Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Outlaw927]

Thanks guys for welcoming me. I hope this will be the first and last IVF attempt also but I paid for 2 cycles just in-case.

We are actually wanting to be sent back to Texas (for family reasons) so it will not be somewhere cool and exciting. My husband is an Army brat and he went everywhere cool, he went to school in Italy, been to Paris like 5 times, been to Korea, and went to high school in Belgium...We've only been to NY,TX, FL,GA and now maybe back to TX.

Today I bought 5 boxes of Menopur for $80 a box, my Lupron and Crinone, is covered by my insurance and I got my follistim was free from lifelines. I am so ready to start the IVF cycle. Can't wait for Friday.

[Sunshine1576]

There is a place for everything while we keep on trying to find THE perfect treatment cycle to what gives us a healthy pregnancy. I wish each of you the very best and want to say how thankful I have been to have you here.

[WeHaveHope]

Hi dear friends,
So this evening is definantely not a good one for me. I think that staying indoors for 4 days, all the hormones, and the anticipation has finally gotten to me. I was doing well until right after dinner. DH said I haven't smiled and if you guys really knew me you would all know that I am almost always smiling and there are very few things in life that can get me down. I typically van always see the positive or at the very least see past the negative and planfoe the next move. Tonight my mood is depressing and blah... My mind Is telling me that with such great looking frosties this has to have worked but my heart feels very heavy. My boobs are killing me, I am site it the estrogen and the progesterone combo. My butt is really sore. I haven't complained at all but tonight it hurt and I cried. DH felt so bad. It wasn't his fault, I did the regular routine. I'm starting to think it actualy really didn't hurt physically as much as emotionally. I know we all have days and moment like this. When we feel like, how much more can I endure. I'm kind of at that point today. I know it will pass, bit that's where I am right now. Just feel like crying and crying for absolutely no reason that I can think of. Sorry for the lack of PMA tonight.

[blessed143]

outlaw-welcome to the board... Thinking of you and I hope that you have a successful first IVF! Thinking of you!

tuffy- oh that is so not cool!! I know that I would be jumping up and down! I am sure that you get the numbers you want!! Take care and try to relax.... I always say I go to sleep the sooner the morning comes Thinking of you!

Felicia- Congrats on the 2nd beta... How exciting!!! You are on a wonderful path! I pray that it continues and look forward to hearing how many little one (s) you ahve!

akdelp- congrats on the bfp!! HOw awesome!!! How exciting!

Tess- I am so sorry!! I know words cant make you feel better but please know that you are in my thoughts and I hope that you are ok!

AFM-I am sorry if I left you off the personals... I think I confused myself... I am just doing all I can trying to wait for AF to come. I pray AF comes tomorrow since AF seems to control when the transfer will be... errrrrr.... Still cant believe how much I want AF... I hope that you all have had a wonderful start to the week... I read some of the personals and I just hope that everyone knows that there are great women on here who are willing to be supportive during the difficult time. Like I said I confused myself reading the posts so..... just ignore me I hope you all have a great night and look forward to when I can post when the FET is going to happen!!!

[Sunshine1576]

Awww We, I know all of us have felt this way at some point and it's not like you to be down but we understand and get that this IVF is an emotional rollercoaster. Yes your embibabies looked perfect and you must keep up the hope to send some positive vibes to those precious beans tonight. I will be saying a silent prayer for you and dh that this time works.
Sending you much love from the Florida Panhandle,
Christy

[Sunshine1576]

Tuffy, I would be anxiously waiting too, praying that this is your BFP!
Adkelp, NICE job on the beta, Congratulations mama and I will be stalking you throughout your pregnancy!
Felicia, a big round of applause for your second beta!
Wahooo now that fabulous news, love seeing BFP on our boardm gets me pumped up and excited!

[Sunshine1576]

Sending out a big warm welcome to our newest member, Outlaw. I look forward to sharing stories and getting to know you on here. Christy

[WeHaveHope]

Sunshine1576 (Christy)-As always, thank you fir always being there for me. You have been such great support for me I hope I can repay it someday. Thank you again. I will try to read some spiritual passages and pray that I sleep well tonight and wake up more like my usual happy optimistic self tomorrow. Going back to work tomorrow, maybe that too will help.

Thank you again,
Maria

[Kamina]

Lauren = I guess I am just a sensitive soul. I do have a tilted cervix? Not sure why I was in so much pain. If I was younger, I'd go through the ER for someone but not the ET. I’m trying to take it easy. Now I am lying on the couch while DH takes online classes. He leaves for NY tonight. His friend from college will drive him.

Tess - I'm so sorry. Sounds like you have a fantastic support system. I know the feeling after 6 failed IUI's.

WeHaveHope I had 3 blast. I don't know how to post the pics. I barely figured out how to change my signature. The crazy part is my corporate job is very technical(handheld, servers, computers put together, software, setting up networks, scripting), but when I am home I don't even want to look at a computer. I’m like a chef that eats out all the time. tee hee. I took my valium about 10 minutes before the transfer. Maybe I have a strong tolerance to it. I don't know if I can handle POAS. I hate to get the bad news early. I would rather ride it out. Unless I feel preg... At this early stage I can’t predict what actions I will take. OMG you are already POAS. How early can one do this? Lol.
Sorry you are having a down moment. Just take things one day at a time. You can cry if you want to. Tears clean the sorrows from our soul.

Tuffy - congratulations!! Great job. Now get some sleep!

Ninde - I'm so sorry. I takes me back to when we'd come to hear the baby's heartbeat and it turned out wrong. Oh honey I pray you will get through this pain.

akdel- BFPBFPBFP! That nurse sounds like the worse nurse ever. I hope she wakes up. Jobs are hard to find now. You did it girl way to go!

