Winter 2010-2011 Cycle Board

[hotgreentea]

Lauren~ I believe it started Wednesday or Thursday. My own af is usually three full days plus a day of spotting perhaps. Hopefully this will lighten up. I have to pick up medication and will ask about it tomorrow.

[Sunshine1576]

So I have to tell everyone my experience at church last night. It was child dedication night where the parents bring there new born babies up & dedicate them to the LORD. They promise to do their best to teach them the faith so that they would come to know & love Jesus. So I must say it's hard to watch when you wish you had a baby, but they were very cute. But it was what happened prior to the dedication that surprised my husband & I even more. Our associate pastor got up & spoke of difficulties that we may have and need to bring to God & that we need to trust God in all things. For him it was the desire to have a second child. He went on to describe that him & his wife had a rough go the first time around with their little girl. They went through 7 rounds of IVF before conceiving her. And so now he is hoping & praying for a brother & sister. I don't know that they are going through IVF again right now, but it does sound like they are trying without success. My husband & I just held each other, knowing his pain. It made me think of everyone hear on this board. I admire the persistance & faith of all of you & I am praying for you. It was good to be there at church knowing we are not alone & knowing that "In all things God works for the good of those that love him." I know he was watching over us & I know he is watching over you too. Just had to share.

Penny, Thank you for sharing your pastor's personal story with us. It's comforting to know we are not alone in this journey. My church offers a "Stepping Stone" class where they meet once a month and I just recently started corresponding with one of the girls who is trying to get me to attend the next meeting. I wonder if your pastor might be interested in starting a class like that with your church? Sunshine1576

[Lauren1171]

Sherry - If it's lightening up then it sounds like it's normal. It used to freak me out cuz mine would be very very heavy. I would think how could my lining he thickening if it's falling out? Lol!

[Sweetpea614]

Carol- I'm so sorry about Af coming Your doing an IUI cycle now right? Are you doing it with injectables?

[HopeIsAllIHave]

Sunshine - SO sorry to hear about your negative result

Sweetpea - Don't lose hope yet, it's still early. Early symptoms of pregnancy could be similar to AF's arrival, you never know. I'm hoping and praying for you!

AFM - Just getting back from my SnS. I don't know what to think of my follicle sizes.. they're all over the place. 4 smaller ones popped up, so now I have a total of 16 count, but really don't think they'll catch up. So I have 1 at size 6, 2-7, 1-8, 2-9, 3-10, 1-12, 5-14, and 1-17. Damn the lead follicle; it's scaring me. The nurse said that they might let the 17mm go if that means that I'll have a few of the smaller ones catch up. So far, I'm scheduled to stim for another 2 days (tonight and tomorrow) but that may change after the RE reviews my results. I'll get the call re: my E2 later in the afternoon as well. Scheduled for another S&S tomorrow.

Lots of love to all you wonderful, courageous women! I've been awake for far too long now since I did not sleep at all last night. I'm going to catch some zzz'z while DH plays his video game right beside me. ugh, men and their toys!

[nwquiz]

sweatpea- its still too early. dont get discouraged yet. and the symptoms can go either way. so lets push them towards the bfp way. am sending all i have your way to brng on that bfp. as for me thanks for asking. am okay just feeling low some days and others i just go with the flow. i really want this cycle to come on.
lauren-dont worry if the 17 goes you have many more behind close together. grow follies.
hope-how many days have you been taking stims? they will catch up to each other slow but sure growing.

[penny100]

Sunshine - When you feel up to it, I would love to hear more about the Stepping Stone class at your church. Thank you for sharing.

Kat - You have a way to go. Try and stay positive. I am praying for you.

Darlene

[jkulab]

Hi all! i was wondering if stim injections are suppose to hurt at site of injection?

[Tiger04]

Carol – That’s good that she gets the point at least! I really hope you don’t have to deal with too much more of that!

