Summer Board 2011

[Lauren]

Ester-CONGRATS! cant wait to hear about your u/s!!!

[fruit]

Ester - YAAAAAAAY wonderful beta news, i bet u're gonna hear 2 heartbeats on tuesday

[WeHaveHope]

Just wanted to share this with all of you. Sending you a little "HOPE" today for all of our futures.

[Ninde]

Hello ladies

Moorebaby: that's fantastic. You must be so relieved.
wehavehope: that's a pain about the possible delay and also about the d&c. When will you know more?
lauren319: how are you?
madamex: how are you doing?

Ninde

[to_have_fun08]

Esther - YIPPPEEE Congrats on the Awesome 2nd beta!!!! I am thinking twinkies... LOL!!

MadamX - Congrats on your transfer. We did CGH and my little boy was a hatching blast when transferred. I'm having good feelings that your gonna be preggo.

[WeHaveHope]

Hello ladies

Moorebaby: that's fantastic. You must be so relieved.
wehavehope: that's a pain about the possible delay and also about the d&c. When will you know more?
lauren319: how are you?
madamex: how are you doing?

Ninde

Tanks for asking. I take my last BCP tonight, so AF should come in a few days. I have an appointment for blood work and ultrasound with or without AF on Monday. If that comes back ok then I start the Estrogen patches on Monday night. My RE said that once my AF is gone and I have already been on Estrogen Patches for a few days to a week there should be no more bleeding. So he thinks that by the end of next week to early the following week we will know for sure. If I am still spotting then D&C if no more spotting then moving forward with FET on 9-30-11. Praying that whatever ends up giving us a successful pregnancy and baby happens.

How are you doing?

[Lauren]

Ok so shockingly today my RE office decided to finally call me after getting a BFN a month ago! LOL I wanted to laugh on the phone w/the NP but I was at work and couldnt really say what I wanted to say to her!!!!

She says...OK so Lauren....we had our IVF meeting today and we discussed your cycle and they would like you to come in for a consult and discuss more in details about your situation but basically they fet overall our cycle success was DECREASED! we had issues w/egg quality and sperm issues so maybe I want to consider donor sperm as well as donor egg! I was thinking to myself.....hmmm this is coming from the same place that the embryologist told me my DH sperm quality was IMPROVED! and we had 6 eggs fertilize and previously only had 2 out of 7???? This is the same place that kept telling me I was having a great cycle this time! This is the same place where the embryologist told me my embryos were of BETTER QUALITY this time! I am SO FED UP! I want to call back and flip out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! either that or go in and FLIP out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is it me????? Am I CRAZY????

I am so AGGRAVATED!!!!!!!!!! and of course DH is in class and I cant talk to him for awhile

[Lauren]

Ok so shockingly today my RE office decided to finally call me after getting a BFN a month ago! LOL I wanted to laugh on the phone w/the NP but I was at work and couldnt really say what I wanted to say to her!!!!

She says...OK so Lauren....we had our IVF meeting today and we discussed your cycle and they would like you to come in for a consult and discuss more in details about your situation but basically they fet overall our cycle success was DECREASED! we had issues w/egg quality and sperm issues so maybe I want to consider donor sperm as well as donor egg! I was thinking to myself.....hmmm this is coming from the same place that the embryologist told me my DH sperm quality was IMPROVED! and we had 6 eggs fertilize and previously only had 2 out of 7???? This is the same place that kept telling me I was having a great cycle this time! This is the same place where the embryologist told me my embryos were of BETTER QUALITY this time! I am SO FED UP! I want to call back and flip out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! either that or go in and FLIP out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is it me????? Am I CRAZY????

I am so AGGRAVATED!!!!!!!!!! and of course DH is in class and I cant talk to him for awhile

[Lauren319]

Lauren- I'd tell them to eff off and go somewhere else. Let them know why though. Ugh. I'm sorry

AFM - not good news. Still only 4 follies. Either canceling this cycle or banking eggs for the next cycle w pgd. No transfer. No baby. Thanks for playing. If you need me I'll be in my bed crying. I'm never leaving my bed again.

