still cry when I think about him. Anyway I think of them as loving and protective animals, so to me she seemed like a manifestation of maternal instinct and I woke up that day just feeling so right about everything. On the business trip, it's just for a training conference, which we only barely got approval to go to, so on the whole I think our CFO will be happy if I decide not to!

tabatha - Your RE should have given you some kind of schedule. If not you should ask if they have one. You won't have absolute dates because so much of the timing depends on your test results, but you can at least get an idea of what's coming.

Sue - I have had cramping almost the whole time, too. I'm starting to think in my case that's a good sign since the first two times around I didn't notice any difference throughout the whole 2ww until I got the BFN's.

[amfmbaby]

Well ladies I am still here just reading and not posting I am down today I want so bad to start but AF is now 6 days late and i know the cyst is their could that be the reason for AF being MIA I called RE tuesday he said if it not by friday I have to come in I made the appointment for monday and see if it shows up over the weekend meanwhile I am avoiding fridge like kid in candy store I have all of my meds but cant touch also having headaches daily I am so frustrated and PMA is gone I am off to work it will take my mind off everything

[Lady_J]

amfmbabay... IVF does that to people. It messes with our minds and cycles. Sma ething happened to me on both cycles, where my AF would just never show. Eventually it did and I was able to start. I think it is just that added stress we cause ourselves. Hope it arrives soon.

Wondercat... I wish I was able to control my dreams so that I would just make them nice. The dream u had gave me the chills, it was beautiful in a sense. So did u have this dream before or after your dog passed away? I am so sorry about your pup, I am the same way, I love dogs and I love my Boxer. She is like my 2nd child, and I would hurt if something were to happen to her. Sorry hun.

[to_have_fun08]

I had another u/s today. besides my gigantic 30mm+ follie, I have 1 that is 11mm and still all the rest are under 10. Nothing is happening. So I stay on the stims till Monday. If nothing happens by Monday, I will be canceled. The story of my life. UUUGGHHH These meds are driving me nuts. I can't concentrate on anything. I have homework that was due 2 days ago that I still have not gotten finished. I just don't feel like doing anything. I am all bloated and feel like crap.


Chris

[nursegator]

Hi Ladies,

I've been reading all of your posts, but haven't had anything new to add. Still just going crazy waiting for my Beta on Monday. I have wanted to POAS so badly, but at the same time so afraid to get a negative result. It feels better to imagine that I might be pregnant for a few more days, and maybe I really am. Haven't had many symptoms-- just lower abdominal cramping off and on. I'm hoping that's a good sign.

I was so excited through this cycle, that I told many friends what I was doing. It felt right at the time and fun to give them all my updates. Now, however, I am worried that I may have shared with too many folks! It'll be really hard to share bad news with so many people-- and then, of course, what if I AM pregnant but I miscarry? I can't imagine having to tell them all that either. Luckily, I haven't shared my Beta date with them. So, I was thinking that I would tell them all that if it's bad news, I'll post a status update to my Facebook page, Going drinking tonight- so they'll get the message if it's bad news. Or maybe I'll tell them that I'm keeping it a secret until if/when I get through the first trimester. What do you think???

lady J: I hope you have better dreams tonight! Try not to eat anything sweet/starchy before you go to bed, because that will increase your chance of nightmares. Before I fall asleep, I've been visualizing myself pregnant and also holding a little baby in my arms. So far, so good- no nightmares for me.

amfmbaby: I'm sorry that you're struggling! I hope AF shows up for you soon.. I know one of the ladies on the board recommends wearing a brand new pair of white panties to coax AF into showing up. AF hardly ever misses a chance to ruin a new pair.

Wondercat: Congrats on your BFP HPT! You are tempting me, woman.. I SO want to POAS... But only if it's positive. You must be on cloud 9 right now.

babyluv: Congrats on being PUPO and having a great ER! Sounds like you have lots to work with. You are dealing with so much right now, especially with your DD's heart surgery. Your attitude and PMA is amazing-- keep it up!

SueQiwi: Yay for awesome Betas! Take a well-deserved nap today. When will you have an US? I'm anxious to hear about your little one or ones.

CAFirstInvitro: Thanks to you, I've got that show to record too! Wow, double identical twins-- what are the odds of that happening? Well our 2ww is ALMOST over, but the days are still just dragging along.. I'm trying to stay busy, but my mind just wanders to pregnancy, baby names, baby furniture, multiple babies, nursery designs etc etc. I'm just obsessed at this point!

