Looking for November Cycle Buddies

[TammyS]

Kris...I am sooo sorry. How horrible. I am sitting here crying and heartbroken for you. Big Hugs.

[blairwh58]

krisjner- I am soooo sorry to hear the news. I am glad you all were able to grieve some over the weekend, but I am sure it will take time to get over. You are a strong person and I know you will be able to overcome this. Best of luck and remember we are all here if you need anything.

karenthescorpio- Woo hoo. Sounds like it was a successful transfer and you are definitely PUPO!!! And what great embryos! Good luck in the dreaded 2ww and not joining us in crazytown. Keep us posted on how things are going with you.

AFM- to test or not test?? I am starting to drive myself crazy over debating. As positive as I have felt this entire cycle, testing makes it more real. And seeing a negative will likely drive me to depression. Our last hope at least for the time being and I am counting on it working. Blah- I hate this wait.

[Readyandwaiting2010]

@Blair.....thanks for the welcome! As far as restrictions, I think it's basically just to "take it easy" for about 24 hours.

@riogirl.....I'm still not sure about how many.....I guess it depends on the scoring of the blastocysts when we get there in the morning.....it just seems like forever for morning to get here!

[annashope]

Kris I am so so sorry I cant believe this..It brought tears to my eyes reading your post..this is so unfair and terrible there are no words. I will keep you and DH in my prayers (((((Big hugs))) please take all the time you need and come back to us and don't worry about giving bad news as we are here for you if you need to talk or vent. Most of us unfortunately have gone through something similar and can understand the pain and I know there is nothing we can say to make this better....this just sucks but we can listen and be here for you.

Blair If you have a good feeling about this cycle I would not test until beta day because I did and it depressed me so much I have almost no PMA left just trying to keep it together for DH

Kerenthescorpio I am so happy to read your post...this is gonna be it for you I just know it and what a tough decision to transfer 1 or 2. I know with us having a TAC twins would not be the end of the world but after everything we have to go through adding any stress to this pregnancy is too much plus wow 75% chance oh I would love that so much. Good luck girlie I can't wait to hear the good news from you.

SD how are you? crazytown yet?

Rio if I am still early at 6dp 5dt you are way early...try to stay positive...it will work!!! I am still trying..lol

Margi what's new? I guess I am freaking out because of our beta hell last time...and I keep being afraid that even if the beta is positive wed it will be low and the same nightmare will happen again...ugh I know I should not think that way but we can's afford another cycle anytime soon and I am panicking...Thanks for all of your warm words of comfort it really helps

Mellow how was the ER today? I was thinking about you all day I am glad the stomach flu is gone

readyandwaiting welcome to the nuthouse but we are friendly nuts. Yay for being PUPO

Jenmink how are you holding up. To be honest I broke down and cried to my mom for a while today and even though she is the most warm and wonderful woman ever, she just could not understand where I was coming from and the conversation as always went in the direction of her telling me that maybe me not having any more kids is a good thing and I could reach my "potential" which just hurt so much because I just don't know what else my parents want from me...I mean I am a teacher with a Master's in my field, I sing with the symphonic choir, I volunteer with the red cross, I write for the local paper. and I am only 28...I have raised my son by my self while putting myself through school and working..I mean what else am I supposed to do in stead of focusing on having more babies. I mean we have Christopher but DH has only been in his life since he was 6 and DH so wants a baby and all of our friends are currently having a baby after another. Sorry for this novel but I guess that's what I get for venting to someone who can't understand infertility.

[Blessedmomof1thruIVF]

Krisnjer - I am so sorry.

Annashope - It might still be too early for it to show up on a HPT. Let us know how the Beta goes

Mellow - how did retrieval go?????

Readyandwaiting - good luck on the 2ww!!!!!!!

Blairwh58- I thought it was at least a month. But I can be wrong.

Karen - that's great news!! Nothing like hearing high chances of implantation!

AFM - Day 5 of Stimming, BW and U/S today. They found over 20 follicles all 9mm. They called it a bracelet because they were all lined up and the same size so everything looks good. Increase Follistim from 150 to 225 and the next appt is on Wednesday. Looks like a Friday/ Saturday retrieval, more to know on Wednesday. Looks like I'll be on bed rest on Thanksgiving!

[JenMink55]

Hello Everybody~~

Just wanted to share with everybody that I took an HPT today 5dpt5dt and got a BIG FAT POSITIVE!!!!!! Beta isn't till Friday but I am OVER THE MOON!

Off to make dinner after a 13 hour work day!! Back for personals tonight...

