Summer cycle group

[lou71]

Margi -- we were posting at the same time. I'm so happy that your number is rising. That is certainly encouraging. Hey... it is a very tough process, but we IVF ladies are the toughest around. Hope you continue to get good news.

[klinger13]

Margi - congrats on the rising betas! Sorry you have to wait until Monday for another draw but hopefully Monday will bring you more wonderful news!

Didi - good luck with your beta today!

Amanda - I don't know if I could pass up POAS. Of course, I buy the internet cheapies in bulk LOL. At 22 cents a piece I don't feel bad about burning through them in my 2WWs.

Ryann - Sorry to hear about your dad, hopefully he gets better soon.

Tammy - sorry you're suffering from Lupron headache, but thanks for thinking of doing the AF dance for me

Lou - glad your 1st u/s showed some good follies already! And yes, I'm so glad the meds arrived just fine so I didn't have the added stress you had to deal with.

[turtle0619]

lou 8 good size follies on your first scan is GREAT!!!! i know what its like to not want to get too excited but i can be excited for you!!! grow follies grow!!! and while i'm at it...i might as well cheer on those smaller ones to wake up too!!! i think thats a great report! let us know what the RE says!! love ya xoxo

afm i've been on and off crying and dealing. sunday was a great day for the most part. it is so beautiful and peaceful up there its hard not to be relaxed. me and DH ran off to an empty bedroom so i could ice and get my PIO shot, and we got a few questions as to what we were doing when we came back downstairs and we just kinda ignored them haha...make them wonder right?? a few hard parts where when all the lil ones kept running around saying "da-da and ma-ma" and i looked at DH one time and he looked sad and it broke my heart that he doesnt get to be the "da-da"...then on top of our 8 friends there were 2 other couples there and both the woman were pregnant for the 2nd time (one of them is 3 months pregnant and has a 9 month old baby girl which blew my mind) so after dinner all us girls were sitting around the dinning room table and they all started talking about babies and being pregnant...i had nothing to add to the conversation, but i sat there for a long time listening. i was doing pretty good until one of my friends said she wasnt going to have anymore children unless it was a mistake. i dont know why but it got to me. maybe its because they take these things for granted and have no idea what some of us would go through to have a family...to joke about it made me mad and sad. of course they dont know what ive been through so its not really their fault, but i had to get up from the table and lock myself in the bathroom for a while and i had a mini breakdown cry-fest, but then i had to pull myself together. i went and hung out with the guys who where talking about sport, movies, and music....much more my type of conversation!
i'm still spotting, and i have no other symptoms..except my emotions are making me feel like a crazy person. (i blew up at DH for no reason the other day, and it felt like i had an out of body experience..i was watching myself freak out and say all this crazy stuff that didnt even make sense, but i couldnt stop myself from doing it!) luckily DH knows its the hormones and stayed very calm and told me it was ok. i'm sure the stress isnt helping my crazy mood swings either. i never yell at DH! we hardly ever fight, and i felt terrible i took it out on him over nothing.
is it thursday yet so i can just be done with this??

[dlk]

Franny: I so understand. About 6 weeks ago when I was still on bcps, DH and I went to a banquet for his work. We randomly set down and then guess who sat with us. 1 couple I know fairly well who have a 2 yo and that night I found out she was 12 weeks along with #2, another couple I know so-so who were 5 months along with her 1st, and another couple I barely knnow who just had the 3rd. So for 2 hours the dinner conversation was all about what books to read, the best car seat, how the 2 with kids were going to through the new mom a shower, blah, blah. I had to go to the bathroom a couple times myself. Seriously, there were about 20 tables of 8 at the banquet and I think the only preggos were at my table. We did mingle about after and all the other people I know kept joking "Better not drink out of the wrong glass at that table", "you might catch something sitting at that table." I had to smile and laugh while I secretly pray that it would be true. (no one knows were are even trying much less having struggles). The tears streamed as soon as we hit the dark parking lot. And once in the car, I sobbed all the way home. The deep can't breathe sobs. All night long. I so understand!

Miyaya: I am so so sorry honey. Hope 1 of the 2 will be the "one".

Ryann: So sorry about your dad. I hope he gets better soon.

