Summer Board 2011

[Lauren]

Ester-wow! That is awesome about ur doctor:) next time you see him send him a big thanks from me! Lol I don't think my RE ever used it for us until now. Not sure why but I never heard about it till now! It's really cool and u know what we got a better fert report and better envied this time do they automatically use that for u?

Anton-how are u? How u feeling? U find that hpt? Sounds like ur having a nice 2ww with DH friends and family! Can't believe ur beta is coming so soon already!!!!! BFP BFP BFP!!!!! Ur gonna be screaming it soon my friend:)

Fruit-thxs! U still poas tomorrow? U have any symptoms during the 2ww? Do they do PICSI for ur ER too?

Wehve-didn't u have the sore boobs already? Seems the mess make me tired and sore boobs...so happy for u!!

Afm-tired. Little bummed over my embies not making it to freeze but praying for the ones I have:) it's 95 here today! Hot hot...RE says no swimming I really just wanna float but I can't:( it will be worth it when I get my BFP:) do u ladies get hot flashes too? From the meds?

[fvrogers]

Prayersnpies - Enjoy your little vacation. That is the best way to manage the 2ww and keep yourself sane.

Fruit - That is so awesome that we are cycle budies !! Any plans to POAS? I will definitely keep you in mind on 08/03.

WeHaveHope - I am not planning to POAS. Figured I would just wait until the beta. I drove DH crazy last cycle - I was out of control . POAS several times a day. It was pitiful and I really think it added to my stress. I am just thinking positive and waiting until 08/03. That is so sweet that DH is already attached to the little one. Your beta is awesome!!! Thanks for the prayers and I will do the same for you.

Lauren - Sorry that you didn't have any frosties, but congrats on the successful transfer ! When was your ET and when is your beta? I know what you mean about the crams in ovaries vs uterus. I have tried to stop focusing on them, but my ER was on 07/20 so I would expect the cramping in my ovaries to have subsided by now. But when I laugh or sneeze I REALLY feel it and then every now and then there is a cramp out of no where so Lord only knows what's going on in there! I haven't really had any hot flashes that I can think of.

MaTina - Congrats on your PUPA status !! Enjoy the relaxing day. I spent my two days post ET on the couch with my pup and she was the best company!

Moorebaby - Thanks for the encouragement ! I thought the dreams were a possible preggo symptom, but I was not sure. I did not want to start super analyzing everything, but its good to know that there is something!!

AFM - Continuing to take it easy. It is miserably hot here. I was out in the garden watering my plants and noticed that my cucumbers died I was not watering them like I should right after the ET and was miserable after the ER so they have been kinda on their own for the last couple of weeks. However my tomatoes look great!! Just trying to keep busy and not get to focused on this 2ww.

[margi26]

CRASHER

WeHaveHope: Congratulations giril!!! Yipppeee!! And a great strong first beta! Celebrate and enjoy!

Lyd10: Glad to see you are back in the game!! I will be stalking for your BFP! For now you are PUPO , so let those embies stick!

Lauren319: Glad you are back as well!!

Lauren: Hang in there during the 2ww I know it is crazy-making for sure.

Ester: Doing ok with the Crazy-Juice?! Not too much longer until baseline for you!

Anton: Sending lots of positive energy your direction!! Your BFP is around the corner now...I cannot wait to celebrate with you!

Everyone else...lots of Baby Dust your way!!

[WeHaveHope]

Lauren-I did have some breast tenderness on and off duringthe 2WW. However, now they are much more tender. Had to tell DH to bw very gentle. And yes, I have had lots of symptoms with the IVF meds. one of the major side effects has been insomnia and night sweats. I have found myself waking up between 2am and 3am every morning. The night sweats have also been a big problem. It could be 70 degrees in my house I would be sweating like it was 100 degrees. What I can tell you is that it is all worth it.

DH and I have been on this crazy rollercoaster and it has not been easy. But, our love, commitment to each other, and faith have been papmount in this journey. Without these we could have never made it. Even with the negative Beta in June, we were very disappointed but we never lost sight if what was important. Those that know me from the Feb/Mar board know this. It was very difficult bit in the end it's us. It's about the two of us and we will be together and ultimately deal with whatever Hid sends our way. I am so happy with this Beta but we both know that things happen so we are try g to take it a day at a time, sometime a moment at a time. So in this moment, we are enjoying it to it's fullest. I di t know what tomorrow will bring but I know that have g our faith and love gives DH and I the ability to work through it.

Sending much love to all.

[Ninde]

Just heading to bed and checked in. I'm really quite amazed at the care and support that everyone shares. I think what has really struck me is just how little information my own clinic gave me about the procedure of IVF (I did find it a bit incredible that no-one has actually shown me how to use the injections but directed me to the tutorial of the drug company's website!). I have a feeling once I have my baseline next week that I will have some questions which I hope you don't mind my asking. So really, this note is just to re-iterate how incredible and supportive this board is and to say that the medical profession could learn alot from how all you wonderful ladies support and advise each other.

