Fall 2010 Cycle Group

[TammyS]

Jennie...Do you need an arm twisting? lol 2 is a fun age. Tantrums have started here. lol Are you doing a bday theme? We did Elmo.

[TammyS]

Oh Cheri...I found the coolest blinkie for Rio, but dont want to steal your thunder. lol

[jennieswa]

We are doing Elmo as well at the local My Little Gym.

As far as the POAS..I will wait a fewmore days and see how I am doing. I will totally have to sneak it it my DH already warned me that he would be pretty mad if I did (which would be funny inthe first place..he is too sweet )

[lou71]

Rio -- Thanks for your input on the DHEA. I'm still taking it.... see below. And I do believe you are preggers girl! Congrats! Gosh, I hope that DHEA does something good for me for my January "Hail Mary" cycle!

Tammy -- I'm sorry about all the drama with your brother. Like infertility isn't enough to deal with already!

Ester -- I'm really rooting for you this time. You are really due for a BFP my friend. Hang in there.

jennieswa -- 1/2 way through the 2ww is a tough spot to be. Hang in there hun... you'll make it. It's out of your hands now.

AFM -- Today is a VERY tough day for me. It's my due date from the pregnancy I m/c back in May. I'm so sad. Since AF is 3 days late and I seem to have a few symptoms, I POAS this morning at 13dpo. I knew in my heart it would likely be negative (just like it was for 2 1/2 years before IVF) and that DH's male factor is still a BIG issue, but I tried anyway. BFN. Stupid, stupid symptoms messing with my head! I was even sorta expecting AF a few days late because I didn't ovulate until CD16 (normal is CD 12 or 13). But it made me sad anyway and I shouldn't have done it. I am going to a work conference the week of 12/6 and I don't want to go!!! It's going to be so boring and I don't want to be in a hotel room every night by myself away from DH, esp when I'm so depressed.

[moorebaby]

Ester...Break the rules! Rules are meant to be broken! Maybe it will change your luck! You must join in the poas frenzy! lol ::twist::
Question for you...and answer honestly please. My other brother and I are fighting because he thinks that the only reason I keep FB updated on our whole IVF journey is for sympathy. Have I ever posted anything like ...."I am sooo sad, I want to crawl into bed and never come out again." Anything that sounds like a pathetic plea for sympathy?! Even though that may be how we feel sometimes...I have always simply said things like..."It was negative...but that is okay...I believe in Christmas miracles...and it WILL work for us." Since deciding to be open and honest on FB and trying to bring about Infertility Awareness and openess...I have gotten nothing but wonderful private messages from people I didnt even know who were struggling (even from friends of friends)...letting me know that my positive attitude and my willingness to share with others has inspired them to share their journey with their friend, their mother, their sister, etc. and that they no longer feel sooo alone. I have alway kept my messages on a positive note...because that is me. I "thought" and feel like I am purposely always posting that we are doing something fun and that life is just great (especially right after my miscarriage)...acting like it is ok...acting like it is no big deal...so that people do NOT feel sympathy in any way shape or form. Or is he right? Do I come across as a pathetic 42 yr old still trying to get pregnant and that I look absolutely ridiculous and that if God wanted me to be pregnant then I would be by now. Do you know that he actually believes that I made up both of my miscarriages just to get sympathy?! Sorry for the rant...but I'm just steaming right now.

tammy in no way, shape, or form do you portray the iamge of a pathetic 42 year old trying to get pregnant. in fact, i was surprised to see some of your status updates about doing fun family outings so quickly after your bfn. your older brother is an insensitive jerk! you do keep your messages in a positive light. how rude of him!

i will not poas...dh is not for it & i don't want to stress myself out. i hope that it doesn't mean that my luck won't change

[moorebaby]

Ester -- I'm really rooting for you this time. You are really due for a BFP my friend. Hang in there.

AFM -- Today is a VERY tough day for me. It's my due date from the pregnancy I m/c back in May. I'm so sad. Since AF is 3 days late and I seem to have a few symptoms, I POAS this morning at 13dpo. I knew in my heart it would likely be negative (just like it was for 2 1/2 years before IVF) and that DH's male factor is still a BIG issue, but I tried anyway. BFN. Stupid, stupid symptoms messing with my head! I was even sorta expecting AF a few days late because I didn't ovulate until CD16 (normal is CD 12 or 13). But it made me sad anyway and I shouldn't have done it. I am going to a work conference the week of 12/6 and I don't want to go!!! It's going to be so boring and I don't want to be in a hotel room every night by myself away from DH, esp when I'm so depressed.

thanks lou! i'm trying...but you know how it goes! i'm so sorry about today...i can't imagine how you feel! there are no words. just know that my thoughts are w/ you & dh. (((BIG HUGS))) where will your conference be? can dh join you for some of it?

[leorira11]

Lou ----- I totally get you. I didn't a period after my D&C now. 8 whole weeks - 2 full weeks after I knew by beta had gotten to zero.... Did I think about the PCO and how it messes with my hormones? Did I think about all the months that I never got a period at all (anovulatory)? Did I think about DH's near azoospermia (most men have millions, my man has hundreds)? NO! I thought - "omg, maybe I'm pregnant". I must have wasted 5 pee sticks. What a fucking joke and a huge waste. Of course not. It's so hard when you keep that hope alive, even if you *know* that it can't be. I'm sorry about your BFN.

Sonya ---- I did my big "time difference calculations" and thought that for sure we'd have heard from you --- but I forgot y'all moved your clocks back last weeek! grrrr.... Now off to bed and I have to wait until tomorrow morning!