HopeIsAll – That’s amazing news! 12 follicles is awesome! It’s good that you are stimming for 2 more days and good that your RE is open to let that lead follicle go to get the larger bunch. So much can change in 2 days, so I’m excited to hear how things go.

Kimber – 10 follicles on one ovary is awesome. You should feel great about your progress.

Lou – that is fantastic news! I know you are down, but this is it. This is your child. This embryo is the one. What can I do to help?

Margi – I’m so glad that you found a clinic and excited to hear how your consult goes.

Subha – welcome! Hopefully we can help with the stress of this. I’m a huge believer that a positive attitude is half the battle. Hopefully you can start your FET with the least amount of stress possible. Good luck!

Rio –good questions

Tammy – that sounds like a great plan. Always a good thing that they are switching everything up. Also, looks like this cycle is going much better! I really hope this is it for you and Zach will have a sibling soon!

Amanda – that’s awesome!

Penny – I know all of the meds really get to you! I was totally bitchy this whole week. Felt pretty bad about it. Don’t be discouraged, the symptoms are hit and miss. Sometimes you don’t feel anything at all!

Jkulab – so sorry, I thought maybe you and D&C from miscarriages, and I was just so sad for you! But, I’m sad for you anyway. That’s terrible that you’ve had so many surgeries, but I’m glad that your uterus looks great now! How exciting. Do they know why the polyps keep coming back? Did the shot sting or hurt. Some of the meds sting when you inject them. If that was it, that’s normal.

Sunshine – I am so so very sorry. I agree, sometimes you feel okay with it and then it hits you. Take some time and I really hope the next cycle will be the one for you. When you’re ready, I wanted to know a little more about endo. Only if you feel up to talking about it. Otherwise, don’t worry. I have a girlfriend who is thinking about starting ttc. She has severe endo as well. Can you explain how IVF helps women with severe endo? I don’t know much about it, so I couldn’t really explain anything to her.

Leora – oh my gosh you seriously have me laughing. DH and I have joked about that as well. We are in the same boat my friend, I get that a lot too, married 5 years, no kids? I just say, waiting til I’m 30. That usually keeps people guessing. So, what are your POAS plans?

Hotgreen tea and Leora – I agree. I just wish someone would be a little more accurate on what all goes into it. I haven’t seen that show…I think it Julianne and Bill? One of my friends that I told I was going through IVF, when I was last year, you know people don’t really know how to respond because they don’t know what it means. She called me after watching the show and it must have been when she was doing all the shots and stuff and my gf said, so is that everything that you had to go through…she said, I had no idea. So, I never saw the show, but maybe that was somewhat real? Not sure.

Lauren – I can’t believe that about the meds. Yikes! But, I really hope that you will get beautiful embies out of it. And, the best part is that you and I will be in the 2WW together. We’ll have to try and keep eachother sane!

KRcaja- that’s right. Spotting is a lot more common with IVF. I have everything crossed for you! Is it Friday yet? I can’t wait until your beta!

Kat, I’m sorry about the – HPT, however, it is a little early still. Keep it up!

AFM: I have my SnS tomorrow morning at 7:30am! YES! I can’t wait to hear and see how things are going. If my last 3 cycles are any indication, I bet I will be triggering tomorrow night and have my IUI on Tuesday and Wednesday. I’ve been following my very strict diet and going to acupuncture and I feel great! It sure is making a difference. I go again to acupuncture on Wednesday to support the IUI. My acupuncture said a lot to me yesterday. She said that I really need to come to peace with everything that I’ve been through, the fact that we are using donor sperm. She believes that I’ve never really been ready to open up my heart to a pregnancy, and part of me agrees with her. I’ve spent the past day really thinking about that and trying to really believe and mean that I want this. She said I really need to visualize that perfect egg and focus on the fertilization and excitement of life. It really meant something when she said that. So, I thought I would share with all of you!

Lots of love and baby dust!

