JUNE/JULY 09 cycle buddies

[to_have_fun08]

Rosario - Congrats on the follies. Slow and steady is good.



Hope everyone had a good weekend. I will try and catch up later. Right now I am trying not to get too involved in the boards. Just relaxing.



Chris

[statsgoddess]

Hey guys - Well, it turned out to be a chemical pregnancy for me last week, which was pretty awful to deal with. The worst part was being freaked out about the ectopic possibility for two days. By Friday, my beta level of 12 went to a 5 and they said I could stop the progesterone. I was supposed to go in today, but I got AF today, so there really wasn't a point. We're supposed to have a meeting with our doctor soon to talk about what to do next and what might have gone wrong. They were mucking with my progesterone doses but only did one monitoring test, which seemed weird to us and also to another doctor we spoke with last week, so we are going to ask about it.

We have two frosties and we think the clinic is going to want us to do an FET in July. But, we are debating pushing for a fresh cycle because we still have $1200 of follistem in the fridge, which is almost enough for a fresh cycle based on what I needed last time. We are paying out of pocket, so the FET would be cheaper, but we hate to waste the drugs we already bought, especially since we know we'd do IVF again anyway for siblings later, even if the FET works. So I guess we'll just have to see what the clinic says and decide where we go. Any opinions on this???

I'm still having a bit of a hard time being so close and yet so very far, but I guess it will get easier. Ugh, either way, looks like it'll be lupron headaches coming this summer. I think it will be good for me to stay on the board and keep on with the positive thoughts from everyone who understands this whole ordeal. Only people who have gone through the whole infertility frustration can really understand how emotionally draining and physically exhausting it is. Thanks, ladies.

[CT_Michele]

Rosario – stim start May 12







nicksgam(Nicole) - start stims May 23, ER est June 4
belle-02 – Fresh June - on bcp's, start lupron May 25
Sbr (Sarah) – FET June - start lupron May 7
stay positive - june
EYCI (Julie) FET June
Kushka – Fresh June, consult with RE May 29
Brighty – Fresh June
wishfull27(Carolyn) – FET June
angieinhull - June
sabi - Fresh DE June
prayin4BFP - FET mid June
to_have_fun08 (Chris) - Fresh June/July
ls4 (Lisa) – on bcp's, Fresh June/July
wolffie(dani) - FET June/July
Wickedwheel – Fresh June/July
sunshine.12 - on bcp's, Fresh June/July
tanya123(Tanya) – Fresh June/July
Paytonsmommy (Carrie) – Fresh July
sprouthaus – Fresh July
ct_michele - on bcp's, FET July
statsgoddess - Fresh or FET July
josee1973 – Fresh
sokru8(Sonya) - Fresh

Beta Results

[CT_Michele]

Hey everyone,

Well, I just got finished with my exhausting weekend. It all went well and was fun too. The bridal shower was good because the rain held out so no one got wet. Then we took my future sister in law to a Broadway show that came to town, while all of the boys were at the bachelor party. It was called "girls night the musical" so it was perfect.

But then the weekend had to end in a sad note. I had to put my dog to sleep today. It was really hard. She was a dalmatian name Maya that I took from my cousin about 5 years ago. My cousins daughter came down with asthma and they had no home for the dog, so we took her. Even though the dog annoyed me a lot, I grew attached to her and it was extremely difficult to let her go this morning. But it was time, the arthritis in her legs were causing her to fall and slip a lot and she started peeing a lot in the house.

So I just got my protocol faxed from the clinic. I go on thursday for my evaluation of uterus and it looks like I will start lupron on thursday too. My estimated transfer date is june 24. I am glad it is sooner than expected, but the timing might be tough too. It looks like my beta will be just a couple days before my brother's out of state wedding that I am in. If I get a bfn again, I might be pretty miserable for what is supposed to be the happiest day of his life, and of course if I get a bfp, I wouldn't want to steal anyone's thunder and people would want to know why I wasn't drinking and I think that would be too early to tell everyone the good news...but of course I would still prefer the second scenario and I will just figure it out.

