Fall 2010 Cycle Group

[rypell1985]

Mishell...I had very vivid dreams starting like 3dp transfer!!

Ana...I'm so excited your line is getting darker! So exciting! If you wait til Monday you'll probably have a stronger number, you know?

AFM...so the test I posted was from about 1:00pm. I'm a gluten for punishment so I POAS again when I got home from work at 4:00 and guess what....MUCH darker! I have a pic but I can't post from my phone so I'll have to do that tomorrow! Woo hooo!!

[Lauren1171]

Ryann - Woo Hoo definitely a BFP!!!!!!

[margi26]

Ryann: I really think you have the real deal..!!!!

AFM: I was really dreadfully upset earlier this evening, but I am calming down. The nurse called with my E2 level (755) and my instructions. Continue meds--same doses, return Monday for u/s and bloodwork, and make sure to have sex Sunday evening "in case you spontaneously ovulate." Say WHAT?! I questioned her and she said they don't do u/s on Sunday so I will need to come in on Monday--assuming I will likely trigger--unless I already ovulated. I was confused, sad and upset. I DON'T want to ovulate with only 1 or 2 follies mature--isn't that the point of all this stims?! I want those other ones to have time to catch up before trigger. She said--no, I need to do what doctor says and if I ovulate it will be ok. OK for whom? Her? Not me...I don't believe this...I told her that we are very invested- emotionally, physically and financially to just let a couple follies ovulate on their own. Sheesh. I ended up hanging up and letting DH call back--because by then I was in tears. The same nurse tried to reassure him I wouldn't likely ovulate. Grr....I asked to add an antagonist to prevent ovulation, but she said we can't. (?) Anyway--sorry for this rant, I am just really disappointed as I had so much high hopes invested in this cycle. Hopefully all with go well over the weekend and there will be good growth and no ovulating over the weekend! Any ideas or thoughts? Am I upset and worried for nothing?

[rypell1985]

Margi...I am so sorry. I can't stand the "because the doctor said so" answer. That's just crap. You are not upset over nothing because you aren't getting the answers that you need. You have every rightto be upset with them, but please don't lose hope on this cycle! I will be doing the "don't ovulate" dance for you and keeping everybing crossed. You still have a lot of hope left for this cycle, so just try to male it to Monday. But you should still have sex just in case, and that could work too. Big hugs.

[jkulab]

Congrts Ryann! that's so cool.

AFM-i'm have salin sonogram on weds (12/15) then a go visit on fri (12/17). if all goes well and hope all the scar tissue has healed, i will start gonanotrophins (sp??) on 12/24. Unfortunately, my company is changing insurance carrier and i don't know if they will cover IVF. Now, i'm freaking out. i barely can make the bills i have now. just when i started getting excited this had to happen....

[anacris]

Hi!

Ryann darker so fast! Wow, I think there may be more than one in there Congrats!

Margi I will be praying for no early ovulation.

AFM Could not resist, did the test, beta today at 12dp5dt is 444! Yay, now hoping it doubles monday, I think I am going to get number 4 in lottery

Ana

[baby_blu73]

CONGRATS ON THE BFP ANA!!!!!!!!

[rypell1985]

Congrats Ana!!!!!!

[Lauren1171]

Congrats Ana!!!

Margi - I will do the do not ovulate dance as well! I hate hearing "that's what the doctor said" too!!!! Weekend will be over soon!

[longtimerivf]

Hello everyone.. I'm new here... wanted to join for my 2ww...

I'm 2dp5dt... and desperately waiting until I can poas... I saw this was the poas divas group... and was hoping I could join...

Best of luck to all...

[DandMe]

Ryann: I really think you have the real deal..!!!!

AFM: I was really dreadfully upset earlier this evening, but I am calming down. The nurse called with my E2 level (755) and my instructions. Continue meds--same doses, return Monday for u/s and bloodwork, and make sure to have sex Sunday evening "in case you spontaneously ovulate." Say WHAT?! I questioned her and she said they don't do u/s on Sunday so I will need to come in on Monday--assuming I will likely trigger--unless I already ovulated. I was confused, sad and upset. I DON'T want to ovulate with only 1 or 2 follies mature--isn't that the point of all this stims?! I want those other ones to have time to catch up before trigger. She said--no, I need to do what doctor says and if I ovulate it will be ok. OK for whom? Her? Not me...I don't believe this...I told her that we are very invested- emotionally, physically and financially to just let a couple follies ovulate on their own. Sheesh. I ended up hanging up and letting DH call back--because by then I was in tears. The same nurse tried to reassure him I wouldn't likely ovulate. Grr....I asked to add an antagonist to prevent ovulation, but she said we can't. (?) Anyway--sorry for this rant, I am just really disappointed as I had so much high hopes invested in this cycle. Hopefully all with go well over the weekend and there will be good growth and no ovulating over the weekend! Any ideas or thoughts? Am I upset and worried for nothing?

