Summer Board 2011

[Sweetpea614]

Anton I'm so sorry. I really though this was it for you. It will happen. You deserve it and will be an amazing Mother

((Big Hugs))
Kat

[deftonesmo]

Anton: Damn. I'm so sorry to hear your news. I know it will happen for you. Never give up... xoxo

[Madame X]

Anton & Fruit – I haven’t been really active posting since the end of June, but I have been stalking you two, along with the rest of the board. I just wanted to say I am thinking of you both and I know one day you will be holding a little one or two in your arms. You both have had such a journey and I know you won’t give up until that day comes. And then you will look back at this journey and treasure every moment with your family.

[Wishingandhoping]

Wehavehope- Congrats on a great 2nd beta! Can't wait for your ultrasound!

Anton and Fruit- You are both amazing and strong women. This process can be so heartbreaking, and unfortunately you two have had more than your share of bad news. I really wish there was something that I could say to make you feel better, but I know it's just a time to cry and be angry. Please update us when you feel up to it. (((HUGS)))

[Lauren319]

Anton and Fruit - F*ck. I'm so sorry. Take time. We're here.

Wehavehope - SO PREGGO.

[moorebaby]

tuffy4u- I know you wrote on the other thread that you think AF came, but I'm still rooting for your BFP! I'm praying that you will have great news tomorrow!

Felicia- Good luck tomorrow! Can't wait to hear your great BETA results!

Lauren- How are you doing?

fruit & anton- Just like I said in my earlier post, I'm so sorry! I'm thinking of you! (((HUGS)))

blueeyedreamer- Has AF shown up yet?

Ninde- Let us know how your baseline goes tomorrow.

[amanda1979]

Anton- My heart fills with sorrow for you and your DH. I have been reading every day hoping to see you BFP. We will both be on the fall board & we will both get our BFPs. Have you ever tried frozen? My RE & myself thought doing a freeze all this time would give us a better chance at getting pregnant. I will say my response was better this time and I can't wait to thaw out our babies Sending you lots of healing prayers.

longtimerivf- CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wehavehope- CONGRATS to you too:):)

AFM: I haven't been posting since I am in limbo, but I am reading everyday and rooting for every one of you ladies. Next week we will be taking my mom to her follow up appts. to see if she is cancer free. I believe with all my heart she is. Oh does anyone know what SBA blood work is? my nurse called today & said I need to come in for that since we did donor eggs along with mine.

[fruit]

Thank u all Ladies for ur kind words, it very nice to feel that there is someone in the world who really understands you and knows how it feels to be stuck in this journey especially when no one of ur family knows and u can't talk about it with anyone since they will never understand.... and you ladies are the best thing that happened to me during this whole ivf process.

i will not do personals now,i have to go back to work, but i will be stalking you all and cheering you all on ur BFPs.

[anton]

Hi girls,

Thank you all for your kind words and support. You are all amazing! I have said it before and I will say it again,...I know that if it was up to you guys I would have had my BFP by now! And I appreciate that...some of you asked about doing a FET and change clinic...so, I have done my fist 4 IVF’s with my OB/Gyn then changed to a new RE and had 2 fresh cycles and an FET with him. All ended in BFN’s. My RE believes very much in FET’s! and its too bad that we didn’t had any to freeze this time. His clinic has high FET success rates...maybe I was just unlucky with all fresh and frozen cycles. I don’t know...My RE called me today to ask me how I feel and to arrange our WTF appt for this Saturday. He told me that he is very sorry for me and DH and after so many attempts and no baby it breaks his heart. He told me that he still can’t believe it himself that after everything looking SO perfect with the whole protocol from day one of stims and after transferring beautiful blasts both last fresh cycles and still it didn’t worked! He told me that we are definitely one of the most difficult cases out there. Oh well, tell me something new...he told me that he will think of something and tell me his thoughts in our appt on Saturday. So we shall see and take it from there....I appreciated his concern being “human” and all about the negatives and he seems really anxious to help us have a baby. I can’t wait to find out his suggestions...not that there are many (ED, SD adoption..I don’t know...) we talked again about not being able to do the CGH analysis this time and for sure is something that we will consider doing in our next fresh cycle. I thought of changing RE again but I don’t think that’s going to get us a baby. I trust this one as I trusted the other and I know that he will do anything possible for us to have a baby or two...besides I have tried all the protocols that there are out there and made every test there is to be made both me and DH... I will keep you girls posted....AF showed her face today like a good regular customer. Right on schedule...I can’t wait to dive into my pool this weekend and stay at the bottom for as long as it takes!!!....sorry for the vending girls...I will need to start Job searching and feel horrible! but it is a must that I do that...after i got redundance from my last job (Marketing Manager for the last 7 years in that company) DH and I decided that we focus on baby making and for that to happen I should be relaxed and so its been a year since I was I got that redanduncy letter and still no baby. DH told me that even if a year passes we are going to be fine...assuming that we would have our baby by then and I would stay home for a year or so to raise it and then find another job. So I told DH yesterday that I feel I should start looking for a job and the baby will come when it comes...he agreed of course. We are paying out of pocket for the IVF and we are going to need every penny we can get! so either I want it or not PMA must be up! moving forward and changes are allways scary but I am looking forward to that day when we get our miracle baby and our whole world will change!!!!

