March/April 2010 Cycle Group

[angelaezra]

holy crap what a crazy weekend around here!

claudia OHMYGOD!!! the resort i was at didnt have internet in the condo's...wth? i've been going crazy to hear your news!!! YOU'RE PREGNANT!!! i am so so so so so excited for you! i know you are scared and i cant believe you had to go out of town the day after you found out, but i just know everything is going to be great this time!! i cant wait to hear your 2nd beta on friday!!! ((((((((((((((((((love love love love you))))))))))))))))))))))) huge hugs mama!!! xoxoxo

libby i soooo knew you would cheat, but i'm sooooo glad you did!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO you're PREGNANT!! i cant wait to hear your # tomorrow!! soooooo exciting!! i am overjoyed for you and DH!! love you!!

seriously you 2 girls getting your BFP's in the same week has me in tears!! my heart is filled with so much love and happiness for both of you i cant even stand it!!

helene did you get your beta today?? i cant wait to hear that number!!

heeks that is a great 2nd beta!! the waiting never gets easier does it? take the time to enjoy this though!! you are amazing!!

kim how are you doing PUPO girl??? i'm sorry i left you all weekend!! i am always here for you and thinking of you!! i cant wait to see your BFP!!! xoxoxo

drboots good luck with your SnS's!! its not much longer now till you'll be PUPO!! GROW FOLLIES GROW!!! stop spotting stop!!!

teresa i'm crossing everything for your ER tomorrow, and that you are a go for ET on friday!! good luck! i cant wait to hear how many beautiful follies you get!!!

babyluv holy green puke story!! haha yikes! i hope your DD is feeling better, but i couldnt help smiling a little while reading your story because its the kind of thing that as a mom, you just deal with, and then get grossed out later. even the gross things about having a kid make me jealous and i cant wait to get green puke on me!! i cant wait to hear your beta on wednesday!!!

lauren how are you doing? did af show up yet? its so funny what you said about going out of town to see the sox. me and DH always say how it would be cheaper to fly southwest to baltimore and see them play there and get a hotel then to go to fenway! i do love fenway tough, and i'm in love with dustin pedroia, and WALLY!! hahaha

tiger i''m sending you all the AF vibes i have!! are you on any meds right now?

neffti wooohooo for starting stims!!! grow follies grow!! sooo excited for you to get started!! yay!

to everyone else..i'm sorry if i missed you...i have alot of catching up to do, and i didnt take notes so this is all from my memory of the last 5 pages i had to catch up on!! i hope everyone is doing well!! xoxoxo

afm ok well i seriously think something is wrong with me! i went away and had a wonderful mini weekend vacation and spent the whole weekend in the sunshine enjoying an early spring, and wonderful fresh air and ocean breezes. Then i get to stop taking those horrible BCP's which i hated every minute of, and am feeling better already. Then i check in here and see all this amazing news of BFP's and awesome betas, and follies growing and growing...and i'm so happy for everyone......
but here i am....confession time....i am scared SHITLESS!!! i am so so so scared for this cycle for so many reasons...scared to be canceled again....scared that the last cycle was the best they could get from me and i lost my only chance....scared that i will only have 1 follies again if i do make it to ER....scared that all of the good luck of this board is going to come crashing down on me (because i'm not THAT lucky)....scared that if i get a BFN this time it will be the last chance i have to try to have a baby with my own eggs....scared to feel the heartache of another BFN, and what will happen if i cant handle the pain again....scared, scared, scared!!!
i'm sorry..i dont want to bring everyone down....its not fair of me, but i keep getting all weepy thinking about all of this stuff, and i needed a way to get it out. i also think that i'm PMSing really bad after going off of 7 weeks of continuous BCP's. i told DH he should work late this week because i have a feeling i'm going to be an emotional mess!!
thank you all for listening to me. again i'm sorry to suck to PMA out of the room, but i could really use some right now!!

Franny – please don’t apologize … trust me we all feel like that. Well, I know I speak for myself, I definitely feel the same way. I think being on this IVF emotional rollercoaster is so very taxing on your emotions. But, that is why we are all here for each other. It is alright for you to express your concerns because believe me, I’m concerned too, as, I will only be transferring one embryo this time and that terrifies me but if I beat myself mentally then I don’t have a chance. So PMA ok? And here is a big hug from me to you!

