not doing so good

[Susan L]

HI all sorry to be so depressing but feeling really down

This week i will be 9 wks PG which im very happy about

BUT feeling so confused and unsure about everything
on my 6 wk scan everything looked good but no heart beat and was told that would probably see it at the next scan so went to the 8 wk scan last thursday thinking i would see the heart beat and it was not there but everything had grown about 3 times over since the last scan so the doc said not to worry at the moment but come back in a week and if its not there then to start worrying well tomorrow is the scan day and im so scared im not going to see the heart beat and what they will do i just dont want to go.

A few people i have told say but if it had no heart beat surely it would not grow but i just dont no what to think or when i do its horrible thoughts that i dont what to think i feel like im driving myself crazy i want to no but i dont.

im trying to be positive but fimding it really hard and i no there are people that are worse of than me just cant seem to speak to anyone as im trying to look strong and dont want to burst into tears as i want to

sorry again for being so depressing
hoping to have better news tomorrow

susan

[bina]

Hi Susan,
I sooo understand what you must be going through - the whole process is exciting and utterly frightening at the same time, isn't it?
I'm sooo sorry you feel down and depressed about the heartbeat issue and I don't really know enough about it, but surely it's a great sign that your emby has grown so much! You're at the Wolfson clinic as well, aren't you? Maybe you could ask for one of the senior IVF doctors to do your scan, because some of them are really quite junior and a bit clueless, aren't they (I had this girl who looked like a 12-year-old yesterday so requested someone else for my next scan; they cannot promise, but the receptionist did put a note in my appointment that I did NOT want the one I had). This might give you some more confidence in the actual scan? It could just be that they are crap at looking?
I still think that it must all be OK if everything is growing at the right pace and into the right size!
Don't think this has helped you, but rest assured I'll be thinking of you - wishing you the very very best of luck that you'll be able to see that heartbeat and enjoy your pregnancy!
Sending you happy thoughts and loads of good luck wishes,
bina

[Tracey S]

Susan

I understand totally where you are coming from - seem to have written this for Bina, Caz and Gem recently! IT is such a worry all of it.

My clinic tend not to scan until 7.5 weeks plus which is a nightmare on the waiting side but better for what they can see. The hearbeat is such an emotive thing - of course it is. You have had 2 scans now and both have found sacs in the right place and right size - the growth is excellent and is absolutely spot on for how it should be. The embryo cannot develop without a heart and a yolk sac (you have not mentioned if they saw this on screen or not) I am sure Jules would not mind me saying that they could not find her heartbeats - she had 2 sacs and one they thought was dodgy - it was several week (9 I think before they got them )Daniel and Charlotte are both healthy 2 year olds!
Keep us posted
Love
Tracey
xxx

[Dagny]

Oh Susan

Please try not to worry, I know it's so hard not to but it's not good for you. Like the others have said it is a good sign that the growth is good and it is in the right place so I expect you will see a heartbeat tomorrow. This is such an emotional time of the pregnancy and you just want someone to tell you it's going to be OK.

I am keeping evrything crossed for you, let us know how you get on.

Love Dagny xkx

[alisonn]

hihi susan, sorry to hear the torture u are going thru at this moment,
wont belong now till trmw, im sure there is nothing to worry about
try and think of the positive side, the little one would not have been
able to grow if there was no heart beat. take care alisonn

[Zed2003]

Hi Susan

Just wanted to say that I am thinking about you and I'm sorry you are feeling so down. As the other girls say, it is positive that everything has grown so well, so hang on to this though until tomorrow.

Take care
Zoe x

[jane]

Hi Susan,
Good luck for tommorrow. I am sure everything will be alright. Tracey's post ( a far more experienced person at this than me) sounded spot on. I can't wait to read your text tomorrow about finally hearing that heart beat.
Love from Sophie-Jane