Love Jen

[annashope]

Oh Jenmink YAY!!!!!!!!!! This is the best news this board has had the past couple of day and you have no idea how happy I am to hear this....congrats mama I can't wait for your beta and I bet it will be great!!!

[mellow4]

Jenmink~ Woo HOO!!! So exciting.

Krisnjer~ Oh, honey I'm so very sorry. Like Anna said though, more of us have been through this than we would like to admit, so we do understand how you feel. I'm sure your heart is broken. This is just so tough. Feel free to vent anytime, we are hear for you.

Anna~I don't know how you are going to hold out on not POAS until beta...even though you had already. I just need to know so I'm not let down on beta day. I hope things end up being okay for you...I'm pulling for you. We've been through much.

Blessed~ Sounds like things are going well for you. I hope those follies grow grow grow.

Blair~ To test or not to test...that is THE question. I don't know how you can hold out.

I'm missing so many of you, but, my brain is in a fog from my ER. I had 15 retrieved, some were empty follies. As long as they are mature I am happy. We will see tomorrow. They did 6 retrievals today, and I had the most follies. Crazy. They said I won. Haha. I'm feeling groggy, so going to go rest. Thank God my stomach flu got itself all over with before today, that would have been a nightmare.

Later, gators.

[margi26]

Krisnjer: I am so very sad for you. It is heartbreaking what you and DH have been through these last few days. Many of us can relate--please take care of yourself and use us to vent...that is what we are here for. ((HUGS))

Jenmink: YIPEE!! Such exciting news!

Blessed: Awesome report!! Grow follies grow!!

Mellow: Woman in a fog You win the prize for most follies retrieved today! woohoo!! SO exciting...get some rest! When do you get fertilization report? So happy for you!!

Anna: My dear. It is just so hard. And people who love us and care for us try to be "supportive" but they just don't understand fully....my dad did a similar thing when I told him we were going to try again after our miscarriage this summer...he said, "well, all will be fine if you get pregnant or not." I know that he meant it to be reassuring, but really it just made me so sad. It seems like he doesn't understand how much this means to us. So, I don't talk to family about the process very much anymore, except for superficially. I downplay how scared and sad and worried I get, as well as how excited and hopeful--because they really cannot understand the rollercoaster of IVF (or IUI). I am sorry. I understand. ((HUG)) The beta hell was worse than anything. I am sad I got a BFN this last time, but I wouldn't have traded it for the beta hell we went through. You and DH deserve to have a baby. I really feel that it will happen for you. I am so hoping that it is this cycle. There still is time for all to be well--HCG gets to the blood faster than the urine and faster for fresh cycles than for FET. Hold onto hope--I am still rooting for you!!! You are an amazing woman, with an amazing career, amazing education, and amazing family. Hang in there!!

[healingheart]

Hi everyone. I have been out of commission after posting my 1st. Reading and catching up on everyone. I get really emotional reading all of your stories. The sad and the hopeful. To all of you who are agonizing over the 2ww, I sooo get it.

Krisnjer - I am so terribly sorry for your news. Big Big hugs to you and your hubby. Please don't give up. I will be thinking about you.

Hopingforamiracle, Deedle101, and readyandwaiting2010 - I am glad to see other new members like myself. It will be nice to share our adventures and get to know one another.

Riogirl71, Jen, and Krisnjer - THANK YOU for the warm welcome. It took me a long time to join it. I know this will be good therapy for me to share my emotions while I go through the motions toward hopeful mothermood.

[blairwh58]

healingheart- Glad you are back in commision and in the dreaded wait with us.

Sdtrying- I have done the PIO injections with some of the IUI and all of the IVF cycles. At first they had me on 1 1/2 in needles and it was horrible. I felt like I could have used it to carve into my bones. Anyway, after I talked with the RN she said I was small enough and could use the 1in and be fine. So I switched over to 1 in and have used that for the past 2 cycles. I am sure since you said you are petite that the 1 in would be ok. I also had to switch because I have to give my own Delestrogen/PIO injections because DH is on call so often. With the 1 1/2 in needles it was much harder to do on my own while I was twisted around to get a good angle on my hips. Anyway...good luck. I guess Ive gotten used to them but I do have nerve damage which is not sonice- part of my butt/leg feel numb. Ill ask RE about it friday when I go.

mellow- wow 15 is great, even if some of them were empty. I cant wait to hear more exciting news about the report today!! Get some rest and try to relax. ET soon!!!

jenmink- WOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! 5dp5dt is great! Maybe thats a sign of multiples???? I cant wait to hear what the beta results are friday. What time is your appt? Mine will be 9:50est. So excited for you- Congrats!!!

blessedmom- sounds like you are well on your way to producing a lot of great eggs! Even if you are on best rest during thanksgiving you will be PUPO. Hope things continue to go great and keep us posted when you go back wednesday.

annashope- How are you doing lately? I am sure I will test before beta. I went out and bought the tests yesterday so now its a staring contest. Did you ever decide whether to reschedule the beta for thurs? Try and stay positive and know we are here if you need to vent.