Now, I have to get off this website and actually go to work ... lol!!

Angela

[to_have_fun08]

Franny - So much of what you said, I am feeling the same way. I guess that is kind of why I stay away from the boards. Its great that everyone is getting a BFP but it always ends up that I am the one left out of the party. Seems that everyone has luck but me. scared that this is not going to work and once again have to live through another BFN. Right now I am just trying to prepare my mind of not having any kids, telling myself that another BFN will be no big deal. Heck who am I kidding, I will be devastated if this doesn't work. I don't have any great wisdom. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone.


chris

[Franca]

afm ok well i seriously think something is wrong with me! i went away and had a wonderful mini weekend vacation and spent the whole weekend in the sunshine enjoying an early spring, and wonderful fresh air and ocean breezes. Then i get to stop taking those horrible BCP's which i hated every minute of, and am feeling better already. Then i check in here and see all this amazing news of BFP's and awesome betas, and follies growing and growing...and i'm so happy for everyone......
but here i am....confession time....i am scared SHITLESS!!! i am so so so scared for this cycle for so many reasons...scared to be canceled again....scared that the last cycle was the best they could get from me and i lost my only chance....scared that i will only have 1 follies again if i do make it to ER....scared that all of the good luck of this board is going to come crashing down on me (because i'm not THAT lucky)....scared that if i get a BFN this time it will be the last chance i have to try to have a baby with my own eggs....scared to feel the heartache of another BFN, and what will happen if i cant handle the pain again....scared, scared, scared!!!
i'm sorry..i dont want to bring everyone down....its not fair of me, but i keep getting all weepy thinking about all of this stuff, and i needed a way to get it out. i also think that i'm PMSing really bad after going off of 7 weeks of continuous BCP's. i told DH he should work late this week because i have a feeling i'm going to be an emotional mess!!
thank you all for listening to me. again i'm sorry to suck to PMA out of the room, but i could really use some right now!!












Hunnie you are NOT alone im shitting myself too, my only good luck in my life ever was having a wonderful mother for 18 years then meeting my Dh....in between i have had nothing but crap..it would be typical that this doesnt work either. Im fed up, depressed and axious all the time. I have had alot of misery in my life. Abuse in so many ways as a child, my mother and father dying. big hug to you, we can do this we all can!!!!
you can tell me to leave this forum if you think i was in anyway out of order
xxxx

[rlk1]

Hi everyone!

Lauren: I do like Star Wars (I've seen all the movies!), but the embryo-naming thing is a long story!! My last cycle I had one frozen embryo transferred and the picture of it looked AWFUL. The embryo that they transferred was really dark and grainy. Anyway, I kept saying on that thread how dark that embryo was, so Claudia named it "Darth"! Tee-hee! It turned out Darth was a fitting name, since I got a BFN---obviously that embryo was dark AND evil!! So....for this cycle I wanted better luck so I named my embryo "Luke". Couldn't hurt, right? As far as naming Claudia's embryos Han and Solo...I mean I HAD to stick with the theme, right?!?

Libby: Congrats, girl! I can't wait to hear that Beta number today! Woooooo-hoooooo!!!

Claudia: Let us know about your 2nd Beta tomorrow! I'm thinking of you!

Teresa: HOW DID IT GO?!? I'm sure it all went fabulously and they collected one MILLION eggs! Rest up when you get home and take care of yourself!

Helene: I hope all went well with your appt yesterday. Did they call with your Beta?

Babyluv: Green smoothie puke, huh? Nice. How's your DD feeling today? I'm sure you'll want to avoid that particular smoothie for a while! Good luck tomorrow at your Beta appt! I'm sure the "official" call will be exciting!

Franny: I was just telling my DH last night that every single girl on this thread has gotten a BFP, and I'm sooooo nervous that I'll be the first one to get that BFN (because I think I'm next on the list to get a Beta). This whole process can drive you NUTS!!! ARGH!! I'm really rooting for you this cycle!! I hope that you get your BFP so that you can say "GOOD RIDDANCE" to IVF!!!!

