Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Sunshine1576]

Thanks We,
Sometimes I feel like I'm going backwards in the process of having a family... I thought moving down here would bring us more stability and we waited ten years to try to start a family because we somewhat wanted stability. Dh told me last night that he prays I'm a few months along by Feb and he still has a job. It would be ok if we could see the future but 4 months on pins and needles is a long time. He's been in this line of work for 9 years, but on-line is the newest technology and he volunteered for more classes (7 this semister) just so we could have money for fertility treatment. One guy, a rookie has never taught an on-line class where most of the others only have one on-line at a time. But the cutoff for withdrawing is around 10.18 so maybe time will help him. How are you feeling today? In the picture I posted is from last summer Annabelle and me having afternoon tea, it was a true delight and afterwards I took her to Hobby Lobby, we went crazy in there!

Ninde,
I did an antagonist for my last cycle, because for the previous cycle I didn't respond as well to the meds...The antagonist cycle was for an IUI but the meds were the same (we used follistim) and he had me on 225 units a day starting off, NO bcps and NO lupron which I liked, it really flew by. This time he said I responded too well and with 7 embryos I was encouraged to cancel the cycle but talked him out of it wanting to take the chance. Crazy risk for an IUI with 7 embryos, and now I look back wished we could of converted to an IVF at the last second, but we will definately try another anatagonist cycle if my RE recommends it again!

Gina,
Are you taking prenatal vitamins? You sound very healthy that I need to be following your diet. My biggest weakness is sweet tea but I don't like coffee. My new co-worker is a nutritionist so I'm hoping to get more tips from her. I'm looking for some good smoothie recipes but more then anything need more balanced meals. I constantly stay hungry and cannot eat enough.

Samantha,
I know most of us here feel the same way with anxiety but will worrying ever stop? We have to find an outlet someone to talk to and I know this forum certainly will help you too. Also try to find something you enjoy, maybe an occassional movie, a good novel if you like reading, a hobby like gardening, sewing or skydiving but seriously we'll give ourselves an ulcer if we become overly obsessed. Trust me dh and I are both obsessive when we set our minds to anything, and it keeps us awake sometimes....

[furmomma]

I have read through the past several weeks and can not believe the strength in this forum. I am crying with respect and happiness (and I stopped effexor 5 days ago )
I am hoping that somehow god finds away to make all our dreams come true. I have to believe and trust.

I have had many ICI and am on my second IVF. several attempts at international adoption (country -vietnam closed one week prior to my match, price "suddenly" increased etc) Somewhere there is a child/children babies waiting.

[WeHaveHope]

I have read through the past several weeks and can not believe the strength in this forum. I am crying with respect and happiness (and I stopped effexor 5 days ago )
I am hoping that somehow god finds away to make all our dreams come true. I have to believe and trust.

I have had many ICI and am on my second IVF. several attempts at international adoption (country -vietnam closed one week prior to my match, price "suddenly" increased etc) Somewhere there is a child/children babies waiting.

I'm realy glad you decided to post in this thread. I reached out to you earlier today because I realy did not want you to spend you 2we alone. Are you planing on joining us? I would love to add you to our Roll Call so we can all follow your progress and cheer you on when you get your BFP. I look forward to getting to know you better.

[Ninde]

We: thank you so much you have as generous a heart as I have ever experienced x

Sunshine1576: thanks for the information. So you did th antagonist for iui but it can also be done for ivf and you would go with it if re recommends?

Furmomma: inter country adoption is so unpredictable - im so sorry vieynam closed just before your match, you must have been devestated. My sister adopted from ethiopia in jan after 6 years of waiting so I can only imagine your upset and pain. We also are on the list for adoption but because it could take up to another five years and even then there is no guarantee we decided to run ivf in parallel which is very frowned on in ireland but we felt we had to. I will absolutely pray that you can change to a different country if that is what you want.

Ninde

[SamanthaRae21]

Good morning Everyone!

Well today is the day I go off my BCP, So hopefully AF will come between now and my appointment on the 13th to check blood levels! I will hopefully get the ALL GOOD signal and start my shots on the 14th! Im trying to be strong and not worry but Lord knows Im going to...

Ninde- I have been on Zoloft since college and its helped out a lot! Its the one antidepressant/anxiety medications my OB will allow his clients to be on, so I am fourtunate in this! I was worried about having to go off of it but all the women in my family were allowed by their doctors also to stay on the medication and they all produced beautiful/healthy babies.

