Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Lauren319]

Only 4. 3 on the right. 1 on the left. The ultrasound lady was like, "you're just getting started.". I can't stop crying and I have to go to the dentist. I don't know whether to come to terms w the fact that I'm just not gonna have a biological kid. 

Personals later. I can't even see.

[WeHaveHope]

Lauren319-Oh honey, I am so sorry. Please dont give up yet. There is still time. I am praying for you.

[akdelp]

We- I am so sorry for your loss. Sorry I am a little late. I am so sorry. Thank you for your support.

Felicia - Thanks! I sure hope they are common. I haven't done any research yet either. I'm not even sure where my hematona is! And I know that placement is critical. Find out Monday. I just started neausa so I can't complain. You poor thing, you probably feel horrible! I just had to run to the bathroom, ended up locking myself out of my office! LOL!

Sunshine - Thanks. Banana Splits sounds soooo good! You said something in your post about laying everything in God's hands. I agree. Before this cycle started, on my way to the transfer, I said to Him that I give you this and I trust you will do what is right and meant to be. It really did help with my stress level. Then again, when I was settin gin the ER (which was a christian based hospital and had quotes from the bible everywhere) I said to Him - Take this God. I can't possible deal with this alone but I totally trust you know what you are doing. Just hang onto me so I don't fall too far....So far, it's been a gently shaking... Maybe he is just getting me prepared for a loss, maybe he was trying to tell me to slow it down and take it easy...we will see.

Blue- That is SO encouraging about your friend!!! I asked a girlfiend (who has no idea what i am doing and is an OB nurse) what these were all about and she said her youngest she had this. She is 10 now! I live in Illinois. John Deere Country!

bodie - thanks for the encouragement. I appreciate it.

furmomma - I am so sorry. ((Hugs))

Lauren - Oh no. I am very sorry. ((Hugs)) There is no hope?

Take care all.

[Gina1976]

Lauren - Yes, please don't give up!! They will find out what works for you! Praying for you!

[blessed143]

sunshine- yum banana split.... I hope that your 4 IUI goes well. It is so good to hear that your DH is so willing to get it going. It took a little while to get DH on board... I will be thinking of you and I hope that AF comes.... Took mine forever to come probably because I wanted it so badly that she decided she was never going to come....

blueeyeddreamer- yay for the darker line. I cant wait to hear your numbers! I hope that the cramps stop but I know some early on are normal. I hope these days fly by for you!

furmomma- I am so so sorry. We are all here for you and I pray that you are doing well.... THinking of you!

Lauren- Do not give up! Keep looking forward and dont get so hard on yourself. Anything happens and it only takes 1. Dont give up yet! I will be thinking and praying for you!

akdelp- still thinking of you and I cant wait to hear what the doctor says monday. I will be thinking of you! nausea is never a fun thing but sometimes they say the more nauseous you are the better the placement is.... I think my mom told me that... I dunno... but still thinking of you!

AFM- I am still just hanging out. It has been very cold today and windy. Just enjoying being indoors. My dogs have been making me crazy they want to run outside but it is so cold they want inside.... I am just still hanging out waiting for tuesday that way I can get all my "info" and see how my uterine lining is.... I just hope I have enough lupron because I would hate to reorder it and not need a lot of it. I am getting more and more excited as each day goes on waiting for nov 3 to come. I have told a few people of what we are doing and I know that they dont fully understand so I am so thankful that you all are on here. I will continue to pray for you all on this site and I know that everything is in Gods time and in his hands. I pray that his will will be done and I pray that each of us will get the greatest joy of being a mother... i hope that you all have a great day and everyone is doing well! THinking of you all.

