New and Scared

[sarahp66]

Hi Everyone,

My name is Sarah and I am currently going through my first round of IVF. I have PCOS and my husband has low sperm count which equals poor baby making (well in the natural sense anyway) so we have ventured into the strange and terrifying world of IVF. Yesterday we had our little 5 day old Embryo implanted so I am now hoping and praying...

The main cause of my anguish is that I produced 22 eggs and from that we had 18 fertilise and yet only 1 survived to Blastocyst stage. I was so sure we would have a couple to freeze and feel absoultely devastated. I know I should be grateful for the one that survived but i just cant help it..

Anyway it makes me feel better to know that i am not the only one on this emotional roller coaster...

xx

[nearlyder]

Hi Sarah,

well done on getting to the blastocyst stage, I didnt take the risk as I only had 6 follies and only 3 fertilised out of them 2 where high quality and the other not so good, I transfered the 2 back on day 2 as I was also scared they wouldnt make it to the blast stage, so I think it is fantastic that you had one blast to transfer as that is all you need and all you are allowed with blastocyst stage. the only thing about having no embies to freeze is that you will have to go tru the whole process again when you want to try again hopefully for baby no 2:) I no how scary this can all be as I was terrified of the whole process, all you can do now is relax and take it easy and try stay positive, did the nurses or doctors explain to you why the rest didnt make it? maybe give them a call and ask them as this might put your mind at ease, when is your test day?

Best of luck x

[sarahp66]

No they didnt tell us why the others didnt make it. They think it might be poor egg quality because apparently the more eggs you produce the poorer the egg quality. There are always so many unknowns in this process and that is what makes it all so hard. I am hoping and praying that the little survivor is a strong one and will pull through. So far I am feeling relatively normal and better than i have felt in weeks. The egg retrieval really knocked me around so it is nice to not feel sore again. So apart from the hourly bathroom trips to check that my period hasnt come, i am coping pretty well. My test day is the 15th October so only another 7 days to wait!! Fingers, toes, legs, everything is crossed!! xx

[nearlyder]

I am just so happy the process is over now I have had such a tough time the whole way through and doesnt seem to be subsiding, I was the same with ET I was bed bound for 4 full days and still really sore and tender!

as for the bathroom think I have the floors worn out at this stage im up an down like a yo yo, think im driving DH mad now ha ha

of course your lil survior will come through the final hurdle he was strong enough to get this far I have all fingers and toes crossed for you , I am also testing on the 15/10 so keep me posted on how your doing

[sarahp66]

On wow i didnt realise you were in the same stage. It is so lovely to know that there is someone else out there in the world feeling as anxious and uncertain as I am, and who is also counting down the hours until 15/10. I am sorry to hear that you have had a rough time- what sort of issues did you face? I responded pretty well to the injections and the ET was easily the worst part for me.

I am sure that your 2 little guys will also be working their hardest to grow in you too. So much safer inside you than in a glass test tube! I am hoping for you to and will be thinking of you on the 15/10! Only 7 more days to go

[nearlyder]

Hi Sarah,

its great to find such lovely people on here, everybody has been great,

6 days to go wh hoooooo, its getting here,
think this has been the most anxious week of my life, I didnt do to good on injections I was so tired the whole time with severe head aches but they soon went and where replaced with severe abdom pain after ER to be replaced then with dizzyiness and tiredness and no concentration this week while taking the progesterone... but now im all back to normal again I was forgetting what normal felt like

How are you feeling today? how have you been occupying your days?

Do you feel any different? I am getting alot of cramps and dull aches in the ovaries and down my legs which is frightning me at the moment as I usually feel like this just before my period begins So Im even more anxious now I wonder if this normal or part of the effects of using progesterone

[kynlee]

Hi Everyone...

I think I am at the same stage as the rest of you I go for my 1st beta count on 10/18.. This is my first time doing IVf (icsi) so I have all different emotions going on... So nice to have so many people to talk to on what we are all going through... In reading alot ofthe forums it seems people got more time off after ET then my Dr gave me... My Dr said only the day of ET I would need off and then I could go to work but not to lift and No exercise.... that has got me alittle nervous that I didnt rest long enough in bed.. Being my first ET i figure Dr knows best, but now I am confused.... I sit at a desk all day so hopefully everything will be ok...

I am also getting alittle crampy and my boobs have been sore which is what happens before my period but I am hoping its just the progesterone.. Alot of people say those could be side effect....

I wish you all the best of luck.... Cant wait to hear about all your BFP...

