FEB / MARCH 2011 Cycle Buddies!! can't wait!

[cwehrs]

Sorry to start the week off on a down note, but I broke down last night, held my pee for 6 hours and poased and it was negative. So many tears!!! I really had high hopes for this round. I know it's not over till I have the beta, but I'm pretty sure it shoulda showed by now. Not even a hint of a line. Beta is tomorrow. I wanted to have my DH here so that he could comfort me when I fell apart. And fall apart I did. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide.

We have 3 blasts frozen, so I guess it's onto those. Not sure how a FET cycle works. Do they wait for me to ovulate? Or do they use meds to stimulate me to?

Oh crappy day!

I know you are feeling down right now, but it really isn't over until the official beta. Look at LYD10 for instance- her beta was only 20. No way an HPT is going to pick that up, but she's still pregnant! I know you are trying to prepare yourself emotionally, for a BFN tomorrow, but you could still be in this, so keep your chin up!

[blairwh58]

indigofire- I know there are no words to comfort you right now, but just know that we are all for you. This is a very tough road and we all have our ups and downs. Seeing a negative just makes you want to give up on everything but try to keep your head up and know that its not the end. You could very well end up with a positive beta tomorrow that just wasnt detectable on a HPT. Dont give up.

[zdia]

Indigo - There is hardly nothing much that can comfort you but Please try be stronger. we know how hard it can be. I haven't slept the nights lately feeling scared of the result that might come tomorrow. But believe that it will happen and the Beta is always more accurate than poas. Stay positive and we will both be BFP tomorrow. This isn't the end and the best would happen for us all. xxxxxxxx hugs.

[WeHaveHope]

Good news, I saw my doctor today and she said that I have a little less fluid in my abdomen then I had on Friday. Whoo hoo, I don't have to be hospitalized! This was the doctor that actualy did my ER on Wednwsday 2-22. She said I met her on Wednesday, but I honestly don't remember a thing. She reports that the reason for the pain on my left side is that my ovary has now floated upward and it is pushing up against my intestines. She also reports that the left ovary worked a bit harder than the right. She said she removed 17 eggs from my left ovary while she only removed 8 from my right ovary. Wow, talk about working overtime. So, she said I should drink alot of Gatorade and I should start loosing the excess fluid soon. She said my ovaries will take a while before they reduce in size and get back to normal. My poor husband was a nervous wreck today but we are both feeling much better with the news today. So, I am staying home one more day and returning to work tomorrow, God willing. I though I would ask the doctor today to check with the lab to see how many of my embabies have made it so far. I know it is a bit to early as I was told to check back in 3-3 but I couldn't leave the office without asking. She said that the lab report has not been entered today but as of yesterday there was one definate blast and none of the 18 fertilized embryos had been lost yet. So, good news all around today. It has been a difficult journey and I know there is still more to travel but I know I can do it with all of the great support I have from my dear husband, the few friends that know, and everyone on this thread. I am truly blessed. 

[WeHaveHope]

Indigo, please stay positive. I will keep you in my prayers. We are all here for you.

[blairwh58]

WeHaveHope- What great news!!! Im glad that you saw the MD and they said things are looking better than they did friday. Hopefully the fluid will continue to resolve itself and you will be feeling better in no time. Its also great news that you already have 1 frostie and sounds like up to 18 potential others. Keep us posted on the fert reports and how you are feeling. Hopefully you will be able to transfer those babies sooner than later!

[WeHaveHope]

So I was getting a bit jelouse as almost everyone had signatures and tickers and I did not. Here is my preliminary one. Still learning.

[cwehrs]

Hope- so glad that you are finally getting a little better. Keep us posted on your progress.

Maybe it's just that it's monday, or maybe it's the progesterone talking, but I'm having a serious problem with my PMA today too. I just keep thinking what if I go into the drs office tomorrow for my ET and I'm right back to where I was in November with nothing left to transfer? I don't know what I'll do. This waiting is just driving me crazy! I really want to just crawl into bed and sleep until tomorrow morning so I don't have to think about it any more.

[to_have_fun08]

cwehrs -You are not alone. I'm am digging myself a big black whole also. I have had so many bad cycle i can't think of anything good. What if we don't have anything to transfer? What if this doesn't work? i have even gone over to the egg head thread to see how many got bfp with donor eggs. I'm driving myself insane.

We had ER on Saturday, they got 22 eggs, 15 were mature and 13 fertilized. 13 is an awesome #, why can't i just chill out? We get the day 3 report tomorrow so praying that it is good.

[lou71]

**Thread Crash**

to_have_fun08 (Chris) -- I've been stalking you over here and have been checking for your ER/fert report updates. Lucky 13 for you!!! That's an amazing number! I remember you are doing genetic testing, right? I have such a good feeling about this for you. Congrats on lucky 13!

[to_have_fun08]

Thanks Lou!! I have so many wonderful ladies rooting for me, I keep on thinking there is no way that this can't work with all the positive vibes being sent out.

[WeHaveHope]

I am sending a bucket of baby dust for all 

[WeHaveHope]

More baby dust for all. Stay positive

[cwehrs]

Ok, I finally figured out how to put a ticker in my signature. I was going to wait until I was PUPO, but I needed the visual validation that I WILL HAVE AN ET THIS CYCLE! Now I'm going to go play with my dog and try to stop obsessing.

[elcope]

WeHaveHope: What wonderful news! So glad to hear that relief is in the near future for you - and more so, that you won't need to be hospitalized!

AFM: Received a call today that one of my 3 embryos didn't make it over night - so now I'm down to 2. My doctor is concerned on waiting until day 5 to do the transfer (which would've been Wednesday 3/2), so I'm going in today to have it done! Even more news, I'm going to have both embryos transferred today - and not just the one, that they were originally expecting.

My emotions are all over the board right now. The potential of twins is just amazing to me - as long as everyone is healthy. But, the doctor also said that my percentages aren't that high to begin with, considering I had to do the rescue ICSI procedure.

And you know what I say to that? BRING. IT. ON.

I've pretty much had every weird / abnormal circumstance occur during this whole process, so hey, what's one more thing?

I'm still feeling incredibly bloated - and Hope - I too had the same issue w/one of my ovaries floating up too high (it was my right one, and it happened even before my ER...so they had to put tons of pressure on it to get it to come down for the ER). I did lose 1 pound today - but man, I feel if I breathe, laugh, hiccup (or God knows what else), I may blow the button on my jeans off, and send it across the room...hope no one's around if that does happen. Try explaining that one to HR?

Anyhow. I'm downing Gatorade like it's my favorite wine and heading in to the doctor's office in one hour. And I'm already starting to shake. Yikes.

I'll post again soon with an update. Fingers crossed!

- Erin