I'm still pissed about this.. How can they NOT give you an antagonist to prevent ovulation???? Is there a reason? This sure isn't acceptable and I hope you are going to really freak out on your clinic on Monday. My doctors have a 24 hour call where you can actually speak to them after hours.. do you have that? I'm so terribly sorry you are going through this and hope the weekend brings you NO ovulation and that everything is okay. Big hugs.. how are you doing????

[BakersBaby]

Ryann and Ana - Congrats on the BFP's!!!! You give me hope!

Margi - I totally understand why you are upset! I would be pi$$ed with that attitude!

AFM - I just TRIGGERED!!! I am trying to remain excited about that. SO here's how the rest of my day went. Had a SnS at 8:30 am. E2 level was good and US tech said I had 10 Follies. 2-20s, 1-18, & 1-17. The other 6 were smaller. I was asked to wait in the waiting room so the RE on call and nurse could review my results. When I was called back the RE on call gave me my "bad" results. She was very nice about it, but is not my doctor. She wanted to scrub the cycle since I only had 4 follies that are mature enough for retreival. She said she thought that I would respond better to a different medicine regimen. I told her that this was our only cycle that we can do and that I wanted to proceed. Soooo....Called DH when I got to the car to fill him in and ask if I made the right decision. This is just our first IVF cycle and I was so excited to have to follies and so sad to know only 4 are big enough. So no other injectibles tonight and we triggered at 9:15pm and will go in for our ER Monday at 9:30.

How many follies do all of you ladies produce? And how many eggs do you think I should hope for? Whenever I ask these questions at the clinic they are like, "everyone is different." I know this....I just want to see what everyone's numbers are.

Have a good weekend!

Love to you all!

[margi26]

Ryann, Rio, Tammy, Sonya--

Thanks for all your support. I am feeling pretty helpless which is a crappy way to feel. I never got a call back from nurse on Friday. I thought about calling on-call doc as you suggested Sonya, but on call doctors tend to be very conservative in my experience and unless and emergency unlikely to contradict the main doctor. I know this isn't an "emergency" but I am obsessing and fuming over this decision and risk. I am taking my meds as prescribed and praying all goes well and Monday shows well developed cluster of follies. If I have ovulated over the weekend--Sonya, I can promise you a full fledged "Freak out" will occur. I am typically very quiet and soft spoken--but if this cycle has been thrown away I will be beyond "upset".

Nothing I can do at this point to prevent ovulation--right? So I will be hoping and praying I don't ovulate. Thank you ladies who are doing the "no ovulation" dance!!

Even if things go "well" I plan on requesting a conversation with my doctor about this decision. Maybe there is something I am missing...but with instructions like I received I doubt it.

Suffering the weekend with MIL here all weekend. And DH's brother's wife's pregnancy news. Yup. Her "first month trying, isn't it amazing" deal. And she is "trying to get used to the idea of being pregnant since she really wasn't ready." sigh. I am happy for them-but you ladies understand how it feels.

[leorira11]

Margi - this is such BS! I'm sorry hon. I hope things go well... keep us updated. I'll be doing a 'no ovulation' dance for you.

AFM - (since I'm too f*cking depressed to do personals) - 12dpo (7dp5dt) for me and not even a hint of a second line with FMU. I've always gotten my BFPs by now. I know that y'all are going to be nice and say "late implanter", "frosties implant late", "faulty test", "too early to test".... but I'm going with my gut on this one and saying BFN. I'll probably POAS again tomorrow and if it's BFN, I'll call my clinic and lie that I started to bleed, can I pretty please get my beta earlier. I know they won't do it before 14"dpo"... so I'm stuck until Tuesday at the earliest. I hate this part - when you know in your heart that it didn't work, but you can't rule it out completely. This sense of hope keeps you going for a few days when you feel like falling apart - and then the real BFN hits you so hard.... sometimes I wonder why I like to POAS.... maybe it would be better to be unknowingly PUPO until I have definite results from a blood test.... but then again, there is always the hope of an early BFP...

So... ladies who took a break - how did you do it? It's killing me to think about doing another cycle - but how do I stop? It kills me more to think about waiting and waiting and waiting more to get pregnant. We can't take a vacation anytime soon (work schedules - annoyingly, someone else's maternity leave). How do I take my mind off of TTC for a while? I am already super busy, trying to distract myself (I have a different thing every evening after work). Part of me is dying to do another cycle already, to get another chance. Part of me is dying just thinking about doing another cycle.

[leorira11]

hmmmm.... I wonder where everyone is.... I posted first thing this morning - and now I'm leaving work and no one has said anything... hmmm...

Anyways - I spoke to a friend who got a BFN at 7dp5dt (FET) and is very much so pregnant.... maybe I shouldn't give up? I don't know what to think anymore.... I want to see that BFP and relax dammnit!