
Karen - I have to get some of that stool softener. This constipation is really bugging me. Last night I was up unitl 2:30 watching a movie. I assumed it would only be 2 hours but no... 3 1/2! I finally got up at 10:30 this morning. lol That's so cute how obvious it is now to see you are preggers. Andrew doesn't seem to be as much into the pg as I figured he would be since these babies are his first. He doesn't reach for my bump much, he doesn't really care to read the weekly developments, he just asked now and then how the twins are doing. All I can say is they are still in there. lol Not like I feel them kicking all over the place. Though I think I felt a little something last night. It was so minor but I am pretty sure it was movement. I am surprised you haven't felt yours by now! Maybe you are confusing their little movements with gas or bowel movement? It is very similar. By week 20 you should be able to tell the difference I bet.

Katie - Welcome back! Don't worry about the baby bump. It only grows a cm every month! Not too noticable until all of a sudden you look and WOW! Kind of like what Karen said her DH looked at her and said, Wow you really are pregnant. lol I haven't posted any new pics mostly because I can't tell the difference in the pics. I can feel the difference but visually, not a big change at all, if any. I can feel the top of my uterus is now abive my button but when I stand to take a pic, doesn't look much different from the 18 week look that I posted at 12 weeks. lol Your poor nips! I feel for you... I hit them all the time. My boobs have gotten so damn big. lol Even when I try to cuddle with Andrew I have to position myself such a way so not to crush the girls.

Babyluv - I think you are good either way. Just like OB said, you can do whatever. I stopped at 11 weeks and was just fine and so were the babies. Just follow your instincts and if you have any doubt, just call RE and ask if it is ok to stop early because the bleeding is taking such an emotional toll on you. Spotting does make it hard to enjoy a pregnancy. I am so glad that I finally stopped, though the headaches took the place of the spotting. lol It's still a trade up if you ask me.

AFM - Well, like I was telling Karen... I think I felt the babies move or at least one of them last night. lol I was laying on my stomach cuddling with Andrew last night when I felt it. I hope it continues and gets stonger fast. I want to feel them all the time! Also.. the night before I had contraction after play time. I was a little freaked out but I know it's normal. I had Andrew feel it and then feel again after it was gone. He had me call L&D to make sure everything was ok. lol Of course they said it was normal.
Yesterday Andrew went shopping without me, I wasn't feeling up to doing much yesterday. I had a headache that wasn't liking the bright sun or movement. He came back and DD was helping him put the groceries away. She opened the paper plates and he flipped. He yelled at her and threw a bit of a fit. It scared her and I told her to leave the kitchen and he can put the groceries away by himself. He got mad, left through the back door, came back and finished. I sent DD up to take a shower because I knew I was going to lose it on him. Remember how he said he was going to get help for PTSD... well he never did. He has been putting it off claiming he has no time and doesn't want to admit he is crazy. That is his excuse, not that he is crazy of course. So anyway, I told him that tomorrow (today now) he goes to get help, he brings me back proof that he did it or he does not come home at all. He continued to flip out a bit, but I explained there was no reason for him to blow up like that. He does it a lot and usually towards her and that is not fair to her, she is just a kid and doesn't deserve to be talked to or yelled at like a soldier. He left to see if the clinic was open and while he was gone he calmed down and saw the error in his ways. Called me crying and how he can't believe he did that. He now sees how important it is to get help and is doing that as I write this. He has been doing it all day. RIght now he is seeing someone who wants to evaluate him to see if he needs medication. After that I told him he needs to sign up for parenting class. They already are referring him to the off post hospital (the one I go to) to be seen by a mental professional there. He said he told them everything, not just the war issues but his childhood as well. It's good to know that he is getting help with all of it. I think his PTSD is not only war related but also PTSD from his childhood. He did come back yesterday and apologized to DD. She looked at him and said that she understands that it isn't all his fault, that the Army made him this way. I think that is so perseptive of her to realize that Daddy was one way before and came back a different way and associated it with being away with the Army. Finally, he can start to get help and hopefully be closer to the man I married. I love him either way, but not sure how much longer I can put up with him the way he has been the past year and he has only gotten worse it seems. Sorry about the book I am writing, but I don't really have anyone else to tell and I needed to vent. I can't tell any of the few friends I have, they are all Army wives and he doesn't want anyone to know that he has to see anyone. He thinks by going that he is admitting he is crazy and so scared that it will effect his career. Anyway... I hope everyone is ok and feeling great! Thanks for listening.