Ok, some quick personals...

stats- I am so sorry to hear it was chemical. I am glad you are looking to the next cycle, and of course I am happy to see another familiar face in this group. I added you to the list and will be praying hard for you this time

chris- I hear you about not getting too involved with the boards, but I find I just can't help myself.

Rosario- congrats on your follies. Slow and steady is good...keep us updated

sunshine- I know it is hard being around the pregnant people, but you can't help but be happy for her. You will have another neice or hopefully a nephew this time and I know you will just love that baby to pieces. And hopefully you will get pregnant and the babies will be close in age and be great friends

ls4- oh, I call that class injection class. I repeated it this past time because it had been a while for me too.

Ok, I gotta run, I am soooo behind in school work and final projects are due this week...eeeeek!

[mikeandjess]

Well, I haven't posted in a while but I miss the support and thoughts that everyone has. So, I'm back!

I hope it's not too late to join this post - I am doing an FET in mid June. I'm on my last row of BCP's and I started Lupron last night. I'm really worried that this isn't going to work for me. All I have left is 5 (5-day blast) frosties - and no one at my clinic told me (until it was too late) that they freeze the embryos in pairs. So, I have 3 attempts left (that is if they all unfreeze).

My DH and I have been together for 12 years. I had my fallopian tubes removed because they were damaged years ago. So far, we've done 2-full IVF cycles and 1 - FET - all BFN's.

Because of the disappointment we've had in the past, we are not telling anyone (family or friends) that we are doing our FET this time. It's so hard when there are so many people you have to call and tell them that it didn't work again. So, we decided we wanted to keep it to ourselves this time. I hope this doesn't sound selfish - but I had friends from work calling me and bugging me when I didn't call them right away to tell them the results of my last test. I know they are excited and waiting too but I just can't deal with the disappointment anymore.

Our RE still hasn't really changed anything for this cycle. I went out myself and saw a new OB/GYN that decided to do an endometrial biopsy on me - which came out normal. That's about the only thing that's different from any of the other cycles. That doctor did tell me that pregnancy rates increase after a biopsy! So, that's a plus!

I wish everyone luck in this JUNE/JULY forum! WE NEED IT!
I hope you don't mind me joining this forum so late.

[tanya123]

Hello Ladies,

Mikeandjess - you are not selfish by not telling anyone. My DH and myself are not telling anyone either this time round. My first IVF - i had gotten a BFP, then 5 days later had a M/C. We are doing another fresh in June (providing AF shows her head by Wednesday), if not, then we need to wait until July for the Fresh. We made the mistake by telling everyone after we got the BFP that we were pregnant, but then 5 days later had to call everyone and tell them about the m/c. It's hard when you have everyone calling and asking questions. I know our freinds and family truly mean well and all they want is the best for us, but this is a very difficult time for us and me personally, i just don't want to answer all the 20 questions i get. So we are not telling anyone either. We just told everyone that we are waiting until Sept/Oct to do it again so we don't get the questions.

I'm sorry to hear that you had your tubes removed? Was it anything serious? I have PCOS, and endometreosis. My DH just has a high count of abnormals.

We do have 3 frosties, but we have enough in our insurance for another fresh round and what ever is left from this, we are freezing and if this doesn't work, then we have more frosties to use.

Well, i wish you luck as well as every woman on this forum. We are all here to accompish one thing: BFP's!!!!!

Tanya

[wickedwheel]

Hi everyone

Just time for a quick post.

Rosario - sending loads of ++++ thoughts your way. Thats a good number (for us slow responders!!). Hope the cysts don't cause too much of a problem.

statsgoddess - it does get easier. I went through a m/c early January at 11.5 weeks. Hang in there girl!

chris - I had a giggle at your post about keeping your money separate from dh - hey I'm not the only one then!!!! Dh and I have been together for 17 years and we still have separate bank accounts. Other people think we are weird but it works great for us and the spin off is we never argue about money.