[jkulab]

tiger04-i understand how hard it is to visualize and be positive about our situation. So what i did last friday, i bought a newborn layette(multicolor that a boy or girl can wear) and now i keep it with me when i do the injections. and when i am feeling down, i put in on my shoulder visualizing that i'm holding my baby. i hope that helps.

i'm having soreness at the injection site from yesterday's injection...i go back to the clinic on tuesday for ultrasound and bloodwork...so if it still hurts then i'll say something.

good luck on your SnS and IUI! wishing all the best!

[leorira11]

Hope (Ashley) - you are a student? Good luck on your assignments! I just finished a MA last year. I love school, but I'm glad to be done.... for now! (I've always wanted a Phd, so I might go back in a few years).

Sunshine 12 - I'm so sorry. Every BFN is heartbreaking. Let me know when you want me to bring you back to the top of the list. Will you be doing another cycle right away?

Laruen 1711 - I *LOVE* that Heart song about how she picks up some guy in the rain to get pregnant "Please understand, I'm in love with another man, but what he couldn't give me, oh oh oh, was the only little thing that you caaaaaaaan"! Have you seen the movie "Mists of Avalon"? King Aurthur feels bad that he can't get Geniviere pregnant (and has no kids that he knows of), so he asks Lancelot to join them in bed - that way the heir will be conceived in the king's bed. Weird. I asked David if he was more comfortable with that idea (ie, a threesome to get pregnant) instead of the affair idea ---- overall ---ICK! My husband is the only man I've ever loved, dated, kissed, anything! I don't want to ruin that!

krcaja - The whole pipelle biopsy to improve IVF success hasn't been proven in clinical trials yet - so most doctors wont' do it. It was actually discovered here in Israel, so the doctors here are really into it. I had mine done this morning. OUCH! But if it helps.... just a few more days, honey! Hang on!

Sherry - no advice on the bleeding, sorry! --- did you start your stims? I see in the list that you were supposed to, but I don't know if you did.

Carol - you crack me up! "senior citizen eggs" indeed! I'm just imagining giving birth to a senior citizen (like in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button).

Penny100/Darlene - I'm so glad you find comfort in your religion. Since I lost my twins last year and haven't had a good pregnancy since, I've had a lot of trouble with my relationship with God. I envy people who find comfort in theirs.

nwquiz - we'd better be in the 'pregnant' section together! I don't want to leave any of y'all behind!

Kat - you are still SUPER early. For my BFP cycles (even with TWINS) I didn't get a BFP until at least 12dpo (7dp5dt) (and I had fantastic betas - 450 and 350 at 17dpo). I always get a negative at 10dpo. Keep testing and keep us updated.

Sunshine 1576 - what is "stepping stones"?

jklaub - my stim injections sting a little bit. Then it feels ouchy for a little while until the meds 'sink in'. Try icing the area before hand. How is it going with the stimming?

Tiger - my POAS plans *should* be to wait for my beta.... I promised DH that I won't start until 14 dpo (ie, 9dp5dt if we get the 5dt we are planning on).... more likely? starting at 10dpo (and hiding them from DH!)... in the past I've always gotten BFN on 10dpo, not peed at 11dpo and gotten faint BFP on 12 dpo --- so hopefully this time too! I have a whole stash of internet cheapies (with 10 miu/ml sensitivity). How about you?

AFM - endo biopsy this morning ---- OUCH! I mean, really, OUCH! I have a high tolerance for pain. OUCH! I'm at work now, and I still feel crampy. I'm bleeding, but I was told that was expected. Oh well - at least that's done with!

Just 3 more days of BCP! I told all the nurses at the IVF clinic this morning that I'll see them next week!

I'm so excited, and yet soooooo nervous. One one hand, we are finally getting another chance to get pregnant and have a baby.... on the other, we are opening ourselves up for another heart ache. When we aren't cycling, it's hard that we have no chance of having a baby, but at the same time, we aren't vulnerable and open to another loss. I really hope this is it, I can't deal with any more loss....

Lou - good luck at your ET today! Let us know how it goes! Big hugs and lots of baby dust being beamed over the ocean for you!


