Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Lauren319]

Blue - congrats on all the hpt's. Was it you who said your dog wouldn't respond? I tell my cats I don't speak "meow.". It doesn't seen to make them stop. I'm not in Seattle, but in L.A., so not really your neck of the woods, but maybe the shoulders? Thanks for the YouTube advice, but stupid people just make me angry for the most part.

Maria - how you feeling?

Hopeful - my husband also has 4% morph and we're doing ICAO. The re didn't even mention stats on birth defects, but we're also doing pgd, so...

Amanda - my bff told me to concentrate on something else too. Right. Cause this isn't my life. Um, good luck with the chicken?? Make sure it's cooked through, my dear.

[Sunshine1576]

Julia, so true when the average person hears "IVF patient" they really have no clue. It's nice to have a comforting place to come to where everyone can relate to what you are going through. Still thinking about the acupuncture, maybe if I could be reassured that they are using brand new needles, idk the first time in trying anything is ALWAYS going to be nerve-racking! Maybe I should start off with a massage first... but I do like hearing others talk about their acupuncture experiences...

Gina, I've been looking more at IVF Attain Program for Florida, we would get 3 regular IVF and 3 FETs for 17 grand with 70 % money back if we brought home no baby. Still hopeful to get approved, my doctor doesn't think I would be a good candidate though since we've already had one failed IVF cycle and that was all out of pocket last year with my local Panama City clinic. Had I been able to commute last year I would of done things so much differently. Oh well we shouldn't dwell on the past, right? We must keep moving down this path to our BFP and nothing else will matter.

Ninde, Sounds like it has been rather bittersweet with some of your patients, you shared so much together and It's tough to see them move forward when we feel we've had to take one step back. I try to be resillient too, but the sound of a baby even crying makes me wonder when will we have that chance to comfort a little one? I try to focus my attention on work and any possible distraction I can find, with anything to make time fly a little faster. It helps that dh has been supportive and he keeps telling me it's not over yet. In the end, I feel all of this treatment has taught us to be more patient and certainly as I said before made us stronger. I know when we're holding our own baby(ies) someday we will have a much bigger appreciation and gratitude too. We'll know everything that we went through to get there, "every bend in the road" was so worth it!

Lauren319, come on grow follicles grow! No, it's not over yet so keep them stimming!

Maria, This doesn't sound normal, forgive me for asking did you have a d&c? Normally right after the procedure you'll get a moderate period but I've never heard of this. Maybe the RE can give you better answers, but I hope you call him soon. I wish we all lived closer, we would definately treat you to a massage.

hopefulmommy, I've heard about possible birth defects with icis, it was on the news this time last year and I remember thinking really, what are the odds? If doctors were concerned about birth defects actually happening relating to icis wouldn't doctors not offer ICIS in the first place? My brother and his wife went through IVF using icis and now have a healthy baby boy so maybe I am bias but I think doctors try to "cya" or in a nicer way cover their butt with everything out there, yes there is always going to be a risk. There is a risk when they put to you to sleep in surgery, or even on an airplane for that matter, my point is sometimes we don't have control over every little thing and with a low sperm count (like my own dh) ICIS would be our best option. I think the way we have to look at it is, yes be cautious but at the same time what other choice do we really have? This time last year was my VERY first IVF and I was scared and more worried about multiples, but now I'm taking EVERY risk possible to make something happen. Like I said before what are the odds? I wish you THE very best!

Furmomma, I'm sorry to hear about this cycle not working out, I know you had high hopes and I understand the financial burden that comes with treatment. Yes more insurance companies should offer coverage. Dh is persistant on us keep going even though I'm one who worries how we are ever going to get our credit card paid off. It's ridiculously expensive! Sorry I had to vent, but I wanted to tell you I am sorry this didn't work out I wish more doctors would inform patients that IVF doesn't always work out on the first try. I was so devastiated too when I got our results back, you would think with IVF being as expensive as it is, it would have a higher success rate! Besides more doctors should offer us a payment program anything to help us reach our dream. Sometimes researching other clinics could give you more options. I'm praying God will open a door for you and dh to try again.

AFM: AF arrived today, baseline scheduled in the morning and my Mom is still coming on Nov. 3rd, this is only getting interesting. I did ask nurse today about my thyroid med, if we could lower it? She said once I get pregnant they will increase it, well I like her optimism to say the least. GOOD NIGHT and happy weekend EVERYONE!

[WeHaveHope]

Lauren319-thank you for asking. Honestly, I feel like crap. Not like me at all. I sord of think of myself as always having a positive outlook but it's been really difficult to find anything positive in this experience. DH and I are better. I thank God for that. I don't have any doubt that we are going to be ok with or without a little miracle of our own but I'm still struggling with the idea that this may never happen for us. God may have another plan for us. Another path he wants us to take. But I am still so stuck on this path. I just don't know. My IVF nurse has neen so wonderful. Just as she did last time, she has been keeping me busy by playing words with friends with me. It's been difficult for me to even enjoy playing the game, and it's one of my favorites. But I hate to turn her down. She means well and it has helped to keep my mind away from all the terrible frightening thoughts I have.