Wehavehope- Congrats on a great beta girl!! and don’t feel bad posting your good news! This is what we all live for! For the good news!!!

Sorry for no more personals....good luck and baby dust to us all!!

anton

[fruit]

ohh Anton - im so sorry about the BFN, forgive me i just realized i dont know where my head is....
i know how it feels to go through so many cycles, protocols, meds..... and having the same negative result. im on the same boat, i can't even describe the feeling, but we have to keep trying coz we have no choice....
i wish u all the luck on saturday, hope ur RE can give u some answers, he seems very nice RE , mine is not even answering the phone and his staff arent giving me an appointment soon WTF !! i hate him and im going back to my previous RE he's way better.

[WeHaveHope]

Anton & Ftuit-just wanted to let you know that I am keeping you both in my prayers. I pray that you are both blessed with what you want the most. You are both very special, strong, loving women. You have so much love to give and deserve to have what makes you happy. Please keep in touch. Know that I am here for you. Sending you much love and peace in your hearts.

[fvrogers]

Anton and Fuit - I have been at such a loss for words and have had no idea how to respond. I am so devastated by your BFN, you both have had such a long journey. I love that you both are still getting back on the IVF wagon, it is encouraging for the rest of us to your never ending hope and good spirits. I am sending hugs and comforting prayers your way.

AFM - Beta today, woke up to bleeding this morning so my spirits are somewhat dampened I am still trying to keep my faith that God will answer my prayers. I know that my office has told me over and over to not stop the Progesterone inserts until after we get beta results even if I start to bleed. We will see ....

[WeHaveHope]

Fvrogers-I am praying that everything is ok. Don't loose hope. I know it's easier said than done. I am praying for a good result today for you. Make sure you don't stop your meds until they tell you to. The bleeding could be from the vaginal suppositories which make the cervix very sensitive. I just learned this recently myself so keep your head up. Know that we all love.

[mcast]

Anton- Right now in this point I know how you feel and everyday since my BFN on 7/25 has been hard since I can't stop thinking about it.

I'm past my family and close friends telling me they are devastated for us and this helps because I don't have to cry or hold back tears. I wish I had the money to keep trying until we get our BFP. This week I'm realizing that it is what it is and all I could do is move forward. I started working out again and decided I'm going to focus on me.

Question Ladies- After a BFN does anyone feel like pointing the finger at their doctor? My doctor decided to transfer on day 6 and I'm wondering why he waited so long. Also I started with 34 eggs after my retrieval, he said 24 were good, 16 fertilized, and out of the 16 he also kept 4 (too of which were transferred, BFN). Also his office made us wait 10 days before seeing him, we go this Thursday. I had allot of questions and want to know why he made the decisions he did. By the way someone said it sounds like I was over stimulated. I'm sure this is part of the grieving process.

[easley4]

Anton & Fruit~ Oh girls I am just beyond sorry. I just knew you were going to get your BFPs. You both are so strong and seem like such wonderful women with lovely husbands. You just deserved this so much! I am praying for you both and sending you ((HUGS)). I know it must be terribly hard right now but please try to keep your faith, I know your time will come.