September/October Cycling Friends!

[miyaya]

Hey girls. I have to admit, I am having a hard time keeping up and keeping everyone straight. I feel like my mind is mush these days. After DS seizure, vacation and then my in laws being in town....I feel so out of touch.

Anyways I saw that there have been some BFP's! Congrats! I am so excited to see how this thread does.

AFM, I passed my supression check. I start stims on Friday...until then I am to continue 10 Units Lupron each day....drop to 5 units on Friday. Scan on Tuesday. I am excited and nervous to start this process. We tried for 3 years with DS but lucked out and did not need to do IVF. We were on our final cycle before proceeding to IVF and we got out BFP....I am nervous this will not work....plus work is super busy for me right now...I am scared life is so hectic we will hurt our chances.

[sancap14]

Hi Everyone! I haven't posted in a few days but I've been reading about everyone everyday, I can't stay away.

Shelbyrn-that's awesome that you are the only one. I would def feel like I would have a better chance of success if all the focus was on me! I think that's a great advantage!!

Johannanita- I am so happy for your being PUPO. IT sounds like you have a GREAT DH and he is very supportive and excited...that puts a huge smile on my face when I hear stuff like that.

Wolffie-Lots of sticky dust blowing your way and I'm also sending postive thoughts your way too. I can imagine how jittery you must feel...BFP, BFP, BFP, BFP:) The big boobies are a nice side effect too eh?

AFM- I had my Day 1 appt. today and started my femara, antibiotics, menopure, and bravelle (75 IU's each I think...2 vials of each). I had an u/s and the tech said she saw some endometriosis in my ovaries again but she said they can work around it and that was the reason why we are doing this so she seemed pretty positive about it. She showed me the follicles so I know I have some but she didn't say exactly how many there were. I saw at least 3 on one side but she said they do not grow where there is endometriosis so hopefully this will not be too much of a problem...I will ask during my next appt (Sunday) how many there are. My DH got his sperm results back and he has happy healthy swimmers so that is good!

Does anyone have any suggestions on how to organize the medication? I left the office with all this stuff and I feel like I'm going to forget something, I need a checklist or something...any ideas?

Hugs to everyone

[Lady_J]

PMA has gone down the drain... I dont feel anything anymore! My
(o)(o) are still sore and I get twinges here and there but I know it is from the POI or Delestrogen inj.. But I have not seen any Implantation bleed... I took another HPT last night (5dp5dFET) with a cheapie just for the hell of it and no second line. Today I am 6dp5dFET and I know it is still too early, but I dont even see a faint or the fainest of the faint. I just feel normal now. I went online and bought a 50pk of cheapie HCG strips... so I am hoping I get them by Saturday. I just am losing all hope and feel that it is a BFN for me this time... AGAIN!!! Then to top things off... another coworker came by the water machine and told me, "the water bottle is empty but I can't put a new one cause its heavy and I am pregnant"... so I told her "Oh congratulations but I dont cary heavy things myself, we'll ask one of the guys. She was like oh ok. Aaaaarrgghhhhh!!!!! Hmmm.... and then another co-worker snuk in a bottle of Margarita to work for one of the ladies that is getting married this weekend... and I had to refuse that.. she was liuke, "r u pg? I said no, I am just on some antibitocs so I cant drink alcohol right now. Hmmm.... and another ladie at lunch saw that I was laying my head down for a nap in the break room... she said r u ok?? I said yeah, she was like... U aint PG r u? Again, I laughed and said no, just tired. So wolffie, hmmmmmmm. It must be the Estrogen that makes us glow... but I hope they right about it. So how r u feeling wolffie? WHen do u plan on POAS again? I may wait till Saturdays FMU.

Johanitta... GL luck tomorrow... Hoep your numbers are high in the sky.

Shelby, Any news on your trigger hun? Thinking of you.

BRB

[stlgirl]

LadyJ - get that PMA back!! I am 6dp5dt today and have yet to POAS. I see pregnant people EVERYWHERE, but this is our time!! Cheer up and kick those feelings of doubt to the curb...

Gotta go...and getting told to turn off my phone for a flight.