Heeks: I think your second Beta sounds great! Will they give you a third one? I hope the 7th gets here soon for you!!

DrBoots: Glad to hear you're moving right along and that they're not worried about the spotting!

Latrell: YAY for 3 eggs! That's great! Keep up the good work and let us know how your next appt goes!

I know I missed a bunch of people, but I'm thinking of each and every one of you!!

[Tiger04]

Franny,

You have been there for everyone on this board. And lifted me up in times that I was super low. Your humor and graciousness is totally infectious and I can’t tell you how many times you’ve made me laugh when reading your posts! So, now we are all grateful to be able to return the favor and lift you up in your time of need.

You are not alone. We are all scared shitless. We’ve all had to make decisions that we never thought we would have to make in life and we’ve all felt alone and scared through each decision wondering if we made the right one. You are just a super strong woman and will continue to go step-by-step through this process. It just gets too overwhelming to think of all of the “what ifs.” Don’t beat yourself up…just one step at a time.

Let’s be honest, none of us are lucky, we are all just taking it one day at a time, and some day that will be each of our days. Don’t let all of this good news get the best of you…there’s no pressure here…it’s been a long road for a lot of ladies on the board and thank goodness it’s been “their” day FINALLY! It will be your day too. I’m glad that you can vent and get it out, that’s what you have to do and we’re here for you. But, I’m going to pick you back up and help. You are doing great, Franny. You are just the best ever. Keep your head up and know that we are all here for you.

Lots and Lots of love - Lisa

[heekinje]

Hi, Franny-

It's ok to be scared - we are all scared! We spend a lot of time on this board because we are so scared and need people that understand us to make us feel better, even if it is only for a few minutes. The only thing you can do is take each day as it comes and check it off the list. Each day is a step towards having a baby. You are doing everything you can to make that happen and the rest is up to whoever or whatever you believe in. There is no luck here - just a group of women going above and beyond to have a baby. Your day will no doubt come - you are too supportive and positive of a person for it not to. You alone make everyone on this board feel so much better no matter what the situation is. We love you!!!

AFM, my second beta is totally fine. I don't know why I was thinking it should be higher. I've never had a second beta before and I guess I didn't know what to expect. I'm not having a third, just an U/S on April 7th. Is it April 7th yet??

xoxo
Heeks

[heekinje]

Wait!!!! I forgot to say CONGRATULATIONS to Libby for her BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!! Sooooooo excited for you!!!! I can't wait to hear your beta!!!

Heeks

[Lauren]

Hello EVERYONE!!! My name is Lauren. I would like to join your group. As I was supposed to be starting my cycle in early march I got canceled twice due to a cyst on my right ovary. They say it hasnt changed in size and that its clear fluid from the u/s but my estrogen level was too high...So I am back on BCP for another 3 weeks and hoping when I go back the first week in April that it will be GONE and that I can start stimulating!!!

My husband and I have been trying for two years. The last year we discovered he has a male factor so we moved right onto IVF so this will be our first cycle when we get to it!! So VERY nervous and still learning all about it! Had all the testing done and everything was in order until I started taking BCP and developed a cyst so we will see.

CONGRATS to you ladies with your BFP!!!! Thats GREAT!!

I hope you dont mind me jumping in on your board, you all seem like such a nice group of people

[emmax]

hi ya i know its soooo frighting its all i think about iam 26 been preg 4 times they took my tubes coz of ectoipcs i had . been taking injectin for a week now so up for another scan 2mor i dont no what happens next ... i was due on my peroid monday but havent had it yet i dont know if its thease injections that iam doing xxx take care

[emmax]

ive been on them tablets for about 4 weeks now i take 3 aday ..... when i had my scan yestrday they said they can see 2 eggs whats does that mean is that coz ive been taking the injections sorry dont know much about ivf only a little ) been injecting seen last wenesday

[GirlAtHeart]

Hi Ladies, I just wanted to join your group.

I just had my 5-day transfer on Sunday, 3/21/10 with donor egg. We transferred two Grade A blasts - which is the best grade I have ever gotten in a cycle! Yay! - So happy right now.