As for me, just trucking along with BCP. I am trying to work out when my ER will be as I am taking about week off afterwards. I did that last time and it worked for me. I found the 2WW whizzed by as holidays just seem to go so much faster than working! I've got stacks of leave waiting to be used so what the hey!

Have a great day everyone

wicked

[sunshine.12]

rosario- good luck with your follies and hope the cyst will not get any bigger..

ct_michele - i hope the 2nd scenario works out for you, n u can fish up some excuse for not drinking..

these days, im getting cold feet, and feels like backing off from this whole process..i feel very nervous thinking about getting BFN/chemical after going through a month of shots,u/s etc.. plus we are spending out of pocket..so tht is adding more pressure..what do you all do to relax yourself during this process...? i knw worrying too much can only make things worse..

[sabi]

sunshine,
Keep yourself busy. The time goes faster if your not just thinking about IVF. I picked up gardening this year. Meeting with friends & family always helps. You can get lost in their stories for awhile. Any household chores that need to be completed? That works too & can be exhausting. dh & I go for bike rides when t he weather cooperates. Try reading.
Hi ladies! Will be taking last bc pill on 5-21. Lupron shots are going much smoother. I'm hanging in there. Go for blood work on 5-28. Donor stims fast so meds were not to expensive. Still planning mid June.
Keep the faith! Babydust to all!

Sabi

[CT_Michele]

sunshine- like sabi said, the best thing to do is immerse yourself in something so you don't think about it too much. You will still think about it, but if you have a project or something to focus on, it makes it much easier. The first time, I did some scrapbooking, and this past time, we were redoing our enclosed porch as a play porch for Ella. It really helped to occupy me. I am already wondering how to relax this time, trying to figure out what I can take on to keep my mind busy.

mikeandjess- of course it is not too late to join this thread! It is never too late, and we really only have one person started yet. I do hope this time will work for you, it looks like we will be on very similar schedule, I start lupron on Thursday and my FET is scheduled for June 24.

Ok, just wanted to stop by and do a couple quick personals, baby is waking up, so I gotta run...talk to you soon.

[mikeandjess]

tanya 123 - I am so sorry to hear about your m/c. That would be way harder to explain than a BFN. It's so hard when everyone is so excited for you because they know how bad you want this. We also told everyone we were waiting awhile, taking a break, before we do it again.

I had my tubes removed because I had dermoid cysts years ago (which I guess are germ filled cysts). They made an incision like they would for a c-section. I ended up getting 3 more at 3 different times. I had so much scar tissue, my tubes were worthless. My RE told me my chances of IVF working would greatly improve if I didn't have my tubes, so I had them removed. And here I am. I have PCOS too.

I hope for the best for you - and everyone on this forum! That is awesome you can still do a fresh cycle. The one good thing about a frozen cycle is it's not as hectic as a fresh - but your chances are so much better with a fresh.

CT_Michele - Thanks for welcoming me!! It's nice to have someone on the same schedule! I am looking at possibly an FET June 18 or 19 so we are just a few days apart! I am not looking forward to the dreaded 2WW. I wish you the best!

Prayers to everyone here!!!

[sbr]

Hi ladies! I'm still here and checking in often. Not a lot to post right now. I'm on Lupron and waiting for AF. With my last FET I got it on day 10 of Lupron and now this time it's day 13. I'm starting to get nervous....although, since it is different maybe that's a good sign---I got a BFN with my last FET. Anyhow, my clinic says to call if no AF after day 16 on Lupron. So, assuming I get AF and things are OK, I'm scheduled for my FET on June 11th! It's right around the corner. I should be starting Estrace on the 26th.

