Summer Board 2011

[WeHaveHope]

Hope everyone is doing well. I went for my appointment for my b/w today. Beta was 203. It's very sad that only 1 1/2 weeks ago I was praying for my Beta to double and here I am today praying that it falls like a rock. It's the hand I've been dealt and I have to make the best of it. I have to say that my RE is the best. He always finds time for me even when I don't have an appointment with him. As my blood was being drawn today he came by to ask me how I was feeling. Of course, I was feeling like crap but the fact that he found some time in his busy day to ask me made me feel a little better. I am still bleeding alot. I've had blood clots today the size of small golf balls, sorry for TMI. But my RE says that despite the pain and discomfort that at this point this is what we want to happen. He said that the more I bleed the faster the Hcg levels will go down. I officially started on BCP tonight. I feel the same as others on this board in that it is ironic that I am on BCP when I am trying to get pregnant. But that's IVF for you. At this point I am praying that by next week my Hcg level will be zero but I'm not so sure. We will just have to wait and see. I may have to be on BCP a little longer then the usual for an FET cycle just waiting for the levels to fall. But at least we were able to grab onto this cycle and take contol of it with the BCP instead of having to wait for another period to begin BCP. That happened to me with my 1st FET cycle after my cancelled fresh cycle and I was extremely disappointed. We wait and wait for these IVF cycles and any delay is always so disappointing.

I want everyone to know that I am praying for each and everyone of you and that you are always in my thoughts. Sending you all my love.

[Ninde]

Wehave hope : I really hope your bleeding stops soon.

Slight panic on my part for the first time. I'm not 100% sure I was getting the full dose of nasal spray yesterday. It felt a bit sluggish and when I used the new bottle this morning I definately felt it was more than yesterday and more what I've been used to. It Myst have been running out yesterday. I really hope ovulation hasn't happened. Has anyone had experience with this?

[Wishingandhoping]

Ninde- I don't know anything about the nasal spray, so unfortunately I can't answer that question, but I bet you got enough medicine in that it won't be any problem. It sounds like you are moving right along. Your numbers sound great!

Wehavehope- I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this. I remember waiting for my beta to drop. It does seem cruel. My DH and I went on vacation and took a month off so that we would enjoy some non-IVF time. I completely understand wanting to go ahead and start another cycle though. It is such a frustrating process!

Ester- Great report! You'll be PUPO very soon!

Lyd- I posted to you on the PAT board. Once again, I'm sorry you're going through this. (((HUGS)))

I'm sure I missed lots of people, but I pray for you all every day!

AFM- I had 2 great work days with no bleeding, then yesterday I had some light brown bleeding. Back to bedrest for now. Next ultrasound is Monday. Praying that my babies are growing and that the bleeding stops!

[Sunshine1576]

WeHaveHope,
You have been in my thoughts and prayers this week,and I loved that your doctor is so compassionate, trust us that is hard to find! I know waiting for the numbers to drop must be hard but it's good that you don't have to wait long to start up a new cycle with bcp. Nope I've never understood why they put us on bcp, but when I ask my nurse has told me to help suppress the ovaries so we can make more follicles develop. Timing is everything! Also I loved your quote: It's hard to wait around for something you may never know will happen, but's it's harder to give up when you know it's everything you want." You really should use that on your signature line, this is want keeps us going and we are going to fight this battle to homecoming.

Ninde,
Not familar with the nasal spray and may have to wait for bloodwork to tell you more about ovulation. I was a big fan of the ovulation predictor kits, but they kind of get expensive after 2 yrs with those I bet Ireland is beautiful, my maiden last name is "Bice" and my Papa once told me my family roots come from Ireland. Would love to visit Ireland someday but for now I might have to bring out my DVD and watch "P.S I Love you." Great movie but if you might know of any other movies filmed in Ireland plese let us know, very picturesque.

AFM: I went to bed a little nervous last night thinking this time next week I will know the results...I prayed and fell asleep and dreamed I was in a religion class and the professor was asking me to interpret a scripture from Exodus and all I could say outloud to the class was this verse means to me we need to have a closer relationship with God. I am not a very religious person who attends every service but I do believe in God and maybe He was speaking to me. I do know when we pray the anxiety goes away.

[Ninde]

Wishing: I'm sorry to hear you are back on bed rest I hope you arnt toobored there. I'm sending you really positive energy for those beauties. Thank you for your reassurance

Sunshine : I can understand how agitated yoy must be feeling. Shall have a think for other Irish movies. Some of them are about the inner cities of dublin and cork, etc, and are definately not picturesque! The guard with Brendan gleeson and your own don cheadle shows some nice parts of the west and I also thought it was hilarious.

