May cycle buddies :)

[PA_FA]

PMA- I' m so sorry about your day. It will happen eventually for all of us right?

purplefish- YEAH!!!!!! I am so happy for you! That's so exciting! At least one person had a really good day!

I went for ER this morning. When I woke up they told me they got 10 folicles. They didn't mention how mature they were or anything since they are doing IVM. They gave me instructions on meds and how and when to start all of them. (Very confusing by the way) DH and I went home and took a nap since he had to work tonight and I was a bit sore. While we were sleeping the RE office called and said the eggs were "too immature" and do not take any of my meds. I immediately started bawling my head off. The message said they would call me tomorrow. TOMORROW?!?!?! That's like over 17 hours away! I just don't understand. The eggs are supposed to be immature because they mature them in the lab with IVM. There is no one for me to talk to and I am freaking out. This was our only shot at IVM/IVF since our insurance does not pay for any of it. We can go back to trying IUI for a couple of months but then it's done. DH has said more than once that he refuses to go into debt to have a child. I would pretty much give up my life just to have one baby of my own. Just one. That's all I ask for. Is that really too much to ask for? Sorry so sad. I'm just really sad right now and DH just left for 3 days so I'm all alone. Thanks for listening ladies and baby dust to all of you. XOXOXO

[PA_FA]

AN IMMEDIATE UPDATE!!!!!!!
OK the person who left me the voice mail should be smacked. In a good way...I just don't think she explained enough.
Right...so, I just got a call from one of the nurses and I'm still crying when I answer the phone and she tells me that instead of starting meds tonight, I am starting them tomorrow. I was like...huh? You mean the cycle isn't canceled???? She was shocked that I thought that but then understood that when I was told my eggs were too immature and not to take any medicine until further notice...how easy it was for me to jump to conclusions. PHEW! So...starting meds tomorrow instead of today and ET still scheduled for Wednesday night at 7pm.

I have no clue how some of you have done this multiple times. This is only my first and I am a wreck. God bless all of you. You are all so strong and really give me something to look forward to and look up to. I know I've only been here a few days but I already feel like you all are my sisters. I couldn't wait till my hubby walked out the door so I could really break down crying and type the previous message out to you. Love you all. Baby dust to everyone!

[lisadcb]

Pafa - I am so sorry about the crazy rollercoaster ride you've been on today. I know how you feel, because yesterday I was told that they would likely cancel my cycle and then to hear a couple of hours later that we were good go. It is enough to make you want to pull your hair out!!

[rypell1985]

Purple...I am so HAPPY for you!!!! CONGRATS!!!!!!

I finished my Provera yesterday and am now just waiting for AF to start! However, my RE decided NOW to inform me that they begin all their patients on Stimson on Thursday...which means AF has to land perfectly otherwise is off to the land of bcp for me...rather frustrating! But I'm so so close I can't take it! Baby dust to all you ladies!

[bei]

Tiger04 - IUI – cycle got cencel lots of hugs
Tryn4#2 - cycle got cencell sorry ,lots of hugs on ur way
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MsThomas32 - welcome to the board need update




TDF_28 - start the estrace 2x a day and lower the lupron to 5 unitsyay (have 5 frozen will be using 2)the first week of June
DCRunningMama - officially starting this FET cycle. The transfer is scheduled for 5/27 yay coming closer








Rypell -finish the provera ER around 6/2 yay
sunshine5tri - start on cetrotide. Transfer will prob be around the 21st. need update
maybethistime - on lupron starting yay need update
Lisadcb - green light to start stimming on Monday the 25th. yay coming closer
Dys24 - on lupron may 14 yay





Nurse Julie - start stiming 4/30 and need update
nfd034 - on stimiming 5/6 yay till ER #
kizmet - ET will be on sunday yay coming closer
EShepherd - three follicles on the right and three on the left. grow follies grow
bei - on stiming may 15 till yay for stiming grow follies grow
PA_FA - got 10 folicles and ETscheduled for Wednesday night at 7pm. woo...hoo...
kitty_mom -E2 is 932. L side 17, 13, 12, 12 and . R side 21, 15 and multiple unmeasurables





pep23 - welcome to the board and congrats u r pupo

Bril - welcome to the board congrat u r pupo BETA # 1 5/27 lots of baby dust on ur way


riogirl71 - congrats ur PUPO now good luck for tomorrow where r u hun

Lisa32- had my ET on Sun 16th May you r pupo congrats BETA # 1


dodo928 - woo hoo you r pupo congrats BTA # 1





Anissabug - BFN so sorry ,we hope u find ur peace and lots of hugs on ur way we all always here for u sweetie
mcfarland2213- BFN sorry dear i hope u find ur peace lots of hugs on ur way
PMApsy - BFN so sorry sweetie lots of hugs on ur way
purpleFish - Congrats on ur BFP woo..hoo. our first BFP yay BETA # 1 132.1 yay great no





please let me know ladies if i made any mistake here to updates there status

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[riogirl71]