[wolffie]

sancap - in regards to med organization, during my fresh cycle I cleared off a shelf in one of my kitchen cabinets. I put everything in there that didn't need to be chilled. the shelf was right above the microwave so I put my daily schedule from the RE on top of the microwave with a highlighter. I highlighted once I had completed the meds for that day. I then ALSO had a month pulled out from one of those large desk calendars. I had that taped to the wall in the kitchen. I wrote down everything on that calendar. Every med I took with the time and the dose was on there. I also included every acupuncture appt, every yoga session, every time dh and I bd. i just the kitchen as my 'staging' are since some of the meds were in the fridge I thought this was the easiest. i know it probably seems like a lot but it helped me feel like i was in control. I didn't have to be so meticulous during this FET but there are less meds and I feel like I have a better grasp of things now.

lady j - so sorry you have lost some PMA. We'll help you find it again! I don't recall have ANY symptoms when I had my BFP with my ds. I didn't even have any side effects from meds. It wasn't until a little after my beta when I started feeling SO tired. not everyone had implantation bleeding so try not to rely on that as a symptom. Heck, if you were having some spotting you would probably be worrying about it too. sorry about all the stuff with co-workers. doesn't it just seem like when it rains it pours! I als ofeel absolutely nothing. not even any twinges or cramps or anything. I will POAS again tomorrow morning and probably every morning at this point. Why stop once I start, right?! Try to keep your head up. I think we expect to feel symptoms but in reality most people don't begin to feel early pregnancy symptoms until they miss their period. Give it some time sweetie!

miyaya - glad to 'see' you again. Soundslike you have a lot on your plate. What happened with your ds? Sounds scary. On the bright side, maybe being hectic and busy will help to keep your mind busy and not obsessing over all this stuff. (if that's possible)

good thoughts to all!

[sancap14]

Lady J- I feel your frustration reading your post...try to stay positive, I know it must be hard. Big hug to you and GL with your next HPT. I told a few girls at work a few days ago about what was going on and now I wish I would have kept my big mouth shut. Good for you for not saying anything. I can't believe your co-worker (not that she knows what you are going through) if only people knew I'm sure they would feel like big pieces of Sh!t (at least they should). PMA PMA PMA for a BFP!

[lisa10]

LadyJ...Don't you just love the 2ww. You can't do anything and it may be for nothing. I was in a wedding the day after my ER last month. I couldn't drink, couldn't dance and had to hold the groom and jump in photos. It sucked and in the end I got a BFN. I should have just partied like everyone else. We have all been where you are spending so many months in limbo here missing out in case we are BFP. Anyway...don't give up. All of us are here for you and know how you are feeling. We get it even if your coworkers don't.
I also think you are testing way too early so don't worry about the neg HPT. I think Ghost told me 8 days after 5dt. I did mine at 9 and 10 and got results. Not the results I wanted, but results none the less.

AFM...I start Lupron tonight. Not lookeing forward to that since it makes me nuts. I mean real stupid! Anyway this time I am prepared. And so is DH. He is having a ton of stress and problems at both his jobs. I told him now his only sactuary will cause him stress too. I have a plan this time. If I am being dumb he is to just simply say, "Luron" and I will take some time to relax and think things through. Last time he honestly wanted to take me to the ER cause he though I was having a stroke. Here's hoping this time goes smoother. It is my youngest DD's 5th bday today. Maybe that is a good sign too. I start the meds on her bday, have transfer of 6 day blast 6 days after my bday. Maybe these are good signs.

[sancap14]

Forgot to say congrats to mjay...twins!! I hope I can follow in your lucky footsteps. Please rub some of that twin dust all over your computer so it can absorb into us all and we can be as lucky as you!

Thanks for the suggestions wolffie! I can't wait to get home to set everything up now!

J&C, RayofSunshine, and Katie99-Don't forget me...I think I'm on the same schedule as you all so PMA to all of us...here we go!

[katie99]

Hi guys -

I really cant just stay away today!

sancap -there are 6 of us now! I love it! last time I had no one else close. I'm so happy that we'll all ba at the same time! yeah, i know, I'm a dork! j &c, rayofsunshine, jaydentd, you, miyaya & me! fingers crossed for all of us!

jaydentd - thanks! Wow thats a lot of us. hope we dont make Shelby crazy with all the list adjustments!

shelby -Any news yet? It makes me nervous when you're not around, hope that you are just busy today!

tonya -thanks! I want us all to get BFPs this time!

johannanita -crossed for your beta tom!

lady j -I think you're just full of hormones, and feeling anxious. I'm sure that you will be seeing that plus sign soon. i think the 2ww is the absolute worst! hang in there, hon it wont be too much longer - sending you loads of PMA!! and sticky thoughts!!