Wishing you all much love and light.

Goodnight

Ninde

[Kiminsh]

I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend. I just came to the realization today that I have 2 more weeks and then it is back to school for me!! I don't know where the summer went!! Today I went to visit a friend that just had her baby early this morning. She and her husband struggled with infertility for a long time before having their son. He is adorable. With all the disappointments, it is great encouragement to see other's successes:)

AF has finally come and gone. My cycle was so messed up after my BFN in June. I had a saline sonogram last week, results were normal. My RE said that my uterus is perfect. On Thursday of this week he will do an endometrial biopsy. Anybody have any experience with that? After that we will meet and figure out what are next steps will be. At first, I was really against giving IVF a second try (we pay for everything out of pocket), but keeping up with you ladies gives me hope that it is worth it to try again. DH and I are pinching pennies in hopes that we will get our miracle!!

[WeHaveHope]

Kiminsh-I am glad to hear that you are going to give it another try. Don't give up on your dreams. We will be here fir you every step of the way. Stay positive and have faith. Sending you lots of best wishes for this next cycle.


Sending you much love,

[Lauren]

hello ladies!

Fruit-Hows your weekend? You get your BFP this morning?

Anton-Havent heard from you! Hope all is well

Ester-How are the shots going? Baseline this week! You will b in crazytown soon

Ninde-Yes this is GREAt site for such support and you will see how many Re's do things differently and how we learn things from eachother

Kim=Good luck with your new cycle. Glad your in good spirits after your BFN. We will be here cheering you on

Wehave-Glad your starting to feel pregnant. Love the pic you have yes the isomnia and sweating is awesome

AFM-trying to stay positive. trying tofind things to keep me busy...one week down! one mroe to go

[WeHaveHope]

Dear friends,

Just a quick note to let all of you know that I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Thinking of each and every one of you this weekend. Stay positive, don't let go of your faith, and remember to never give up on your dreams.

Sending you lot of love,

[LYD10]

hi guys - i think this is going to be a vent post. the progesterone is getting the better of me. i noticed with hormones, for me, its particularly bad in the beginning when my body is getting used to the change.

so i live in the same city as my mom but she is absolutely no help at all. granted she's got a long list of medical conditions like really bad headaches and depression but even still it is ridiculous how absolutely no help she is. every weekend we try to arrange a time for my mom and dad to come over and play with their grandson and half the time they cancel for various reasons - not feeling well - and the other half the time they are late. mom has not had a job since her 30s and she doesnt have a concept of schedules and clocks. and when they do manage to come over ny DH and I cant even leave the house! because they are afraid to stay with the kid alone! OMG, its the progesterone i am sure - but seriously - its ridiculous how little help they are.

and this weekend - i am supposed to "take it easy". but we have way too much stuff to do for that to happen. i work full time during the week. so i have to get everything done during the weekend. anyway - i think those embies have fallen out of my uterus already with all the running around and DS lifting. this will be truly a miracle if this attempt works. we only have one "decent" 3 day embie. the rest are very slow. our chances are 20% maximum. so i am already mentally preparing for the next cycle and i hate the thought of more ultrasound appnts. those take so much time - even though i love my doc - and he knows how busy i am so he tried to get me in/out as fast as possible. but still - fresh cycle is a pain. i am so sick of this all!!!!
i had my DH start on coq10 and fertility suppliments and told him he better take it religiously - because last time he didnt take them and we had crappy fertilization rate and that's why we are most likely looking down the barrel of another fresh cycle.

sorry for the vent, ladies. but the life of a fulltime working mom is hard enough without having to deal with all this infertility stuff, and parentals that are absolutely useless and full of excuses.

omg - wehavehope - i am sorry i followed your very uplifting post with such a tremendous downer. but i needed a vent... this IF crap is just too much sometimes.

[Ninde]

Lyd10, things sound extremely stressful right now for you. Your schedule being a working mum must be hectic and the hormones and unhelpful parents seem to be adding to that. Try and do something nice for yourself, doesn't matter how small it is -do it so you remind yourself that you deserve to take even a tiny bit oftime for yourself.I hope tomorrow is better and that you sleep really well.

Wishing you love and light

Ninde

[WeHaveHope]

Lyd10-there is absolutely nothing to be sorry about. I can totally relate. The hormones make me absolutely crazy and super depressed. I do get help from mom. I can't complain on that end except that she has absolutely mo clue that we are doing IVF. We decided a long time ago to make this a very private affair. The leas people know the less questions you have to answer. People realy do mean well but this is difficult enough without having to answer a bunch of questions everyday. I realy dis not take it easy at all this cycle and we got a BFP so I would not worry to much about that. Trust me, the embabies can't fall out of your uterus. I was out on the football field with my two kids the following evening after the FET carrying football equipment, folding chair, and bottles of water. Siting out in the hot muggy weather for hours. And, I've done that everyday after that. So don't worry. Those embabies are just fine. Do take a little time for yourself. Even if it's listening to your favorite song while your in the shower. But do it. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.