Leorira - being hairless is back in style and good for my side business. I have lot of male clients getting back waxes. I'm not sure where the influence came from but happy my ladies are keeping the bushes manicured. I have never done a boyzillian. I leave that to my gay guy esthetician friends.

Anton - you are always making me so hungry. I have gained 8 lbs since starting IVF I am so hungry all the time. I love Mousakka! Since I cannot do any exercise I have a feeling the scale is only going to go up. Anton, you are not helping me!

fvroger - if you have in-growns use tend skin or PFB. Make sure you let Virginia get air. Tight skinny pants and tight underwear can cause ingrown hair. But now that you are going through pregnancy you might not want to use chemicals in that area. Just go natural for now. lol.

AFM - Ladies, I just found out my husband has told all his friends what is going on with our IVF. I have not even told my good friends. I guess he is a part of the process but I feel like people who are not even close to me now know. How do you guys feel about that?

So my new protocol:
No heavy lifting
No intercourse or orgasm until after the first OB ultrasound about - 5-6 weeks
No baths or hot tubs showers only until after first OB ultrasound
No high impact aerobics no over exertion
Suppository is inserted vaginally at bedtime - I hate these things last time it gave me a bladder infection
Complete bed rest on day of transfer. Continue to take it easy for 2 days after ET. No shopping no walks
Continue prenatal vitamins, aspirin, folgard, lovenox(shot in the tummy), calcium, vitamin D, metformin, levothyroxine, dexamethasone, and PIO.
I had some slight bleeding and cramping today. Ugh

[Tess69]

Hi all

Kamina - my DH also tells his co-workers when we are going through IVF. I've found that I've become more and more open about the process as time has gone by so now I willingly share with my experience with those that I'm close to at work. It really is a personal thing though. If you're not comfortable about it, have a chat with DH and just let him know your feelings.

We - can totally understand where you're coming from. I had an absolutely crap day on Saturday when I just couldn't think of anything good in my life at the moment. The reassuring thing is knowing that feeling will go away. Recognise that you'll have down days but also recognise that being the positive soul you are you'll bounce back and feel balanced once again. You are going through a really tough life challenge. You're allowed to feel emotional from time to time. Hormones don't help either!

Tuffy- can't believe you had to wait another day. Wow!

Ninde - so sorry about your loss. I know how hard it is to have your hopes and expectations built up and then taken away. Take some time to heal, stay strong and you'll be amazed at how brave you can be.

Akdelp - wahoo to you. Just brillant...well done you. I have a great fertility nurse who has a super sense of humour. The first time I met her I had taken one of my best friends to the clinic for support as DH wasn't available. DH has an androgynous name and the nurse walked out an greeted my BF with DH's name. We had such a giggle and my BF is now commonly referred to as my lesbian lover at the clinic. No offence intended to lesbian couples of course!

Anton - mmmmm....moussaka. I've made it a few times, it's a faff but so worth it. Well done on your 1st attempt. Sounds like you impressed the MIL.

Felicia - great beta. You must be elated.

Outlaw - welcome, welcome, welcome.

Blessed - isn't it ironic that we actually are wanting or period to come! I'll do a little groovy AF dance for you.

Leora - I'd like to reiterate to you how glad I am that you were honest and open with me on Sunday about the blue dye tests. I had no idea and would have sauntered into beta day thinking it was a positive. You're the best.

To all those who are Mums already and trying for another - yes you do have a child (or two) already but that doesn't negate the strength of feeling and hope for another. I'll not deny that I'm jealous that you already have your own family but that's my problem to deal with not yours. I wish every Mum as much good luck as any other woman on this board going through IVF.

I agree that debates about controversial topics on this board are not great but at the same time it's important that we feel comfortable enough to be 'straight up' with one another about important topics like pubic hair! I love this thread...it makes me laugh that during such hard and challenging times we can take the time out to have a laugh about something so trivial. I'm pretty much a 'go natural' girl who does a bit of a trim before any gyny appointments. My DH would love for me to strip it all off for a surprise bt the thought of itching my crotch during growback doesn't appeal. I think a bare puby takes guys back to playing 'I'll show you mine if you show me yours!'

My first coffee today in yonks was delish! So goood.......... I was buzzing for the rest of the day, zipping about with the jitters.

Anyway ladies, time for beddy byes.

[WeHaveHope]

Good morning ladies,
I'm up early again. Have been up since 5am. Sleeping well does not come quite as easy these days. Between all the hormones and the anxiety I'm not getting much sleep. Although, I think I slept a bit more peacefully last night. Thank God! I want to thank all of you for all of your kind words of encouragement and all of the love and friendship you give me each day. I am so grateful for each and everyone if you and pray for you everyday. I wish I could say that I feel 100% better today but not yet. But the important thing is that i know I'll bounce back. In the meantime, I POAS again this morning. I am definantely not celebrating but please tell me if you can see what I see??? I know it's super faint and you may not be able to see it, heck I could barely see it but I've looked at it a thousand times and it's there. Maybe an evaporation line???Not going to stress over it today. We will have to wait and see what tomorrow brings.

[leorira11]

Maria - I can't see it because your pix is too big and gets cutoff right before the GOOD PART! Re size and re post, asap! I love stalking HPT pics

[akdelp]

We - I think I can see it!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had the same thing 5dp5dt. I didn't test 4dp5dt. I think you're golden! So sorry you were feeling down last night. Maybe it's because you had a surge of HCG!

[WeHaveHope]

Leora, let's see if this helps. I still think it's a bit hard to see plu it doesn't help that I was holding th test upside-down so the line your looking for is in the right. Right under the pink lable.

[Outlaw927]

I think I see it but it's really hard to tell. Please post another pic asap!
I will be praying for you!!!