**October FET**

[kynlee]

Karen- I am definitely holding onto hope this is so tough but i know how bad I want a child so I will try till the Dr thinks we need to go a different route or when we cant afford to keep trying... Financial its draining but I just think how it will be all worth it when We have a baby.... I actually got AF today so I started meds tonight and go for u/s Nov 1st and hoping for ET on Nov 6th since this is a frozen cycle... I am not wasting time lol.... If it doesnt work this round I will wait a couple months before I start right back up, but I am crossing my fingers this is the one... My dr will only let me transfer 2 cause I asked if we could do 3 this time just so I have a better chance.... The Dr didnt sound 100 % that this Frozen cycle is going to work since i didnt do good with the 1st round, but like I told my husband you never know and I am not wasting the frosties I have to start over .... What if one of these one's are the one that is going to stick I couldnt give up on them... Please say lots of prayers for me..

Is E2 pills, estrace? thats what I am on... So nice too know someone that has a child through this processit keeps me thinking it can happen...

Where are you on the cycle?

I will definitely keep posting and chatting with you girls its great to find people going through the same journey I been chatting on different forums and have met alot of nice people...

Talk to you soon

[karenvancouverisland]

hi kynlee.. i'm so touched hearing your perseverance, it reminds me of me, and i ended up with a child- so i have great hope for you

it was so hard to continue through our struggles, as i responded so poorly to treatment that mid-way through my 2nd IVF (which was on the heaviest med protocal) they recommended cancelling and trying again with donor eggs. BUT i had 2 mature follies and i just heard this inner voice telling me to not let them go. so we went to ER (way more money- the clinic thought i was crazy), and they fertilized, then i got PG.. and it was a friggin miracle.. but of course, later i m/c'd.. BUT - this whole experience gave me hope that even though i had a poor count, they were viable (the embie was seen with a h/b on u/s before my mc.). so we did it again (another fresh cycle, as i had no frosties), and we got our nathan <3

what i'm trying to say and validate for you - is to definately listen to that inner voice when it tells you not to give up. that's what i based all my decisions on: 'can i look myself in the mirror if i stop now?' ...each cycle costs us 6500$ plus cost of meds, so it's a big decision, and we arent' rich. BUT i knew i couldn't look myself in the mirror and that i'd always wonder if i didn't try some more before moving to donor eggs.

so- what's so awesome is that we won't be too far apart in our FET's now! i'll find out on monday 25th after my u/s when transfer day is...i'm guessing between 29th and 4th. i've never had a problem growing a lining so should be straightforward, and yes e2 is estrace. does it make you feel tired/headache/stomach upset too? we can do 2ww together!! take care,hugs karen

[starwishes]

Hi Ladies!

Kynlee- I am so sorry about your BFN but I love your positive attitude . Keep thinking all those happy thoughts. I read this quite uplifting book called 'Nurturing yourself through IVF'. It gave some good tips- it did help me not to go too crazy! It's great you have some more frosties to transfer. Well done for getting cracking with it too!

karen - your story fills me with hope. It must be wonderful to know that you can get pregnant and have a beautiful baby at the end of it all. Anyway hang in there. I know it's crap when everyone keeps getting pregnant all around you. I am with you there!

I did a dumb thing and took an HPT today and it was negative. I don't have my blood test til Monday, so just hoping and praying that it's a false negative, although I am not holding out much hope. I do have another IVF treatment that I can take in November if this doesn't work (it would be my 3rd fresh cycle and final one) but it's such a procedure and the hospital is miles away. Plus I don't know if I can emotionally get through it if this one ends up a no-go! Argghhh!

Anyway I am sending you all happy baby dust thoughts! I even thought screen savers of happy babies would inspire my uterus to do the right thing- crazy!!
Take care and have a good weekend xxxx

[kynlee]

Karen... Your story about your son really makes me realize this can happen... I cant give up I have to stay hopeful that is what will get me through this all... I am not rich either I am draining my savings but a child is worth every penny I asked my Dr if I was better off to go with Donor sperm she said she wouldnt give up on ours yet and she wouldnt recommend till we got to at least 5 fresh cycles... Unfortunatley I dont know if my body could take 5 fresh cycles and by then I would have to sell my house... I am staying positive and will think I WILL be pregnant this time and if Im not Ill have to try again... We will probably be on our 2ww together so will have to keep eachother posted

starwishes-- Stay positive I heard alot of people get false positives, so until your Beta stay strong Ill be praying for you Keep me posted

[starwishes]

Just to let you know that I did my Beta and got a BFN Am gutted, but I guess in this game you just have to dust yourself off and start all over again!

Kynlee -I wish you the very best of luck with your cycle.. Am sending happy baby vibes to you!
Karen - best of luck with everything. Baby dust...!
xxx

[kynlee]

So sorry Starwishes, I know that feeling and it really sucks.... I had to pick myself back up and say I can try it again, thats why I did it so quick I need something to look forward to... If it doesnt work for me this time I may wait a couple months... Take the time you need and keep me posted... Sending you hugs xxxx

[karenvancouverisland]

oh starwishes, i'm so sorry. that just sucks. i'm not sure what else to say.. it just sucks. and yes, if this is what you really want...you dust yourself off and prepare for the next steps... and then feel some HOPE. as long as the desire is in our hearts, we have hope.