Well, I am still waiting... I called the clinic and it said they are closed so I can't get a hold of anyone. But they did give me an appt for a 3rd beta on Sunday after I gave blood for testing this time... so I think that should mean a BFP otherwise why would I go for a 3rd beta? Still waiting confirmation and going insane!

Purple - huge congratulations on your BFP, twins again? That was a high number!

[bei]

roi - so sorry u have to wait till sunday but sound like u r on ur way toward bfp yay i m happy for u sweetie just comfirm so we can party lots of babydust on ur way woo...hoo...

[purpleFish]

rio - geez.... having to wait until Monday... I hope you are doing okay, I think I would be bonkers. I would think they would only make you wait if it was uncertain. Maybe your levels are there but just not quite as high as they would like so they are waiting to see what happens. That is what I am hoping! I still have great hope that it is positive!

Thanks to all for the good wishes. I will do more personals tonight.

[TammyS]

Ugh, still waiting?! That stinks...the good news is...that it definitely sounds like a BFP...or you wouldnt be going back for 3rd beta.

Congrats Purple...great beta number.

PMA...so very sorry. Big Hugs.

[PMApsy]

Hi guys,

Sorry, just had teim to browse through the posts to get the big news.

PURPLE! CONGRATULATIONS THIS IS AMAZING!!!! Oh, I'm very glad you got your BFP, have a happy pregnancy sweetheart!

RIo, that is completely crazy, why be so secretive with you!!!! Why don't you poas??? I mean, you'Ve done your waiting now no?

AFM, I had a rough day, and a rougher evening. DH and I talked, and it looks like this is the end of the road for us. DH has been talking for months about how he is not sure about doing another cycle, taking risks, going through crises, producing embies and then maybe have some we wouldn't use, going through an uncertain number of tmts... he said that, for him, using up our last embies gave him closure, that it was a good ending for him because we didn't have leftover embies, and so on. He said we should just enjoy our life with our son as much as we can and just move on to something else, leave that part of our lives behind.

I can't blame him. I almost died from the infection. He has been by my side through countless hospitalizations, three surgeries, a miscarriage, and 5 fertility treatments. He's been by my side through the rollercoaster. Now he wants to move on.

The sacrifice he's asking me is huge, and the pain from it hurts so much. I have never pictured my family as just us plus one child. I have always pictured myself with at least two or three children. I wanted to be pregnant again, I wanted to deliver a child again, have that moment with him, feel a baby kick inside my belly. I wanted to breastfeed again, that is one of the things that hurt the most. He doesn't want to adopt, period... and given that he hasn't changed his mind in months about doing a fresh cycle again, and given that he's been watching my cry so hard tonight that I gagged, and he still feels the same way, it really is the end. I love him, I have always respected him and his pace, and he's been such a good teammate. Now he's truly had enough; it's me who has to wrap my heart and mind around all this and move on from my dream of having another child. The sense of loss I feel right now... it's like no matter how well I grieve this, there will always be a little void left somewhere inside of me.

I'm sorry to be so depressing. I need to vent, put words on my feelings right now. Thanks for listening, and thanks for being there girls.

Love,
Sophie

[purpleFish]

Sophie - I am so sorry. What a hard journey you have been through! There are really no words to ease the pain for you. I know that feeling of wanting to do it one more time. You are an amazing and talented woman and I hope that you can find happiness with the good things in your life!

lisadcb - I am happy that your cyst was inactive! Yay! hopefully you get lots of eggs this time. You are so sweet! I feel connected with everyone here too. I really wish we could all get BFP's.

kitty - looking good that one on the right is getting big. Do you have a date for your trigger and ER yet?

