Fall 2010 Cycle Group

[dawgs1257]

klinger13 - thank you for adding me to the list. WOW what a list it is. I go for my beta on 9/20/2010. I do have a question though, what does pupo stand for?

[dvcantu7378]

Lou thank u for bring back to earth. U r so right I don't think any one knows which way is better. Every dr has their own theroy of whats best and u r right its all up to nature and the Lord. I won't be so excessive and go light after all I can be like this for 10 days. I continue to say things to my dh like kiss the babies before u leave to give us all hope and have faith but I'm worried about the disappointment too. Thank u so much for responding u have made me feel better. Ur right just faith. Victoria

[amanda1979]

We met with the new RE today. He is really nice, but he agrees with our old RE. He thinks egg donation is our best option with IVF being 2nd best. My DH & I are considering doing a duel IVF which is me doing another cycle with the egg donor doing the same cycle. If we do that we can see who has the better embryos and maybe be able to put mine in and freeze hers for later or if mine suck then we still have hers. The main problem is the cost Anyways some big decisions to make and I am still not wanting to give up our own baby yet, but at the same time I just want a baby .

[klinger13]

dawgs - Thanks for posting your beta date and I'll have it on tomorrow's list. PUPO is Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise

Amanda - Glad your RE appointment went well. I may have missed it in the Summer thread, but is there a reason both RE's are having you lean towards donor eggs? You're so young, so I wasn't sure if there was a diagnosis that was making them thing that would be the best alternative.

[chilipepperrose46]

Hi All,
It's about 5 minutes to Midnight on my biological clock. I turned 47 today. I went to the gym this morning for some birthday torture. I asked the instructor to go easy on me but I think she actually added extra torture to the class. I wasn't the only one that thought so, others were complaining. Oh well, I can eat a bigger Bday dinner tonight alcohol free of course. My Lupron headache finally subsided. Hopefully I'll have more than 3 follies when I go for sns tomorrow. We'll see.

Tammy- Wow!! Congrats!!! You're my "over 40" idol!!!You make me feel like there might be some hope for my success even though you're 4 or 5 years younger than me! I'm so happy for you! Good luck!

Victoria- Congrats!! Good luck to you!!!

Lou- Great to have you back!! Glad you had a great time at the Open! Congrats on starting your stims. Good luck!

I'll get to the rest of you in my next post so I don't lose everything I jus typed
Love hugs and baby dust to all
Chili

[karin1]

Rio--I'm glad to hear that your HSG results were good. I cringe even thinking about having that test. That's why I didn't comment on it sooner. I had it a couple of years ago before I got married because I knew that we wanted to have kids right away. It was so painful for me. Good things it's a quick procedure. I asked the guy if it was going to hurt and he said some women think its REALLY painful and some say none. Well...I'm in the REALLY category. Glad your son is better!

Victoria--You need lots of PMA!! Your mind is working overtime. Watch a movie or something. You need to relax and think positive. You have perfect little embies resting inside....take care of them. PMA!

Klinger--It was nice to hear your sweet story about your daughter...thanks.

Tammy--Hoping your ET went smoothly today. Get lots of rest!

Ryann--Transfer tomorrow?

Dawgs--Welcome!

Lauren319--Who needs a house if you don't have kids....right? We always joke and say that IF we ever get lucky enough to have one, will be able to support it? Poor Hannah's college fund is going down the drain.

Franny--How goes the stims? Can you feel the follies growing???

Teresa--Thinking of you and wondering about your ER. Hope it went well.


AFM...I had the absolute worst day yesterday. Hannah and I had a huge fight. She has started with the eye-rolling and bad attitude. It drives me insane. She told me that she hated me for the first time and that she'd rather be in foster care. It was ugly. The problem is that when I discipline her, she starts to thinking that her parents wouldn't punish her. I'm the bad guy. Her dad has poisoned her mind into thinking that I stole her from him. Exactly how is that possible? He's never had her...ever. He's never had custody and he went to court and signed the papers. He's never paid a cent of child support or bought her a piece of clothing. He's a IV drug addict that has just recently gotten out of jail and is on home confinement. She believes every word that he says. Her mom called from prison just after the fight and I told her what happened. She talked to her, but it didn't help. I can't win. I'm not trying to become her mom. I'm just trying to love and take care of her. Most of the time, she's great. She's getting to the age of using her situation as an excuse to behave badly. I can't take it. I am making an appointment with a child psychologist and see if that helps. I don't know what else to do. Parenting is hard.

I am sending ALL of you lovely ladies lots of baby dust and sticky vibes!

[rypell1985]

HOLY MOLY does work cut into my IVF board time or WHAT?! Bear with me...I'm going to work backwards through the posts and try to get to everyone!

Karin...I'm so sorry about your fight with Hannah. I'm sure it's tough on both of you. You're donor sounds great and I'm glad to see that everything is movign along so well! Yes, I tranfer tomorrow.

Chili...Happy Birthday! Good luck at your SnS!!!!

Amanda...I'm glad you like the new RE, but I'm sorry he is leaning toward donor as well. A duel IVF sounds like a good idea, but I'm sure it's pretty pricey!

