Thanks everyone for the lovely kind words but I'm afraid it's a BFN for me this time round. I'm feeling okay about it as i did most of my grieving on Saturday. My team mates at work were fantastic and so sweet. I've kept them up to date with what's happening re IVF. It's difficult to hide, working in an open plan office, getting regular calls from the fertility clinic, not participating in the usual coffee order each morning etc. They're all fascinated with the process and laugh and cry along with me. I went to the gym after work and did a good cardio workout, had gooey cheese for dinner, and am really looking forward to that coffee tomorrow morning.
Next step is a natural FET with our one remaining embie. This will probably be in Nov after another cycle has passed. After that, if we choose to continue it'll be with an egg donor as my old eggs are starting to struggle. I've already had a couple of offers from people at work. Lots of thinking to do first though. Would you believe it, my AF started about 4 hrs after stopping the progesterone pessaries.
Leora - i filled my fertility nurse in on my HPT nightmare weekend so that she can pass it on to others. Boo to the blue tests!!!! Great to hear your first day at work went well and that you get a holiday soon. Excellent. What a bonus!
Akdelp and Tufffy - I'm dying to find out your results today. Bring on some BFPs.
Kamina - congrats on being PUPO. I've never found the ET painful and I don't get given any meds for pain relief. I am told to have a full bladder and have almost peed on the doc before because I was so busting.
lauren319 - now you've got me worried about grey pubes

I'll have to have a good look and check out whether I'm going grey. Will let you know the outcome...i'm sure you want to know.
We - I love the MLK inspirational quote and so apt for me today.
Felicia - good luck with your beta.
Sunshine 1576 - I really enjoyed reading your post. You transported me to your garden and the party. It sounds like a great time was had by all. I would have worried about the contents of your gumbo had it come from a cockpot! Hope the neighbours doggy is okay because chocolate is toxic to dogs. If it's a big dog, it would need to have eaten a really large amount of dark chocolate to be affected. Have to watch little pooches though. Hopefully the dog threw up after stealing all the brownies. Mind you, being a dog, it's very likely to have gobbled up it's own sick afterwards. blurk!
Blessed - thank you, you're so sweet. We can wait for our FETs together.
Anyway lovely ladies, I'm off to stuff my face with some chocolate to improve my 'ho'ness! And then it's off to bed for an erly night. Take care all.