March/April 2010 Cycle Group

[turtle0619]

hi everyone
i'm in NY so i dont have much time but i just wanted to let you all know the spotting continues and my hope for this cycle is fading fast. i just left my nieces 3 year old birthday party, and spent the time sitting alone with DH while about 30 happy mom's and dad's played with their children. it was heartbreaking, and i dont know why i went. i am a mess. i had to leave and go outside so i wouldnt start crying in front of everyone. my SIL came up to me and said she could see tears in my eyes, and i just pretended like everything was ok...it was her daughters birthday party..i wasnt about to be the crazy aunt who ruins everything just because she's infertile.
i am a mess and i dont know if i can do this anymore. i was so jealous of all those family's and i feel so guilty for being the one who cant give that to my DH. what a nightmare.
anyway my beta is on monday, and it will confirm what i already know. i wish i didnt have to go and find out so i could just pretend i was pregnant for a little while longer...it makes DH so happy.....

[emmax]

hi ya angelaezra i hope everthink goes ok xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i dont have a second blood test just a scan now in 4 weeks they might do it differnt in england i think coz my beat was high well thats what iam guessin any way xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Franca]

Franny so many people have the spotting, pls were PUPO buddies remember? don't give up xxxxx

[angelaezra]

hi everyone
i'm in NY so i dont have much time but i just wanted to let you all know the spotting continues and my hope for this cycle is fading fast. i just left my nieces 3 year old birthday party, and spent the time sitting alone with DH while about 30 happy mom's and dad's played with their children. it was heartbreaking, and i dont know why i went. i am a mess. i had to leave and go outside so i wouldnt start crying in front of everyone. my SIL came up to me and said she could see tears in my eyes, and i just pretended like everything was ok...it was her daughters birthday party..i wasnt about to be the crazy aunt who ruins everything just because she's infertile.
i am a mess and i dont know if i can do this anymore. i was so jealous of all those family's and i feel so guilty for being the one who cant give that to my DH. what a nightmare.
anyway my beta is on monday, and it will confirm what i already know. i wish i didnt have to go and find out so i could just pretend i was pregnant for a little while longer...it makes DH so happy.....

Franny - I have tears in my eyes reading your post. I know just how you feel. It is very hard to be happy for everyone else when our fertility road can be so cruel. But, I am a big believer in that everything happens for a reason, so you went to N.Y. for a reason and I think later on you will discover the reason. This weekend will be so very hard for the both of us and I am truly praying that both of our babies will be fine and we will hold them soon. Please just let your DH and your IVF sisters’ help you through this weekend. I have grown to depend on your ladies so much and now it is your turn to receive the love. I am sending much love to you!

Angela

[y_ghazaly]

hang in there Franny , u really actually never know what's it gonna be............i swear i heard a thousand stories about women who had some spotting then turned out 2b pregnant with healthy excellent babies

stay positive i know it's so hard , but try 2 think happy thoughts

tell me , what r ur hobbies? i read & do embroidery

[deb4702]

Thank You for your response re:having symptoms and then having the symptoms disappear....
This is so stressful and such an emotional roller coaster and I am grateful to have other women to share on this journey...This wait seems endless..I have two day until my blood test and I am not going to get a HPT because I am not ready to face reality if it is not posiitive..

Franny..you are in my prayers and I am hoping that you get a +....hugs and baby dust!!!

[DrBoots]

Lauren- whoo hoo, I hope Monday comes soon!!!
Helene- glad you like the new office.
Franny- you have read the stories before. My Gf bled red blood for 2 months after her IVF and now she has a gorgeous 8 month old! Keep the PMA girl.
Emma- great Beta, congrats!!
Waiting- good luck with the stims!
Paty- YAY for 4 fertilized!
Lauren1171- YAY, you are PUPO girl!!!!! I hope you have a relaxing weekend!
Annissabug- congrats, I have read of other girls doing a similar protocol, but I don’t have any insight. Good Luck!! 5 is great! You only need 1!
Stephanie- I know the feeling, it flat out stinks!!!! I go for my us on Monday and it had been a LONG week of wondering! It’ll get here, we’ve waited this long, what’s a few more day?!?!?!?
Angela- my experience with the nurses in my practice is they err on the side of caution. I don’t think they would get your hopes up if there was a chance of bad news. Good luck, you are in my thoughts and prayers ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
Yasmeen- I would find a new job pronto. Even a little less money would be worth it. Your boss sounds like an a$$. Good luck, I hope you get some good news soon!!!
Franca- signs, no signs. The 2ww is the WORST. Find something to take your mind off of all of this stuff.
Debbie- congrats on being PUPO! Hoping you gt good news soon!!!!
AFM- just some mild cramping. Good days bad days with the PIO’s. At least 2 days a week someone else does it for me to give my thighs a break! Monday cannot come fast enough. I cannot wait to see my bean!

[deb4702]

Hi Lily..Thank you for your support....I am still learning the lingo for IVF and I feel a little silly asking this but what is PUPO??? And congratulations...I hope you have a great experience seeing Your "little bean" on Monday...how exciting ...

[angelaezra]

Hi Lily..Thank you for your support....I am still learning the lingo for IVF and I feel a little silly asking this but what is PUPO??? And congratulations...I hope you have a great experience seeing Your "little bean" on Monday...how exciting ...

PUPO means (pregnant until proven otherwise).

Angela

[deb4702]

Angela..sorry I referred to you by the wrong name..thanks..I Love that ..PUP..perfect...I am praying for you this pregnance..you have clearly been through so much and I am awed by your strength and perseverance...I look forward to hearing about your progress and hearing about the birth of your healthy baby!!!!!

[emmax]

HI YA ALL IAM STILL HAVEING BROWN DISCHARGE ON AND OFF IS THIS NORMAL X PLEASE GET BK

[mkd]

sorry to butt in.....but im kinda new to this place, and have a rather.....umm....embarassing question to ask......i had my FET on 04/16 and am lying low, and trying to get as much bed rest as possible,but there's this weird thing that has happened to me during all my (previous) three, unsuccessful IVFs......i had an orgasm while napping....!!!!! im so embarassed, and during the previous three times, i blamed myself and thought that was the reason i failed.
but today, i chekd online, and it seems a lot of women experience that, and what better, go on to have BFP and lovely babies. it is apparently the high level of progesterone that leads to such Os.
Anyone there with a similar experience, and maybe BFP thereafter?? please......tell me my uterine contractions didnt cause my babies to be flushed out......

[mkd]

and franny......i know what ur going through dear. may god help u and give you super duper healthy wonderful kids sooooooooon. lemme tell u my own sad story.....maybe, it will make u feel, "im not the only one suffering". i've been ttc since four years, although intermittently, have had three failed IVFs, and just had my FET on 16th, fingers crossed.
my younger sister, who was on the pill for seven long years, just decided she wanted to have a baby, and stopped the pill in february this year, and bang!! she is pregnant. can u believe..how things work? im thrilled for her, but somewhere, deep down inside, im upset with GOD.......why is he doing this to me, when i've been waiting for so long??
dont worry, when the right time comes, all pieces fall into place, and then, im sure, you will look back and thank god, that everything happened exactly how it did. there couldnt have been a better way for it to happen........just mark my words, and tell me when they come true.
for now, just hang on......everyone here is praying for u.

[Franca]

Hi mkd

Aparently sex dreams is a very positive thing, i had one too, felt so real
dont worry
xx

[mkd]

hey, thanx franca.....felt much better. was feeling awfully guilty. and embarassed. im feeling very nice and positive this time. what stage are you at?