Victoria...Lou is right. It is pretty much out of your hands. Keep the faith though!

Klinger...YEp! Transfer tomorrow!

Cakes...CONGRATS!!!!!

Lauren319...So exciting that you started!!! Sorry if I missed it, but did you decide fresh or FET??

Tammy...I think you and I are cycle twins!!!! I got 5 embies as well! I hope your ET went well...I go tomorrow. Let's keep eachother out of crazy town!

Rio...Glad you got good results from your HSG!!!

Lou...Glad you had a great trip! I am so excited you started your Lupron and are getting right back into it! Thanks for the luck!

Franny...I'm so glad things are movign along...slow is fine! As long as they are all keeping up with eachother No sibling rivalry yet! I can't wait to hear how they are doing tomorrow!

Tiger...I'm glad you're having twins with me!!! I can't wait to hea rhow your appointment goes Friday!!!!

AFM....Drum rooollllll plllleeeease....I TRANSFER TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!! Holy cow! RE called yesterday and said that out of the 7, 5 had fertilized and they were "watching the other 2". I don't know what that means...maybe slow bloomers? That'd be great if all 7 fertilized and we could freeze 5! But, they said that was the only report I would get on them until I go in for the transfer because they leave the alone after the first check. So tomorrow, for the first time in my life, I will be PUPO! I don't know if this is good or bad, but I already know this is going to work. I can't imagine any other outcome. I'm not even nervous. Anyone care for a small dose of my PMA?

I chickened out telling my principal about my transfer because she is SUPER CRABBY this week. Not only is it the first week of school, but we had construction all summer, double the size of out school, staff and student body, AND today the fire alarms went off and we were outside for about an hour while the firemen checked the building. I jsut couldn't do it. I decided lying is my best way out of this situation I'm going to call her tonight and tell her I feel so sick that my husband is taking me to the emergency room. Then I still won't feel better Friday and will have to stay home again. Then when I turn up preggo I'll just be like "oh, that must have been why I felt so sick!". I'm sneaky. I hope she doesn't catch me and ask for hospital papers or anything!!! Technicaly I don't even have to justify my absence to her because all I do is log on to a computer system and request a sub, but I thought I would give her the courtesy. Well, I should have plenty of time tomorrow to let you all know how it went!

[Wondercat]

Karin - My heart breaks for Hannah, and the difficulties you will undoubtedly continue to face while she is in your care. I'm sure it's easy for her to believe her father's lies because it's far less painful than facing the devastating reality that he didn't want her. She has two biological parents who have been selfish enough with their habits and problems that she clearly never came first for them, and she is getting to an age where she can really understand what a tremendous rejection that is. It sounds like she is testing you, to see when you are going to reject her too. To prove her right in her low estimation of her own self worth by sending her off to a foster home. A child psychologist is a good idea. It's just as important (if not more so) that you see somebody yourself, who can give you tools for coping with this situation. You are definitely going through enough right now to warrant a little hard-earned therapy! Hannah may even take it as a sign of good faith that you don't think she's the one who is somehow "broken," but that you both just need a little help figuring things out.

[karin1]

Amanda...when I read your post it sounds so familiar. You're so young to have to consider DE so soon. I felt like when my RE started bringing it up that he just wanted my money and a success under his belt. Now when I look back, he was preparing me for it. I was in complete denial. I kept thinking that I would magically produce more eggs and I wasn't. I've finally come to terms with it. It's alot to consider. I try to think of the positives of ED. The genetic testing alone eases your mind some. They tests for stuff that you don't get tested for yourself. Plus, the fact that the eggs are soooo much younger helps lower the risk of other stuff too. It's not a guarantee of perfection, but it makes you feel a little better. A higher percentage chance of conceiving helps too. Some say 70%. I think that it's a great idea to do a cycle along with an ED. I would have if I were younger. That's your advantage. The cost of it all is pretty overwhelming too. Does your insurance cover anything? My advice would be to start looking at ED agencies. Finding the right match can be a process too. I wish you all the luck in the world to have your own. I really do. If you have any questions that I can help with, let me know. Not that I'm an expert. I'm still learning. I will be happy to help.

[Lauren1171]

Karin - How old is Hannah? I have a step daughter who is almost 10, but looks and acts 12! We do not get along with her mother, so I know what you mean about the other person poisoning their mind. Sometimes it makes things difficult. But I feel for you because you are in a different situation.

Ryann - Good luck with your ET tomorrow!!!