"hope abides quietly in our souls, and whispers comfort when we need it most".....that was in a card my mom gave me after our m/c. i read that everyday, cause i knew that despite how many BFN's i'd had, and then despite having a m/c after a miraculous pregnancy...that i DID still have hope.

i'm cautiously hopeful for the next few days for myself, as i found out today our FET is this thursday.. take care kynlee and starwishes.. if you want to keep posting on here just to talk, i'd love to stay in touch and have us support each other

[starwishes]

Thank you Kynlee and Karen- you ladies have been so sweet and supportive. I do wish you all the very best with your cycles. I am thinking of you and hope you get the beautiful babies you truly deserve.

My DH and I had a long talk yesterday and we have decided to bring an end to any more fertility treatments. I just don't want to have to go through any more disappointments or any more m/cs etc. In a way it's like a burden has been lifted- and now we will just do things naturally and if it happens, it happens. So, as you said Karen, we have to have hope. And I do have hope, lots of it!

Thank you again for your kind words.
Lots of love to you both
xxxxx

[gi]

Starwishes i am so sorry you got a negative, i have had no internet connection for last 10 days so i couldnt log on. Its been such a long and difficult journey for you and dh and i sincerly wish you the best of luck in the future whatever you decide to do

gi xxxxxxx

[kynlee]

Karen- Good luck tomorrow with your FET... I will say a prayer for you:) I also would love to keep chatting I need all the support I an get You can always PM to if you need to chat

starwishes- I am so sorry, I know how hard this journey is... I wish you all the best of luck... I will have you on my mind and will say prayers that your dream of having a child comes true xxxx

Gi- How are things going???

AFM- I have a U/S Monday hoping for FET Nov6th please say lots of prayers for me....

[karenvancouverisland]

starwishes....i'm so glad you feel peace around your decision..i believe that's how we know the right thing for us.. it must be bittersweet, but like you said, it's a relief. .. lots of love to you xoxo

and kynlee. thanks for the prayers- they must have worked cause the embies survived the thaw ( i had huge fear around this)...and they are tucked in and now 'it is up to them' the RE said.. so a nov 6 FET?- sounds great! we'll be in it together

[starwishes]

Karen - well done to your embies for getting tucked in! The best of luck for the 2ww- and sending you lots and lots of positive baby vibes, sticky dust and prayers too!

Kynlee - good luck for next Monday. Am thinking of you and sending happy thoughts and prayers your way as well

Gi - thank you for your lovely words. You must be getting so excited for the birth of your little one. I hope you're keeping warm and dry. I hear the weather has been frightful in Ireland at the moment!

Thank you for all your best wishes, ladies. I am going to keep up to date with how you are doing and will be saying prayers for you all.
xxxxxx

[kynlee]

Hi Ladies

Karen- So happy they are tucked in nice and warm You transferred 2 right???? i will be praying for a good outcome for you I no its a hard 2 weeks but stay busy Maybe soon will be preggers together... I should know tomorrow when I go for ET... Hopefully mine will thaw nicely

Starwishes thanks for saying prayers for me... I need all I can get Hope you are doing ok... Thanks for checking in on us...

Thanks girls for all the wonderful support... xxxx

[jbird30]

Hi all, I had a frostie transferred last week (Monday.) We had two but one didn't make the thaw, which totally sucked! Anyway, I take my first blood test Weds. I am trying to keep my mind off of it, but I already find myself trying to beef myself up for the next IVF, as if I already don't think that this one is going to work. Isn't that ridiculous? I guess it's just my way of preparing myself for disappointment, but I feel like such a negative Nancy. How do we all find the strength to go through this?

Karen, I read back at your post about a friend getting pregnant, and it reminded me of my own circumstances last summer... right before DH and I started IVF, I had three close friends get pregnant in the same week. The same week! It was actually a six-day span. To make matters worse, the second friend had just decided after years of not wanting kids that she changed her mind, and BOOM! She was pregnant after a month; and the third friend, in an ignorant fog, called me freaking out because she accidentally got pregnant with her third and didn't want to be. I have never before felt so much like someone above was screwing with me! Usually I can laugh at irony, but this time, I was an angry, bitter mess. I think I drank an entire bottle of wine that Thursday night, ranting at my husband about "the nerve" of these ungrateful people.

...in hindsight, I think what came out of all of this, and what continues to resurface after every friend/family member/arch enemy declares pregnancy, is the reaffirmation that I want this more than anything in the world. I am a bad second-guesser, and I'm embarrassed to admit that during times of feeling sad, helpless, pissed off, or feeling like crap because of all of the hormones, I have asked myself if it was all worth it... but all I need is that fire reignited from these feelings to keep going. Granted, I will still probably want to tackle the next non-IVF person that tells me she's pregnant - but at least reacting like that makes me realize that I've never wanted anything more in the world.

Good Luck to all! Please, if anyone has success with frosties, post for hope!!

[kynlee]

Jbird30- Welcome... This is my 2nd attempt to a FET, I have never had a fresh cycle yet, but am not giving up on hope with a FET... I have read many success stories on other websites with FET so it keeps me thinking positive... That must have really sucked to hear that your 3 friends got pregnant together, I have a huge family and there are 8 of us around the same age and they are all popping kids out left and right I just sit back and listen and I get depressed every time I hear them talking like how they got pregnant first try, and then there is me that wants one so bad and has been trying forever... I know our time will come so we have to all stick together and help each other each step of the way.... These forums have really helped me and its so nice to talk to women going through the same thing...


AFM- I go for ET Friday Todays procedure with getting the stitch in my Uterus has been the worse thing so far with IVF but glad I got through it and am now on my way to a BFP.... Many prayers this way please