[WeHaveHope]

Dear friends,

I'm just having a really bad day today. Feeling really down. I'm at work, but feel like I should just go home and cry the rest of the day. DH and I have been having a really tough time with this MC. This time we only made it a few days further than last time but just knowing that the gestational sac was there, growing inside of me has been something that that has been very difficult to get over. It's been tough to get that out of my mind. DH and I, unfortunately, not been on the same page with regards to how we are dealing with this. Yesterday, we got into an argument over the dumbest thing. I can't even remember what it was about, that goes to show you how stupid the argument was. In the end I needed to be close to him and he needed some time to himself. I had a horrible night and so did he. We both did not sleep and I cried all night. This morning I had an opportunity to go by his job and we hugged out in the parkinglot for a while. He told me how much he loved me and we both appologized to each other. I feel so alone. I know I'm not and I know we both need each other so I don't know why we are doing this to each other. That bothers me more than anything. I cried and cried as he told me that we were going to be ok and that he was going to be with me for the rest of our lives because he loves me so much. I know we can get through this. I'm just so confused about so many things, sometimes I feel like I dont even know what I need.

I feel aweful today. I have this dark brown grainy stuff just dripping out of me everytime I go to the bathroom. I don't even think it's blood. I'm not bleeding. I don't know what I am at this point. It's disgusting and I think if I have to look at it one more time I'm going to be sick to my stomach. I called the IVF nurse this morning, my usual nurse is out today. The nurse said that I will be bleeding on and off until my Beta goes down to zero. She said that my RE want to do a hysteroscopy but that it will be done after my Beta goes to zero. Also, no word from the genetics lab yet. This did not happen to me like this last time. I know that all MC are probably different and we were a few more days ahead this time with seeing the gestational sac, but my God, I don't think I can deal with this. I know God would not give me more than I could handle but I feel like I'm drowning.

[amanda1979]

Lauren- Please don't even up. The most they have gotten from me is 7 & it can be so discouraging. Remember Lou only had one & she now has beautiful baby Sending you some major cyber HUGS!!!

WE- I am so sorry hunny :(:( Have they look to see if maybe you have uterine polyps? I know even the smallest one can cause MC. A close friend of mine lost her little girl at 20 wks bc she had a small uterine polyps that no one knew about until she MC & had a D&C. I hope as the days goes by you & your DH will find some peace somehow. Also sending you some major mojo & healing cyber HUGS!!!!

fvrogers- I can't remember if I told you congrats or not( the whole lupus thing messes with my memory) just in case I didn't CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!

Blueeyedreamer- you sound like me I try to get my dogs to do stuff & I talk to them & they look at me like you know we don't thumbs & we can't talk to you right? lol oh well I love my little poms. WOOHOO for seeing the line!!!!!!

Anton- YAY for the second interview. I sure hope you get the job!!!!

Leoria- Men & women are so different. I don't think there are many DHs out there that would get on a forum to spill their guts to strangers who then become friends Nope I never see mine doing it, but us women need it. I hope you & your DH get all you need & want out of the couple counseling. Maybe he will realize why you need this site

AFM; Okay so the official day for ET is Oct 28 Thursday at 2p.m central time. Update on my mom is she still has the tumor in her cervix but it is shrinking and we go back for a PET scan Nov. 9th which will probably be at the end of my 2 ww. My nurse ask me how I was doing and I told her I was okay. She said I have known you long enough now to know that okay does not mean your really okay..lol funny how we become so close to our nurses. Anyways, I told her well I was getting nervous about ET if it is going to work or not then if it does the pregnancy itself. She told me to concentrate on something else & I am thinking like what ? this is what my life is & has been since 2009. Oh well I hope everyone is having a great day.

P.S Ya'll know cooking isn't one of my talents, but I am going to try to cook chicken spag. tonight. Wish me luck and pray I don't give us food poisoning..lol

[Gina1976]

We- I hate you are going through this! I can't begin to imagine how painful having to see it. As for you and your DH ((big hugs and prayers to you both)) I'm glad you were able to go see him and talk it through and just hold each other. I do pray you will get some news on the test they are doing and what is causing the MC's can be figured out and fixed easily.