This is my second DE cycle (first one - low Beta then early m/c). I'm a little nervous, because the first time around with DE, we just thought it was a sure thing, then it didn't work. BUT...overall, I am positive. This WILL work!

Well, right now I am in my official 2ww. Late yesterday and all day so far, I have had mild low cramps, very mild. I'm hoping it's either hatching or implantation. Does anyone have info on this? Also, I'm a little tired and feel lazy. Is that normal so close to my transfer? Or is it all in my head - LOL!

Good Luck to all of us!

[turtle0619]

hi everyone

chris, lisa, kim, heeks,franca and angela thank you all so much! your responses have me in tears! i am so thankful to have such wonderful caring woman like you all to lean on for support! of course you are all scared too, and i was silly to think i was all alone. its so hard to talk about these fears with the few family and friends who know what i'm going through, because even though they are caring, they dont fully know all the evil thoughts that going through IVF can put in a sane persons mind! i dont even like to bring these things up with DH because i dont want to add more worries in his head, and i want to keep him as positive as possible.
i also want to stay as positive as possible too, and i know you are all right when you say to take it step by step, because that is what ive told all of you a million times! i am going to try to stay focused on the "now", and not let all the "what-if's" control my brain.
i want to stress that i in no way think that the awesome girls that got their BFP's did not go through hell and back to come out the other side with a wonderful gift! i am nothing but thrilled for everyone!! we were all brought to this board for different reasons, but we stay for the support and hope that we will all one day have the same dreams come true....
i love you all and i dont know what i would do without the daily support ive found since last august!!


kim please please please dont put the stress and pressure on yourself about all the BFP's on this thread. i have a great feeling for you!! when is your beta?? i forget xoxoxo

libby omg you are driving me crazy today!!! i must must know that beta #!!!! please let me know!!

marci how are you doing?? how goes the stims?? i hope you had a great weekend!!

teresa thinking of you!!! i hope you are feeling ok!! when you feel up to it please come give us an update!! xoxo

to all the newbies...welcome...i cant wait to get to know you all! you joined a wonderful group of woman that will keep you sane! good luck to you all!!

afm trying to deep breath and try to enjoy my last few days without needles!! my first SnS is friday, and hopefully i will be starting gonal-f that night! i am also wondering when AF will show up...RE seems to think it will be thursday or friday and didnt really care...she said it didnt matter what day of my cycle we will be starting my meds this time...i swear i havent had the same thing happen for all 4 cycles...so i'm just gonna go with it, and pray that the 4th times a charm!!


****much love always****

[DrBoots]

Latrell22- grow eggs grow!!!!!!!!!

Franny- we have been there whether we have typed it out or not. I too am scared to death, I only have a $20,000 lifetime max and then we’re done. We don’t have the money to gamble on this process ourselves and after the 1at 2 cycles were canned I feel like we’re going through the money like it’s water! All you can do is hope and wish for the best outcome. But if you’re like me, I prepare for the worst, so that if it happens I can be OK. But then, on the few times it does happen, when I get good news, it is AMAZING news! Good Luck this cycle!!!

Lauren- welcome! Hope your first IVF will be a great success!!!

Girlatheart- welcome and good luck!!!!!!!!!!

AFM- well my ER will be this weekend. I have 4 great looking follies and some small ones. If the biggest follie looks like it can go another day to let the smaller ones grow we will wait till Sunday, but most likely Saturday. I am excited and SUPER nervous about going under the anesthesia and that the egg quality won’t be good.

Last month (when we had to cancel due to understimming) he said that sometimes quality goes hand in hand with quantity, but not always. I am hoping we get a few more than 4, but if it’s just the 4 DH and I are going for it! I can’t even imagine that this Easter I could be PUPO. Sittin, prayin, wishin!