AFM: I have been quiet for a reason. I didn't want to get hopes up (mine or all of yours). I POAS Sunday and a super faint line came up right away- the kind you sort of have to squint at but even DH said "looks like a faint line". Then Monday POAS a definant faint line that even a stranger would agree is there. Today about the same (athough when I collected in a cup I was upset because my morning pee wasn't as concentrated as before.) Lab today (and I had to wait about 30 minutes because I wasn't on the official schedule). Anyway, the nurse just called. POSTIVE 161!!! Yeah! Although last night I woke up in the middle of the night with awful cramps, but so far no bleeding so hopefully all is good. Next beta on Thursday. Hopefully our run of bad luck is over and we will have lots of good news this week!

Off to meet a friend for lunch. Will do more personals later.

[klinger13]

Didi - great news! Congrats on an awesome first beta!!

[moorebaby]

franny - oh honey! i just want to drive up to new hampshire & give you a huge hug! i'm so sorry you're feeling like this. what was said at the dinner table is ignorant & disgusting! people have no clue! i'm so sorry you blew up at dh, but i'm so glad that he is so understanding. please don't give up...the spotting can be implantation & i know you said that during all of your cycles you spotted & the results weren't good. but each cycle is different. i'm praying so hard for you! you & dh deserve this so much!

klinger13 (amanda)- come on af....show your evil face! where are you?

lou- those are great results for your 1st u/s! i'm very happy for you...grow follies grow! i love bon jovi! i went to the concert w/ my sil & friend back in march this year & 2 years ago at mohegan in ct....loved it! have fun!

margi- welcome! great doubling beta #s...very happy for you! you poor thing...waiting until monday definitely stinks, but the result will be so worth it! are you feeling any preggo symptoms?

fitzjr11- glad your follies are growing & the b/w & u/s are all going good! sorry about the bruising...are you injecting in the belly? that's where i inject & i try to switch sides from left to right of the belly button, but eventually bruises still appear. booh!

karin- i'm really sorry about what's going on...i feel so bad! i hope your journey to find a donor is quick & as stress-free as possible. i'm thinking of you!

amanda1979- yes, the 2ww stinks & is never-ending! so your beta is monday, 8.2? crossing fingers that what you felt was implantation cramping (it would be the right timing)...stick embies stick!

ryann- i'm so sorry about your father's health...i'm praying for him. my father also had cholesterol & heart issues...i worry about him a lot. i can definitely see how you're questioning whether the stress will negatively affect your upcoming ivf cycles. however, i also feel that stressful events in our life come w/out warning (unfortunately), so you just never know. so if you decide to start when af gets here, how much will you cycle continue into the school calendar? i think i may run into the 1st week...not sure, all depends on when af gets here (sooner than later hopefully!) & how long it takes before i go into er. i really hope your dad gets better & gets to become a grandpa very soon!

tammy- i give you so much recognition on how much you have on your plate! that is truly remarkable how you do it all! i think women like you are amazing! so glad that your meds finally showed up! let us know how your sns went today. i hope this cycle is identical to your last one w/ an exception of 1 thing....your pregnancy is a happy & healthy one

chris- i'm praying for a great result for you tomorrow! please don't give up hope!

miyaya- i'm so sorry about your fert report! i'm thinking of you right now...it is a little after 12 & you will be going into et soon! you'll be pupo really soon! those 2 embies will be survivors after they settle in & thrive. please enjoy your time w/ your son during this 2ww & let it relax & soothe you. i am so glad that you decided to go through w/ this cycle. i'm crossing everything that you & dh will get your 2nd miracle & a sibling for you son.

lauren1171- is your er still scheduled for next thursday, 8.5 or is it looking like it'll be here sooner? yes, when i went to see bon jovi the last 2 times....too many new songs! but i still had so much fun!

annpage- your beta #s are excellent! i'm so happy for you! can't wait to hear the results of your next u/s.

chili- yay! i'm so happy you're starting & continuing the fun!

annashope- please stay positive! your beta #s are increasing nicely! can't wait to hear the results of next week's u/s. how are you feeling?

ashley- hey girl! how are you? are you stimming yet?