I'm so glad that we have each other to go through this with. I really appreciate all of the advice & support from you all! - hugs -xoxo

[kristyb]

lady j - don't loose hope! I didn't and still haven't had any bleeding which is actually a good thing. Not that it's bad, but none is just fine too. I didn't feel a darn thing except maybe cramping one day and it was almost 5 days after transfer. Keep your spirits up!!! And don't POAS too soon. I resisted all urges and I'm glad I did. I think it made me less anxious to be honest. I don't have my first u/s until next week so the first 2ww is brutal, but I think the second is even worse so just keep all hope. If you are doing acupuncture I recommend upping it to two times a week. Will help you relax that much more or if you do yoga or meditation, keep doing it. Those 2 weeks will be over before you know it.

[Sangria]

Lady J - You made me cry. A few years ago me and a couple other coworkers individually asked one of the ladies at work if she was preggers during her TWW. None of us knew the others were doing it. None of use knew she was going through IVF. We just all sort of sensed she was a bit off. As it turns out, she was preggers, so maybe there's something to that. (PMA?) I have to guess that she also cried that day. She told us this story at her baby shower, but she told it as a funny little story ("How did we all know?"). Oh the horror of what I did in hindsight! For them, all of them, as I was once one of them, I apologize. I guess it's true what they say: shutting up never goes out of style.

AFM, they upped my stims on Tuesday and I'm going back tomorrow to check my levels out again. It leaves me a bit confused having such frequent visits. On the one hand, upping my meds means maybe I'm not responding as well as they would like, but if that is the case, at least they're keeping a close eye on me to make changes as necessary, so that's happy. Keeping my fingers crossed for a better result this time.

[Neffi211]

Hey ladies!

Sorry I have been MIA. We were on vacation for 10 days and I just can't seem to get the time to read everyones posts and respond with Jack being so active right now! Its hard to keep up with him. So I am sorry! I do want to say that you all need to keep your PMA!!!!!!!! Dont lose hope! POAS can be torture, I know I am an addict!

AFM, u/s and bw today. 18 follies growing well. Another scan on friday. Hoping for ER sunday or monday. 5 day tranfer next weekend. I am still spotting! I dont know whats up with that, but I guess my lining looks okay for where I am, so we'll see. I only have insurance for so long so I hope this one works!!!!!

[claud662]

Lady J- I TOTALLY feel your pain and I'm not even in the 2ww yet!! in the past three days I have had numerous co-workers say things to me about having kids! I am the youngest one where I work and because I just had my 2 year wedding anniversary, they think this is the time to talk about me being preggers!! I think also because I am so bloated from the stims they may suspect I'm pregnant even though I'm not nor have I ever been

I have not told anyone what I am going through so I feel I have to put on a fake smile and joke about it, when I really want to tell them off!!

So it's good to know that others are going through the same thing as me, but keep your head up and don't get discouraged.

xoxo

[Johannanita]

Hello Ladies......

katie99 – I’ve been so busy with work today that all I’ve been able to think about is how tired I am. I had to be at work at 5 am and wanted to leave at 1 and didn’t end up leaving until 3:30. I’m exhausted. I think I’ll sleep well tonight after all.

Jaydentd- Thanks for the PMA!!

Wolffie – I laughed so hard when I read this! I’m in FL! LOL I wasn’t that bad when I went to the dollar store. I only got 5 because I only had 5 bucks on me that day. Lol That is so funny. Maybe she does have a sixth sense. You never know. My hair dresser comes to us so my SIL and I would get our hair done at the same time. Last time she came she asked my SIL if I was pg and she said no and she said well she will be by Sept! This was in May!

tonyacheek24 – Have fun in NY! Relax some. I didn’t get to do anything all summer long. My first cycle was canceled right before 4th of July so we didn’t make any plans before and my ET was Labor Day weekend. I spent my summer IVFing. Lol Thanks for the PMA

miyaya – Friday is right around the corner. GL with your cycle!

