FEB / MARCH 2011 Cycle Buddies!! can't wait!

[BlissfulCS]

mamaboo- sorry if I zapped your PMA!!! You are going to be preggo lady, for sure. Breathe deep and enjoy your pregnancy.

Totsie- up to you, but I will never POAS again. I was a nightmare Saturday and there was no point in it. You could totally be positive and get a negative but the emotional stress could be bad for you and the baby. Some love it though and do just fine. Its a personal choice.

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and encouragement. I was checking out the April/May board and telling DH about it. He says to me "you aren't just going to up and leave your girls are you?".

How cute! He has grown attached to you too.

We aren't going anywhere...

FYI- I can't run...but I can drink red wine. Yummy!!!!

[WeHaveHope]

Bliss & Becca,
I am so sorry for the BFN. Words cannot express how sorry I am. I am glad to hear that you are not giving up. Know that we are always here fir you.

Bliss,
Hopefuly we will both have our FET in early May. Keeping my fingers crossed for a positive outcome for all of us.

[madi]

Hi Bliss and becca

I am so sorry bliss for your BFN I know as sure as I am here writing this post it will happen for you one day when you least expect it. My best friend tried 14 times with ivf before she got her miracle. Someone as special and caring as you deserves to have a little treasure of their own and I KNOW THIS WILL HAPPEN.

Please do not lose hope and I look forward to hearing from you again.

My thoughts are with you both in this time.

MADI

[nicnad1]

Hi All,

Seems like so much has happened in the few days that I haven't been able to check the board... My heart truly aches to read about all the BFNs... Too many of us know what that feels like... Wouldn't it be great if we could all be in the same room and do an actual group hug... For those who got their BFP, way to go!

I had my ultrasound today re natural FET. I was given a box of ovulation predictor kits and have to test until I get my surge, then 5 days later my precious snowbaby will come home... I expect that by middle of next week they will do the transfer... It's kinda a weird but great feeling to know that I will be able to allow myself to think and feel pregnant... I have struggled with my PMA but so many of you have inspired me to keep in up. I mean, what does it hurt? We all have no choice to accept the outcome so what does it hurt to be positive and dream about a precious baby at xmas time...

Sorry that I don't write more.. but I do read your posts and say my prayers for all of you...

Nicole

[Jcoope28]

Del Estrogen .20cc . Anyone notice sore nipples, crampy and bloated feeling almost like PMS from it? Only 2 more doses and blood test.
yay. Other than that, it helps my moods stay calmer and thats a big plus for hubby lol.

[LYD10]

I'm having a rough 2ww. One minute I think, I can tell, I'm preggers. Next minute I think I'm not having any symptoms, I know I'm not. It's up and down, up and down. Things didn't go well this weekend and daylight savings time is really screwing with my son's schedule. He's been sick with a fever. I was told not to lift him for 2-3 days. However, my husband was called in to work yesterday, and Boothe was sick and crying. I pulled him up into my lap a couple of times, and held him while he slept because I couldn't carry him to lay him down. If you have any PMA left over, please, send it my way. Thanks,

Mamaboo - dont worry about lifting. I have a 1 yr old and have been lifting him since 2 days after transfer. the embryologist said it was ok to do it. its not going to change the result.

[blairwh58]

nicnad- Exciting!! I think that makes you one of the next ones up. Wishing you the best with the FET and hoping you end up with the BFP youve been waiting for.

bliss- I agree with DH that you cant just leave us. No matter when you end up doing your next one I will be there cheering you along.

totsie- How did it go today??? Anxiously awaiting the beta results. Keep us posted.

mamboo- Im sure your preggo so dont let little things bring down your spirit. Hopefully before you know it youll see that BFP and sign a breath of relief.

AFM- Seriously, I have never wanted a period so badly. Bring on the cramps, heavy flow, whatever AF has in store....Im just ready for it.

