help so confused after miscarriage

[vonnie83]

Hi
i found out i was pregnant on the 29th of April after my 1st cycle of IVF on the 2nd of May i started to have some brown discharge and pain and went to my local NHS24 who told me it was more than likely a miscarriage and my clinic brought me in for bloods on the 3rd and told that it wasnt a miscarriage as my levels had quadrupled in the 4 days since my confirmation test but they repeated the tests on the 4th as the bleeding had got heavier and confirmed miscarriage as they had dropped from 481 on the tuesday to 230 on the thursday so the continued to take blood on the saturday the 6th & monday the 8th and on the 8th told me i was still pregnant as my levels had jumped back up from 230 on the 4th to 1051 on the 8th so the clinic scheduled a vaginal scan on the 9th which went well and they told me they suspected twins and that i had lost 1 and 1 was surviving i was scheduled in for another scan on the 17th to check for growth and the scan again went well & i was told that the baby had doubled in size and everything look good and that they were happy to leave until my original planned scan date on the 26th of May & I was so overjoyed that my baby was doing well, unfortunately 2 hours after the scan i started to bleed very heavily for a couple of hours then it stopped and turned into the brown discharge and my clinic arranged a scan on for yesterday friday the 20th where i was told i had lost the baby i had had a complete miscarriage and my womb was empty and they suspected that the clot i passed on tuesday about 4 hours after the scan was the baby, i fully understand that its one of these things that happen to many woman that has no rhyme or reason to it, its not the fact that iv miscarried thats got me so confused, what i dont understand is that at 12pm i was told my baby was fine and healthy and 2 hours later it be gone i dont understand how no problems showed on the scan or has the hospital done something during the scan to coz miscarriage so fast. im so confused i dont know how to process this as i do have so many questions and feel like iv no where to turn as the hospital said just to get in touch when i feel ready to go onto my 2nd cycle i dont feel i have their support to get the answers i need as to why nothing showed on the scan, has anyone had a similar experience?

[Jujubon]

My heart goes out to you as I just went thru a loss after my first cycle...thought I can't give you medical advice , I will tell you not to lose hope.. Unfortunately I also felt / feel alone as my clinic handled my situation very impersonal also...I send you hugs and good vibes thru this heart breaking ordeal...

[vonnie83]

Hi Jujubon

Im so very sorry for your loss also its a terrible thing to go through at anytime never mind after having to fight so hard with IVF to get there,

thank you for your kind words they have brought me great comfort & I will keep you in my prayers.

All the best for the future take care

xx

[Wishingandhoping]

I cannot give you a medical explanation, but I can certainly sympathize. I had a similar experience during this IVF. I had some bleeding episodes, but betas kept climbing. Ultrasounds on 5/12 and 5/15 looked great...1 gestational sac and yolk. The afternoon and evening of 5/15 I started bleeding heavily, and my beta on 5/17 dropped from 3417 to 1011. It really is awful to see a healthy ultrasound in the morning and miscarry the same day. I know that the actual ultrasound is not the cause, but it is heartbreaking. I agree with jujubon. Do not lose hope. The fact that an embryo was able to implant is always encouraging. It will work for us, and we will have the babies we are meant to have. These experiences will make us that much stronger, and we will be amazing mothers!

[vonnie83]

Hi Wishingandhoping

Thank u so much for sharing ur story with me iv trailed through lots of websites 2day trying to find answers as to why the ultra sound missed things i thought it should have picked up but iv found peace with the fact that maybe there just werent any to find my little peanuts just wasnt ready for me yet dosent make me feel any better at the moment but at least i can take comfort that they are together and have each other,

Im sure our time will come and as u said we will be fantastic mummys I wish u all the luck in the world for your future journey

xx