Hello everyone
I haven't posted for a long while but read the boards a lot to see how you are all doing. There have been some great results and all of you seem so brave and strong.
I am not feeling very brave at the moment. I have had 4 failed fresh cycles ( 2 v early m/c) and 1 failed fet . I have borderline nk cells.
My last failure was in December and I have been thinking of having one last try in June, but everytime I think about the two week wait, and then the bleeding starting I just think I can't go through with it. I have blubbed a few times int he past few weeks just thinking about the whole situation and how it all looks so hopeless.
SOrry to be so pathetic and down but I just feel so frightened about what the future does and doesn't hold. I am sure this is just a weak moment and I will feel fine but at the moment I don't feel fine.
Does anyone else feel like this - how do you get the strength together for another try?
Struggling a bit
Hi there
Not sure I'll be very helpful - it is SO tough - no other way around it really. But I guess you have to TRY to balance keeping it in perspective with thinking about what the possible outcome just MIGHT be.
You have all of us to hold your hand......
Just remember that you have at least achieved a PG - so you knwo you can get there. Also I guess the more times you have done it the more the clinic learn about what they need to do in your case -
I guess at the end of the day you have to decide when enough is enough - but if you will ALWAYS kick yourself for not trying again then I think its probably worth that last go.
You are (we all are) much stronger than we think.
Take care
Cazx
Not sure I'll be very helpful - it is SO tough - no other way around it really. But I guess you have to TRY to balance keeping it in perspective with thinking about what the possible outcome just MIGHT be.
You have all of us to hold your hand......
Just remember that you have at least achieved a PG - so you knwo you can get there. Also I guess the more times you have done it the more the clinic learn about what they need to do in your case -
I guess at the end of the day you have to decide when enough is enough - but if you will ALWAYS kick yourself for not trying again then I think its probably worth that last go.
You are (we all are) much stronger than we think.
Take care
Cazx
hihi sam, there is nothing wrong in feeling how u do, i think every girl
on this site can relate to how u are feeling but we all cope in different
ways. You have been thru a very tough time especially with two m/c,
you talk about other peoples strenght, but u should look at yourself
and realise u also have been very strong, to have dealt with everything.
Give yourself some time out, u must be mentally exhausted, u will
know when the right time is to try again.
You mentioned u were had borderline NK cells, did they give you
steroids after ET ?
alisonnxx
on this site can relate to how u are feeling but we all cope in different
ways. You have been thru a very tough time especially with two m/c,
you talk about other peoples strenght, but u should look at yourself
and realise u also have been very strong, to have dealt with everything.
Give yourself some time out, u must be mentally exhausted, u will
know when the right time is to try again.
You mentioned u were had borderline NK cells, did they give you
steroids after ET ?
alisonnxx
hey sam,
ttc is a tough time without a doubt. i think it's amazing just how much one goes through. no-one could possibly imagine what it's like unless one goes through it.
after 5 cycles you must be feeling like you've gone through the mill. i did two and that was tough enough. you'll know from your own experiences that the strength comes from somewhere, you are a fighter to have come this far.
keep writing, there is so much support here that your never alone and cycle buddies will hold your hand through every step.
phil
ttc is a tough time without a doubt. i think it's amazing just how much one goes through. no-one could possibly imagine what it's like unless one goes through it.
after 5 cycles you must be feeling like you've gone through the mill. i did two and that was tough enough. you'll know from your own experiences that the strength comes from somewhere, you are a fighter to have come this far.
keep writing, there is so much support here that your never alone and cycle buddies will hold your hand through every step.
phil