[turtle0619]

drboots thats GREAT news!!! alot of the time once you trigger those lil follies grow fast and catch up!! i wouldnt be surprised if you get more then 4 follies at ER!! wooohoooo i'm sooooo excited for you! everything is going to be great for you this cycle! i've got everything crossed for you!!

latrell 3 follies is great right now!! just so you know they usually only count the follies that are over 10, so there could be a bunch of smaller follies there too that they just didnt tell you about! when you go back for your next SnS ask them to count all the follies...you usually have to ask for the small ones! grow follies grow!!!

claud how are you feeling? are you home yet? i bet you cant wait to get home and get some sleep!! did you have time to take the doggie out to the park with his big brother shirt on yet?? i realized i said in my last post to you that i was waiting until friday for your second beta, but of course i meant wednesday!!! tomorrow!!!!!! come back to us! i miss you! xoxoxo

libby ok girl...you are driving me crazy! i'm so glad you POAS because if i had to wait this long without knowing your pregnant i would be screaming by now!!!

helene any word on your beta yet?? i cant wait to hear the news!!

[misocial]

Bear with me ladies, I am still catching up.... let me know if I miss anyone please. M.




Bei - Checking mail daily for AF...
Kaybei - update needed


samgarkay - FET in late april
Neffi211 - FET in april 19-21 has a plan now..YEA....Doin the lupron dance !!!
TammyS FET 4/5 Tammy will be PUPO on 4/5. 3 day Af.....HUMPF.....grumble...grumble....3 days really????
Lauren1171 FET moved up YIPEE..4/6 way to go !!!! Counting down the days...
mcfarland2213 FET in April ??? Welcome aboard......clapping.... group says hello mcfarland...where did she go?? We are not THAT scary !!
Tiiger04 doing IUI Is currently distributing WANTED posters for her AF.....anyone with info please contact asap.
Kushka FET mid April Welcome...Welcome !!!!


Zozo - which way did she go ????
Miyaya - come back miyaya...where are you ??


Dodo928 - On BCP 2/26 update needed.... Hello... you out there ??
Turtle0619 - back from vacation....big hugs we missed you Club ouch awaits you on 3/26.. we are all scared together but put on a brave face..love to you !!
Lauren Of course you are welcome to join us... membership fees are cheaper than IVF...they are FREE..Everyone claps cause Lauren found her way to us !!!!! clapping...clapping....


Tameka94 - stims? ER and ET week of 3/15 Anybody seen Tameka ??
to have fun 08 stims 3/23 ER/ET ? Do you have dates yet??? Do tell.... the group leans in closer....???
latrell22 - Stims 3/18 go club OUCH !! U/S on 3/23 good luck and big hugs !!
Drboots - stims. 3/15 YEA. rock on follie maker !!! On daily SnS watch....
Franca Welcome.... Stims 3/22 joined club OUCH.... right ??
Angelaezra stim 3/19...ER 3/31.ET 4/5 Stimming and Sleeping...my hero...
Misocial - stims 3/20 ER and ET 3/31 feeling it this afternoon...AF has left the building...finally !!
enmax Stims 3/16 The group says welcome.... show us your needle marks and will will show you ours... lol





Sessford beta #1 3/15 Where oh where is Sessford.... looking high...looking low...
VictoriainAZ - on stims start 2/27 ER/ET ??? Where is Victotia ????
rlk1 FET on 3/18 is officially PUPO today !!!! Congrats...no you can't test yet !!! for real it's to early...
Hopeforbabies - stims 3/13, ER 3/23 Sleep it off cause now your PUPO on the Lucky board !!
girlatheart Welcome....you are PUPO... when was your ET???



Rayofsunsine - ET 3/8 , BFP Beta #1 261 WOW !!!! Beta #2 684 entertaining family and better be taking it easy>>>>>>>
heekinje - ET 3/7 BFP Beta #1 299 WOW...WOW... Beta #2 799 U/s on 4/7 rock on !!!!
Miner_79 - FET 3/5 BFP Beta #1 186 YEA !!!! Anyone seen miner ????
Secaly OMG ET 3/10 5 embies WOW.. Beta #1 3/22 YEA !!! Congrats on BFP Need beta update....busy looking for a new nest !!!
babyluv - ET 3/10 Beta #1 3/24 gave in to the STICK.... BFP !!! Waiting for a beta...and I dont mean the fish !!!!
claud662 FET 3/10 Beta #1 88 YEA !!! Beta #2 3/24 BFP !!!
Supergenius - ET 3/14 Beta #1 3/23 BFP YEA !!! Waiting on a beta...