AFM- 8dp6dt...oh the anticipation for the beta friday. My nerves are starting to get the best of me. I have been beyond positive up until this point but am starting to get scared. Last night I just started crying and couldnt stop. It got to the point I had no idea why I was crying...oh the hormones. Just hoping the overwhelming hormones and sore boobs are a sign that its a BFP! Ill probably test tomorrow but who knows.

[mellow4]

What a rough night of sleep. Really I should say, what sleep? My ovaries are killing me. It doesn't help that my belly is super gassy putting pressure on those little babies. I know TMI! The joys of IVF, right? You know I never even thought to ask about smaller needles for the PIO injections. That is a great idea. My DH looked at my rear last night and couldn't believe that he had to stick that needle into my small bum. I too have nerve damage from the the previous two IVF's, down into the side of my upper leg even. So weird.

I can't do personals right now, but wanted to stop in and tell you all how thankful I am for each of you! I would be crazy without this outlet. So thanks ladies.

Will update later on my fert report.

Love ya!

[annashope]

Mellow I am so sorry you had such a rough night but I wanted to ask about what you said..nerve damage? I was wondering my last fresh cycle was in July and I have not been on PIO in months but it feels like the skin on my hip/upper leg where the shots were given is still tender and is not improving. Is that what you are talking about? and does anyone else have this? I was so surprised that the ache and sensitivity never went away but I just though I was weird.

AFM I did not POAS today I guess if its gonna be good news tomorrow then great and if not I guess I am preparing early. I feel pretty deflated and sad especially since we don't have any more frosties and currently no money to spare either so if its bad news tomorrow maybe we will do a couple of iui's while we are saving up for another fresh cycle and hopefully I remain in remission (2 1/2 in remission from cervical cancer) so that we can do this again in the spring. I promise to do personals in a bit but in the mornings I am most bummed out for some reason and I don't want to be a debbie downer. Hugs to all of you I don't know where I would be without you girls thank you so much for your wonderful support. I really feel like we are all a family here and it is so wonderful.

[healingheart]

annashope - I will be thinking about you today and giving you lots of good baby thoughts. I so understand your internal stress about this being your one shot. I had an IVF savings account set aside but due to the economy and my DH losing his job, we had to use it all to stay afloat. Needless to say, my amazing and selfless parents fronted the money for us to be able to do IVF(16 thousand dollars is so much money and I am left extremely humbled by their gift). I feel so much pressure because the infertility issues are all mine and my whole family wants little ones really bad. I can only hope that my ET goes extremely well and that I have several embies to freeze should our first attempt be a failure.
I am scheduled for PIO injections as well. The needle is freakishly long. Not looking forward AT ALL. My RE stated that because I have so many follicles left in both my ovaries I could be a prime candidate for Hyper overstimulated ovaries. The follistem I will be taking is 200 which I thought was a low dose but I have seen some of you doing less. I'm normally a gung ho type of person but I will admit that I am extremely nervous about this process and will undoubtedly have many sleepless nights ahead of me.

mellow - have you tried a warm heat pad on those ovies of yours? I heard it works. Might help the gassiness too.

blairwh58 - we will all be thinking of you and giving you the best wishes for great beta numbers friday

Jen - congrats congrats!! You share some of your lucky baby sprinkles with us now k LOL

Gotta get ready for work. sorry I have missed so many of you. Still in the learning process. Everyone, have a most excellent day. Low stress.....happy thoughts.....

[blairwh58]

mellow- Yea I have experienced this nerve damage before and the skin over the injection sites got extremely sensitive. I even resorted to using Lidoderm patches to get the wierd pain to go away. The good thing about doing these injections for so long is I have gotten used to the needles. The knots have even been a little better this time too.

annashope- The nerve damage mellow was talking about is crazy. You would def know if you have it. There is a 4 inch spot right on the top outside of my leg that is completely numb from nerve damage. I can touch around it and it feels normal but right on that spot its like the skin doesnt belong to me. The tenderness took a few weeks to go away though, and of course by the time it went away we started doing it all over again. But at this point I am more than ok with doing progesterone shots for the next 10 weeks if that means I will have a little one. Try to stay positive. Are you going to test before you go to the appt tomorrow? Best of luck and you are definitely in my thoughts!!

healingheart- thanks for the positive thoughts. Keep it up and hopefully i will end up with great news this week!