Sunshine1576- I know I am always going to worry, probably not matter what I do, but I know I need to try to allow my body and my mind to relax or else Im going to drive myself crazy wondering about the "what Ifs...!" I think my problem is I sit around and think about it rather than being productive in something that allows my mind to switch gears. I need to take your advice and get involved in something that will help keep my mind of everything!

QUESTION: What side effects come with being on the shots? Anyone chime in on this!

[LauraN]

Samantha- woo hoo on stopping the BCP....one step closer. So on side effects of the meds. Physically my main side effects of the stim meds was bloating, especially closer to the ER, I felt like my ovaries were going to protrude through my skin...ha! wouldn't that be a sight! But, I believe all of that was more about my follies growing, not from the meds directly- you know what I mean? Now the progesteron, totally constipated(sorry TMI), so make sure you do extra water and I started retaking Fiber tablets(I can't stand the fiber you put in water/juice-yuck!) Now, as far as other effects....on the stims, I wa more emotional-Before all of this, I was emotional, but not normal girl emotional- that was one thing my husband said he absolutely loved about me- HA! look what he gets now Anyways, I am not sure if it was the meds or the stress or maybe a little bit of both. BUT, I can tell you that once I started the estrogen patches, MAN, Watch OUT! I started calling them "***** Patches" I would apologize to my husband and tell him when I changed my patches because I was a totally crazy nut job on those- and they gave me rashes on my stomach. Now, I haven't been on the Lupron, that is what my new protocol will include, but I heard that those can make you a little grouchy. But just pretend like you will have no side effects because your body will determine what it wants to react to and what it doesn't I am so very excited for you and can't wait to share this journey with you.

Sunshine1576- Did you ever post what your thyroid # was at and what # the RE wants to see it at? Mine, at it's highest was 5.163 and they want it at 2 before they will move forward. I have been on the thyroid meds for several weeks, and my Endocrinologist didn't think it would be a problem for it to be down to do this round, but I am still nervous. I would be very interested in what your numbers show and also can't wait to hear how everything goes with your RE....that appt is tomorrow, right?

I can't wait to see the beta results of those still waiting, the second betas and the u/s results for everyone waiting for those.

AFM- Well, waiting, waiting, waiting....waiting for AF to show up so I can start on BCP. I am really hopeful that it will start this week, the sooner she shows up, the sooner the shots begin But, on the other hand, I want to give my thyroid enough time to go down, so I'm totally mixed But, for now, I just want AF to show up so we can move on, whatever that looks like for us.

[LauraN]

HA, ok, I guess the "B" Word won't show up....so, I called them "Witch PAtches", just with a B

[Gina1976]

We~ Thank you. While I don't have an RE yet (have to go through the military chain to even get permission, which is crazy since it's out of our pocket) I'm going to call my old one and see what they say. It's gets bad and can't breathe and feel like everything is closing in on me. I do take one now (almost out) that is a one time they and takes it away instantly. That way I take as needed. If it isn't harmful for IVF I'll get more.

Samantha~ YAY for no more BC! Hope AF shows quickly so after your bw you get they go ahead!

Becca~ Glad you got your FET date and everything looks great!

Sunshine~Glad you mentioned prenatals. Def something I need to get on, it's never too early! Oh and wonderful sweet tea! I'm from Georgia so we love ours sweet! I put like 2 cups of sugar in a gallon, sometimes more! So bad of me! I don't make it often though and being in Germany it's only at two places so I have some once every couple of weeks.

I understand about the not feeling full thing. I try and eat almonds throughout the day. They help you that full feeling and are great for you. Also I do my best to eat an apple and drink a glass of water before each meal, that also helps me. Lots of proteins will give you a full feeling, like eggs. I will make egg whites and not just for breakfast. I dice up bell peppers and onions with some EVOO until tender then add egg white mixture. SO GOOD!

[furmomma]

with the patches are your talking estrogen patches? being that I am using DE I m sure my protocol is different but I will tell you both times the lupron is the easiest! I thought if this is what menopause is like bring it on. just give me kids first.
I am on 6 mg of estrogen a day and frankly each time I have had different reactions. the first time my breast felt HUGE and like they needed an extra seat on the plane. This time no problem -with my breast anyway. The progeserone I have been on for other reasons in the remote past is always a grouchy/*itch medication for me. I hate it. Worth it if it all goes well but yuck what a bad time for everyone who I interact with. How do you guys deal with people at work who dont know? I am a little worried. I have tried to brush things off but....