THE LIST:




-swaters2815 (Stephanie) - starting mid-January
-kbillsy – IUI 12.4, Beta BFN - saving up money to do it again!
-jmbella (Jenn) - waiting to start late-Jan/early-Feb
-Sunshine1576 - PLAN: Lap surgery, 2 rounds of IUI and then IVF in June (if not already pregnant!)
-deftonesmo - hysteroscopy 1.21
-Kynlee - AF started 1.18 - start Lupron Feb 6th - approx ER March 15
-margi26 – deciding on a dr
-anton - end of Feb


-leorira11 (Leora, aka listmistress!) - stopping approx 1.28 to get a period to start stims!
- Krisnjer - AF is here! on OCP, Suppression check on 1.19, ER/ET early Feb
-JustSoLost - on OCP - starting in Jan, approx ER/ET in early Feb, starting Lurpon 1.24, approx ER 2.14
-wannabeamum (Samantha) - AF is here! next scan - 1.31
-hotgreentea (Sherry) - suppression check on 1.18, start stims 1.23



-LYD10, waiting for AF, starting Lupron on 1.15 and stims on 1.29
- andrea3821 - COME ON, AF!
-nwquiz - waiting for next AF for IUI



-NancyB - FET delayed to April
-andsahsa - FET, next appt 12.21
-Katie1231 - FET 2.15
luv2bamom (Subha) - FET on 1.25



-SDtrying#2 - ER/ET 2.7/2.11



-lauren1171 - start stims 1.9, approx ER 1.30
-Trusting (Amanda) - started stims 1.10
-amanda1979 on Lupron, start stims 1.12 - delayed because of a stupid cyst....started stims 1.14
-HopeIsAllIHave (Ashley) - on OCP - starting Lupron on 1.6 and stimming on 1.15
-Tiger04 - AF is here - after baseline on 1.17, starting Femera for IUI on 1.25/26
-Kimber Baby - starting Lupron 1.3 - started stims 1.18
-jkulab – start Lupron 12.2, start stims 1.21
-TammyS – AF is here! baseline on 1.20, start stims on 1.22, approx ER 2.1



-lynniecat - started stims 1.4 - ER 1.16
- lou71 (Lou) - started stims 1.11, ER on 1.21, ET 1.24



-CjofNC (Carol) – Waiting to do IUI w/ injectables or IVF - for now, 2ww of regular cycle (hoping for a miracle!)
-krcaja (Kristin) - ER 1.11, ET 1.16, beta 1.28
-Sweetpea614 (Kat) - ER 1.14, ET 1.16, beta 1.28
-Penny100 (Darlene) - ET 1.17, beta 1.31




-anacris (Nov) – FET 11.29, Beta 12.11 = 444, u/s on 12.28 - one happy, healthy baby!
-rypell1985 (Ryann) – start Lupron 10.11, lining check 11.29, FET 12.3, Beta 12.15 = 275, beta #2 = 824 - u/s = twins!
-annashope – natural IUI 12.2, Beta = 247, Beta#2 = 725 - one happy, healthy baby!
-kildean23 – FET 12.14, beta 12.27 = 565!, 2nd beta = 1315!, u/s on 1.6 - 2 sacs! next u/s 1.31
-taxcplforivf (Ginger) – start stims 12.4, ER 12.15, ET 12.20, beta 12.29 = 68!, beta #2 - 1466!, u/s 1.17
-BakersBaby (Kelly) – start stims 12/3, ER 1.13, ET 12.16, beta 12.30 = 365!, beta #2 1.7 = 3300, u/s one happy, healthy baby! OB visit on 2.2
- Karian - SURPRISE SPONTANEOUS BFP! beta = 101!, beta #2 - 566, u/s 1.18 - one happy, healthy baby!
-kariberri517 - 3dt on 12.10, beta on 12.27 = 392, 12.29 = 472, 12.30 = 576... waiting....


