The Over 40 Crowd

[Catharine]

Greetings All-

To all the women here who have lost: My heart goes out to you all and especially Tracy, Sha1, Nidhi and anyone else who has lost a pregnancy. We each grieve in our own way and anger is part of the grieving process. So by all means vent and get it out. The purge will feel good if only for a brief period of time. IMHO get the toxic energy of anger out of your systems [that energy isn't good for this journey anyways]. If possible take some me time and do something nice for yourself, a nice massage, facial, or pedicure/manicure. Something that makes you feel very special, a nice healthy dose of specialness. You all deserve it! We all deserve it!

Rhonda-w/r/t too much amniotic fluid see http://www.americanpregnancy.org/pregna ... amnios.htm
I hope the site is helpful.

AFM-well, just sitting waiting on AF to arrive, should be any day now. Last week at this time I was up and getting ready to run the 40th annual Peachtree road race here in the ATL. Today I'm up and getting ready for it is my first divisional match for football. Can you say performance anxiety? My lover for exercise is a double edged sword: it is my release from life's pressures I feel great after performing well [well who wouldn't---da] but this activity comes at a price with generating toxins that can potentially compromising fertility. I do my best to eat healthy foods rich in anti-oxidents. I take all sorts of supplements to 'increase' my fertility. My dream [pipedream I suppose], is that my repro system is revved up from having DD. The true fantasy, having said that, is we will have no problems conceiving now. Cann't you picture two little mini-mes perched on each shoulder feeding thoughts into the mind? one cautious with reality the other the eternal optimist [what imagery-hahahaha]. In ways time well tell as the say.

Everyone take care. Sending out a huge dose of PMA.

Cheers!
Catharine

[Renee Del Ponte]

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[teachertam]

Catharine: You are very sporty I wish that I was more in shape than I am right now. The Femara seems to be making me gain weight. I gained 3 - 4 lbs over the last few cycles.......ughhh!

Renee: My last cycle was a bust too. I'm doing one more cycle now. IUI with Femara and Gonal-f. I start the Gonal-f shots this morning. I'm dreading that. I hear you on the sibling thing. My DH is fine without a sibling for Andrew. I grew up with two sisters too and really would love Andrew to have a sibling close in age. We are still in line to adopt, but who knows how much longer we will have to wait for that.

Sha1: Your story is heartbreaking too. I just don't know how that I would handle that situation.

Rhonda: I don't now know anything about too much fluid.

Nidhi and Tracy: I hope you are both feeling better.

Sabi: How are you doing? When is the ultrasound?

Well...........off to stick myself..........ouch.

Take care all,
Tammy

[teachertam]

Yasmina: Where are you? I miss you. I'm guessing that you are on vacation.

[sabi]

Good morning ladies,
Thought I would pop in & say hi. No too much going on here. Been putting all my clothes that don't fit anymore on the third floor. The progesterone oil, Lupron & estrace have caused me to put on about 6 pounds. I have scaled back on my biking & walking but I'm really watching what I'm eating. Sort of depressing. Had to buy larger pants already. Feeling sick all the time. Eating & sucking on everything lemon. My scan is on Friday & believe me I am on needles & pins.
Renee- sorry about the BFN- & moving from Hawaii. Washington is absolutely beautiful though- very rugged & spiritual I thought. Couple years ago me & the dh took a train form San Fransisco to Seattle- unbelievable & spent several days in Washington- I was wowed!
Tracy- How are you doing? Thinking about you.
Tammy, Catharine, Sha- Enjoying your weekend?

Thinking of you all,
Sabixxoo

[garfieldtracy]

Sabi - LOL - get ready for another shopping spree. Just think of it as being able to shop for another wardrobe - guilt free. Keep the good news coming.

Tammy - good luck on your next cycle. I wish I could get decent results without a full blown IVF. You can do it for us oldies !!

Renee - I am so sorry for your results. I know (and so does everyone here) that feeling - it sucks - and having to start at square one again. After so many times they should let us IVF's start around step 4!! Go au' natural - that works the best for you - it can (and will) happen again. I know what you say about 2 - DH and I always have wanted 2 ( and still do - until they say no we will try). Thanks for all the PM's. They were extremely supporting and helpfull. This board supplies more then I could have ever asked for. Good luck to your move. Though it may not be as beautiful as Hawaii, WA is beautiful in it's own right. I hope you enjoy your new place.

Catharine - I always heard that exersice is ok for a PG so keep going (maybe just a quick 5k once and awhile). I used to be atheletic, but after all the IVF's I gained 20 lbs and then after our loss I only lost 15 lbs (out of the 35 I gained for the PG) - so that leaves me up 40 lbs. Yep, feel like a big blob !!

Shai - hope you were able to get through yesterday OK. Sending you prayers to get through this tough time.

Nadi, Yasmina and everyone else I missed - hope things are going well.