Lady_J – Give it some time!! I’m sending loads of PMA your way. I haven’t had any implantation bleeding and I’m 11dpt3dt. I keep looking for it though. You started POAS way before I did. I didn’t POAS until 7dpt. Try to relax and give it some time. I think that chart says you prob won’t be able to detect HCG til 10dpt or something like that. I should have it memorized by know. I’m sending you a HUG!! I too hope my #’s a ridiculously high!

Sancap14 - Thanks Hun. Yes, DH is great. Sometimes I feel bad because I think he’s so much more thoughtful than I am. Grow follies grow!! I’m the wrong one to ask about the meds. I kept them all in the box they came in because I thought it was all way to overwhelming. I only took out the ones that needed to be refrigerated and used them as needed.

Stlgirl – You go girl for not POAS. I started out with those intensions. Will you?

Sangria – GL on you next visit. Did they tell you anything about your follies and levels?

lisa10 - I hope things go well for you this cycle as well. We’re here for you!!

claud662 I know exactly how you feel. I swear this woman at my job is on baby watch. About 2 months ago she says to me, you haven't been wearing high heels. I just laughed. I had just cleaned my closet and had put a bunch of shoes away. They were out of site out of mind. I was just wearing whatever shoes I had out which all happened to be flats. I explained this to her. And she says Oh. I said, I'm not expectiong. She admitted that was where her line of questioning was going. Now a few times she's said to me Oh you're wearing heels. People are so freakin nosey sometimes. But now I wonder if she has a sixth sense. lol. Sending LOADS of PMA your way.

Neffi211 - I think you were the one who forgot to take a pill? I did the samething a doubled up. I spotted for a while too. You have a great # of follies. Hope they continue to grow nicely. GL

AFM, I'm done POAS. LMAO!! Just did my last one. Took a picture of it. I left the digital one for last because it measures higher levels of HCG. IDK call me crazy. I'm been cramping in what I think is my uterus. It's in the middle. I've had some back pain and this weird pain on my right side that comes and goes. I can't wait for tomorrow already. I'm glad I have lots of work to do so I'll be busy. I'm also glad I'll be working from home tomorrow incase I get bad news. Alright, I'm going to bed for a while. I'll be back up at 10 for my shot. If I don't talk to you all again tonight, TTYT!!!! Bye

[kala0704]

johanna-congrats! im so happy for you!!! Im a twilight addict...i cant wait to see new Moon in November. Enjoy your last 200 pages...lol! Good luck tomorrow!!!



Wolffie-great suggestion! I had a few friends that were caught in the columbine tragedy. I will check that one out. Thanks for the online tv tip. Good luck with all the POASing!



Katie-good luck with stims tomorrow!! I pray this is your last time going through all this. Thanks for the reminder that the chart is on 47. ill have to remember that when it is my turn.



tonya-have fun on NY. Lol about looking preg already...i have gained so much weight already, i can barely fit in my clothes!



miyaya-are you using donor sperm? Where did you get it? Did you have babies with DS? We might have to consider it. Are you doing IVF with DS?



ladyj-patient dust to you. its too early. hang in there darlin! you are in my prayers! PMA PMA PMA



Sangria-I hope they get all ur meds sorted out, GL!



lisa-i have lupron dumbness to you. it is like i am high or something...lol!...and I cant remember anything.



Neffi-18 follies!!! Horrrrayyyyy!!!



Shelby-I hope everything went well!!!



AFM-Im feeling the affects of lupron for the first time today. I held back my tears at school all morning and came home at lunch and cried hysterically for 5 minutes. Dh promised me cookie dough in order to get me to stop. But, i dont think ill eat any cuz of the raw eggs. anyways, im just super frustrated because serbia asked me for my ultrasound results...when they never requested one. i cant read your mind people...and they didnt even specify what is for. Im guessing from everyones posts that it is some kind of baseline. PMA is slipping away for me too. I think once I get to serbia I will feel better. I cant believe I leave in 6 days!! OMG!!! So much to do. I feel like i am pms-ing 24/7.

prayers and baby dust to everyone!!!