I'm trying to lose a few pounds before this cycle. It's going well. I've lost 5 pounds in the last couple weeks! I'm really taking it seriously! Each cycle leaves me with about five extra pounds and it's annoying. It's not like I'm super overweight or anything, but five pounds here and five pounds there really adds up...not to mention, I've not lost my last ten baby pounds from 2+ years ago! (I started out fairly thin!) All in the name of this next baby I'll take the extra weight.....

I'm trying very hard to stay really positive for this FET! So far I'm doing OK. I'm trying to plan some fun this with my son. He's at a great age for summer play, so I'm looking forward to that. I refuse to let a BFN ruin my summer with him! (I'm a teacher---who's out of school in 15 days!) My FET is actually the day after I'm done for the year!

Enough rambling....best wishes to all!
~Sarah

[ls4]

Well I went for my test today. It went well. If all goes well my retrieval will be around the week of june 23rd. I have mixed emotions. Sometimes I'm excited. Other times I'm scared. I liked already knowing the things they talked about during the teach for the injectables. I felt more comfortable for some reason. Hopefully it's a good sign.

Good Luck everyone. I hope all is going well for all of you!
Lisa

[Stay Positive]

Hi all,

Been away for a few days and off the boards. But here I am with a bit of an update...

I was given an initial protocol by the nurse, who said the doc wants to do a fairly aggressive protocol given my age (42) and one that is designed to yield quality eggs (versus number of eggs). Once AF arrives, I will start bcp's on day 3, do a few days of Lupron and one other drug (can't remember name) starting day 19, then start Medipure and Gonaless (sp?) on day 21, then on day 27 head to Denver where I'll camp out in a hotel for almost 2 weeks while I have daily monitoring at the clinic, along with ER and ET.

In the meantime, this was final month that DH and I would be trying naturally. I also was on Clomid for days 5-9 this month due to having the clomid challenge test. They said I would likely ovulate later than normal...today is day 19 and still no positive ovi test! In the meantime, I started having tons of discomfort Friday, Sat, and Sun in my ab region--cramping, pressure, etc. We engaged in baby-making Monday morning and afterward I thought I was gonna die! OUCH!!! Called the clinic and they said they thought it was probably just from having extra large ovaries/follicles due to the Clomid but go get an ultra sound today (done locally where I live--4 hours form Denver).

So, I went today and sure enough ovaries are huge, follices/cysts are present and evidence that one had already ruptured (meaning perhaps I did indeed ovulate but for some reason test did not pick it up), lots of fluid, etc. No evidence of twisted ovaries which is good and doctor who read ultrasound said I look like a great IVF candidate based on how I responded to the Clomid, so I guess that's good news. Also had BD to check estradiol levels to make sure I'm not hyperstimulated.

We have phone consult tomorrow with IVF doctor and we'll get it straight from him re: what the protocol will be, what he thinks of the clomid challenge test results and today's ultrasound, etc etc. So, still looks like I'll be going through my first IVF cycle the month of June and hopefully ET around 7/2/09. We'll see if trying naturally worked this month but doubtful--especially if the ovi test wasn't accurate. UGH!

Hope everyone is doing well and I'm sending good thoughts to everyone....more later!

[Kushka]

Hi Ladies,

Just wanted to say hi to everyone out there. There hasn't been much to update recently - I'm taking the Pill every day and injecting myself every morning, and so life goes on....

My husband is away for work at the moment so I've had to learn to inject myself. I've been dreading this but I have to say that it's been really fine. I'd almost go so far as to say I quite enjoyed it (does that make me weird?). Honestly, it hurts much less when I do it myself - not that he doesn't try to do it well! Anyway, i just thought I'd share that in case there are any other newbies who haven't tried it that way.

I have 14 - yes 14(!) - friends who have either told me they're pregnant or have had a baby in the last couple of months. It feels like someone up there is having a joke! The latest one had a baby girl this morning. I couldn't bring myself to send an email/card etc - I'm so sick of sending the same cheery messages. I guess this makes me a bad friend. I'm going to try and be nicer!

Good luck and love and positivity and blessings to all of you.
Kushka