Winter Cycle Friends 2009/2010 - Everyone Welcome!

[Stephanieford78]

Lou - Fingers and toes Lou... fingers and toes are crossed! Hard to type, but I have them all crossed. lol Glad vaca went well! Just what you needed!! Hope the hysteroscopy goes well and everything is on track. Also hope you get those results back for some peace of mind.

Katie - Yes, I am so darn smart! lol I have been told so many times that I should be a counselor or in psych in some way. I know so much because I read a lot and pay attention. I had an ex with some behavior issues and his whole family had something mentall wrong with them. This intrigued me and that began me in wanting to know why people do and say the things they do. Isn't it funny that the girl is the bed hog?? lol Figures in a way that the girl would be the one wanting to cuddle though huh? My stomach is even bigger on my right side because of it. Now we know why, but at first we thought maybe she wasn't growing or something. Glad to know she just loves her brother.

Oh my with Gracie and getting her in the car. Funny how you got the vet to help! Good thing though, you can't be lifting 10 pounds let alone 130!!! I think I would prefer getting her a doggie labiaplasty. lol Rather then wiping each and every time she goes. Sounds like a pain in the arse.. or vajayjay in this case. Ok, bad joke. lol

[angelaezra]

Lou – I am so happy to hear from you and glad that you enjoyed your vacation! So it looks like you will be cycling in July … that is awesome! Please keep us updated.

Angela

[claud662]

Hi Ladies!

Gi-YAH for a baby girl!!! Kayla is such a beautiful name! That's so exciting

Steph-so glad you got to see your little ones! That must have been such a relief! I'm also happy that Andrew is getting things straightened out with his therapy sessions and his days off that are owed to him.

Angela-I hear you about being nervous weaning off something that has been such a comfort! I was the same way with progesterone but I went off at week 13 and haven't spotted since (knock on wood)

Babyluv-I can't wait to hear what gender the other baby is! When do you go back?

Katie-I had a chuckle when I read your post because having a hundred pound lab and seeing him when he is medicated is too funny! I am also envisioning you carrying toilet paper on your walks with Gracie!!!

Lou-so good to hear from you! I have to PM u back tomorrow regarding the shipping of meds:)

Sara-hope your school year is coming to an end!

AFM-my mom took me out for my birthday which was the end of April and we went to lunch, went shopping, and had facials! It was so nice to be pampered but unfortunately these headaches that have started to visit me re-emereged:( I also have to be honest...all of these late term misscarriages have gotten me really freaked out. I have been so paranoid this past week and I'm trying to not worry. I just can't wait till baby Flick starts to flutter!

[Arabsrcool]

Hi girls! Just wanted to say thank you for all the words and prayers, I appreicate them all. Well, its all done. It was a total clusterfuc*. After finding out at doc's ofc that the heart had stopped beating, doc said here is a prescription and he would call the hospital and make arrangements for induction (baby was too big to have a d&c). So I picked up my meds and went home to wait for phone call as to when to go to hospital. WEll nurse called 2x, last time at 5:30 pm and said doc is still in surgery and I will make sure he calls you. WEll at 8 pm, I finally had the physician paging service call. Another doc in the practice called back, he knew what had happened with my baby and asked what my instructions were. I told him 4 tabs in vjj before bed. He said not to do that, I would hemmorage and end up in ER in middle of the night. He gave me new instructions and told me to be at hospital at 9 am Tuesday. Well, tabs in vjj didn't get things going so I had to have 2 shots in thighs that relax all the smooth muscles in your body, including your colon so I got the poops on top of everything else. Had 2 morphine shots because it was so painful. baby finally comes out at 3 pm, but placenta is not. More meds then at 5 pm, doc goes in to try and get it out otherwise I have to have D&C. I think he was trying to take out my tonsils, it was so painful, even with the morphine. I just wanted to die. After all that, they said you can go home soon. Then my fever spiked to 102, so I had to spent the night and most of yesterday in hospital. My baby was so tiny and perfect. No obvious reason why the heart stopped beating. I am just an emotional mess. Physical mess too. I am pretty much limited to doing nothing, not even driving for 7 to 10 days because of all the stress my body went under. All the hospital staff and doc kept saying this normally doesn't happen this far into pregnancy. I think it is especially hard knowing there will not be any more trys for us. That was the last of our embryos and this was my last baby and I wanted it so bad. Now I am stuck at home, cannot even pick up my youngest or do anything to keep my mind and body occupied. They really cautioned me not to do much or I can hemmorage and again end up in ER. I am just trying to focus on my two precious girls and I know I am very lucky to have both of them, but it doesn't take away the pain from this loss. We named the baby Jesse.

