March/April 2010 Cycle Group

[turtle0619]

hi everyone

claudia thank god everything is good!! oh man you scared the crap outta me!!

i will do more personals later

afm- so i went in for day 4 SnS and it was a different u/s tech that only works saturdays. she did my u/s in like seriously 5 minutes. when i asked her for my follie numbers she said she didnt know how to work the computer, but looked at the pictures and said i only had 4 follies!!! 19mm, 18mm, 17mm, and a 10!! i asked what happened to all the other ones i had yesterday and she gave me an attitude and said that it was all she saw. she said there was fluid in my left overy and it might have sucked up all the other follies??? i have no idea what she was talking about!
so needless to say ive been freaking out all day thinking for sure they were going to cancel me. i went to acupuncture this morning to try to relax, but i couldnt keep my mind from thinking horrible thoughts.
well the phone just rang and they said they want me to trigger tonight!!!! i am seriously in shock! i want to be happy, and excited, but i really think my RE is just trying to be nice to me, and feels bad. i think if i was anyone else they woulda canceled me for sure. i'm soooo mad at my body!! i dont understand how this happened, and how when i finally was having a decent cycle all the follies go missing! WTH?? i've been crying in DH's arms for the past hour. i'm so upset, and i dont know how much more i can take. i dont want to give up, but i'm so sick of being upset all the time.
i know this cycle isnt over yet, and i will try to stay positive for this, but last cycle i only had 4 follies and ended up with only 1 egg. this time i have even less!! its really hard to think this is going to have a happy ending.
so anyway i trigger tonight at 1030pm, and my ER is monday 1030AM! i'm going to try to enjoy my weekend and leave the worrying till monday.
i'm so scared to wake up from ER on monday and have them say they didnt get any eggs! i dont know if i will be able to take it.
sorry this is so long. i needed to let this out!

**much love**

[latrell22]

turtle0619: Okay, I want you to take a step back and breathe. I know it's been hard for you but hang in there. You've been so strong this far, don't let the tech that didn't know what she was talking about bring you down. Is there anyway to have your RE call you this weekend so that you can talk to them? That was not appropriate for her to speak to you with attitude or to not know what the heck she was doing. You can do it with 4 follies, I've made it this far with 2!! Imagine that, we are all in this together with you girl....you can do this! Your RE wouldn't have you trigger if you weren't ready, don't start doubting now girlie! I'll be praying for you and DH!

[emmax]

soz to keep going on but a ectopic could not happen again could it ive had both tubes remove please get bk xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[latrell22]

Helene: You know I want to test today! LOL, but I take a trigger shot tomorrow (4 Apr) on 9 Apr, I will be 9dpt. That’s how it works right. My transfer date was 3-31 so 1 Apr was 1dpt…it will still be in my system. Man oh man do I want to know! LOL

Angela: Okay Tuesday is the big day!!! It will be here before you know it! Yaaaayyyyyy for ET!!!!!!!

Claudia: Words CANNOT express how happy that I am for you. I’ve been thinking about you so much. Thank God that everything is okay, over 600 Beta!! GREAT!

Kajol: Welcome and I’m praying that everything goes well with you at your first appointment.

[winnie71]

Angela-Thanks for your reassurance, took me awhile to fall asleep w/ anxiety last night, but had a good 'lie in' w/ fiance and 3 snuggly dogs this am, and the injection site lump seems to be gone, so I'm feeling more confident that it's fine. Congrats on your 7 blooming blasts!!

Turtle- I have to agree w/Latrell, don't let a crappy/crabby tech get you down. Just think about the wonderful surprise you'll get when TWICE that number of eggs is found on Monday. You'll want to hunt the tech down and kick her butt, or at least stick your tongue out at her-you'll be medicated, all will forgive you . Makes me appreciate that my clinic had Fellows doing all the ultrasounds.

[claud662]

Woops-I meant my beta is over 6000 not 600! Thanks for all your support!

Franny-u have got to try and not let the stupid tech get you down! I would ring your RE and ask him/her to look over your scans for a second opinion! I have a great feeling for you and Monday will be great! Love u tons!

Emmax-you are really working yourself up over something that isn't possible!!! Stress isn't good for the body so try and de-stress and wait out the 2ww! U got it girl!

Latrell-too early to test!!! Thanks for your kind words!

Thinking of all of you and have a great weekend:)

[angelaezra]

Franny – I am so sorry you had an insensitive jerk to do your u/s. I wish people would truly understand what we go through and then they would think twice about treating people so very poorly! Don’t worry, 4 follies are still great! It only takes one, right? I don’t think your RE is just trying to be nice as most RE’s do not or will not mess up their ART stats if they know there is no hope. So just put your trust in your RE and in fate and it will all work out. It’s ok to cry as you are getting all of your feelings out in the open, which is good! I understand the feelings of being upset w/ your body but remember, we are dealt the cards we have, so we will make the best of it. Don’t worry, you are doing fine, ok? ER retrieval Monday … that’s awesome; we are with you all the way … you can do it!!! Have a wonderful weekend!