PA - what a scare today! I would have wanted to ring someone's neck too! 10 follies is great, I hope that there is one good one. I am glad that I found everyone on this board too, it is so much easier to go through the ups and downs with other people. You are strong and tough too sister!

rypell - waiting is horrible. How likely is AF to start on a thursday… seriously, you would think they could fudge it a little.

bei - how are the stims going? any updates?

rio - repeat after me… "it is not twins" and I am sticking to that until proven otherwise.

[EShepherd]

Sophie- I'm so very sorry. You have been through so much, you are so strong to even want to try again. I can't imagine.

Purple- OMG! Congratulations!!! How exciting.

AFM- I had my cycle day 10 meeting and have 4 follies on the Right side and 3 on the Left side. All measure over 16. The dr seemed pleased! My ER is scheduled for Tuesday and my ET is Sunday (May 30). I am so excited and nervous!!

[riogirl71]

Well I think it is a BFP. Yesterday the two nurses that normally call with the news and keep him all organized were not there on Friday. He also starts everyone on the same day of meds so that the whole group of 10 women have ER/ET very close. I was two days early on my cycle so I tested Wednesday when the rest of the group only had their first beta on Friday when I had my second beta. So they were not expecting to call anyone yesterday anyway since they don't call on the first beta (and he had the finance person assisting him). So I think he just screwed up and they close early on Fridays. That's what I am chosing to believe that it was a complete oversight and not some crazy reason. He is not one to be cautious about bad news and one time he sat there with me and went over someone else's chart with me thinking it was me, but when he said I had you on the highest dose of meds possible, I asked to look at my chart and it was of a different person! So I am keeping a super PMA that we are BFP and tomorrow we will have confirmation of two betas and if they call the third beta!!! I am very PUPO!!!

Eshepherd - 7 follies is great! especially if they are all close in size! Mature eggs woohoo!

purple - "it is not twins!" I am chosing to think my levels are fine and they are just scatterbrained I am keeping a super PMA!

bei - thank you sweetie!

rypell - come on AF!!!!

PAFA - what a relief!!!! Congrats and may those eggs mature very nicely!

PMA - I am sending you a PM

[lisa32]

Hi Girls, third time lucky me writing this arrrrrrrrrggggggg,

Those of you who dont know I did my ET on Sun 16th May which was at the blast stage, then on Wed 19th May in the evening I start to bleed very lightly so of course I write on here for help and advice which I got and was very gratefull. Then first thing Thurs morning just after 8am I called The Hospital in London were im having my treatment only to realise I had to leave a message and someone was to call me back. I was so frustrated as I wanted to know then what may be going on. So I carried on through the day felt a few pains and cramps with the dredded blood still there but could handle it, so to take my mind off it I went shopping with my friend for a few hours with plenty of rest breaks. Went round my friends afterwards then got the call from the hospital. I explained to the nurse what was happining she said ' well rest for the next 3 days fri, sat and sun and hopefully the bleeding will stop. If the bleeding is not that bad there is nothing to worry abt at this stage but if it gets heavier and your pad gets to much then there is a good chance that it is a negative but you wont know the proper result untill you do the test on the 27th may'. So you can imagine I was crushed by that answer and cryed me eyes out. That night I stayed at my friends house as my DP had to work nights. The next few days still bleeding and no change and still today the same.

On a good note I found out that when my nan was preggo with my mum she had 3 periods before she knew she was pregg as she realised she was getting a bit fat lol,

Then my aunt was bleeding when she was pregg with twins but did lose one but still had my cousin,

And my mum see a T.V documentry on IVF and a girl was also bleeding from the very begginging and still had a baby,

So maybe as it runs through the family that could be the same for me who knows hey!!!!

But some days its good then some are bad, last night I cryed myself to sleep, I was home alone and just cryed so hard my throat hurt and went to sleep. I have never in my life felt so low and down but its really good I can talk to you guys as you all know exactly how I feel and know what its like to have your dreams just shattered when all you want is one tiny little thing to make your life complete and is the one thing you try so desperatly to have but can not. I know not all of us are perfect and all have so many lovely qualitys but just that one little thing to put a smile on our faces would be the best thing ever but hey if its ment to be it will happen I trully believe that. Sorry for my blog to be such a sad one but I had to say it as once again its been a bad few days for me. Speak to you all soon. xxxxxxxxx

[riogirl71]

lisa - keep the PMA - remember until May 27th you are PUPO, pregnant until proven otherwise! A little bleeding is ok and many girls have gone on to get a bfp after a little bleeding. This is very emotional but try to keep a PMA through it. I hope you get your little miracle!