My best to you. I know it is so hard.
In 2008, at 14 weeks I found out my baby was not viable. So, what I thought would be a fun b-day treat (u/s) was anything but. But, a few months later we did a FET cycle and lo and behold due date was the day after my birthday. That gave me so much strength and happiness. She turned out to be very independent and was born 5 weeks early, no where near my b-day.
Anyway, I just wanted to say my thoughts are with you. Sometimes life can knock you down, and once in a while it picks you back up.