THANK YOU so much guys for your kind words! i felt better today. i talked to the coordinator and it sounds like i can do another transfer at the end of july - so even sooner then i thought. just have to wait for my AF and then start again. and i swapped emails with my embryologist and we are going to thaw out all my 6 embies and let them grow and transfer whichever ones make it!
Margie - i am trying to remember did you transfer day 5 or day 3 - and how many of them - was it 5 embies?
Ester - so happy to see you cycling again. here we go!!! this is it!!
gosh darn it, 4 cycles later i am starting to realize how incredibly lucky i was to have it worked on the 2nd try. because now i am on my 5th cycle trying for a sibling. for some reason i really want to give my DS a sibling in light of the fact that my DH and I are not young and may not be around for the second part of his life - i want him to have a brother or a sister if i possibly can help it. but at the same time i am counting my lucky stars that we managed to conceive once!! my embryologist keeps telling me how my DH's sperm is the worst she's ever seen. she is a scientist she doesnt mean it in a bad way - but enough already. i get it. hat's why we are here

she said that with bad sperm it helps ot have younger eggs because the eggs can help correct or the sperm's abnormalities. the older eggs are not as good at doing that - so it gets harder to overcome male factor as you get older apparently.
anyway, sorry for all the detail - i feel like i teach an ivf class at this point. urgh!!! i wish i never had to learn any of this. oh what would i give to be oblivious to all of his and just find myself pregnant over and over again like "regular" people.
anyway, i am seriously happy that my job is keeping as busy as it is otherwise i would be obsessing way too much over this.
ME 40, DH, 43
#1 IVF BFN
#2 FET DS born
#3 IVF ectopic
#4 FET BFN
#5 FET Chemical
#6 IVF, BFP at 8dpo, beta 215, started out with twins, one vanished at 6 weeks, EDD 9/4/12