-Krys – started estrogen 11.11, FET 11.30, Beta 12.14- BFN
-Cshell717 (Mishell) – start stims 11.22, ER 12.3 w/ ET 12.6, beta 12.20 -BFN
-x0Heather0x – FET, b/w 12.3, u/s 12.10, FET 12.16, beta 12.28 - BFN
-Riya - beta on 1.7 BFN
-Jamiep03 - ET 12.27, beta 1.9 = 21.8, chemical
-Sunshine 12 - ER 1.8, ET 1.12 - beta 1.22 BFN

[HopeIsAllIHave]

Grr. This follistim has made me into an insomniac! I have major issues falling asleep and staying asleep And I can't drink coffee or any sort of caffeine to keep myself mentally alert to finish my homework. I'm doomed

Lou - Sending you lots of sticky baby dust for that special embie of yours!

Tiger - how exciting; you're so close!! Good luck during your SnS and your IUI! We're going to be 2ww buddies together! At least for part of the time

Leora - Sorry to hear you're in pain, but hey, if it helps, it's all worth it, right? This is sooo going to be your cycle! Yes, I'm back in school to get my Bachelor's in nursing. I was working under an Associate's for a little bit, but ever since I got injured at work (long story), I've been on medical leave trying to get treatments for my torticollis. Unfortunately, I've had to put the treatments on hold because motherhood is calling, but hoping to get back to my treatments and in turn, work, as soon as I'm done breast feeding. Seems like forever from now, but at least I've been medically cleared to become pregnant by my neurologist. It sucks being in pain everyday, but it's for a good cause. I just hope I don't have too much of difficulty once I'm prego. But yeah, back to the original question, I'm back in school to do something useful with my time as having nothing to do at home was making me depressed, hence me being on anti-depressants in the past. I hope to continue my education in the future as well and obtain my Masters in nursing.. let's see how far I get. I finish my Bachelor's this May! What do you want to do your Ph.D in?

AFM - My E2 level was at 1204 so they decreased my follistim by 50 IU, so now I'm at 225 IU. I'm really "cookin" in there and I can feel the pressure building up in my lower abdomen. Back for ultrasound, progesterone and E2 levels in 4 hours!

[hotgreentea]

(hugs) to you all.

The bleeding is almost gone, thankfully. The stims went well last night. My husband did the mixing and I did the injecting.

[anton]

hi ladies,

Sunshine- I am so so sorry for your negative results. please remember that no matter what, you must never loose your hope! and you must never give up! we belong to that group of women that they must go through lots of pain and dissapointment in order to be blessed with a child. u are not alone in this journey of infertility! we are going through a test and once we complete this test be sure that we are going to be blessed with a baby. and this baby is going to have all the love in the world and the most prepared, matured and responsible parents! try and remember that you are going to be blessed with this gift of giving life very very soon! you deserve that more than anything! hang in there and be positive! positivity and hope is the key to a BFP!

Lou- good luck today girl! everything will be ok! I am sending you positive vibes

carol- sorry about your AF coming...I loved your serenity prayer!

Leora- I hope the endo biopsy works! ...we then can use you as an example to be followed with good results! I wish you all the best!!!