I will check in with all of you and I pray all of you have a good rest of your pregnancy and a nice healthy baby (babies) at delivery. I probaby will not post much, its just too hard.

Kim,

Of course I remember you. I really appreciate your kind words and hope that you will get your baby you want. God Bless you!

Ronda

[lycase]

gi - yes it's pretty quiet right now just doing the sign language every tuesdays and so dh want to sign up the kids for more music/signing lessons at night. I would love to make a band with them like the Jonas' brothers or Michael's Jacsons 5.

Katie - yes I hope next time it's the other one or I will change place for sure.

Your fatigue comes from being 20w pg $630 dollars looks like when I used to have a cattery and each time I went to the vet it was a ridiculous amount... but you got to pay right ! so do you think it's a good solution they gave you are you happy with that and will it help the situation? you had to push her in the vehicule that was too funny I hope you are ok and glad you got help. boy oh boy

lou - glad to see you had a great holliday and you deserve it so much. Love and romance is always good. I am glad you are not giving up girl... I believe that you can do it. Hugs.

claud - I think we will all worry about our babies until the end. Specially those of you who never carried to term yet... that is the hardest part of it all. But we got to stay strong and just keep a good watch and pray. So we are all doing that and lets hope the board stays that way now.

Ronda - oh dear how aweful and painful. I am so sorry about Jesse's little heart stopping for no reason. But their had to be a reason... So it was a girl then? I have no more words to say other then I will continu praying for you dear and that you can heal and find peace somehow with all of this and not being able to try again. Hugs we will be thinking of you dear!!!

AFM - Job testing this afternoon. I hope I am ready for it but am sure I will fail like all the other times. The pay would be sucsk but it comes with coverage, insurance and vacation Dh wants us to get it we shall see.

Hugs to everyone.

Helene

[katie99]

Lou - Oh, honey I've missed you so much! I'm so happy that you're back and that your vacation was hopefully a healing time for you and your DH. I'm sure he let you know exactly how much you mean to him. I'm curious about your SIL's results also, but I sure do understand why either way she is in no hurry to talk about it. I'm sure you'll hear soon enough. I'll have everything crossed for your hysteroscopy today to be painfree and all clear. Darn right I've been thinking of you and am ready to check up on you to cheer you on. Its just not the same without you. And you know I'll be following you whether you join franny's summer thread or start a "vets" thread. much love - xoxoxo

Ronda - I am just heartbroken for you. Again, I cant tell you how sorry I am for this tragedy to happen to you. I know how long of a haul it was to get there, but to have it taken away is more than one woman should bear. You stay strong and hug those 2 precious girls, I think they will help you pull through this nightmare. We will always be here for you. Please take good care of yourself right now, you dont need to be back in the ER. Big hugs to you my friend - xoxo

hugs & prayers to all of us - xoxo

[malya324]

Ronda, unfortunatly I understand how you feel. The whole thing is just so scary and the uncertainty of what to do next is almost unbareable. Please PM me if you ever want to talk about it. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. People are going to tell you how brave and strong you are, please believe them even if it doesn't feel like that now. Love your family, its all you have control over. I hope you heal quickly and that the next few weeks take it easy and ask for help no matter how hard it is. I am so sorry that you have to go through this, I wish non of us do. Please don't hesitate to message me at any time. I hope I can be there for you as some of there great women have been there for me.

Much love and prayer
Malya

[hjw]

Hi ladies, I'm so sorry not to have been on here for a while, but I ended up staying at my parents for a little longer than expected and have only come home for a few days, which have been full of trying to catch up on chores before I go back up to my parents. My Dad's biopsy went smoothly last Friday, thank goodness. We'd previously been told that results would take about 2 weeks but they told us after the biopsy that they were processing them as urgent in 2-3 working days, so Dad has an appointment tomorrow to go and see a doctor and his Macmillan nurse to find out the prognosis and what options there are. Apparently when they did the biopsy, there was evidence of the lymph nodes around the pancreas being affected, but not (so far) any of the surrounding organs. We know that it's not going to be good news (my limited research into pancreatic cancer makes for scary reading) but we're obviously hoping not to hear the worst possible prognosis. I know that a huge thing for Dad is still being around to meet his first grandchild in September, so as a minimum I'm praying for that. We're heading up to my parents again tomorrow - I'm not sure how long we'll stay this time, but I'll update you as/when we get back home.