[sarahp66]

Hi Girls,

I got my period on Monday afternoon and can safely say i have failed my first IVF attempt. I am feeling devastated but am hopeful for the second round. They may have learnt something from the first round that they can fix for the second round. My husband is an emotional wreck and it is horrible to see him so upset. Suprisingly i am coping better than he is which is strange because he is normally the rock in our relationship. The whole process is just so draining and exhausting!! Never mind- onto the next go!!

How are you girls feeling? You must be very nervous for the 15/10? I will be thinking of you and hoping for you.xx

[kynlee]

Hi Sarah...

Sorry the first round of ivf didnt work for you But good that you are thinking positive and starting to think of round 2.... I go for my beta Monday but honestly I am feeling like AF is coming, I am trying to think its the process but it feels like I do every 28 days so keep your fingers crossed for me... I will hold onto hope unless AF arrives

[sarahp66]

My fingers are crossed for you. It really is hard to describe how awful the 2WW is. It is almost unbearable! I am kind of glad that i already know that it has failed and i havent had to wait until friday to find this out. It has helped ease the stress a bit over the last few days even though we are still very upset.

Do you know how long you need to wait before giving IVF a second attempt? My husband and I are keen to try once more before Xmas but I am not sure if this is advisable. We have our next appt with our doctor on Monday so will hopefully find out a bit more then.x

[kynlee]

Hi Sarah...

I know it is unbearable I am keeping myself busy but god it is going by super slow these last few days...

I dont know to much about how fast you can do IVF again, but I believe since you didnt get pregnant you can restart right away... If you were pregnant and misscarry its a longer process cause they need your beta down to zero from what i am hearing... But I havent been there yet so I honestly dont know for sure.... Believe me if this doesnt work this time I am going to try again before Christmas too....


Good luck and keep me posted

[nearlyder]

Hi to all,

Sorry I have not been on in a while I have just had the most extreme infection from ivf which landed me in hospital for 6 days

Sarah I am so sorry to hear your first attempt has come to an end with out a positive result, hopefully with your next consult you will be able to restart again,

Kynlee have you had your beta hcg yet?

AFM : I got a BFP which unfortunatley has resulted in a loss due the infection I had, so looks like this may be the end of the road for me as doctors have said it is too dangerous to try again because of the infection if I got it again it could kill me I just got to hospital on time , have to say the doctors ahve been so insensitve to my situation and had no hesitations in telling me on the day they told me my first pregnancy had ended not to try again, so fed up now and just want it all to be over,

I wish you ladies the very best of luck in the future x

[kynlee]

Nearlyder...

I am so sorry what kind of infection did you get from IVf if you dont mind me asking??? That is so scary... I would get a second opinion before giving up, that is very insensitive for a Dr to say it like that... Hope you are ok...

I had my Beta and it was a BFN.... As much as I was disappointed I said I have to try again, so I am waiting for AF and then restart for new transfer in Nov...

Hope everyone is doing ok.... Let me know how you all are...

[sarahp66]

Nearlyder I am so sorry to hear your news. That must have been just awful and i can imagine how insensitive the doctors would have been. I have found most of the doctors treat the situation with little compassion and empathy. I know it is their job but it still doesnt make it any easier. Sometimes you end up feeling like a number rather than a human being. Anyway i really am so sorry for your loss and i hope there is still a way for you to work it out.

Kynlee, I am sorry for your negative result too. I forget- was this your first attempt? How many frosties did you get? When will they do the next transfer?

As for me. I have been back to see my doctor and they think the reason for my negative result and loss of 18 fertilised embryos was because my LH level is low. It turns out we had 9 fertilised and growing embryos which all died on day 5- they were very perplexed by this. Apparently this is fixable so we are now booked in for the next round which will involve an extra 2 weeks of nasal spray to shut down my system completley. From there i will go onto normal injections with addition of an LH injection to keep my levels up. So we will manage to get another cycle in before xmas which is great news but also scary. I am terrified of another negative result just before xmas because i dont want the festive season to be ruined . My husband is coping better now and i think it was a relief to him that the loss of our embryos was not due to his sperm. He blames a lot of this on himself even though i see it as a joint issue. Ahhhh, the joys of IVF!!

Keep in touch girls.xx

[kynlee]

SARAH- Actually I was surprised my Dr said it was ok to try again this soon, I go for U/s Nov 1st and hoping for ET Nov6th... this is my 2nd shot with IVF, The First one failed it was with Frozen, I have 6 left but since the last ones they had problems finding 2 good ones to transfer we are defrosting all 6 and transferring the best two... Then if this doesnt work we are going for a fresh cycle sometime next year maybe Feb... I am holding onto hope that this time it will work... Maybe we will be on thhe same cycle... I know how devasting it is but I cant give up... Do you have to start all the stims again or do you have any frozen or did they all not make it???