Afm: we are having people to dinner this evening and it will be weird not talking at all about the ivf. We have also started on the adoption process but because it takes about 6 years to adopt through the Irish system (all intercountry adoptions, no Irish children adoptions) we decided to do both together. But we arnt supposed to and these people are 2 couples whom we got on well with from the adoption course. So will have to be at my sparkling best. Other than that, stabbing sort of pain in my right side which I'm putting down to folkuce growth
Ninde

[WeHaveHope]

Sunshine-thank you for always keeping me in your thoughts. I took your advise and added thevquote to my signature. I have another quotevthat I also love so I may go back ando forth with these two. Always keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Wishing-thank you also for always thinking of me. I pray that everything goes well for you. Try to rest. Know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Ninde-I am glad you are doing well. It sounds like things are moving right along. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers always.

[Sunshine1576]

omg WeHaveHope, I told my MIL something very similar...That when I am 65 or 70 one day I don't want to look back and regret not trying everything we can for a family and she agreed. My dad once told me "Anything worth having in life is not meant to be easy", his words were always wise and from time to time I reflect back to what he taught me growing up. I hope my husband can be father one day too because I know there is nothing quite like having a daddy.

[WeHaveHope]

Sunshine-your father sounds like a very smart and loving father. My father us to tell me something very similar and I always remind myself of his words, they always keep me going. I love his quote and think you should definantely use it in your signature line. Dint give up hope and have faith your miracle will come.

[Lauren319]

Hey guys! I've been so busy with appointments and suddenly I have a booked social life, which is crazy cause I'm mostly antisocial

Wishing - Ugh. I'm sorry bleeding started again. I'm sure everything is fine. PLEASE take it easy though.

Prayers - They didn't give you your number? Weird. It's great that "everything looks great" though!! WOOHOOO!!!

teachergirl - are you now with surrey/danzer in l.a.? They actually have an ongoing relationship with Reprogenetics in NJ instead of the lab in Chicago, but it's just as good and puts you in a great position because they work very well together. (I know bc that's where I am)

Wehavehope - YAY for AF!! this will be it for you! I know it's been so rough, but your hcg will drop before you know it and you'll be on your way.

Madame - They extract a single cell on Day 3 and Fedex it to Chicago/New Jersey. On Day 4, Chicago/NJ gets the single cell, tests it for fragile x (or whatever) and then on Day 5 they fax a report back to your RE as to which embryos are unaffected. Assuming those embryos are doing well in the lab, they can be implanted. It's definitely some Gattaca shit.

Ester - I'm in L.A.! Santa Monica! Hit me up when you're down here. More about me below. How are you doing? Sounds like everything is going so well for you this time. You're so close to being done! I'm so excited!!

LYD - ****.

Anton - I know how you feel. My doc told me that last time should've worked and that statistically I had an 80% of getting preggers. They don't really understand it. I'm here to tell you that sometimes "shit happens." Don't give up hope. Your calendar looks super busy and like so much fun! Live it up, girl!

MaTina - I'm so sorry! No other options? really??

Ninde - nasal spray? I've never heard of such a thing. For IVF? Ovulation? What nasal spray?

AFM - Had my HSS. They found the tiniest polyp ever and because my RE doesn't understand why a chemical happened last time (my first beta was like 210), he wants to go in and scrape the whole thing out. So, it's another surgery for me It's so not that big of a deal, but it's definitely annoying.

The doc asked how well I do with anesthesia (because I switched RE's from his partner - I like his bedside manner better) and I said it was the best sleep of my life and if I could I'd take that shit at home. I don't think he's used to someone like me, but seemed humored.

I'm still on track though to start Lupron some time next week.

Love to you all.

[Ninde]

Lauren319: the nasal spray is used here from day 21 right through yo trigger. Its 2 sprays 4 times a day and its used as the down regulator and to hold off ovulation. Ugh, that's not great on the surgery. Will it be soon?

Dinner went well thankfully!!

[LYD10]

well put, lauren

i was pretty sad all day today. even though i didnt expect this cycle to work but that 1st beta got my hopes up. so i am quite sad this weekend.
no i dont have any bleeding. but i never bleed on pio. that stuff is bullet proof for me. i dont think i would ever get my period on pio.

[WeHaveHope]

Lyd10-I posted a message for you on the Fall board but wanted you to know that you ate in my prayers and I am thinking of you. Sending you a BIG hug. We all lobe you very much.

[Lauren319]

Lyd - I'm so sorry. I really don't know what else to say besides what's been said. I've been there. It sucks

Surgery's Monday! ugh.

[WeHaveHope]

Lauren319-good luck with your surgery on Monday. I know it sucks. I had the same problem several years ago. It will be ok. This will just bring you closer to getting that BFP!!! Keeping you in my prayers.

[LYD10]

good luck on your surgery, Lauren!