[fruit]

Lauren - OMG!!! WTF!!!! What kind of clinic is that calling after one month and giving up on u, i definitely leave them and go to a better clinic who are honest with their patients and who cares enough for their patients.
im sure u're gonna have ur baby/ies on ur next cycle with a new RE/Clinic. (((HUGS)))

Lauren319 - im so very sorry for ur latest news, any hope that things are gonna turn to be great and have a transfer this month?? i will be praying for u tonight.... i dont know what to say, u broke my heart with ur post....

[anton]

Lauren319 - I am crying for you as I write this post and I am deeply sorry things turn out this way for you my friend! It sucks and I can’t even begin to imagine how it feels to be in your shoes! hell! it sucks being in my shoes! ..I don’t have the right words to tell you and ease your pain, I don’t think there are any…I wish I was there to give you a hug and tell you that everything will be fine! ..But everything might not be fine and we all know that each one of us for her own situation…So I have this to say to you, cry and shout and feel sad do whatever you feel like! go ahead and even break a vase or something if it will make yo feel better! It’s ok! It’s normal! Express your feelings and your fear not to face the truth! Because that is the only way you are going to accept the facts and move on. You have been chosen to walk this path in life because you are strong and brave and an extraordinary woman that will make a proud mommy one day! Dont you ever forget that! Not everyone can be chosen for this! You are special and as much as you wish this wasn’t the case, this is it. You are chosen because you can TAKE IT honey and you will come out of this with your miracle in your hands! Don’t you give up on your dream! Don’t you give up on yourself! You are born for this and you will make it through the end like a champion! Everything happens for a reason and for this the reason is YOU! Because YOU are a strong and determined woman that all she wants is to become a mother. And you will be! and that baby of yours is going to be SO proud to have you as his mommy! ...You said you can’t pray and if someone can pray for you, I will pray for you and you need to promise to yourself that you will not give up on your dream! You deserve to be a mom and you will be! You hear me! Now go on and cry and be sad and frustrated and tomorrow is another day! And the new day will bring you clarity to decide your next step. what ever you choose is going to be the right thing. Have faith in you and IT will happen SOON! …Don’t give up! And when the pain of trying is worse than the pain of giving up then you can say it’s enough. But you are FAR from that my friend! FAR! You might not be able to see that right now but you have not reach bottom yet! And may God give you patience and strength to see that! like one brave lady said “ Don’t doubt yourself and don’t you let anyone make you doubt yourself! Do what is right for you and if it’s going to take 5, 10 or 20 IVF’s for you to come to the place in your life where you either achieve success, or where you say “enough”, then that is what it takes!” …sorry if I sound hush, but I meant every word and these are exactly the things I am saying to myself every single day! it’s either that or lose my mind! I choose to keep on HOPING and BELIEVING IN MIRACLES! The choice is yours…my prayers and love are with you my dear friend…

anton

[LYD10]

Hey guys -

Lauren and Lauren - wow - i am so sorry - both situations really suck!!!!!

lauren - definitely change your RE - life is too short to work with incompetent doctors. do you have anyone else in close proximity? having a doc you trust is so important.

Lauren - so sorry about the 4 follies. i guess you need quite a bit of embryos to do the PGD, right? this really sucks. I know Lou on PAT went ahead with like 3 follies - but she didnt have PGD to worry about. any chance you can still go ahead even with 4 embryos?