I will say since the IVF last week I have never felt more sick, like a bad ride at the fair. I wish i could say it was because of something good but this started within 24hrs of the transfer
I probably wont ever try international adoption again. Maybe If this ivf doesnt take I will try again, maybe I
will try going through the fostercare/adoption system. Hard to think of that as anything but trying to jelp a kid adjust to the fact their parents screwed them. Hard to understand when you walk down the street and see people who fail to reasize how lucky they are to have kids!
ok understand I am jacked up on hormones so if I offended some one I am really sorry. My head and endocrine system are in a cruisine art.

[leorira11]

sorry I've been MIA. Things have gotten quite crazy around here. I started working - which is great, but stressful. I feel like I never see DH anymore.

My whole family is here to visit for the holiday of Sukkot. They are here for 2 weeks. Thank goodness, not staying with us - but very nearby. This is stressing me out and my husband out. I like to say that my family puts the "fun" in "dysFUNctional". <sigh>

Of course, they were all coming now because I should have newborn baby boys....

I know a bunch of people who were due the same time as me -- and lots of healthy babies being born now. It's making me so sad.

I'm excited and stressed out about starting a new cycle. Somehow, I can't even hope for the best outcome....

I'll be MIA for another week or so - then I'll be back. Stopping my BCP in 15 days!

[Gina1976]

Leorira~ ((hugs)) I pray this will be the cycle for you! Don't let your family overwhelm you. Just walk away if you have to.

[WeHaveHope]

Hi ladies,
Wow, those board is sure moving fast. My computer is down again so I'm having a hard time doing personals from my iPhone. But I will get to some later today.

For those that asked how I was feeling, I guess ok. I'm having all kinds of weird feelings in my lower abdominal area. Ita real hard to explain. I feel kind of constipated, along with bloated, a little campy, and also a little nauseous. I still have not passed the next milestone which is to make it passed the date which I miscarried last time. That was 4 weeks/5days and I'm only at 4 weeks/3 days today. I keep going to the bathroom to urinate and I'm always real nervous that I'm going to see blood. Thank God that hasn't happened and I pray that it doesn't. But I can't help to think about it often.

Beta #2 is scheduled for tomorrow. I pray that it will have doubled by tomorrow. It's hard to imagine what it will be tomorrow. Since my first Beta was 656 double that would be really high, wow! Also a little concerned about my progesterone level. It was 12.4. I increased my PIO last night to 1.5ml. I can tell you I definantely felt the additional 1/2ml of PIO. My butt is quite sore. I pray that my progesterone level will be higher tomorrow. I'm not sure if the 2 days of increased PIO will have made a difference by tomorrow.

As always I am praying for all of you. I hope everyone is doing well.

[akdelp]

We- I am having the same fear! I am even dreaming of starting to bleed. Soon you will be past 4weeks 5days! Good luck tomorrow on your BETA. My day is exactly 7 weeks...If I can just make it!

[WeHaveHope]

Akdelp-Thank you so much. I am also having weird dreams sometimes nightmares. It's very creepy and of course between the hormones and the nightmares I'm not sleeping well. Um up several times at night plus can't go back to sleep after 5am. I'm exhausted when I get up in the morning. Thank God for the prenatal vitamins, theyare at least giving me a little bit of a boost.

I am praying that you make it past your 7 week milestone. And you will. I have faith that you will have a healthy pregnancy and a happy beautiful baby.

[Ninde]

Samantha rae: if you didnt have so much going on I would also suggest therapy as an option (I know, im biased!!) But maybe some acupuncture might support you through the anxiety with the zoloft.

LauraN: I hope af comes soongina: your diet sound so healthy

Furmomma: go gently

Leoira: best of luck with your family, its togh. I know some guru or other said something like - if you think you are enlightened, spend a week with your family - you will soon learn that you arnt!!

We: im really praying for you to get past your first milestone. Your beta was so good. Im asking arch angel Raphael to put his hand on your tummy and calm down all that cramping and bloating.

Adkelp: I hope your dreams are better

Ninde