Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Sunshine1576]

We,
Thank you for your sweet message tonight... I would of been a goner for sure if it weren't for friends like you but you keep me hanging on. I'm so glad you got to speak to your doctor about what's going on with this cycle and he may recommend a d&c..We know there is no easy way around this...All we know is a d&c will help prepare the body for the next upcoming pregnancy and we have to move forward so I'm praying that God will give you the strength and ease your mind to make the best decision possible.

Rosie84,
Glad you've joined this forum! You'll find so much support here too with girls that have experienced everything in the sun! Any questions?, feel free to ask away!

Fruit,
I just played catchup since my internet was down all night and found your post. I am sending you much babydust and a giant bear hug too!

AFM: Belles is coming over tomorrow to help me plan our fall block party with the neighbors. Thursday, my other next door neighbor wants me to come over to teach her how to sew, so I told her we could make some baby clothes for her 14 month old son. Maybe this will be what breaks the ice between me and her, I really hope so. I cannot be envious forever just b/c she got married at 22 and had a baby only one year later...She knows about our m/c and I'm seeing a fertility doctor but I feel so limited on what all I can tell her.

[toniaa]

Hi everyone, I havent been on in a while but I went to doctor yesterday and everything ok so starting my Gonal-F injections tonight with an est ER 19th September. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhh Im really scared but also really excited - so I will keep you up dated about how I get on Just also to say that all of you girls are very insparational

[anton]

Hi everyone!




…we have a time difference of 7-10hrs with most of you ladies. So I am ahead of the day with most of you and I kinda comment on your posts a day after you post something! …so, in my part of the world is Wednesday 7th and time now is 12:30am…so, sorry if I don’t comment on time with your posts…

Sunshine- I am sorry you had a rough night debating with yourself honey …I completely understand where you coming from as I had many of those nights! … I wonder sometimes more than others, what IF we never get to be parents. At least with our own genes. It’s hard to accept that this might happen and is even harder to wait for that BFP to come. How more should we wait? When is enough? 2yrs ago when we got on the IVF rollercoaster we never! even in our worst nightmares though of coming this far and still be on that rollercoaster! We have done 6 fresh IVF cycles and 1 FET. This cycle is going to be the 7th fresh and 8th attempt in total and never so far we got a BFP. Not even a chemical. only BFN's! WHY! What IF we are a lost case? What it we are one of those couples that unexplained infertility has nock on their door and we shall never get that BFP!... I so often think of these things and I am scared that what IF this is our case. I am tired. We are tired. So many negatives…and then I hear cases like women who have had 10-15 attempts and at the end got their miracle! and I start feeling positive again...I want my miracle too! I believe that miracles happen I just don’t want to lose my patience while waiting for mine to come…this is taking too long! I wish I knew that this time IT WILL happen and I will get that positive Beta and be the happiest person on earth! I want that day to come this cycle! Is that too much to ask?! Well, we shall see….I am happy that Belles is to the rescue one more time to lift up your spirit! …I have one word for you my friend and that is PERSEVERANCE!



Wehavehope- I am sorry you have to go through this …I hope this is going to end soon and you get to have your FET as planned! A D&C is not as bad as it sounds. We know that many women do that after a mc I am even planning on having a mild one (endo something...) b/c I’ve heard that it helps the embryos to implant. In simple words they told me that the endo’s effort to heal produces more blood circulation in that area and thus helps the implantation. Look at it this way; you are going to be as good as new after D&C! I am crossing my fingers for you!



Rosie84- Welcome to the Fall board! Your luck will definitely change here! New cycle! New clinic! New cyber friends! What can go wrong with that! My prayers are with you for that BFP


Toniaa- YAY for starting Gonal-f!!!!!! You are a step closer to your BFP girl!!! The 19th will be here b4 you know it! …hey! where are you from, if I may ask?




AFM- sorry for the rumbling above …we are not made of stone so it’s ok to break down sometimes…my BF Maggie came over last night with another friend of ours and we had a good laugh! We ordered pizza and had some girl talk …I am having lunch with my mom today and looking forward to that. She and my dad have been on vacations in Greece for 3 weeks and got back last Wednesday but I haven’t really seen them as much as I would like to so when she told me to meet today I was glad. We have a lot of catching up to do! I’ve decided that I am not going to visit my friends at the beach house after all. I am going to visit my favorite cousin tonigh she lives 2min driving from my place and we meet all the time!…

Baby dust to us all!



anton

[toniaa]

Hi anton, Im from Ireland - yes I hope the 19th hurries but most important please please give me a BFP

[leorira11]

looks like a lot of us are non-Americans (well... I'm half-American) -- 2 Israelis (welcome Rosie!), 1 Irish (welcome Tonia!) and Anton - what do you call someone from Cyprus? Cyprusian? Cyprusese? Not sure why I'm haven't a mental block on what the correct word is!

