August Frozen Transfer

[Jerseyjane]

Welcome itsmyturn!

Melmar - Yes some clinics go to day 6 expanded/hatching blastocysts. I hope these 2 are the ones that work.

Melo - With my last cycle they retrieved 22 eggs and none made it to day 6 so they didn't freeze any of them so trust me I know how you feel.

AFM - Doctor's office called and said my transfer is scheduled for 12:30 on Thursday but I have to call on Wednesday to confirm and make sure the time hasn't changed.

[kizmet]

Melo - Sorry to hear that none made it to freezing. I know that must be tough. Fingers crossed the ones in your tum are hanging in there!

Jersey - Good luck on Thursday!

Welcome Itsmyturn!

AFM - Feeling less cheerful today. I did have a great dream last night that I POAS and it had two nice pink lines on it. Stupidly POAS'd this morning though and of course, it's just TOO early. Stupid of me. Anyway, I don't think that's why I'm less cheerful, that was expected. I just think the hormones are really starting to drag me down a bit. I burst into tears at the pharmacy because they couldn't fill my progesterone script until tomorrow - not that I need it til next week anyway... Was all teary last night watching an animal rescue show. Then I was teary because the crumbed chops I was cooking weren't cooking very well because the oil was the wrong type and I'd forgotten to get more from the supermarket. Still feel confident that Bean is safe and happy inside me, but just kind of over the pills and stuff.

[Melo_P]

Hi Ladies
Important question - "Does checking this thread and posting messages an increasing number of times per day make the go**am 2ww go any faster?" arrrgghhhh . . . .

Welcome itsmyturn - and yes I reckon your right - it IS your turn! Your first up!! Wahoo - ring in the BFP's for us! Welcome to the shared place of 2ww and transfer wait hell. Does anyone have any fingernails left???

Kizmet - "your a gas" as they don't say in NZ but you know what I mean. Tear streaked crumb chops - tasty I am sure. The whole thing is just massive and crazy behind the scenes. I sometimes don't know how I for so long - (more so in the years before Maia, but also every time I've gone back for more 'throw myself against a wall IVF punishment") -would go to work every day and act normal when there was just so much stuff going on inside - one little prick (like a big sad old animal rescue ;p . . or catching a glimpse of the big scary nappy aisle at the super market) - and the whole thing would come crashing down.

I'm stating the obvious here . . . .its waaaaayyy tooo early to test! But kei te pai if it made you stronger! I found a good-slash-pure crazy site where someone has seriously dedicated their life and 1000's of ours of discussion time to the use of HTP's in a fashion that is beyond "oh interesting hobby" and your a bit strange! However useful tidbits they quote the highest average of true positives occurs on 13.6 DPO, that at 10 DPO - only 10% of pregnancies are detected (!!!! suprised me) and there is a very high % of falst negatives right up until day 12/13, (I'm likin the aint over till the fat lady sings reminder here). They note that you can start probably more reliably testing from around 12pdo.

Jersey Jane - I am with you and in agony on the POAS saga. I so can't face another negative. I don't even know how I want to plan hearing the result. No way boy will take time from work. I just can't face it being over in less than 7 days . Also how crazy and frustrating that they only freeze and defrost in pairs - noahs ark syndrome?? You weren't tempted to only do the 2 and then the next 2 as a backstop?

Melmar - yes its hard to not have anything to fall back on. But also this now my fourth cycle - and I think I've realised the quantity doesn't speak for much for me either, but it would have been nice to have the security. My first IVF I had 8 freeze on day 3 (from 17 egg cohort) - and one was successful. The clinic now since that time are much stricter about what they let go on - and I think only freeze day 5/6 now. But your perfectly right - its why I bucked the trend and insisted I transfered on day 3 - couldn't help thinking maybe these wouldn't have looked so good on day 5 and the clinic wouldn't have transfered - at least this way I am getting to test drive them!!

Amaut - how goes it?

Blair - keeping busy?

AFM: I think I have imagined in my head I felt implantation pricking today - for the next four days I am going to be trying to convince myself that every time the elastic in my pants scratches me (okay thats TMI and unlikely scenario) - its implantation!!