[MamaBoo]

Thank you Blair & Lyd: Thank you, I feel better about the need to be lifting on my son. I seem to be pretty good leading up to transfer, then I get all nervous and full of hormones and I'm a wreck Blissful, it's not you. You didn't bring me down, I'm really not good with surprises and lack of control. It gets to me. I'll be okay...in a week or so...or hopefully nine months or so. I certainly wish you the best of luck in your FET. I read your posts on the April thread and get all jealous, you're MY buddy Daycare wouldn't take Boo today because he was sick yesterday. Although he was at the dr yesterday, and he said he is fine, I didn't have a note. So I was home today. I got the note faxed, but also checking out new daycares. Mine really ticked me off. They are more expensive than others, but Boo really loves them. I think perhaps when he transitions into the toddler room, I will switch to make it easier on him?

[totsie]

its a BFP for me the beta came back at 208 thank you all for your encouragement. following you ladies really gave me straingth when i needed it the most (i wasnt a very active writer on here but i was defenitely a very active follower)

bliss and becca-i will be watchin you guys on the may boards, i wanna be there to see your BFPs that WILL be going up there pretty soon:)

[to_have_fun08]

Totsie - CONGRATS ON YOUR BFP!!!!


i did a big long post earlier and i like the post fairy gobbled it up because i am not seeing.

blair - put on the white pants and white undies and AF will show.

[blairwh58]

totsie- Congrats on such a great first beta!!!! Keep us posted when you go back for a second beta or US. SO exciting for you!!!!

to_have_fun- trust me when I say Ive been wearing my favorite undies in hopes that they end up ruined, but still nothing. Just keep dancing for me!!

[blairwh58]

Sorry to be a downer but 2 more of my friends just announced they were pregnant. Sometimes I feel like I just want to pause everyone else so I can finally get pregnant and join in on everything. I know I'm being whiny but when people are getting pregnant with their second and I still am not pregnant with my first its frustrating. Blah.

[timber5k]

Hey Timber5k- great to hear from you but I wish you were reporting that you were back at 100%.

Funny- I was jut thinking about the "to tell or not to tell" question. We have been so open about our procedures that most of our family knows and so do some of our friends and colleagues. I felt like it was such a big part of our lives that it was hard to keep it hidden, plus I wanted the support of close friends along the way (especially my Mom and sisters). Now that I am in my third 2ww, I am thinking that I will approach it differently in the future. This is hard enough on me, and there is no reason to drag them through the emotional anguish as well. Plus...God forbid we did get a BFP that didn't lead to a baby I think it would be easier to handle privately. So I guess my answer is... I know I will share with close friends and family this time but will wait until after 12 weeks for those who don't know we are trying.

Curious about your screen name- Are you are runner? The 5k part made me wonder. Its my passion when I am not on bed rest...

Continued congrats on great Betas. Not sure why so many but yes I would guess because of OHSS. When is your u/s?

Cindylou- I downloaded the book you recommended. So far it is very good but just a little dark for a girl on the 2ww. Had to stop reading for a little bit to pick up the PMA but its calling me back already. I think it is cool that there is music in each chapter, and its not bad tuneage either! Very cool in the iPad version because it plays at the beginning of each chapter.

Hey Blissful - sorry for taking so long to respond. I was just so depressed and frustrated about the OHSS. I couldn't go to work, I was tired of sitting at home, but I just didn't want to do anything. Anyway, I am really sorry to hear about your BFN. I've been keeping up on your posts. I'm sure you're tired of hearing "I'm Sorry," so I'll leave it at that. Truly wishing you the best of luck on your FET.

And about my screen name - yes, I am a runner. I miss it soooo much! When will I be able to start again? I still can't even stand up fully straight because of the OHSS. I'm registered for a 5K next Thursday. Don't even think I'll be able to walk it, but I might try. How about you? When can you pick it up again?

I let my husband tell his mom and dad about the pregnancy, but I still don't really want to tell anybody else yet. So far, only our parents know. We also didn't share with anyone that we were going through IVF. I just didn't want to deal with questions. My mom and dad know now because I needed my mom's help taking care of me when the OHSS was bad.

I don't remember reading if you decided to do the Masters program?

[timber5k]

Hi all,

My pregnancy has been mixed with so much negative and stressful stuff that it's been a tough month for me. My last beta (I think 19dpt) was 2002. I went in for a transvaginal ultrasound and finally saw the pregnancy on the screen and even a little flicker for the heartbeat. I cried. Other than the increasing betas, I just haven't really believed that I was pregnant. This OHSS has just not allowed me to enjoy the pregnancy.