Tammy - You are not pathetic! So sad that you can't be as young in body as you are at heart!

I keep my IVF off of facebook... mostly because my boss checks me out on facebook. I know that TTC kept me back from a raise/promotion at my last job - so I want to avoid that. At least if I can't have kids, I'd like to advance my career! Sucks that I can do NEITHER....

Chelle - Yay buddies! You keep me sane during the 2ww... okay? And just so you know - I'm a HUGE poas-a-holic. Just a warning in advance!

Rio ----- that is TOTALLY a BFP! Congrats!

[leorira11]

picture added - what do you think?!

[moorebaby]

picture added - what do you think?!

you guys look so cute! dh's expression is hilarious

[klinger13]

lou - I'm so sorry that you're having a tough day. It's so hard to get through the "due date" days and on top of it have a BFN. Sending you lots of hugs.

leora and margi - I'm loving the pictures! I just love putting faces to the people I spend so much time "talking" to.

[TammyS]

Aww....Leora...that is exacly how I pictured you, too! lol Your DH looks like he is a pretty funny guy. Very cute pic! Yeah, it is funny...I completely forgot the other day how old I was and answered 40 when someone asked.

Ester...Thank you for saying that. My whole point of posting about our fun family outings right after my miscarriage and negatives was to portray someone who is not pathetic and depressed. We plan these family fun things right afterwards to remind ourselves how lucky we are to have Zach and to find a way to try and not dwell on the sadness. My brother makes me feel like I have done the exact opposite of my intentions and it really bothers me that others may think that, too.

Ester...I am very very sorry that I made you question that your luck wouldnt change unless you poas. That wasnt my intention at all. So sorry. You ARE going to be pregnant my dear!! I'm just so sorry, I didnt mean it that way.

Lou...Great Big Hugs. You have been on my mind alot this week. I was due Dec 21st on my aunts birthday (like a mom and raised me), but would have delivered by Thanksgiving due to the whole uterus thing. So I think I understand a little about how you feel today...even though I was only 6 weeks pregnant, not 12. My heart goes out to you. I am also sorry that your hpt's are negative so far...but I am still hoping and praying that you get a BFP in the next couple of days. I hope you are being good to yourself today. Yeah, can DH join you at your conference?

[karin1]

Rio......OMG!!!!!! I had a feeling! CONGRATS!!!! So ecstatic for you!

Leiora........Cute picture!

Afm......I went in to get my PIO injection at 11am.....was supposed to go at 9am....but the nurse called and changed it. So when I get there...she said that the RE said to let me know that all 10 of my emboss are doing great! . For the first time ever...I feel optimistic about this being THE cycle!

[riogirl71]

Leorira - you guys are stinkin' adorable! Too darn cute! Love it!

moorebaby - thanks! at least test out your trigger for us and you will get your BFP whether you POAS or not! What day does your clinic test (dpo)? I just could not wait until Monday plus something had to trigger me feeling so crappy so fast!

Lou - I am glad you tried and you should, weirder things have happened. I am sorry about your due date coming up, this all hurts a lot. I hope you are right and I am indeed preggers but I am cautiously optimistic here. I was so scared of trying DHEA now I swear by it!

karin - wow for the 10 embies!

jennieswa - my Dh is not for POAS either, I showed him he said there is a line I said yeah but I think he is very cautious since last time we were so happy then beta hell! Yeah what is those people's problem same here, I invited people and none RSVPd so I basically called everyone and asked, so rude, how are supposed to plan it? my beta is monday too!

Tammy - oh tantrums, yes... no one prepared me for that! He is lucky to be an IVF baby and me thinking he is still a miracle Your brother is a fucking idiot for thinking that and asshole for saying it. You absolutely are not pathetic and God woul dnot have created IVF if he didn't want us pregnant. He is fucking dumbshit for thinking you faked your m/c. Tammy please do me a huge favor and stay away from those people right now. They don't get it, they are not supportive and they make you upset, you don't need them right now. Surround yourself with those who really care and support you. I think it is great you are so open about it and raise awareness. WE are not open about it at all because of people that are not supportive which is sad. And you know what sometimes we do need sympathy and to know people care. Don't people post their other issues on FB too? Aren't they looking for a little care and sympathy? Nothing wrong with that although I know that is not why you post there. But if it was there is nothing wrong with wanting support. You are a strong woman in pursuit of the miracle of life, that is a beautiful thing and don't forget that. Those people who don't go through this have no idea. Please stay away from dumbshit and don't talk to him, don't anything. You need positive people now. Those party poopers can go screw themselves and how can he believe in God and hurt his own flesh like this, if he really believes in God he should be supporting you and not hurting you. I am ready to kick his ass, when I feel better! Thank you for the support, I could not believe I saw anything either but knew something was going on for me to all of a sudden explode into one fat bloated hurting lady! I am hoping for a strong beta! Twins, you really want to see the smile wiped out of DHs face? Tell him twins

Amesy - thanks! Don't worry silly! You will see a great HB!

klinger - how is my favorite naked oatmeal lady? thank you, I am still waiting for the official beta to celebrate!

gecko - Dr E rocks! Thank you!

Cheri - go POAS now!!!!

Hey I am a too!

I am very cautious about being too excited but I am relieved. How long does this OHSS take to go away? I can't lay down cause it crushes me and I am sore and miserable. Drinking gatorade and eating protein. I might do a FR tomorrow morning! Help me I have become a POAS addict!!!

[DandMe]

One precious heartbeat.... 139.... measuring 7w3d (two days ahead). I'm in total shock!!!

[mellow4]

Sonya~ I've been watching for good news from you!! So very excited for you! Wonderful news!