amaut- where did you go? did you decide w/ fresh or frozen?

nbfun (nancy)- you're out for the er & feel nothing! you may feel af-like cramping afterwards, but if you take it easy & take some ibuprofen, you'll be fine the next day. so what's the update on you? when do you think you'll be starting?

lauren- how are you? is af still due around the 29th?

didi- congrats! very happy for you & dh!

sher- how are you doing? when's your beta?

tiger- thinking of you. how is everything?

gen- welcome! yes, lots of waiting during this crazy rollercoaster!

sonya- oh sweetie, i'm so sorry! i feel awful! this is so unfair! i hope you & dh take the time you need to heal & decide what's next. (((HUGS)))

kbillsy- welcome! sorry about your previous cycles...i hope this is the one!

katie- i know you'll be crashing here sometime soon! please keep popping in! pretty soon you'll be in the single digits countdown...how exciting!

sunshine and stars- i understand your worries & concerns. i'm praying that everything will turn out good & you will have a happy & healthy pregnancy!

i know i missed some of you....i'm thinking of all of you!

afm...well, fl was awesome! it was very relaxing. we also stopped at dh's mom's in ga...she lives on lake sinclair...we had a blast going on the boat & watertubing. now it's back to reality! dh did his b/w the wednesday before we left for vacation, so it's now up to date. i was due for my annual pap before i could start this cycle, so i had that done yesterday & let me tell you all about it, lol! my gyno's office couldn't get me in w/ my regular doctor, so they scheduled me w/ their newest doctor in the practice. well, let me tell you...can we say HOT!!! to make matters worse, he had to do the pap TWICE. he didn't realize that my re's office wanted it very detailed & tested for other things besides the routine ones...haha! i ordered my baby-in-a-box last night & it'll be here tomorrow. af is due monday..i moved myself on the list (feels good!) i'm cautiosly optimistic about this upcoming cycle.

[moorebaby]

-amaut- Fresh or FET w/ 2 frosties???
-nbfun (Nancy)
-Lauren (U/s and b/w & start estrogen on 7.20. Expect AF sometime around 7.29 & back in for more u/s and b/w. If all is good, injections start around 7.29 & ER week of 8.9)
-gr8countrygirl (Baby-in-a-box is here; ER on or around 8.20)



-rypell 1985 (Ryann)
-blairwh58
-klinger13 (Amanda)- will be doing an IUI
-moorebaby (Ester)



-hopeforbabies (Teresa)- Baby-in-a-box on its way….WOOHOO!!!
-chilipepperrose46



-mcfarland2213 (Ashley)- Lupron as of 7.17
-GoGirl (Gen)- Lupron as of 7.29
-rebeccajm (Lupron as of 7.24)



-Nanci
-JustLikeHannah (Renee’) (ER scheduled for 7.30 w/ 3dt on 8.2 or 5dt on 8.4)
-Lauren1171 (ER on 8.5)
-lou71 (ER/ET should fall the week of 8.2)
-TammyS (Approximate ER is 8.6 & ET is 8.9)
-kbillsy
-fitzjr11 (ER hopefully on 8.5)



-miyaya… ER on 7.25/ET on 7.27



-tohavefun08 (Chris)… BETA on 7.28
-turtle0619 (Franny)… BETA on 7.29
-amanda1979… BETA on 8.2
-Sher…BETA on ???



-maggieluv- Beta: 6.30- 228
-sunshine and stars- Betas 7.12- 586/ 7.14- 1449
-annpage- Beta: 7.17- 281/ 7.19- 577/ 7.26- 6,309
-annashope- Betas: 7.17- 28.5/ 7.19- 46/ 7.23- 148
-rlk1 (Kim)… CONGRATS YOU SNEAKY GIRL!!!
-margi26- Betas: 7.20- 21/ 7.22- 38/ 7.26- 140
-dlk (Didi)- Beta: 7.27- 161

on your journey

-Tiger04
-karin1
-DandMe (Sonya)

[katie99]