Angela

[emmax]

hi ya ladies well iam clam now thanks soooo much i love this little groupxxxxxxxx well ive got ocd i had it for 10 years sooo all ways think there somethink wrong with me ( my ocd teachers says its the worst thing you can do is search the internet if ya think there something wrong with ya well fell in to the trip xxx a bit better now been in bed for 10 hrs ( thats all ive done this week XX

[Franca]

Emma please relax sweetie all is going to be brilliant for you
xx

[not hopeless yet]

Transferred 3 embies today! We've always had slow growers... this cycle 4 of ours stopped growing after the first day. The ones we transferred today were mid-grade, 1 8-cell, 1 7-cell, 1 5-cell. Pray for me! Good luck to you all!

[angelaezra]

Transferred 3 embies today! We've always had slow growers... this cycle 4 of ours stopped growing after the first day. The ones we transferred today were mid-grade, 1 8-cell, 1 7-cell, 1 5-cell. Pray for me! Good luck to you all!

Not hopeless yet - Wow, three embryos transferred ... that is awesome! Take is easy and relax the rest of the day. Are you taking any additional time off? The great thing about transferring today is that you have both Saturday and Sunday to relax!!

Angela

[angelaezra]

hi ya ladies well iam clam now thanks soooo much i love this little groupxxxxxxxx well ive got ocd i had it for 10 years sooo all ways think there somethink wrong with me ( my ocd teachers says its the worst thing you can do is search the internet if ya think there something wrong with ya well fell in to the trip xxx a bit better now been in bed for 10 hrs ( thats all ive done this week XX

Stay off that computer ... except for talking w/ us on this board!!! I am just kidding; but you have to stay calm!

Angela

[Kushka]

Angela, thanks for responding, congratulations on your embies, and good good luck for your ET on Tuesday.

Lauren, thanks for sharing your story about the stuffy nurse. I've had my fair share of those, which is why I don't ask them any more - I prefer to hang with you ladies.

Claudia, I'm really happy for you that everything seems alright. I've not experienced bleeding like that and I didn't know that IVFers were more prone to bleeding, but I can only imagine how scary it would be. V happy all is well.

Franny, during my first IVF I had about 15 follicles and when I woke from the ER my RE told me he'd only retrieved 1 egg!! And on my second IVF I had far fewer follices and they retrieved 8 eggs. So, I guess I'm trying to say don't worry too much about the number of follices that you have (although it sounds like the tech person has no idea anyway!) And like so many others have said, it only takes one!

Good night all
kx

[turtle0619]

thank you all for talking me off the ledge! i'm serious when i say i dont know what i would do without all of your support! i feel so lucky to have such amazing woman i can lean on when i get scared.
so i'm still confused about where all my follies went, but i'm pretty sure they are gone because they said my E2 was only 250! so i obviously dont have a bunch "just hiding". i did however decide to stay positive for this cycle. like i said, when i first got the call i thought they were just humoring me by letting me trigger, but then i realized they couldnt do that even if they wanted to. isnt that called malpractice? haha
so i've decided that if they didnt think there was a chance with this cycle they wouldve canceled me. so i have to believe that i do have a chance, and i'm just happy to make it to this next step.
i just really wish i knew what happened over night to those darn follies!! its going to drive me nuts! i have to try to let it go though, and focus on the good ones i have left!!
thank you all again...really it means so much...i was in tears reading your responses to me!

nothopeless wooohoooo for 3 embies! i'm glad the ET went well. your PUPO now!! enjoy the bedrest, and dont let the 2ww drive you crazy!

latrell do not POAS!! its way to early!! hang in there...you'll get you BFP soon i promise!!

helene woohoo on the house! i hope they let you buy it! rent is expensive, and its so much better to use that money to pay off your own home instead of putting it in someone elses pocket. i love owning my house even though i miss calling the landlord when something breaks!!

emma step away from the google search!! its evil, and wont give you any real answers anyway! relax and enjoy being PUPO!!

lauren i cant believe you sold your opening day tickets! me and DH tried to get like 4 different games when they all went on sale, and we got nothing!! if you ever have tickets to give up keep us in mind!! or even better..if you have an extra we can go together and not drink with our baby bumps!! how are the patches going??

claudia i just wanted to say how happy i am for you again. how is your passover going? i miss bread!! haha xoxo

winnie tomorrow is your big day!!! are you ready? i cant wait to hear how many wonderful easter eggs you get on your hunt tomorrow!! i'll be thinking of you! us endo girls gotta stick together!

happy easter to everyone who celebrates!

much love always

[Kajol20]

Thank you all for the fair response...Since I m new to this site,I m still trying to read all ur post....
Well today I went to city to see my Doctor,he did my Blood work and Ultrasound..My ovaries looked perfectly fine in Ultrasound,but I had hard time during blood test(its always a pain to find my veins )took almost an hour to draw my Blood...
I was hoping that I dont have to take lupron anymore,but guess what ,they called me an hour ago and said,I have to continue taking lupron unless told so... I am not really suppressed from lupron yet...anyways I have to go back there on Tuesday,hope by that time my Ovaries will be Suppressed....