JUNE/JULY 09 cycle buddies

[CT_Michele]

Oh hazel! I am so sorry! That is not what I expected to get up and read this morning. My heart goes out to you and you know I am here if you want to talk.

[Johannanita]

Good Morning Ladies,

HJW - I am so sorry to hear your news. I hope you're feeling a little better today. I can't believe you have to wait so long to go back in. I hope eveything works out for you Hun.

[Johannanita]

I almost forgot. Congrats Hopeful on ur BFP!!!

[Julie nurse]

Hi Ladies,

I finally had a chance to read through the posts that I've missed.

Vicky: My heart is broken for you. You and DH need to take time to heal your body and souls and remember how much you love one another. It will give you strength to try again.

HJW: I can't imagine how disappointed you are. Especially after all the medication and testing it must be so hard to be cancelled. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your DH.

Kuion: I saw your post and want you to know that the women on this board have offered me, a total stranger, an unbelievable amount of comfort, support and invaluable information. I know how sad this time is for you, but you have definitely found your "sisters in battle".

Hopeful: So thrilled for you! This was a long time coming and I wish you a safe and happy pregancy.

Marymegan: Patience dust along with sticky thoughts heading your way. Hang in there, I just started my 2ww also!

AFM: Well, after all our promising numbers (17 eggs/ 12 fertilized) I got the call on Wedensday moring that even though none had died off since Monday the embryologist felt that there were only two or three 7 cell B grades that had a shot. We did our 3 day transfer yesterday and we choose to implant 3 total embryos (DH was convinced when he realized triplets are only a 5% chance). I am a bit disappointed because I know 5 day transfers have better success, but they are monitoring the rest of my little guys until Saturday to see if any can become frosties for later. Nothing in this process has gone according to our plans so i am trying to not be negative and believe in this cycle and those cute little balls of dividing cells. I keep talking to them and telling them "thank you" for staying with us, and promising them that if they stay with me I'll find every garden in Manhattan and we will visit every flower and tree. I keep telling them how much I love them already. Oh no, I'm already too attached!

My thoughts are with you all!

[vicky1707]

Hi Ladies,

Thank you so much for your kind words and comfort, really means a lot x

I'm not doing too bad. Although all I did yesterday was cry, I've been fine today. I'm thinking am I normal, shouldn't I feel more upset? If I sit and think about it I cry, but I'm trying to carry on as normal. Maybe with it being my 4th I've kind of got used to it, or maybe my hormones arent as bad as before or it's gonna hit me in a few days?!

Had to go and see my friends little girl today for her 1st b'day. She's having a party on Saturday for her but I really don't feel up to being around 4 pregnant women. Plus I don't want to make them feel uncomfortable by not being able to talk about their pregnancies in front of me. Also I don't want it to hit me and start crying!

I think the main thing that is keeping me going is the thought that we could conceive naturally with DH's sperm count increasing so much. Just got to wait for AF now and then start on the vitamins and use ovulation tests! Not sure if anyone has heard of Marlyn Glenville but me and DH were taking her vitmains she recommends, and we definitely think it's made a difference to helping DH's sperm count (as well as not drinking!).

The big descision me and DH have now is where to go on holiday! lol We was thinking of Majorca although with the latest news of the bombs going off, it's making me think again! We're hoping to go away in September. We're going away this weekend for a long weekend just me and DH so looking forward to get.

Congrats to those BFP's x

Thanks again ladies, you really have been a big help and support x

[TrueBeliever]

Hazel I am so sorry to hear about your embies. I know that couldn't have been easy for you, it's so much harder having that what if factor with a FET. Believe me I have been there, my clinic didn't even tell us to call, so I can only imagine how devastating that couls have been.

I just wanted to give a quick post. Today seemed like the longest day ever, it took the RE until almost closing time to call.. I was beginning to get worried. My beta is rising great, it was 3624 today. I was just hoping to see it over 2500. It seems to be increasing faster this time than it did with my twin pregnancy which is crazy. I am sceduled for my first ultrasound next Thursday, but may have to change due to a schedule conflict with DH. I will deffinately keep you all updated. As i say with each post, I am so happy to have found each of you!

