Hope you all enjoy the sun today
Trace x
Im not going to be a Mum :(
Well yesterday was lovely sitting in the sun with champagne in my hand well 6 actually and a nice dinner , everyone came back to our house and then when they were gone we lit our fire in the back garden and just sat there together watching the flames, Then Niagra falls opened , I think the champagne helped get it out , anyway today is another day and have wrung the clinic and have been advised to stop all drugs , now if AF does not arrive in the next couple of days then I might test only to see if I am alowd a mirical!!! I dont generally get AF till I have come off the drugs so I am not reading into anything . We have made a follow up appointment on the 8th June so I can get ready to face that . I have to say that this post is a tower of strength to me and all th kind messages that you have all left me are my rock I will be printing this off and will treasure it forever
Hope you all enjoy the sun today
Trace x
Hope you all enjoy the sun today
Trace x
Trace
Glad the flood gates have opened so you can let it out and start the process of healing........... I of all people know what the healing process is like though in different circumstances. And tell Nikola to sod off as I do not have rotten eggs and had loads more than her if you would like me to post some.
July Ann and Grace are there for you as life presents itself with hard decisions to make. I am always around or generally if ever you feel you need a chat - you have all my numbers or I can give you all the others ok?
I do so hope for miracles and know they happen but am not holding my breath merely just wishing on a star for you..............
With fondest love
Tracey
xxx
Glad the flood gates have opened so you can let it out and start the process of healing........... I of all people know what the healing process is like though in different circumstances. And tell Nikola to sod off as I do not have rotten eggs and had loads more than her if you would like me to post some.
July Ann and Grace are there for you as life presents itself with hard decisions to make. I am always around or generally if ever you feel you need a chat - you have all my numbers or I can give you all the others ok?
I do so hope for miracles and know they happen but am not holding my breath merely just wishing on a star for you..............
With fondest love
Tracey
xxx
ttc 9 years. 38 yrs old, dh 8 hrs younger!First IVF in Aug 2002 and had ectopic.2nd IVF neg.3rd FET and negative.4th FET and positive but sadly lost our little boy at 20 weeks.5th FET and Alice Isobel and Emily Charlotte born 5th Aug 2004!
Traci I'm not going to be am mum
Traci
Just logged on after the weekend to read your sad news
. I feel much the same as everyone else, you are a wonderful support to us all and if anyone should get their chance to be a mum its you. Here's hoping u r allowed a miracle.
lots of love
shelld
xxx
Just logged on after the weekend to read your sad news
. I feel much the same as everyone else, you are a wonderful support to us all and if anyone should get their chance to be a mum its you. Here's hoping u r allowed a miracle.lots of love
shelld
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TanyaVincent-Tomlinson
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KarenSmiff
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So sorry to hear your news Traci.
I've logged on today especially. I really thought it would happen for you.
Life is such a ***** sometimes, and soo unfair.
Will you be able to get the free go next year on NHS?
Ive made an appointment with my GP to get referred. Just hope there isnt a long waiting list. But I bet there is.
So so sorry.
Karenx
3rd time ICSI pos. only 1x 2 cell embie made - Miscarried 8 days ago at 9wks.
I've logged on today especially. I really thought it would happen for you.
Life is such a ***** sometimes, and soo unfair.
Will you be able to get the free go next year on NHS?
Ive made an appointment with my GP to get referred. Just hope there isnt a long waiting list. But I bet there is.
So so sorry.
Karenx
3rd time ICSI pos. only 1x 2 cell embie made - Miscarried 8 days ago at 9wks.
Traci
I haven't posted for a while but I have been keeping an eye on the board, hoping for good news for everyone. I cannot believe how cruel life can be I am so sorry things haven't worked again for you. I know how much you wanted it to work.
Like everybody else has said, you are always there to offer advice, when I emailed you asking for advice you were really kind and I am still very grateful for your words of encouragement.
I pray that something good will happen soon for you, don't ever give up hope!
Jackie
I haven't posted for a while but I have been keeping an eye on the board, hoping for good news for everyone. I cannot believe how cruel life can be I am so sorry things haven't worked again for you. I know how much you wanted it to work.
Like everybody else has said, you are always there to offer advice, when I emailed you asking for advice you were really kind and I am still very grateful for your words of encouragement.
I pray that something good will happen soon for you, don't ever give up hope!
Jackie
My dear special friend Traci 
Words fail me. I just cannot understand why we have to go through so much crap only to be kicked in the guts at the end of it all too. I am so, so sorry that this wasn't your time again!
I have been off the site for a bit as I am feeling so depressed right now. I did have a look for your results and was so shocked and totally gutted for you that I just couldn't post to start with. I can't find the right words to comfort you as there aren't any really. I just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and my heart is breaking (again) for you.