[hopefulmommy]

Thank you so much for all the "welcomes!" Had my Mock Transfer today and have my instructions class tomorrow. Still waiting to ovulate so that I can start Lupron. I'm getting kinda scared though...reading too much online I think. What are yall's thoughts on icsi and birth defects. It is frightening bc somethings I read say there only a little bit higher risk than normal while others sound very scary and much higher percentages. Doctor says that bc it is only hubby's morphology that is a problem and not his count that birth defects are not as big of a concern. Thoughts?
Me: late ovulation
hubby: 4%morphology
44 million count
55% motility

[Ninde]

You have your u/s Evening ladies,

Sunshine: definately tcm and acupuncture helps regulate blood low. My cycle had always been ok but would go over 30 days quite regularly but when I started acupuncture it became and stayed at 28 days. But its also good for boosting fertility (im definately doing it this time!) And its great for stress. And you arnt rambling - its great to read your thoughts. I wish we had some way of claiming back some ivf costs but we cant. Can your re have any influence on your claim?
Gina: oh that sounds really stressful for you and your dh. Any results yet?
Maria: those quotes are beautiful. Im really hoping your broken heart will start to mend but it will take time. Please be gentle with yourself x and i know all m/cs are different but what you have described doesn't sound right.I wonder if your re needs to check you out?
Akdelp: how are you doing?
Felicia: ah you poor pet. Things sound yucky you have your u/s soon dont you?
Blueyedreamer: lol keep poas! I took a photo of my digital result im in ireland so im definately not in your neck of the wo
Bodie: I know other women spoke about coq10, is there a specific amount you took
Julia: I know its tough when others really dont get it, this board is great
Furmomma: oh im so sorry and even in your sorrow you offered the progesterone - what a generous heart you have x
Lauren319: oh im sorry. How far into your stimming are you?
Blessed: its great to hear you are excited
Amanda; im sorry, I didnt realize your mum was sick.
Hopefulmommy: ouch, I hadn't heard anything ame all the way through her ivf treatment and through her pregnancy. Its been been lovely working with her but id be lying if I didnt say it was a little tough too as for

[Ninde]

Ok sorry about that. Last post was obviously too long and got scrambled.

Hopeful mommy: I was saying I hadn't heard about higher birth defects with icsi

Afm: was back working with my usual clients today. Was a little intense but good sessions. One of my clients was finishing up as her baby is due in two weeks. She has been with me all the way through her ivf and pregnancy and its been lovely. Id be lying if I didnt say it wasnpoignantnthogh as the last number of sesions we had together we were both pregnant. But im very glad for her

[klinger13]

Lauren319 - I am so sorry you're having the same issue as last cycle. I was really hoping you'd get a great report and have enough follies to get through PGD so you'd have a few embies that were not affected. But instead you have to deal with this same shit again. My heart keeps breaking for you. Sending you lots of hugs hun.

[Lauren319]

Ive done 7 days as of today and got orders to continue meds until my next appt on Sunday. I'm so fed up and seriously feeling down. My coping skills are just not enough anymore and I'm gonna have to pull it together and find hope somewhere so that perhaps a new attitude will do something before Sunday. Any ideas? Stupid movies? Books? Funny anecdotes?

We - I'm drowning with you.

[blueeyedreamer]

Lauren: I'm not a movie person so can't help ya there. Hang in there. Search youtube for stupid people, that might help.

Hopefulmommy: I read about slight increase in problems with ICSI. I spoke with my IVF nurse about it before we decided to do it. She said that yes there is a risk, but that it really depends on the quality of the lab and the embryologist performing the ICSI.

Maria: My heart breaks for you. What kind of progesterone were you on? If you were on crinone then you will have some nastiness last for a while. If not, then I don't know what the brown grittiness is. A hysteroscopy sounds like a good idea. I had one several years back. It's pretty painless except for dealing with the anesthesia. It is a useful tool to get a view of the inside of the uterus and maybe will give you some options. Take all of the time you need, cry when you need to cry and yell when you need to yell. You have been through hell and you will come out of it. But right now this is very fresh and is a very deep loss.