Franny - Aw, honey I hate to hear you being so upset by insensitive fertile women who just dont have a clue as to what we fetility challenged girls have to endure to acheive what they can do without even trying! Surely we are all stronger women for having gone through the hoops with all this, appts, meds, raging hormones, not even mention financially. Bless Barry for being able to recognize that its not his franny having a fit, but just a hormonal overload. I'm still crossed for your results, but I'm not going to say any more since I know how no one could tell me anything during the 2ww, but I will remind you that I was absolutely convinced that it hadnt worked the entire last week. Big hugs to you my friend - xoxoxo

Lou - Yippeee for a great first SnS, hoping that all those follies wake up! its good news about all those twinges too, it always reminded me of feeling like a popcorn maker during stims! I'm happy you had a great time at Bon Jovi, I have a friend that I think would follow him around the country if she could. You just take it easy though, you deserve to. Are you still working crazy hours? You're doing great so far!

Chris - I'm holding out for you tomorrow, no one deserves it more - xoxo

Miyaya - i'm sorry that you were disappointed, but it only takes 1, rest up and let them snuggle in where they belong!

Tammy - Whew! You sure do have alot going on right now, and stimming isnt easy with the appts, meds, hormonal surges, and on top of all that to have Zach all by your self? You are so strong! Soon your DH's job will let him be home more, just hang on a bit longer - xoxo

Es - Glad you had a great vacation! You're so close now! is your DH ready for his part in this? if i remember correctly, he didnt stress too much last time and it went well, crossed for him too! Umm, gulp, yes I'm getting closer now, and it is exciting, but a little scary too. I still feel like I dont belong in the baby stores, but I guess thats normal when it takes this darn long to get pg, right? - xoxo

Good luck to you all - xoxoxo

[gr8countrygirl]

Ladies,

I do apologize for not doing well with the personalized replies,I but I would like to thank everyone of you for sharing your stories. I am truly amazed at the determination and strength found among this group and I am so inspired by all of you and you all are in my prayers. Again thanks so much for being honest!

My progress update: I started BCP July 19, Last one last night. Lupron started the 25..1st to shots hardly even realized I gave myself a shot..today's hurt a tad..don't think I didn't it quick enough. I must admit..i was really freaked out when the box arrived, but after the lupron started, I am feeling a little more confident..I know the upcoming shot will be harder, but for today all is well in my world. The next dr appointment is aug 5 to check for suppression.

I have a question....you ladies refer to BETAs...I assume this is like hormone levels that indicate implantation....at what point is the cycle considered not viable...do you always assume good until a BFN...or aunt Flow? I am sorry if this is a stupid question.

with all my prayers and positive thoughts to all!
Carol

[karin1]

Didi...Congrats on your BFP! I am so happy for you!


It's so nice to hear some good news today!

[claud662]

Just wanted to pop in and say a wooh hooh to Lou for a great first sns report! Sending you tons of growing dust your way and I truly hope you have tons of follies at the end if this! Xoxo

Franny-like Katie said I know more than anyone the ups and downs of this process as well as being mad at our bodies for spotting EVERY month but I do have everything crossed for you and I also was convinced I was gettting/had my period both times I got a BFP and didn't feel different. In fact I had convinced myself too many times before that I had pregnancy symptoms and wasn't pregerrs and when I finally was I had NO symptoms. Love to you and Barry and keep your head up babe.

[jenice]

Franny - I'm so sorry you had to tolerate such ignorant people !!!! I have been there many times over the years. When family members would say " you can have one of mine if you want " just stupid insensitive remarks and it is hard turn a deaf ear when they just won't shut up !!!! I'm crossing my fingers for you. BTW, when I was preggo this time I had no symptoms, kept feeling my boobs thinking if they are not sore I'm not pregnant. I was wrong. I be thinkin of you, hugs