I know your not feeling well. And I wish I could do something to make you feel better or cheer you up. There is still times don't loose hope yet. I'm always praying for you, I want you to know that. And I will keep at it until you realize your dreams of being a mom. Sending you all of my love and a great big hug.

[WeHaveHope]

Sunshine-thank you for asking and always worrying about me. No D&C yet. RE wants to do a hysteroscopy after my Beta gets to zero so he can also do an endometrial biopsy. No results yet from the tissue sample I took to the doctors office. I didn't expect it would be back so soon but I was hoping it would be. As hard as it is I pray that the sample is in fact tissue and not something else and that it hopefully sheds some light into our problem with staying pregnant. Unfortunately the dark brown discharge I'm having is probably a combination of tissue and old blood. Sorry for TMI. I just wish everything came out already and get this over with. It's a constant reminder. I would rather have the heaviest most painful AF then what I am having now. I have no real physical pain but the emotional pain is sometimes to much to bare.

I'm so glad that AF came for you. Your getting really close now and I will be praying everyday for you as I have been. Sending you all my love.

[blueeyedreamer]

Bleh-red/pink spotting just started. Cross your fingers that it is implantation related.

[Neffi211]

OMG! I just realized that I have been taking double the estrace I am suppose to be! I swear last time I took this it was 2 pills at a time so when she said 6mg I figured it was 6 pills....yeah I just read the bottle and they are 2mg tablets! So I have been taking 12 mg for a week now! u/s and bw tomorrow, I guess I'll see if I ruined my cycle! I know some people do take this much...but I started some lite spotting today and I know its becasue of the estrace. Can't believe I am such an idiot!

[Gina1976]

Sunshine- I'm excited for you! Hope this will be your turn and you get a BFP! Enjoy your Mom's visit! How long is she staying? Maybe it will make the 2ww go by faster!!

We- Always thinking of you and your DH. I pray you will heal quickly. We are all here for you. Many prayers!!

[Gina1976]

Neffi- Not doing IVF yet so not sure what that medication is, but I hope it doesn't make you have to cancel! Praying all goes well at your appointment tomorrow and you can continue this cycle!

[akdelp]

Ninde - I am trying to hold it all together. It's just not working!!!!

Early this morning I started spotting red again with a little "soreness" down there. I don't think I can handle this ladies!!!!! I am going to have a stupid melt down, I swear it. On my way into work I seen a cattle truck with cattle in it and I just started to sob! I just don't know how I can handle this again!!!!!!

[WeHaveHope]

One of my employees is 10 weeks pregnant and just showed me her u/s. I think this is it for me. I need to go home and crawl in bed an just wither away. I am happy for her but so overwhelmed with sadness for us. God, please I beg you to give me strength. I dint know how much more I can possibly endure.

[akdelp]

We - I am so sorry. I pray for you.

All - I am going in to the RE this morning. Heavy bleeding just started. I am going to lose what little mind I have left!!!!!!! Can't see to type....God help me and WE!

[WeHaveHope]

Akdelp-please know that I am praying for you. Please God, help Akdelp, please...

[Neffi211]

Akdelp-- thinking of you today! Hope that everything is ok!

AFM-- false alarm.....I am suppose to be taking 12mg of Estrace...on my way to u/s now...check back in a little later

[Gina1976]

Akdelp- Praying for you!!

Neffi- Glad you were taking the right dosage after all!! Good luck today!

[Julia73]

We- you are such a trooper. Even with all that you are going thru, you still manage a heartfelt, kind word for others. I admire that greatly and don't even know much about you. I can see Him in you though! Continuing prayers for you.


Sunshine- prayers for you as well. How all is going well and I think youre on the right path with a massage first! I'm so telling DH that will help!

Akdelp- prayers for you as well. I'm so sorry for what you are going thru and wish there wee more I could do.

Lauren- dumb question and I'm sorry, where are you at in this journey right now? I'm doing injectables and just got back from my second e2/us. Waiting on a message from my nurse atm. Prayers for you as well.

Afm- as I just said, got back from my second e2/us about an hour ago, 5 follies on right ovary, 4 on left, one on left is 14 I think she said. she saw small ones as well on both. I expect they will up the follistim this afternoon. So expensive all these meds! I'm really optimistic today and hope for a message soon on my voicemail.

We- not that I'm glad you and DH are struggling, not at all, but I'm glad I'm not the only one up all night arguing. Worst fight ever last night. This process sure takes a toll on a marriage and last nights discourse wasn't even anything serious.
Have the best day all, this is the day that the Lord has made let us rejoice and be glad in it, we are breathing!