Tracey
I nearly didn't make it back from Asda as I was so enraged with a girl I know who works there. I haven't spoken to her for about a year and she talks incessently about herself it's all her, her, her. She has a 4 year old son.
But, amazingly she did ask me if I had any kids yet. I told her I had a little baby girl 11 weeks ago and that unfortunately she died and she just shrugged and said 'Oh well, I've had 9 miscarriages and thats REALLY bad isn't it'? Like me having a fully formed baby which died isn't bad then? She really pi$$ed me off.
Then she said "Did IT (It, not 'her' IT(!)) die inside you"? I said no 3 minutes after she was born and she just said "Oh well, you can have another one".
F**K I was so angry I just shouted "Well I f***ing can't you stupid b!tch" and stormed out. I was shaking and felt like ramming my fist down her throat. I am not a violent person by any stretch of the imagination but this really upset me. I don't remember driving home and went straight to Katelyn's grave and sobbed.
I have calmed down now after talking it through with my best friend who knows her too and she put it all into perspective for me.
Sorry for rambling but thought I would tell you as I can't believe how many insensitive comments I can get in a space of a few weeks.
Any how I hope today will be better. My friend STILL hasn't had her baby, she's HUGE! I had a dream last night that she had a boy weighing 9lb 10oz and they called him Fenton!! What's that all about??
Love Dagny xkx
Ps Sorry Marcus for the swearing but I am sooooo angry