Sending you much love,

[fvrogers]

WeHaveHope - Thanks for your constant encouragement and inspiration. It has been very comforting. I know the reason I am more relaxed this cycle is because I am so hopeful and firmly grounded in my faith that this has worked

Ninde - Good luck with your upcoming cycle!! Feel free to ask questions. This is my second cycle and I still had questions and have found women who have gone through the IVF process to be the best source of information.

Kiminsh - I am so glad you are considering giving IVF a 2nd try. Like you, I was so devastated after my first IVF failed it took me months to decide what to do. We pay out of pocket for everything except meds and we also had to do PGD and ICSI so each cycle is super expensive . With a lot of prayer we decided to plunge forward and give it another shot and I am so glad that we did. We ended up with 4 frosties this cycle which gives me so much more hope! I am keeping you in my prayers and you decide what to do.

Lauren - Wishing you a speedy 2ww!

Lyd10 - Sending you a big hug. I know that the hormones really do put us on an emotional roller coaster. I had a meltdown at work while I was stimming - it was really bad . But please remain positive. There is a lot to be said for faith and hope. Ninde is right, it is important that you take a small bit of time for yourself to regroup and regain some strength. Remember that you are PUPA so stay positive.

AFM - Just hanging around. Not much to report. Crazy dreams continue ... sleep is very interesting . The dreams just keep getting worse and worse. Gotta decide tomorrow when to go back to work. My boss has been super supportive this cycle. I am leaning towards going back on Thursday, the day after my beta.

Good night all!
Felicia

[LYD10]

thank you guys so much! this board is a god sent! i dont know what i would do without you guys we are also pretty discrete with our ivf information, so there isnt even that many people i can share my feelings and frustrations with.

have a great night everyone and much luck to us all!!!

Anton - please tell me you got a BFP soon!!! i cant wait - you, my friend, have been on such a long road and with such high spirits - i dont know how you do it.

Also, thanks everyone for sharing your success stories - it helps me feel better about my decision of no bedrest after ET.

[Lauren319]

Hello all,

I'm just getting into the swing of checking the board regularly. You all can seriously type.

Teachergirl - We have way too much in common. I'm the youngest of three girls and have had a really rough ride with this fragile x nightmare. I'll let you know my story if you really want to know, but I mostly want to tell you that you should definitely try again. The percentage of affected vs. non affected in any given cycle is a crap-shoot. Just because they claim that there's a 50/50 chance does not mean that 50% of your embryos will be affected. In fact, next cycle they could all be unaffected. I've seriously read up on everything fragile x, so let me know if I can be of any support.

Fruit - I was tested because I was already pregnant and my husband and I went in to do routine genetic testing (mainly for tay sachs). As it turned out, I was a carrier as were my two sisters, one of who was 8 months pregnant and had no idea and the other had two unaffected boys by luck.

Lauren - So good to see you again! It looks like things are going well for you this time around! I know not having frosties is rough, but maybe you wont even need them?!?! I remember hot flashes. Hormones are different for different people...hang in there.

Anton - POAS yet?

Alwaysangel - I know nothing about clotting. U ok?

AKdelp - I'm so sorry and so proud of you for getting back in the game so soon. Seriously. You're so strong and such an inspiration.

Brandy - dancing for you.

Wehavehope - rock on. stoked to start on this board

Ryann - TWINS?!?! Already? Holy shit, girl. CONGRATS. I can't believe it.

Lou - I missed you!!

Klinger - awesome to see you here!!!

Ester - YAY! I'm so happy to share this cycle with you

Margi - !!!! How are you?? What's going on?!

Ninde - That's crazy. They didn't teach you how? My office had a little fake stomach and needles for me to practice. I will certainly try to answer any question you may have. This board has been such a big help to me and I'm sure you'll find the same

LYD - I must reiterate what Ninde said. It's amazing how crazy things can get and how heightened every emotion is...especially irritability (believe me), but PLEASE take some time for yourself. My mom is fucking insane. In fact, after my last round of IVF I stopped talking to her. I only started talking to her recently, which means we didn't speak for 6 months. I couldn't talk to her without her talking about babies and my next appt. and blah blah blah even though she had no capacity for empathy and was so stupid (seriously) that she couldn't understand the process of IVF anyway. My best advice is to KEEP VENTING HERE and take deep breaths when she's around. Otherwise, you're gonna have to cut her out for awhile or it just wont work. Chin up, lovely.