hi girls!
oh man needless to say i am running around like crazy the past few days. driving back and forth to boston and hanging out in the hospital as much as i can to be with DH. i'm exhausted! thank you all sooooooo much for your thoughts. it really means a ton to me. DH and i live here in NH by ourselves. we have no family at all here, and so its really hard to come home to an empty home with no one to stress out to. i try not to freak out DH by crying too much, but he is used to me, and understands that its the hormones and stress of not only seeing my love in a hospital bed, but the distance, being alone, and of course the evil 2ww which turns me into a complete nut on a normal week.
so they are thinking he will have his surgery on saturday if they can squeeze him in...if not then tuesday? i dont know. its all just too much. they did a ct scan, another MRI, and tomorrow he is having a colonoscopy. he has been on a liquid diet since tuesday and they are talking about putting in a picc line to pump in more antibiotics. (i had to google what that was and then almost threw up watching it on youtube!)
DH's parents are coming into town from cincinnati tomorrow, so of course i had to run around and make my house "in-law ready"! even though they said not to worry and just try to keep rested..they have no idea how much it stresses me out to have house guests in a messy home! (i know i'm very anal!!)
i'm glad they will be here to help with the driving, and to have some support. thank god they understood when i asked them to stay in a hotel!!
anyway i'm sorry to go on and on about non IVF stuff in my life...i know we all have so much crap to deal with, but i just needed to let this out! so those who read all that thank you for listening!
on to my afm in the IVF world...i woke up and went to pee...i took out piper and called DH...i went to go do my morning suppository and i decided to pee again just in case. well i went and there was a little bit of brown on the liner i was wearing. then i wiped and the t.p. came back pinkish brown!! of course i freaked out...i always spot during to 2ww and its always meant a BFN, but this was different...it was more and a different color...and it hasnt happened since! today i am 6dp3dt. what the hell does it mean??? i have no freakin idea but i'm not going to dwell on it. it is what it is, and theres nothing i can do about it now.
i called my RE nurse, and i told her...of course she said thats very normal, and it could be implantion spotting, or i could have hurt my cervix last night with the suppository applicator, or it could be the progestrone, or it could be a bad thing. ummmm really??? haha fantastic!
while i was on the phone with her i did find out that we now have 1 frostie hanging out in mass.!!! they said they froze it on day 3...i thought they were waiting until day 5 before freezing them..i'm not really sure why i thought that..i just thought that was how it always worked for everyone???? anyway they froze 1 8 cell grade B embie! my other one stopped growing at 4-cell and was a grade C so it didnt make it. i asked what happened to it, and that i hope it was used for training or something because thats what i asked for (not that i EVER thought i would have any frosties!!) she said she didnt know, but said if thats what i requested she was sure it was helpful.
i was sad they killed one of my embies...obviously it wasnt growing anyway, but do they know how long it took me to make that many?? a damn year!!
so now i have 1 frostie! what am i gonna do with 1?? poor lil guy! oh well..we will figure it out..just not right now!
tammy and teresa i am so so sooooo happy for both of you!!! xoxoxo yay!!!!
ryann sending you tons of good vibes for your dad!! any updates??? thinking of you!
krys yay for being PUPO!!! the 2ww stinks!! go put your feet up when you get home and let those lil ones snuggle in!
wonder i would be very happy with those blasts!! how many will you thaw??
amanda omg!! that story about your DH is soooo scary! i'm so glad you knew what to do, and had other people around to help...can you imagine if it was while he was driving??? ahhhhhh!! so glad he's doing better. i hope they can figure out why it happened though!! xoxo
lauren hey stimmin mama...whats goin on?? how are you feeling? do you have anymore spots left to poke? i forget when your next SnS is?? grow follies grow!!
lou have a great time tomorrow with the ponies!!! dont forget...bet on the pretty ones!! have fun at the concert too! i always watch american idol, but never vote or go see any of the winners! should be fun! enjoy your single night out!!
katie thank you so much for your thoughts!! they mean the world to me!! its funny you said that because i told DH.."i know i asked you to keep me busy and out of crazytown this week....but this is re-god-damn-diculous!!!" haha
how are you and chris? is everything ready for baby girl yet?? i saw hazel posted pics of her baby on facebook, and he is soooooo beautiful!! he is seriously one of the cutest babies ive seen in a long time!! i cant wait to see what kinda baby you got cookin in there!!! xoxoxox love you tons my dear friend! i miss you!!
ok..i know i missed tons...please forgive me....my eyes are gonna fall out of my head, and i need to walk piper and find something to eat in this house for dinner!!
****much love always****