Mother nature has a plan for all of us and she sometimes f**k$ it up. All of us on here deserve to have that miracle baby or babies not those 'tosser no marks' who fall PG at the wave of a willy and then don't give that child the time of day. We would give our children everything and anything including more love that it can shake a stick at and yet we are still denied that wonderful pleasure. Why????????????
Traci, you have been such a wonderful friend and supporter to EVERYONE and for that I thank you.
You are a very special lady with so much dignity. Hold your head up high and enjoy your champagne fest and your new dream home. I really am so sorry my friend.
Takr care love Dagny xkx
Words fail me. I just cannot understand why we have to go through so much crap only to be kicked in the guts at the end of it all too. I am so, so sorry that this wasn't your time again!
I have been off the site for a bit as I am feeling so depressed right now. I did have a look for your results and was so shocked and totally gutted for you that I just couldn't post to start with. I can't find the right words to comfort you as there aren't any really. I just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and my heart is breaking (again) for you.
Mother nature has a plan for all of us and she sometimes f**k$ it up. All of us on here deserve to have that miracle baby or babies not those 'tosser no marks' who fall PG at the wave of a willy and then don't give that child the time of day. We would give our children everything and anything including more love that it can shake a stick at and yet we are still denied that wonderful pleasure. Why????????????
Traci, you have been such a wonderful friend and supporter to EVERYONE and for that I thank you.
You are a very special lady with so much dignity. Hold your head up high and enjoy your champagne fest and your new dream home. I really am so sorry my friend.
Takr care love Dagny xkx
Me 38 DH 40
1st 2nd & 4th IVF/ICSI -ve
3rd +ve DD Katelyn born @ 24wks & sadly died
5th +ve m/c 9wks
6th +ve Twins Sadly DD Leah stillborn @20wks and DS Kieran born @22wks but sadly died too
7th +ve - DD Chloë Mae born @38wks our precious miracle
1st 2nd & 4th IVF/ICSI -ve
3rd +ve DD Katelyn born @ 24wks & sadly died
5th +ve m/c 9wks
6th +ve Twins Sadly DD Leah stillborn @20wks and DS Kieran born @22wks but sadly died too
7th +ve - DD Chloë Mae born @38wks our precious miracle
just those 2 weeks-
for those 2 weeks
i had you to myself
and that seems too short a time
to be changed so profoundly.
in those 2 weeks-
i came to know you...
and to love you.
you came to trust me with your life.
oh,what a life i had planned for you!
just those 2 weeks -
when i lost you.\
i lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans,dreams,and aspirations...
a slice of my future simply vanished overnight.
just those 2 weeks-
it wasnt enough to convince others
how special and important you were.
how odd, a truly unique person has recently died
and no one is mourning the passing.
just a mere 2 weeks-
and no "normal" person would cry all night
over a tiny , unfinished baby,
or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
no one would, so why am i?
you were those 2 weeks my little one
you darted in and out of my life to quickly.
but it seems that's all the time you needed
to make my life richer
and give ma a small glimpse of eternity
i feel that as soon as the egg and sperm are there that this is the start of a baby. i have had neg and have had mc both of them are hard. each is a loss of our babys..
for those 2 weeks
i had you to myself
and that seems too short a time
to be changed so profoundly.
in those 2 weeks-
i came to know you...
and to love you.
you came to trust me with your life.
oh,what a life i had planned for you!
just those 2 weeks -
when i lost you.\
i lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans,dreams,and aspirations...
a slice of my future simply vanished overnight.
just those 2 weeks-
it wasnt enough to convince others
how special and important you were.
how odd, a truly unique person has recently died
and no one is mourning the passing.
just a mere 2 weeks-
and no "normal" person would cry all night
over a tiny , unfinished baby,
or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
no one would, so why am i?
you were those 2 weeks my little one
you darted in and out of my life to quickly.
but it seems that's all the time you needed
to make my life richer
and give ma a small glimpse of eternity
i feel that as soon as the egg and sperm are there that this is the start of a baby. i have had neg and have had mc both of them are hard. each is a loss of our babys..
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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LORRAINE G
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Traci, I can't tell you how sorry I am that it was not your turn again this time. Having read all of the other replies there is not much I can add except to send you my deepest sympathy, love and very best wishes.
You have inspired me so many times with your postings, that is a very special gift you have, though no consolation to you now I know...
Take care of yourself and Cam, my very best wishes to you both
Much love
Lorraine G
You have inspired me so many times with your postings, that is a very special gift you have, though no consolation to you now I know...
Take care of yourself and Cam, my very best wishes to you both
Much love
Lorraine G