Thanks for the reply. It is at this time however, a moot point. Passed a large gumball sized clot this morning with BM which was accompanied by a lot of blood. Have not spotted very much today at all, actually didn't have any blood with 2nd BM but it was bright, fresh blood with that first one. Not pink or brownish. That has been how all my AFs have started for the last year, for about a week before AF I have heavy spotting with morning BMs. If AF is on schedule should be here on Sat. Of course I will still go for beta on Friday but I am already prepared for BFN.
On a side note, clinic called back when I was concerned and nurse told me they would consider anything above a 5 as positive. Low, but positive. Which is why they test again to make sure the numbers go up. A different tune than what they did on my first IVF 3 years ago when they said my first beta of 14 was considered a Negative. I didn't save that calendar from that year and I didn't keep notes so I cannot say for sure what day they tested on back then.
I'm okay, I think going in, knowing that this was the last time we were willing to try, makes it just a tiny bit easier. I kind of feel like I can start living again and move on. Of course I am still hoping in the back of my mind and heart that this is a fluke and I had at least one stick but I am not going to fool myself. Hope can be a really good thing, but sometimes it just makes it more painful. DH doesn't want me to get negative yet, he is still hopeful. I feel so sad for him

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