[Tiger04]

Riogirl-I hope everything goes well for you over the next 2 days! And I’m glad that your MIL could step up and help you..it’s the small things.
Franny- okay, I never had to do the PIO shots, but from what I’ve heard those sound even worse! So, they are really not that bad…I’m glad you have a good feeling about this cycle for me. To be honest, I started to feel something today and it felt like I was getting my period, so I’m starting to feel not so good about it…ugh. YES! I am so happy that things are moving along nicely for you. I can’t wait to hear how Thursday goes. I know it’s going to be great. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU! This is going to be the start of a great year for you, Franny!
Lou- I’m just so glad that you had a great time at the open! I know the melon drinks are pricy…can you tell we went before we started our IF journey??? All of our alcohol budget has gone towards this…really a shame isn’t it? Tee hee…
DV-congrats on being pupo! Eat pineapple okay! The pineapple core has something in it that is supposed to help with implantation. I don’t know if it’s true…but pineapple is good anyway! What did you do with the last egg? Did you freeze it?
Chili – 3 at a 10 is great! They will definitely have you stim for longer, so more could absolutely pop up! When is your next SnS?
Tammy- SEE! I knew everything was going to work out! I’m so happy to hear the positive attitude back in your voice! You will be pupo very soon!
Lauren319-yes please…what fun activities can we come up with for Thursday…let’s see…stalk all of you wonderful ladies…facebook…
Klinger- I read your blog and it’s awesome! Way to go having the guts to share this journey with so many people. It’s something I haven’t been able to do, so I admire you for it! Also, I wanted to thank you for being awesome at updating the list…you’re just amazing!!
Amanda- it’s always good to get a second opinion..I hope it makes you feel a little better. So, what does something like that cost???
Karin- I’m just feeling the pain and agony in your voice and I’m so sorry that you had a fight with Hannah…those are very mean words and while I know she is young and doesn’t realize that you cant take those words back, that you are an amazing parent and that you love her unconditionally and that some day this will all mean a great deal to her…until then…right. But, I’m so sorry. I can only imagine how hurtful that was.
Ryann- you are awesome! Love your PMA and I think I need a lot right now! I’m so glad that you have 5 great looking ones and the other 2 could absolutely catch up! All of this stuff is a big shell game..I’m finding it difficult to keep all the lies straight..which is why I rarely lie in real life about anything else…one of these days I know I’m going to get caught…but sounds like you have a great plan. Nothing is more important than what you are going through right now. So excited that you will be pupo soon!
AFM…nothing new…going crazy…feeling really down about this cycle. Today I started feeling some movement like I was getting my period, but it seems to early, so I have no idea what is going on. Sometimes I think it is gas. Ugh. I’m crazy.

[TammyS]

Ryann...Good Luck tomorrow!!! Hoping and praying for a terrific transfer for you.

Rio...Hope your little one is feeling better soon. Glad your MIL is helping you out. Also so happy that your HSG came out great.

Karin...sorry you are dealing with so much right now...I hope this stage passes quickly. Hugs.

Tiger...when do you test? Keep up the PMA!

Chili...Happy Birthday!!! 3 is great! Awesome news!!!

Victoria...Yayyy for being PUPO...now stay out of crazy town! We can do this together!

Cakes...Congrats again!!

Lou...Yayy for starting lupron! One step closer!

Dawgs...Hi and Welcome! Congrats PUPO.

Franny...How are you doing? Grow Follies Grow!

Teresa...What's up? How are you?

Lauren319...I agree...who needs a house. I'd keep trying, too.

Amanda...sorry that both RE's are pushing donor. You do what you feel is right for you. Hugs.

Klinger...I still need to go check out your blog...now that I'm on bedrest. Bill took a few days off to care for Zach...so I plan to try to stay in bed. lol Yeah, right.

AFM: WE TRANSFERRED 5 EMBABIES!!! 2 very good quality, 1 good, 1 okay, and 1 poor. We didnt want the 5th little guy to be left out...even though there is virtually no help for him. lol These embryos look much better than last months cycle!!! So excited now!

Of course...it wasnt an easy transfer...is anything ever easy for me? I had to pee 2x's...they were late doing my transfer...and I wound up having a cath stuck in me to blow up my bladder and then they drained me again. Sooo embarrassing.

This is so hard typing now...Zach ripped off more laptop keys...and it is taking me forever to write a simple sentence. So forgive me for the lack of writing more and more often. Ugh.

[rypell1985]

Well I really know how to screw things up. I was supposed to start my progesterone yesterday but started it today because I misread my instructions. Had my RE paged and she said she will let me know in the morning, but we may have to cancel. I have never been so pissed at myself.

[TammyS]

Try not to worry Ryann...I highly doubt they would cancel you for starting the progesterone 1 day late...gut feeling. Ask Ghost what they would do at their clinic...my guess...is nothing. I hope anyways. Big Hugs.

[turtle0619]

ryann i'm sure everything will be just fine. all 3 of my ET's have been day 2 transfers so i never started the PIO shots the day before...no problem!! i dont understand why your RE likes to keep freaking you out by saying you might be canceled. i was canceled twice myself, and i worry every day that it will happen again while i'm stimming. i know how stressful of a feeling it is. please try to stay calm though because your babies need a nice relaxed mama for tomorrow ok??

tammy holy cow 5 embies???? wow you are brave!! my DH wouldnt let me do that i dont think. my RE was talking transferring 3 this cycle and me and DH agreed...mostly because the chance of me even getting 3 embies is a long shot..we shall see...now go rest up, and keep those lil zach fingers away from your keyboard...we need you here!! xoxo

i'll do more personals tomorrow..its bed time..i have a SnS tomorrow at 7am!! night y'all!!

***much love always***