Amanda: I didn't know you have lupus. I hope you are managing well. I know in some ways MS and lupus are similar in how it makes you feel. So I can say that in some ways I feel your pain!

AFM: Did I POAS again? Of course! Today was with an FRER and thankfully the line is still there. I emailed my IVF nurse and told her. I'm sure I'm not the first. She said "it's OK to test"! I think I will, thank you very much The cramps are interesting. They are different than my typical pre AF cramping. The cramps come and go. I'm someone who lives with issues with pain and fatigue from the MS and endometriosis and I can say that I have felt pretty darn good this past week! Maybe it's the adrenaline. I don't have any spotting but have noticed an increase in cervical fluid. I think that is typical. The progesterone is making my boobs hurt like crazy and this is getting worse. By the end of the night I don't even want my shirt touching them. This could be a very long 9 months! I'll have to tell my DH he can look but can't touch I also don't have much of an appetite. I'm hungry but don't want to eat much when I do eat. I'm a bit overweight so that's probably not a bad thing.

[WeHaveHope]

UPDATED 10-20-11 @ 10:00pm EST. Please let me know if I have missed anyone or if I'm missing any updates. Sending you lots of xoxoxo.







UPDATE NEEDED
Melinda72-ER 9-12-11
Kendra_n_Michael-estimated ER 9-20-11


Becca-u/s 10-21 FET 10-28-11
Amanda1979-FET Oct/2011
Kerribell FET Nov/2011
Blessed143-FET scheduled for November 3rd
Tess69-FET Nov/2011
Kala0704-FET Dec/2011
Olim78-FET Nov/2011


Tamera-11/2011
Kiminsh-Fall/2011
Alwaysangel-Fall/2011
Sunshine1576-Fall/2011
Lyd10-Fall/2011
Anton-Fall/2011
Fruit-Fall/2011
Krrice28-IVF 10/2011
Jasmin-Fall/2011
Cheri76-Fall IVF
LauraN-Nov/2011
Neffi211-ET scheduled for 11-2-11
Bebesperanza-Fall/2011
Catdempsey-Fall/2011 ER end of October
Greekchick Fall/2011
Kerri_789 IVF Fall/2011
Sky7371-ER scheduled on 10-24-11
Gina1976-will schedule appt w/RE in several months for 1st IVF
Julia73-Fall/2011
Hopefulmommy-Nov/2011




Kerpupples-on BCP for cycle Fall/2011
JenMink55-Start BCP on 9-14-11 for Fall IVF
Leorira-On BCP for FET 11/2011.
Rosie84-On BCP for IVF Oct/Nov 2011
Outlaw927-started BCP on 10-7 for 1st IVF attempt Fall/2011



Lauren319-Fall/2011
SamanthaRae21-Fall/2011




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Blueeyedreamer-PUPO on 19-13(2 hatching blasts). Beta 10-23.
Jen8675309-PUPO on 10-14(2 embies). Beta 10-27.

RESULTS

Fvrogers-PUPO on 9-22-11 (2 blasts). BFP 9-30 Beta=57, 10-3=290
Akdelp-PUPO on 9-22-11 (1 expanded blast) BFP 10-3 Beta=205, Beta 10-5=575
Tuffy4u-PUPO on 9-24-11 (2 blasts). BFP 10-3 Beta=205, Beta 10-5=519, early u/s twins
K8ielovett-PUPO 9-19-11. BFP 10-3 Beta=953, Beta 10-6=3403
Toniaa-PUPO 9-24-11(2 blasts). 10-6 +HPT, No Beta waiting for u/s
Counsel13-PUPO(4 embies). BFP 16dpo=470, 18dpo=2060
Bodie1011-PUPO 10-7(2 embies). 10-14 +HPT, 10-16 Beta=248, 10-18 Beta=725


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