Oh why won't everything hurry up and slow down. I just want the test now and I also never want to get to the day.

M

[kizmet]

Melo - Just thought I'd let you know that checking and posting messages doesn't help. I've tried it. I must have checked here like 15 times since this morning. So glad you posted actually as it has given me an excuse to post again! Facebook can be an equally distracting option, but none the less, doesn't seem to make the day go any faster. I tried actually doing some work at work today - thought that might help. It doesn't. So decided not to bother with work for the rest of the day (although I do have give some water the cane toads - horrible little critters that make me want to throw up).

[blairwh58]

Hello All-

kizmet- sounds like you are trying to stay busy during the miserable 2ww. And even though Im not even in the 2ww, I agree checking this blog and facebook do not help very much. CHeer up though- not too much longer to wait!!

melo- I am hoping that everything youre feeling is implantation. Good luck with the rest of the wait.

jersey- so exciting that you have a transfer time!!! Before you know it you will be PUPO.

melmar- Stay positive. Even though you were the first to cave hopefully your positive will turn up in the next few days.

itsmyturn- Keep us updated. I think you may be one of the firsts to start off all the positives we should see on this board.

AFM- I have been trying to spread out the updates a little since I am one of the more boring people on here and am still just on estrogen and lupron. I am still beyond anxious for my appointment friday and have been marking every day off on a calendar. I am just trying to stay positive and hope my lining is thick enough so we can transfer Tuesday.

[melmar]

Hey everyone! I am glad that I am not the only nut who checks this site all day. I don't have a lot to do since I am off for the summer (not that I am complaining). I have given up on trying not to tax my body-it is impossible! Forget about not being allowed to carry things more than 10 pounds...I am just going about life now as usual and it has taken some of the strain off of the wait as I am usually always on the go. I just find the night the hardest part now. I am a light sleeper as it is, so forget about if something is on my mind. Anyway-just wanted to check in and give y'all something to read on your next peek at the board:)

[Jerseyjane]

Yay! I am so glad I am not the only one who checks all day long, and I am right there with Melmar...off for the summer so why not?

Melo - You always make me laugh and have a wonderful way of making light of this stressful situation. Since my clinic does freeze in pairs (which sucks) I listened to my doctor. He told me they like to put back 2 fresh or 3 frozen so I went along with it stupidly thinking "this will work so who cares?" Silly me.

Kizmet - Don't dreams sometimes suck? I remember with my last fresh cycle, the one that end in miscarriage at 7 1/2 wks. I had a dream that my doctor made a mistake. I was so sure he did and couldn't accept that I would miscarry that I went for a second opinion which gave me the same result. But that was what I needed to move on and deal. I am sorry your test was negative but it really is way too early.

Melmar - You have a great attitude. You are right, it is easier to go about your everyday business rather than be afraid to bend the wrong way, walk too fast, lift too much, blah, blah, blah, good for you I say.

AFM - Thursday is so close and I can't help but be nervous that both my embroys will defrost. The clinic defrosts them early in the morning (day of transfer) so I won't know a thing til I get there. Wouldn't that stink to take all these meds, prepare myself mentally and then show up for a transfer where none have made it. My doctor did assure me that blastocysts have an excellent defrost percentage however I can't help but still be nervous.

[itsmyturn]

Hello everyone,

Melo, what dpt are you? and when are you planning on to test? i also felt like implantation around 3dpt. Gonna check tomorow if it was my imagination.

Jerseyjane, my thought will be with you on thursday. Best of luck!! your 2ww gonna go very fast as it s a late transfer. When are you planning on testing?

kizmet, i also have so many of this dreams, and it feels so real that waking up feels horrible!! what dpt are you? i think it s safe to start testing from 9dp3dt.

Blair, good luck with your appointement on friday.

AFM, Getting closer to poas!!!!i am so excited and so scared at the same time. I just made a list of nice things to do in case it s negative. I am so scared of that empty feeling, desperation etc... my husband is so full of hope, that gave me even more pression. I just know i have to be strong!!! but i don t know if i am any more. I will all keep you posted. big xxxxxxxxxxx

[kizmet]

Thought I should update the Date List - been a bit slack there. Am I missing anyone? Have I got all the dates right?