As for Zorba, all is going well - he/she is getting more and more active as each week passes, and is wiggling or kicking on and off more or less all the way through the day and night - looks like I'm going to have a livewire on my hands come September! I can't believe I'm at 27 weeks already and there's only 13 weeks to go. My next midwife appointment is next Wednesday, when they are going to redo all my blood tests, but I'm not expecting any problems. If only I could shift this heartburn, I'd be very happy. It's getting progressively worse (and I'm not expecting things to get any better in the third trimester) so Gaviscon (hateful stuff) and milk are my friends at the moment...

I'm so sorry not to be able to do personals, but I haven't been able to keep up to date with all your news as normal. I will try and do better once tomorrow is over with, I promise! In the meantime, I'm thinking of you all so much, and trying to follow your posts as often as I can.

Hazel

[hjw]

Ronda - I did catch your most recent posts and was heartbroken to read what happened. I just can't find the words to tell you how sorry I am, and I so wish that you didn't have to go through that. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, I hope you manage to find some peace and healing soon. Thinking of you, H x

[natasha10]

rhonda- I am so sorry to hear your loss. that message just broke my heart. you are in my prayers and thoughts.

angela- i just went to my dentist today for my 6 month cleaning and they told ' oh it looks like your due for some xrays of your teeth. i said even though im pregnant. she replied abosulely not.' so im definetly glad you refused yours last week. that office was full of idots. i thought of you when she asked me about xrays because of your experience

natasha

[lycase]

Hazel - well sorry about your dad again I hope it is NOT the worse. I don't believe it is... just too whird how it happened? Glad baby is doing great and 27 weeks girl you are out of danger already. So you can try and relax more if you can. don't worry about personals we are all helping each other.

AFM - Just got back from my testing and I did it in 1hr instead of 3hr. I should definitly pass this test unless there was something in the package I didn't see?? So this is not only a job but also a pool which means I will be in a pool where the Gov can come and pick me anytime and so kinda guarantied a permanent job... YAY!!! My dh says I could go on maternity leave with my new baby finally after all those years without mat leave. I would enjoy that... they would have to hire me pretty quickly though so I can have the time to put in to go Wish me luck. It would be less then half what I make now but with benefits and I would still continu working from home if I had the opportunity without telling anyone

Hugs to everyone.

Helene

[lycase]

Double post sorry

[gi]

Hi girls,

Lou so glad to hear from you i miss your posts. I am delighted to hear you and dh had a nice hols its important to spend quality time together after a loss, after my last loss it was my 30th and my family and j and I went away for a couple days and it was great, sad as i should have been pg for my 30th but still gave us hope of how happy we could be. I cant wait to follow your next cycle xxx

Ronda ah you poor divil having to go thro all that its just so unfair and heartbreaking, i do remember you saying it was the last of your frosties and that makes it so sad. Take comfort in your 2 little miracles they will pull you thro. the heartache and little Jesse will be your guardian angel forever xxxx

Claud know exactly how frightened you feel hopefully our little ones will move soon to reassure us.

Hazel will keep your dad in my prayers that its not as bad as they think and that he will get to have some precious moments with Zobra.

AFM still celebrating our news!! My bump is really starting to grow and is right under my boobs now and sometimes can be uncomfortable which is a strange feeling. Also not sure if i am feeling the baby move as i dont know what to look for but thought i have felt a little "thump" but it was over so quick i was like ???? Has happened about 3 times in the last wk so maybe hopefully she will let her presence be known.....oh that is so weird saying she!!!! Oh and i have a confession to make had to make it to jason 1st, as ye all know i have been terrified (still am) of this pregnancy but when i found out i was pregnant i made myself be optimistic (though i know i didnt show it!) so every week from week 4 I bought my little one a present i hid 2 drawers of baby clothes on jason, he was very emotional when i finally showed him, oh they are so cute and tiny i even got bibs and little socks!!! So i confessed to my mam and she had her own confession she has already bought stuff (nappies etc) and hid them in her attic!!! I am still nervous but not superstitious but loving every minute of this miracle pregnancy though i think i will leave the nursery for a while longer!!

gi xxx

[bei]

gi - hi hope u doing great now u will be 16 or 18 week pregnant right i m happy for u sweetie thanks for all advice u gave to me i realy appriciate anyways when is ur due date

[gi]

Hey bei,

I was only just reading on the other site your good news!! Congrats i was wondering how you were doing as you hadnt logged on in a while sorry to hear of the ohss but so late after transfer its always a good sign!!!! And what a beta you never know could be twins!!! Are you still on the metformin??? How is it going? Oh i am soooo delighted to see you on this side of the boards, i really hope and pray you have a safe and healthy pregnancy. Thanks for asking my due date is 14th Nov. but hopefully she will hold out till the 17th as its my birthday then either way will be best birthday Present Ever

gi xxx