CjinNC- I am sure we all have similar stories about friends that get pregnant and move on and we feel sad and sad and angry and feel that this what's happening is unfair.... since July 2009 we have started our ivf#1 until the last one, the ivf#4 october 2010, six of my closest friends have become pregnant. I can't say that I am not happy for them, everybody deserves to have a baby, but at the same time i cant help it to feel jealous about it. i dont want to feel like that! I hate it! i never felt jealous over anything in my life, but this is different. Imagine that one of these friends when she got pregnant and she came over to announce it to us she and DH told us that actually they didn't want to have children and this one came by accident. I wanted to scream at them how dame lucky they are to be blessed with this miracle of life! ...but I didn't ...now their son is 5months old and they say that is the best thing that ever happend to them! of course! another closed friend of mine even thought she knew what I was going through and I was allways speaking about what we are doing or in what phase we are at but she never mentioned that she is too trying narturally to conceive. and so on my 4th IVF cycle 4 days before my pregnancy test, she and her BF annouced that they are 2 month pregnant and they didn't what to say it before so they dont jinx it...right there i felt that the sky was falling on my head! really! and right there i felt the BFN slaming my face... another friend gave birth 2 weeks ago to her 4th son and was braging about it saying that ''there are so many doing ivf i am just so lucky that my husbands sperm is so good and we are so healty to have another boy even if I wanted a daughter..''this I took as an example that we should keep to our selves what we are going through and dont expect our friends to understant what we are feeling. this time, on this ivf#5 we have decided to keep it to our selves. we havent even told our families (parents, brother & sister in law) we are doing it or when. sorry for the blah blah but i had this inside me for a long time and i needed to tell it to someone that can realy understant what i feel without being judgmental...

Margi- I am so glad you have found a clinic! i would recomend the one I am at but I believe I leave in the other side of the ocean! I leave in CYPRUS an island in the mediterranean next to Greece. keep us posted on how the procedure is going to be...

Krcaja- I am crossing my fingers for you and hoping this is implantation bleeding!

HopeisallIhave- hope is not all you have! you have lots of positive energy from all of us coming right at you! good luck with your follies! ..I love the idea of a scrapbook! cool!

luv2bamom- welcome and good luck on your transfer! everything will be fine! no worries!

amanda- good news on your follies and good luck for when you proceed!

Tammy- get well soon! and the best of luck on your fertility journey!

jkulab- good luck with stiming girl! actually it doesn't supposed to hurt. just sting a bit while you inject it. I am waiting to start my ivf#5 and pesronally on all the past 4 cycles it didn't hurt. let it in room temperature for a few minutes before injecting and put some ice on the spot after your shot. that will do the work. if it still hurts then consult your doctor...

Tiger- i loved the visualisation idea! i have been doing some meditation recently and listeing a bit to Anthony Roberts and this is about visualization...and other things but I liked the visualization part ...when you realy want something to happen you must first believe in it and try visualize that it is really happening before it happens. eventhough my last cycle was negative, i have visualized that I was going to hear some good news from my RE. I even visualized the dialogue I had with my RE calling about the beta results.i visualized that he was calling and saying hi! we have good news this time! Congratulations!...this is what I will also be visualizing when that time comes soon! and now I am visualizing that this is THE time for us! we are going to have a baby in this cycle and I am preparing my self to be the best possible mommy for it! ...dreaming is good! try it!


I dont know if I forgot anyone...I hope everybody is going according to their plans and be positive about it! we are all waiting for the same thing to happen! for some I hope the waiting ends this time!

my love to all
anton.

[Sweetpea614]

Good Morning Everyone,

I hope everyone had a great weekend.

Tiger-Good luck on your S&S today.

Darlene-How are you feeling? Hvae you broken down and tested yet?

Kristin- How are you doing? Has the spotting stopped? Still waiting for you to POAS;)

Jeib- It's normal for it to sting and burn and sometimes even swell a little.

Hopisallihave- That's a lot of follies. So sorry you are having trouble sleeping. Not a fun side effect that's for sure. Good luck at your S&S today.

Leora- So sorry that it hurt so much. Did they put you under? Glad it's all over with. I can't wait for you to get your BFP.

Hotgreentea-Glad the bleeding has stopped.

Nothing going on here. Hopefully will be able to test tomorrow if those test finally show up today. I had to bring my new kitty Boots to the vets to get fixed this morning. I felt so bad. He's such a little love bug and I hope his personality doesn't change after. After dropping him off I got stuck in traffic because a road was closed because of firetrucks, ambulances etc and Chris just called to say that the reason the road was closed was because a biker was killed. So sad. People drive to crazy here in Boston. Driving a bike in Boston has become way to dangerous especially with all this snow that we are not used too.

Kat
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