Trying to Hold on to Hope after a challenging year.

[Hopeful0621]

My husband and I have been trying since June 08. But the real story started last January (2010) After two failed IUI attempts our 3rd attempt was successful only to end in a misscarriage. I needed a D&C and it was discovered that I was full of fibroids and it was thought that was the reason for the misscarriage and the infertility. So last summer I had surgery to remove the fibroids ( Laproscopically) 14 fibroids were removed(#1). One of my tubes was damaged due to fibroid was pushing on it for so long.I ended up hospitalized for three weeks due to complications of the surgery. So we waited a few mths to heal and went in for another sonohistrogram only to find I had a few more fibroids. Had another surgery(#2) 3 more fibroids removed. We waited to heal again and started the preparation for IVF. January(this year) -We started the hormones- I had nine follicles and was told to be on hold due to fluid in the uterus. We were advised to do the ER and freeze all the eggs. (11 Eggs retrieved and 8 fertilized- 8 Frozen). Stimulated a period in hope the fluid or whatever it was would flush out. Well that didn't work and I had another surgery(#3) a bunch of little ones but didn't care to ask how many this time. The Dr. and My husband decided that we better not wait since I am apparently a super fibroid grower. We started the FET protocol on Sunday, and we are hopeful doing a Transfer in the next couple of days to a week. I am trying to be positive and hold on to all hope and pray that my uterus will be as good of a host to the embryos as it is to the fibroids.
Has any of you shared a similar experience? I feel that I need to hear from other people struggling to have a family, I have very supportive family and friends but no one really understands what I am feeling. I also read someone where that if you join a IVF support group that your chances of success increase. (fingers crossed)

[katieb1231]

WOW - sounds like you had a heck of a time with fibroids, I don't have the same experience but I have had fibroid surgery once upon a time when I took clomid. The Dr. neglected to tell me that clomid ups your chances of getting fibroids, grumble, grumble but anyways I am in the process of a FET cycle myself right now (had a successful fresh cycle in December until I MC in January) - I started on the 24th of Feb and we are hoping to transfer on the 16th of March.....come join us on the Winter Board we are big but super supportive & a great group of women all going through this right now. Would love to have you & good luck with your cycle!

[ckret01]

{{HUGS}} I too am having a problem with fibroids and am strugging to conceive.

The worst part is this Dr that I have been going to was a second opinion Dr and I had switched to him.
I had an ectopic pregnancy in 2009, it was my first natural pregnancy after trying for a couple years. I was seeing this one Dr. He had scheduled me for a Laparotomy and a myomectomy to remove my bad tube from the ectopic, repair the other one and remove a fibroid I have that is outside of my uterus that was about 6cm. I went to get a second opinion and this other Dr who I am seeing now said that my fibroid didnt need to come out as it wasnt inside my uterus and didnt feel it would affect anything as he sees many people that have fibroids become pregnant. So he would then perform a less invasive Laparoscopy surgery to just remove my one tube and repair the other and leave the fibroid. Because I liked the lesser of the surgeries and was scared I stayed with him.

Now with the laparoscopy surgery, 4 failed IUI's, and one failed IVF he now wants to revisit removing my fibroid. I just feel so drained and am wishing I had had this surgery to begin with. It has been 3 long years of disappointment after disappointment and I don't know how much more I can take.

[brit1612]

I'm sorry to hear your struggle with fibroids. I can't say that I have been through the same thing, but I have been through three miscarriages, 4 fresh cycles, and 2 frozen. After all that we finally had our little boy! He will be one this month! It is very hard to go through but it will all be worth it in the end. Good luck with your cycle!

[Hopeful0621]

Thank you ladies for replying..I am so glad I joined this site- It really helps hearing from other women struggling to have a family. I just found out today that tenitively FET is schedule for March 16th.. And it looks like katieb1231 you might have company.Ckret01 I think the hormones really kicked my fibroids in high gear- Although they are in my genes- My mother was full of them when she was pregnant- so much so that the doctors could not believed she carried me 8mths. Brit1612 Thank you for your words of encouragement - I am holding out hope that after all this our baby will come!

[angelaezra]

Hopeful – I too have had two surgeries to remove fibroids. The first one wasn’t too bad but the second one took me a long time to heal because it was after a stillbirth delivery and there was some of the placenta still attached to my uterus. So they ended up totally reconstructing my entre uterus.

I remember feeling, will these surgeries ever end so I can finally have a successful pregnancy. And, it finally did … After 10 ½ years of TTC and having miscarriages, a stillbirth, and an ectopic pregnancy, I gave birth to my miracle daughter last December. So, it is definitely possible for you to achieve your goal of having a baby. I wish you all the luck in the world!

Angela