Day 2 of Provera.... I'm feeling like I'm going *somewhere* with my treatment, which feels good.

Our plan of "FET, then fresh cycle and if still not pregnant - long vacation in Europe" is really appealing to me. I feel like it takes some of the pressure off of needing that BFP -- if I don't get the BFP - I get a vacation!

Job searching continues to suck...

Anton - I hope this week without the hubby goes really fast! I actually did my first IVF cycle when my DH was away in basic training (for his mandatory army service) and I was sooooo lonely. Sounds like you are keeping busy with all your friends and cousins - sounds like fun!

Christy - everyone has up days and down days - especially when you've been doing this as long as we have. Just remember - every day is only a day - today might be bad, but maybe tomorrow will be better.

I've been thinking about when we stop trying and give up on being parents. (Adoption is another route but it's even more complicated, long and potentially heartbreaking than the one we are on for now.) I was listening to the radio and a new country song came on -- the lyrics really stuck with me. "You stay until staying is worse than leaving". 'Leaving' and giving up the IVF would be worse than 'staying' with it for now --- but I can see a future in which giving up is easier than trying again. I guess we stick with it until 'staying is worse than leaving'....

[WeHaveHope]

UPDATED 09-07-11 @ 11:48am EST. Please let me know if I have missed anyone or if I'm missing any updates. Sending you lots of xoxoxo.








Fvrogers-FET 10/2011
Akdelp-On Estrace for FET on 9-22-11
WeHaveHope-Started Lupron 8-31-11 for FET on 9-30-11


Becca-Fall/2011
Tamera-11/2011
Kiminsh-Fall/2011
Fruit-Fall/2011
Alwaysangel-Fall/2011
Sunshine1576-Fall/2011
Lyd10-Fall/2011
Anton-Fall/2011
Krrice28-RE appointment moved up to 9-14 for IVF 10/2011
Jasmin-Fall/2011
Melinda72-ER 9-12-11
Indigofire-ER 9-13-11, estimated ET 9-16-11
Rosie84-IVF Late Oct/2011
Cheri76-Day 3 blood work on 9-9-11 for Fall IVF


Neffi211-waiting for AF. Transfer scheduled for 10-28-11
Sky7371-waiting for AF to start BCP for 1st IVF attempt 10-28-11
Leorira-Starting on Provera for AF to come. Tentative FET 10-25-11.
JenMink55-Waiting for AF for Fall IVF.


Blueeyedreamer-on BCP for cycle 10/2011
Kerpupples-on BCP for cycle Fall/2011



Kendra_n_Michael-on Lupron, estimated ER 9-20-11
K8ielovett-On Menapure. ER Sept/2011
Toniaa-Started Gonal F for IVF Fall/2011









RESULTS

[WeHaveHope]

Leora-thank you for sharing your thoughts. I completely agree. For the time being I can't imagine not continuing to try but the day that it hurst more to keep trying rather than stop, that will be the day I will need to move on. I am so greatful for everything I have, I truly am, but I desire a little bundle of joy that's a little me and a little DH. Right now I am still able to push forward although somedays I wonder.

Toniaa-I am so excited for you. I have updated you on the Fall Roll Call. You are getting so close to that BFP. I can feel it!

Sunshine-how are you feeling, hon? I pray that today proves to be a better day for you.

Anton-hope this week goes by real fast. I can't wait for you to get started. This cycle is absolutely going to be your cycle!

Rosie84-welcome again!

Fruit-how are you doing?

Lyd-how are you feeling? When is your next Beta? Praying for a BIG FAT ZERO!

EOE-hope you are all doing well. Please know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

AFM-feeling a little bit in the dumps today but trying to pick myself up.

[Cheri76]

I just read through the last couple of pages and it both breaks my heart and encourages me to hear of everyone's pain and anticipation. It is definitely a rough road that we take on when we decide to go through IVF and it takes a strong woman (and partner!) to manage the process. There is so much to consider, think about, worry about and stress along every step of the way. Every milestone can bring heartbreak and ecstatic joy depending on the outcome. Most people never have to consider anything other than when they want to stop preventing a pregnancy. While I am happy for them, I am even happier for us. This is an opportunity for us to face adversity, deepen our relationships with our husbands, our selves and with whatever higher power you believe in. It can sound corny, but we were chosen to take this path because we were identified as the ones that would benefit from it and who can handle it. Not every woman out there would be able to deal with the stress and come out stronger for it.