The good news is that even though the fluid came back after the second draining, the accumulation really slowed down and I've lost 8 pounds since last Wednesday (I gained about 9 from the OHSS). My doctor also cleared me to go back to work (as long as I only use my head and fingers).

The OHSS has not totally cleared up, but I am sooooo much better. I can breathe almost normally. I can lie down almost flat. And the swelling and bloating has definitely gone down. I did have to buy some maternity clothes because only one pair of pants would actually still button, but I think I'll soon be able to put the maternity clothes aside and use them in the future.

So, when do you get cleared for your regular OB/GYN when you get pregnant from IVF? My RE charges $750 for early pregnancy monitoring for the first trimester. This is on top of the $10,000 that I paid for IVF. The description of the service is "Should you become pregnant, we will need to monitor your hormone levels during the 1st trimester. Office visits and ultrasounds will be billed separately." What? $750 to monitor my hormone levels and you don't even throw in a couple ultrasounds? I asked the office staff exactly what that means and she said that if I'm not feeling well, I'll be seen right away and they'll adjust my hormone levels. But if I went to a regular OB, I might not get that personal and timely attention. Ummm . . . I just don't think that is worth $750. I told her that I wasn't interested in it and she said, "Oh, then the doctor may need to release you to your regular OB."

I feel guilty, like it seems like I don't appreciate everything my RE has done for me, and he was especially great and caring with the OHSS. But am I crazy that $750 is just a ridiculous amount for a service that I'm not even sure I understand what the purpose or benefit is? Has anybody else had to deal with this?

On top of this, I am fighting with my insurance to pay for the two drainings that I had, which I'm sure are going to cost an arm and a leg if I have to pay out of pocket. The insurance company says that the procedures weren't authorized because they were to treat a complication from a non-covered service (IVF Treatment). I mean - I really should have gone to the emergency room. It wasn't like the drainings were really elective. And based on their logic, does that mean that since I'm pregnant from a non-covered service that they aren't going to cover me for prenatal care and labor and delivery? I am sooo stressed out! My husband keeps telling me not to stress, that it's not good for the pregnancy, but how can I help it?

[BlissfulCS]

Ladies- The PMA is back in full force today thanks to Totsie's BFP and March Madness. In fact, I am going back to delete my "whoa is me post" momentarily so others don't have to read it again. It was a moment of pure and utter honesty, but I am already on the path to positivity.

It just amazes me that the human heart has so much capacity to hope. I am not only excited about my imminent BFP, I am also excited about the adoption process. DH and I discussed it tonight, and we are ready for both. We are throwing ourselves into adoption full force. Best case scenario? We get our BFP in May and also adopt our second baby at some distant future point.

In all honesty, I have long felt just a little bit guilty about IVF. Don't get me wrong, I think it is a wonderful and miraculous process, but I was raised Southern Baptist and fully believe that God only gives you what you can handle. DH and I are blessed with a wonderful life and great jobs. I have often wondered if it was right for us to try so hard for a child of our own when there are many children that desperately need all we have to give. What an amazing blessing it would be to do both!

Totsie- CONGRATS!

Mamaboo- thanks for your kind thoughts. I am with you all the way. No need for jealousy.

Blair- I can't wait to get that UK onsesie. I filled out my bracket this morning and have UK, Duke, KU, and Florida in the Final Four with UK beating Florida for the championship. How is that for proof that the human heart has a great capacity for hope???!!! Perhaps when I visit my little bro in E-town I can swing by the 'ville and we can bring our babies together for a play date.

Jcoope- fingers crossed for a BFP! only two more sleeps!

Nicole- you are on deck! Good luck and keep that positive energy going. There is nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Madi- In real life I am a hard driving corporate pain in the dairy aire, so to hear that you think I am a sweetheart who deserves a BFP means a lot to me. It warms my heart. Thanks.

Wehavehope- you and I are in it to win it in May. Thank you!

FUN- you are the quintessential trooper and your encouragement means a lot to me. You inspire me to keep trying.

LYD10- BFN's do suck. But you are proof that there is reason to believe.

SD- What can I say? You always give me hope and you are ALL heart. You have been a rock for me and I thank my lucky stars for you.

Sorry to anyone I may have missed. It has been hard to keep up with all the love and support from my girls.

Good night ladies. All my best!