[angeinhull]

Hazel, so sorry to hear about your embies. I hope you the wait doesn't end up being as long as that. Take care.

Vicky. Glad you are getting there. Just remember the positives and I really hope things work out nturally for you.

Julie - Patience dust to you for the 2ww. I found it really hard this time so I hope yours is easier. Any news on the other embies?

AFM, still struggling to believe its true and I am pregnant. I guess it will be easier after scanin 2 1/2 weeks if all is well. How long did it take for any one with BFP to get symptoms. I have felt very tired and a bit queasy but nothing much. Hope that is ok.

[nicksgam]

Angeinhull---I haven’t had many signs and I am now 10 weeks pregnant. No morning sickness (which I feel fortunate for), my BB are only sore for about 30 seconds when I get out of bed, and not every time. However my belly was big from the beginning (I think because of the meds), I have been extremely tired, and I fell pressure from my expanding belly. That’s about it. Don’t worry every woman is different during pregnancy, just take care of your little one he/she is growing fast.
Nicole

[angeinhull]

Nicole

Thank you so much for responding. You have really reassured me.

Ange

[wickedwheel]

Hi everyone

julie nurse - best of luck

vicky and hjw - sorry to hear your bad news

angieinhull - like others have said each pregnancy is so different. I am sure everything will be fine.

AFM - well girls we saw the heartbeat. We are very shocked but still very unsure. I will feel a little more relaxed if we can get to the 12w scan but so far so good. Latest bloodtest still rising.

14dpo = 19
18dpo = 43
22dpo = 193
27dpo = 1611
31dpo = 5913
38dpo = 19128

Have another bloodtest on Thursday, which I think will be my last test for hcg as will be 8w2d then. They are also going to start weaning me off the progestrone by 10w.

This all still feels so unreal however feel sick a few times a day, tired, my breasts are still leaking milk, have fainted and my belly is growing by the day so these are all good signs for me and our little miracle.

wicked

[marymeganB]

WickedWheel- That's great! I know you were relieved to see the heartbeat. I'm sure you'll make it to the 12W mark w/ no problems.

AFM-I go for BETA TOMORROW!!! I am so excited, anxious, and terrified all at the same time. I had a huge breakdown yesterday in the grocery store of all places! As soon as I walked in the store there was a huge display of diapers on sale. Then, I ran right into the cutest pregnant girl in the toothpaste aisle. I just couldn't stand it anymore and started crying on the spot. I am sure that the customers thought I was crazy and my DH was freaking out! I cried all the way home I'm so worried and just pray to God that he'll give us our little miracle.

[Julie nurse]

Congrats, Megan and WickedWheel!!!!!!!! So excited for both of you and your DH's!!!!

AFM: No embies to freeze. Really disappointed and makes me incredibly scared for the viability of the ones inside me now. Sometimes I think I feel little twinges in my abdomen, otheres I think I'm making those up. I think this last week of the 2ww is going to be the death of me......

[marymeganB]

Does the fact that embies don't make it to the freezing stage say anything about the ones transferred?

[Kuion]

Hopeful - thanks for advice........I'm so excited for you too! That's great to hear. You must be over the moon! How many embryos did you have thawed and did they all survive? We have only 3 and I am worried because I have read that only 70% survive the thawing....Don't want to go through all the waiting and run up to it, for them not to survive......
Speaking of which......

Hazel - cannot imagine how you feel, I hope u r feeling bit better by now. Wanted to cry when I read your post. Heartbreaking thing to have to go through. Thoughts are with you. x

[angeinhull]

marymegan, Julie - I don't think that because your other embies didn't make it to freezing it has any reflection on the one's transferred. Many are put backon day 3 as it is believed that being in the natural environment enhances growth, and the strongest will have been transferred. I am not an expert but we had 11 embryos on day 3 and only 3 good quality on day 5. We transferred 1 and I got my BFP. We ended up freezing 5 (3 lower quality) but 5 didn't make it to day 5. I hope this helps and good luck. baby dust

Wicked - congrats. sounds like you have a strong one there. Thanksfor the reassurance. I guess I am just looking for signs as we do not have beta numbers to judge just a HPT. Still 2 1/2 weeks and we will know for sure after 1st scan

Vicky - hope you are feeling ok and have your holiday book.