Once we all have our babies, (AND WE WILL!), there will never be a time when you doubt that you did the right thing or that you are ready. Your baby will never have a doubt that you wanted them more than anything in the world. Imagine the security and the love that your child will know, understanding that his/her parents went through so much to hold him in their arms. I also love the fact that we get to see our babies from the very first moment of conception and get to see them way more frequently than anyone else.

It is the small stuff that gets me through and knowing that one day, it will be worth it. Even if I never get the baby I desperately want, the opportunity to meet women of quality on this board and the relationship that my DH and I have gained, make it all worth it.

I hope that you all find joy at the end of this road, no matter how long it takes and the strength to handle every road block along the way.

[WeHaveHope]

Cheri-thank you so much for your thoughts. You are so right and I know this and believe it in my heart. Sometimes you need a gentle reminder. Thank you for giving that to me. I'm so greatful for the wonderful Strong people I have had the opportunity to meet. I am truly blessed. I know that at the end of this road, we will all be ok. Cheri, thank you for shedding new light on this journey.

[WeHaveHope]

Just wanted to share this with all of you. Sending you HOPE for all of our futures today.

[Cheri76]

WeHaveHope - I'm glad it helped, but I have to say thats its a lot easier to maintain some perspective on the outside looking in. I have been away from the IVF game for close to a year now, giving myself breathing room with time to refresh my PMA. Give me a couple packs of BCP, a dozen shots of Lupron, 2 weeks worth of Follistim and daily visits to the RE and I will be needing some pick me up from everyone on this board. Nothing like a little bit of hormone fluctuation to make a girl crazy. I remember last year, after 3 unsuccessful attempts, and I was crying every time DH helped me with an injection. Poor thing really had no idea what to do. He wanted to comfort me and I pushed him away. I wanted to just cry! I needed to get it out because I felt like a kettle ready to pop!

This time I am REALLY trying to step back from it all and let things fall where they may. It will absolutely be a struggle because I am so emotionally invested in the outcome. However, I do think that all the stress that I let over take me affected the outcome. I am looking for anything to make the time go faster and I have to stay away from google!!!! Worst thing every created for a girl going through this process. Let go and Let God, as they say. No information that I can find is going to make a bit of difference. (Hold on to this post and remind me when I am obsessively looking for answers in a couple of weeks..lol!!)

On a good (?) note - AF came today and I am scheduled for day 3 bloodwork on Friday. Woohoo, its starting!!!

[WeHaveHope]

Cheri-thank you. And yes, I promise to pick you up when you fall. I am so happy that AF finally came. I can finally stop doing the AF dance for you. Still have to keep dancing for others on this board, though. By the way, I updated your status. Hope I got it rightthis time. Still thinking twins!!!

[Lauren]

Just wanted to drop by and send some BABY DUST to all my favorite ladies over on this board!!!!!!! Thinking and praying for you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fruit]

wehavehope - im sorry about the news from ur RE. i'll be praying that u will not need to do a D&C and that the spotting will stop very soon and u'll have ur FET this fall.

Lauren - i replied on the summer board, i was shocked to hear about ur clinic, i hate them

[Sunshine1576]

Hi Everyone, I'm sorry I was the "debbie downer" for this week! We all go through crazy emotions expecially when our hormones are out of wack. Overall today was a better day (thanks We for asking! ). I enjoy my job and got to outfit a dear client this morning who is getting ready for a trip to Europe. I was like please pack me in your suitcase and take me too!!!! But helping her was so much fun.... Another favorite customer I promised to bring her some okra fresh from my garden on Friday. My point is it's these distractions from others which help us most of all, but I'm the girl in Leorira's country song and I will stay here until my hair falls out- whichever comes first! Maybe way pass my welcome but I refuse to give up.. Anton, this perserverance is certainly what drives us to another round, but if we stopped here we would never known "what could of been." oh my which reminds me of another country song! I wanted to give Cheri a "shout-out" for her inspiring words that brought tears to my eyes and made me remember why I'm here to begin with. Most of all it's our group that contributes in making a difference on here and I wouldn't be hanging on today if it "weren't for you"...haha another country song, but I do mean word!

A good question that someone on here might could help me with...My husband and I were talking the other day, and come to find out LAST YEAR he was put on LEVOTHYROXINE for Hypothyroidism because his encrinologist thought his levels were too low. Is this med interchangable for both cases, because I've more HYPER then hypo, but on the same prescription he had. Thank you for your thoughts! Now on my way to Enterprise to get my rental and drop off my car for the repairwork.