holy crap what a crazy weekend around here!
claudia OHMYGOD!!! the resort i was at didnt have internet in the condo's...wth? i've been going crazy to hear your news!!! YOU'RE PREGNANT!!!

i am so so so so so excited for you! i know you are scared and i cant believe you had to go out of town the day after you found out, but i just know everything is going to be great this time!! i cant wait to hear your 2nd beta on friday!!! ((((((((((((((((((love love love love you))))))))))))))))))))))) huge hugs mama!!!

xoxoxo
libby i soooo knew you would cheat, but i'm sooooo glad you did!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO
you're PREGNANT!! i cant wait to hear your # tomorrow!! soooooo exciting!! i am overjoyed for you and DH!! love you!!
seriously you 2 girls getting your BFP's in the same week has me in tears!! my heart is filled with so much love and happiness for both of you i cant even stand it!!
helene did you get your beta today?? i cant wait to hear that number!!
heeks that is a great 2nd beta!! the waiting never gets easier does it? take the time to enjoy this though!! you are amazing!!
kim how are you doing PUPO girl??? i'm sorry i left you all weekend!! i am always here for you and thinking of you!! i cant wait to see your BFP!!! xoxoxo
drboots good luck with your SnS's!! its not much longer now till you'll be PUPO!! GROW FOLLIES GROW!!! stop spotting stop!!!
teresa i'm crossing everything for your ER tomorrow, and that you are a go for ET on friday!! good luck! i cant wait to hear how many beautiful follies you get!!!
babyluv holy green puke story!! haha yikes! i hope your DD is feeling better, but i couldnt help smiling a little while reading your story because its the kind of thing that as a mom, you just deal with, and then get grossed out later. even the gross things about having a kid make me jealous and i cant wait to get green puke on me!! i cant wait to hear your beta on wednesday!!!
lauren how are you doing? did af show up yet? its so funny what you said about going out of town to see the sox. me and DH always say how it would be cheaper to fly southwest to baltimore and see them play there and get a hotel then to go to fenway! i do love fenway tough, and i'm in love with dustin pedroia, and WALLY!! hahaha
tiger i''m sending you all the AF vibes i have!! are you on any meds right now?
neffti wooohooo for starting stims!!! grow follies grow!! sooo excited for you to get started!! yay!
to everyone else..i'm sorry if i missed you...i have alot of catching up to do, and i didnt take notes so this is all from my memory of the last 5 pages i had to catch up on!! i hope everyone is doing well!! xoxoxo
afm ok well i seriously think something is wrong with me! i went away and had a wonderful mini weekend vacation and spent the whole weekend in the sunshine enjoying an early spring, and wonderful fresh air and ocean breezes. Then i get to stop taking those horrible BCP's which i hated every minute of, and am feeling better already. Then i check in here and see all this amazing news of BFP's and awesome betas, and follies growing and growing...and i'm so happy for everyone......
but here i am....confession time....i am scared SHITLESS!!! i am so so so scared for this cycle for so many reasons...scared to be canceled again....scared that the last cycle was the best they could get from me and i lost my only chance....scared that i will only have 1 follies again if i do make it to ER....scared that all of the good luck of this board is going to come crashing down on me (because i'm not THAT lucky)....scared that if i get a BFN this time it will be the last chance i have to try to have a baby with my own eggs....scared to feel the heartache of another BFN, and what will happen if i cant handle the pain again....scared, scared, scared!!!
i'm sorry..i dont want to bring everyone down....its not fair of me, but i keep getting all weepy thinking about all of this stuff, and i needed a way to get it out. i also think that i'm PMSing really bad after going off of 7 weeks of continuous BCP's. i told DH he should work late this week because i have a feeling i'm going to be an emotional mess!!
thank you all for listening to me. again i'm sorry to suck to PMA out of the room, but i could really use some right now!!