AFM - i am feeling in the dumps too. i am going in for my beta tomorrow and hoping that it went down like it was supposed to and didnt do anything weird. i am also feeling really blue and have really strange food cravings. i hope this is due to my beta going in reverse. maybe this reminds me a bit of my postpartum blues. but i cant really tell because that was a year and a half ago and i dont remember very well. in any case - i am craving chips and just lots of food. urgh....
i also hate not having a plan. i spoke with my doc today - who is great - and he told me that we will skip a cycle and then go with antagonist if i want. the only thing i am confused about is which cycle we are skipping - the one i am on right now - or the next one. probably the next one. so that means more waiting. urgh. so tired of waiting. well at least the antagonist protocol is quick. he said we dont even have to do BCPs. which means stim right after AF, which is nice i suppose. considering that i will then have to wait another 6-8 weeks to do a frozen transfer. so my next transfer is not till december most likely. urghhhhh!

ESTER - big huge congrats! i am so glad it worked for you!!!!! And my DH is on suppliments now - following your DH's example. I know believe that they work looking at you experience i am so excited to hear about your heartbeats!!!!

[Wishingandhoping]

Ester- WOW! I'm so excited for you! Based on those betas, I would not be at all surprised if you see 2 heartbeats!!!!

[Wishingandhoping]

Lauren319- I am so sorry that your cycle is not turning out well. It just really sucks, and I know that all you want to do right now is lie in bed and cry. I don't blame you at all, but I agree completely with Anton. You WILL be a mommy one of these days...It's just taking longer than expected. I know that your RE will have some good plans for you and your 4 follies. I will absolutely pray for you.

Lauren- I can't get over how frustrating your RE's office is. My DH would have called back and blessed someone out by now. Whenever we've had any issues, my DH calls and makes things happen...We're like good cop, bad cop

Lyd- I'm so sorry that you are down in the dumps today. I haven't heard that the antagonist protocol is problematic for the uterus. I did the antagonist protocol for my last fresh transfer, and I did get pregnant. Unfortunately I miscarried, but they didn't seem to think it was because of the antagonist protocol. I do love how quick that protocol is though! I agree that FET's are better for the lining...both of my little guys implanted with my FET, and I think my lining was just ready.

Anton- You are such a ray of light on this board. I really love your attitude, and I can't imagine this board without you. Of course, I'm ready for you to move to the PAT board! I hope your week without DH is flying by!

Wehavehope- I'm glad that you have a plan, and I really hope that the bleeding stops for you very soon!

AFM- I get to see my little beans again tomorrow! Praying for a nice uneventful ultrasound!

[Madame X]

Tohavefun—thanks that gives me some extra hope!

Wehavehope- so happy you are getting to move along in this process! I know you are so ready to!

Lauren- it took them a month to finally discuss you cycle?!? Did you ask why everyone claimed you last cycle to be “great” and now they want you to consider donor egg and sperm? Isn’t so hard when you are on the phone with the RE or the nurse…. After the phone call is over I start thinking of what I “should have said” it takes a while for it all to digest. What did you DH say when you filled him in on everything?

Lauren319- I am thinking of you! I just don’t know what to say to make you feel better. Probably nothing, I know how it goes! But don’t forget this is not over for you! You can def bank your 4 and even if you get 3 or 4 next time that’s 8! Plus, you have 2 on ice waiting for you! And, your inconclusive embie, did your RE ever get back to you on what your options are there? If this cycle fails for me I have none of that. You are totally still in this!!

LYD- December is not that far off!! It will be here before you know it!!

Wishing—Let us know how the u/s goes tomorrow! How exciting!

AFM: back to school today! I was very busy, stressed, and did way more than I would have liked/wanted to! I try to tell me self to relax what doesn’t get done today will get done. But I am super high stung and a worrier! What made it worse is that I wasn’t there yesterday. Plus, I teach night school for those who never finished high school and now want to, GED classes, and this year I added ESL to the mix. So I had that tonight too. I hope I didn’t push myself too much today. I went from couch potato for 2 day to movin’ and grovin’ non-stop. My feet hurt, not used to wearing dress shoes from having the summer off and I was setting up my classroom and having kids surrounding me. I love it all though! So anyway I hope everything that is suppose to happen in there is happening!

Goodnight girls – I am hitting the couch and soon after bed!