Blairwh58 - Next appt 8/20, Transfer 8/24

Jersey Jane - Transfer 8/19

MelMar - 2WW Beta 8/23

Itsmyturn - 2WW Beta 8/21

Melo - 2WW - BETA 8/24

Kizmet - 2WW - Beta 8/24

AFM - Nothing much has changed since last night! Extra teary this morning. Partly because we went to DH's daughter's place for dinner last night and she made a comment about how she hates her mum because "she has a new family now" since her mum moved away and now lives with her new partner and his children although she still visits regularly. DH's daughter is 20yo and son is 18yo. We haven't actually told DH's kids about the IVF yet because we know there is going to be a giant fallout, so figure why tell them unless the IVF actually works? Anyway, I just had this massive panic attack about it this morning and can't stop crying. Those kids are going to HATE me and Bean. I grew up with four half brothers and a half sister that really didn't like me at all, so it terrifies me. (and when I say my brothers didn't like me, don't think for a moment I exaggerate! They are not nice people!).

[melmar]

aww Kizmet, hang in there girl. It is all these stupid hormones taking over!! It would be weird to not want to break down and cry. I cannot even imagine adding what seems to be other strains into the mix. I always hate when kids are so selfish that they are not happy for their parents. I remember when my DH mother started dating after losing her husband years ago and all the kids gave her grief! Why can't people just be happy for those in their lives?? Drives me nuts!

ItsMyTurn-good luck POAS tomorrow...we will all be thinking about you! If you are anything like me you will test at 2 in the morning! I go to the bathroom about 10 times a night, so my poor DH always has to deal with me in the wee hours of the morning...take it from me...that is not a great idea:)

Blair-good luck on Friday-you are getting there!!

Jane-just another two days-arbutterflies are starting...but I just know the outcome will be good!!

Babydust flying to everyone tonight-just feel exceptionally positive after this exhausting day I had!!

[yarnista]

Hi All,
Wanted to join this thread last minute, had our transfer today, had two embies put back 1 six cell and 1 eight cell. Very excited not sure how I'm going to pass the time till our Beta. Hope all of you are doing well!

[kizmet]

Welcome Yarnista!

Anyone else like the idea of sharing pics of each other to put some faces to the names?

[itsmyturn]

Helloooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!
Couldn t sleep all night,Just POAS, and could see a very very faint line. Did it also from a digital clearblue, and yes it says"pregnant" woww!!! still holding my breath, as i had 2 chemicals this year. Gonna POAS everyday till beta, so if the line is getting darker, gonna be releived!!
Can t sleep now, and my husband neither, we are so happy and freaking out at the same time, just want to be on beta day!!!

Send you lots of baby dust to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[kizmet]

Itsmyturn - Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! Hope the good news keeps coming!

Feeling odd this afternoon. Kind of hot and faint. Hope it's Bean!

[Jerseyjane]

itsmyturn - Woohoo! I am thrilled for you. It must feel alot better going into your beta on Saturday now that you have a positive under your belt so to speak. Congratulations!!!

Yarnista - Welcome! Good luck in the 2ww. Where are you from?

Kizmet - Beautiful picture! You both make such a handsome couple. How do you upload photos? Thank you for the updated list.

Blair - Friday is just round the corner, are you getting nervous?

Melmar - How are you feeling? Beta almost here.

Melo - How is the 2ww going? Your beta is super close.

AFM - As for me obviously by me posting at 3:26 am EST you can tell how I am doing. I have a ton of anxiety about tomorrow (thursday). I am usually a great sleeper so this is really crappy. Also since I have nothing else to do at this hour I figured out that my beta will be September 1st, they only make you wait 12 days since I am doing a 6day transfer. September 1st is my first day back to work, great so as if it's not stressful enough add this to the mix. As I said before I have never POAS before my beta but I think in this case I might have to. I don't think I want to deal with being blindsided on my first day back, however I realize even if I test negative on an HPT my beta could still be positive. What to do, what to do?