Chris: I'll be praying that your cycle starts going better very soon. You so deserve a BFP!

Happy Friday and sticky babydust to everyone!!!!

[Lady_J]

nursegator.... I'm with you on the HPT, the only thing that stops me is getting a BFN as always. Same with symptoms, no symptoms, just lower pains... more as if I am about to get my AF, which is why I am starting to freak out, but we will be just fine. Cuz beleive me, I have been obsessed all my life about babies. As for my nightmare, I have been staying away from sweets as much as I could at night especially. Maybe I will go home a drink a nice warm cup of milk to see if that helps any. Good Lukc on Monday with you Beta. I cant wait to see your positive results.

Chris... Ouch, 30mm. Oh hun, cant they remove it or do you think it should eventually mature and come out on its own hopefully this weekend? I really hope you dont get canceled, not again. What measurements do they want the follies at so u can proceed on Monday?

[Wondercat]

Lady_J - It was an amazing dream. I had it the night before my ET Feb 23. My Murph died in October, he was in so much pain we had him put to sleep. God bless my mom, she paid (I won't even say how much) to keep him alive and pain free until my husband could get home from a business trip to say goodbye. It was particularly hard because he was so good with my sister's kids and him being there was always part of my vision for when I had my own children. We got another dog from a GA rescue because our beagle was depressed alone, and she's great with kids, too... But Murph was there with us in our first little apartment, leaning up against my leg in my favorite wedding picture, waiting at the door of the first house we bought - he was supposed to be here for this.

nursegator - I know how you feel about sharing the news. We told a lot of people the first time around, and after that didn't tell a single person the second time around until months later. This third time around a lot of people know again, and even with the positive HPT I still don't want to tell anybody yet. I have sworn my husband to secrecy until we have done at least the second beta (assuming the first is positive.) It's hard to be 100% enthusiastic when getting to this point again is going to require a LOT more than just having sex! I made a point of telling everybody that if I feel like talking about "the IVF thing" then I will bring it up. Otherwise, I would appreciate it if they would respect me by please not bringing it up unasked because it's a very sensitive subject. If it's bad news it's almost easier to share because it's an absolute. But we can get a positive now and still have things go wrong... So cloud 9? Half the time, and the other half is divided between disbelief and panic attacks!

[Lady_J]

Wonder... Beautiful story. But u know he is in Doggy Heaven, looking down on you and waggin his tail cuz he knows whats brewing in you belly. Good Luck tomorrow on your Beta. Tomorrow it will be official.

Anxiou... How are you doing? Good Luck to you as well for Monday's Beta. Have u caved in and dine an HPT?

[CAFirstInvitro]

SuiQuiwi: Thanks for the kind words I'm definetely going to spoil myself today Take care of yourself too Prego

Lady_J: I've been haveing horrible nightmares too!!! I've been wakeing up crying and sweating. I wonder what it is? I woke up last night at 4am and my DH had to comfort me back to sleep. I also just left a message on my DH's voicemail that other people are feeling this way too and I'm not crazy I was feeling so bad

amfmbaby: hang in there. It will happen Try to stay positve Were cheerin for yeah

to_have_fun: when we did IUI I had a similar problem with a ginormous follie. Did you take a month break inbetween cycles? I'm only asking because I didn't in between IUI's and thats why the doc said I still had that big one. We didn't give it time to finish it's process. Just hang in there, poor thing I feel for you. This whole waiting thing and then these road blocks. Try to stay postive and see a successfull outcome and make it happen. The power of positive thinking can be really useful. I admit I don't use it all the time so I'm giving it to you to use Just let me know when I can borrow it back

nursegator: we told a lot of people too. We were so excited we told all of our friends and family. I haven't prepared for a BFN so we can only get a BFP. We already have names picked out. I don't let myself think about telling people the BFN. Focus on being excited to tell them the good news Yes we will have a harder fall, but atleast we put all our chips in. We put in 110%. Well thats what I keep telling myself PS I like what you told lady j about what you do before you go to sleep. I do the same thing Obviously with my nightmares lately I haven't been so good at it. I'll have to start doing it again Oh and your welcome about the show I'm obsessed too I have to get a BFP especially because I have a baby shower to go to about a week later.

Well I'm praying for all of us. I forget when you Betas are Nursegator and Lady J. We all 3 transfered on the same day. I think Lady's is on the 12th. When is yours Nursegator?

[nursegator]

CAFirstInvitro: My beta is on Monday March 9th!!!! Aaaaghhhh, how will I get through the weekend??!?