[miyaya]

hi. well ET is over. We almost did not go through with it but decided that if we did not, we would always wonder. Sadly, only 1 embie made the night. So we transferred a 6 cell, moderate frag and fairly symmetrical embie today. Transfer was horrible. My cervix curves and my section scar got in the way. They had to try 3x. The doc said chances were low but there was still a chance. He said just a few weeks back he transferred a 4 cell C grade on day 2 and she is now preggars with twins. While I hope this one sticks around, I know the chances are slim. I do have to say though, I was really upset with my doc. Today at transfer I had the Director of the fertility clinic do it....he said, out of my 12, only 6 were mature.....he said he did not suspect quality issues but that they triggered too soon! I knew it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean, the nurse kept saying 24 follies but my e2 was only 1800....duh.....when I triggered for DS, my follies were at least a 23 and a 24mm. I am just one that needs to be pushed further. So DH and I are not sure if this is it. But I can tell you one thing, if we need to and if we decide to do another IVF, we are switching RE's.......!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel so angry with him, like they stole my money....I mean all they needed to do was look at my previous cycles to know to push me along further. Chicken shits! (sorry). So beta is 8/9/10 but I have decided to not go unless AF does not come. Chances are slim and money is tight.....

I promise I will catch up soon. I am going to go put my feet up....we had a 4 hour drive there and back....I am pooped!

[lou71]

OK, clinic just called.... and made me nervous. I'm stimming really fast and I need some opinions ladies. I've been on 3 days of stims only and I am to start Ganirelix tonight (antagonist protocol). My E2 was 400 , Progesterone 1.4, LH 1.0. I guess my biggest follie was 15!!!! But the others are 9-11. So now I'm worried that I'll have to trigger too soon for the bulk of them because of the one big one. My RE will NEVER let me go beyond 20-21 mm with the largest. Can anyone tell me how big was their biggest follie when they triggered and whether or not the u/s was on a 2D or a 3D (3D is more exact and measures smaller than the 2D)???? Thanks guys. I have to go back again tomorrow.... I'm not sure why so soon. If I'm starting Ganirelix already... there's no way they could be thinking of triggering me tomorrow, is there???? Ugh! I'm scared I'm going to end up with a bunch of immature eggs. What can I do?

Katie, Claudia, Franny, klinger, and Ester -- Thanks so much for your positive thoughts. I really hope I am off to a good start. I want to see RE tomorrow but he's not in until 9:30AM and I need to go sooner to get to work. Bummer!

Didi -- BIG congrats on your BFP!!!! We needed the good news around here.

miyaya -- I am keeping everythig crossed for your embie. I guess it's good to hear that maybe you don't have an egg quality issue after all but I understand how frustrated you are if that's the case. I'm worried about my trigger too. I triggered last time too soon as well and got about a 50% maturity rate. I don't want that to happen again. RE told me that timing the trigger is really important. My RE has two offices and the one that's farther from my house has the 3D ultrasound machine. There's literature out there showing that the trigger shot timing is better estimated when the u/s are done on a 3D machine. I think after tomorrow I will insist on going the distance to have that done.

[turtle0619]

didi OMG!!! what an awesome beta #!!! wooohoooo!! i'm so happy for you. congrats mama!!

miyaya grrrrr i am so mad at your RE right now!! i am so sorry. i'm glad you were able to put one back...ya never know! if i didnt believe it only took one, i'd be screwed because thats all i EVER get! keep the faith mama, and hold your DS close! xoxo

chris good luck tomorrow!! thinking of you always!!

lou i wish i knew about stimming more. since i only get one follie its hard for me to know when to trigger. they usually trigger me when my lead follie is at 18mm. one of the times i was canceled was because of a dominant follie and that was at 20mm when the other ones were only at 13mm...i was told there was no time for them to catch up. of course this was before we realized i only get one follie a cycle anyway so we shoulda just gone for it...oh well... good luck hun...sorry i'm not much help! i cant imagine you would trigger so soon...i'm thinking friday maybe?? still really fast!

to everyone else...you all are so nice to me! i'm serious it makes me feel less alone and scared. i come on here and i vent ALOT! by now you guys could easily ignore my rants and craziness, or tell me to shut up, but you dont. i guess sometimes i use this board as a journal or an outlet, and then after i post it i worry that i said too much, and that nobody cares about my mental hysterics. I am so lucky to have found such a wonderful supportive place to come. i feel like i tell you all more then i even tell my best friend. thats crazy, but awesome at the same time. thank you all so much for your love and support. i know i'm going to need a lot of it this week so i'm trying not to ask for too much too soon!! ((((((((((so much love to all my IVF sisters!))))))))))))))))))