AFM - Went on a motorcycle ride today (1st one in 2 years). Was great to be back on the bike (instead of looking at my baby in the garage), but at the same time - depressing ( I din't plan on riding again this summer). So, everytime I start to enjoy the ride, I'd get depressed beacuse I "should't be doing this" this summer. Bleeding stopped today - so now I at least have my next AF to look forward to (isn't sick that we go from wanting AF to not wanting AF). Anyway trying to move forward as best we can.

Tracy

[sha1]

Everyone thank you for all of your kind replies. It has been a tough road and I would have never of thought that I would ever get thru this. I guess we are stronger then we think.

Garfield: Good to hear that everything turned out ok for you. I am glad that you were able to get the remains of Pookey and bury them by Scott with your Grandpa. Good to hear that you are felling better. I completely understand how your feeling about what you should be doing this summer; I am in the same situation right now, I am just looking forward to the next cycle; I hope you can do the same.

AFM – I did get thru Saturday; I went to the Mausoleum to see our babies and brought flowers; they are with my DH grandmother. I did cry a lot is was a hard day; I was glad to see that day pass. So I am looking forward to the next cycle and hoping for the best; that is all I can do.

[garfieldtracy]

Sha1 - I hope things are getting a little bit easier. Thought of you this weekend. Nobody should have to visit their children's grave site. Like you said - keep looking forward !! Just wanted to say hang in there.
Tracy

[mrscutter]

Hi everyone,
went to the doctor today and the amniotic fluid is even higher. I had been released from the high risk doc 2 months ago, but now she is sending me back to her on tuesday. She wants to see if high risk doc can find the source of the high fluid if there is a reason. the baby weighs 5 pounds already. I just wish I was due now. i am so worried about he being healthy. im trying not to worry, but how can i not? We have made it this far and she is a miracle baby anyway and i just don't want anything to happen to her becasue I know i probably would never get pregnant again. I just pray she is ok. She is growing good. we could even see hair on her head on the ultrasound.

I hope you all are doing well. I think about each of you on a daily basis and im so sorry for your pain for the ones who have lost. To all others hang in there and good luck with your cycles. I will give an update next tuesday after high risk appt.

take care.

[Catharine]

Hi All-

Rhonda-hang in there girl! I know it's hard not to worry; it's natural. I'll thinking of you and your lil'miss-to-be over these next few weeks. PMA as always. Praying that the extra fluid source is benign.

Wishing everyone all the best,
Catharine

[mrscutter]

Thanks so much Catharine. How is DD. I would love to see some more pictures of her. Take care.

Rhonda

[children]

Hi Ladies,

Finally, we are back! Having two little ones traveling internationally is really a challenge! Apart from taking care of them constantly, which was tiring, I was stopped at Houston airport the first day of our vacation, instead of getting on the plane to France, we were sent to a hotel for the night and were told that we needed to get a visa for me to go to France! So, there we were, stuck in a hotel room with broken airconditioning in the summer, in HOUSTON! It was Saturday and we would need to wait to Monday in order to see the French Consulate. On Sunday morning, we thought we'd better rent a car to go about with the little ones instead of staying the hotel. So, we went back to the airport. While in there, we approached a continental agent to try to see whether I indeed needed a visa to go to France. This time, the agent said no and then she put us on the same day flight out. Interesting enough, when we arrived in Paris, I was not allowed to enter the country. Finally, after few hours of delay, they let me in with a transit visa...

Imagine we had all these problems with two little ones, one is 2 yr and 4 months and the other is 5 months?

Two days after arrived in DH's parents home, he needed to leave to Oxford, UK for three days and then I was left to take care of the two little ones with the French-speaking parents in laws. Surprisingly, they were happy since I was able to manage to tell them some essential things.

I can spent a whole day to list the details but I have to cut it short since I have thousands of emails to clean up.

So, back to normal life. I read everyone's progress here and I must say that I am proud of everyone here. We are a group of strong women and I am sure we will get what we deserve in the end. Good luck and don't give up everyone.

Yasmina

[babygurlsolages]

I have one frozen blast, do i wait a month or jump straight into it? i know this cycle is a bust,test tomorrow bleeding tonight. what is wrong with me?

[garfieldtracy]

My RE always has me wait a month, but that is because all of mine have been fresh cycles. He wants to make sure all the drugs are out of my system. Sounds like a good idea for a frozen cycle too - make sure your body is back to "normal" (if there is such a thing) before trying again.
I know it is hard - I am now waiting 2 months before trying again - WAITING SUCKS !! This process runs our lives and waiting is the major part of it. I do hope your RE lets you try without waiting, but I would do what they suggest - since they know best (at least we all hope).
Tracy

[teachertam]

baby....:I agree with Tracy, I would wait one month to give your body a chance to recoup.

Tracy: I'm so sorry to hear that you have to wait two months.

Yasmina: Welcome back!!! Glad to have you back on the boards.

Rhonda: How are you doing? Your due date will be here before you know it.

Catharine: How are you and DD doing?

Sha1: I'm so sorry to hear about your sadness.

Take care all,
Tammy