hopeful~ I had an ultrasound at 6w1d, and they saw 2 sacs...actually they said 3 sacs and then backtracked and said it could be a subchorionic hemorrhage. So 2 sacs...nothing to measure, no heartbeat, that meant no fetal pole. They said it was early and not to worry. That night I had a big scare and started bleeding bright red gushes. The next day I couldn't get into my RE, but called my OB who got me in right away and did a scan, so 6w2d, he saw nothing in both sacs and my bleed had grown from the day before. His words were this to me...things don't look good, be prepared for a miscarriage. Back to RE at 6w4d, we saw a heartbeat in one sac, very, very slow though, so she didn't seem hopeful either. More bleeding that night, it was scary, they had me come back the next day again. 6w5d, no heartbeat and we could only see one sac. We were devastated. Our follow up was scheduled for Monday, the one before was a Friday...so we wait all weekend wondering what is going on. 7 weeks, we see both sacs again, but nothing in either one. They asked if we wanted to schedule a D&C, I said not yet...it was the week of Christmas, and I need to wait it out at least a week. They scheduled me to come back the following Monday...so Wednesday night rolls around and I start bleeding again, I called and asked to be seen. I wanted to know if this was a miscarriage so I could be prepared for the holiday, I have older kids at home and needed to be level headed for them. Anyway, they told me to come in, and did the ultrasound...low and behold at 7w3d, we saw 2 little heartbeats!!! It was a holy crap moment, and I bawled my eyes out. At that point I was put on strict bed rest...and here we are today, just about 17 weeks with two little twin girls on the way.
My point is this. No matter how many times they tell you there is no hope, they just don't know. Yes sometimes it goes badly, but when it's early on like you are they can't know or make any predictions. This is not the first time I have been told there was no hope for my early pregnancy, and I have two other daughters to prove the doctors wrong...
Praying for a miracle for you...don't lose hope.
