Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Neffi211]

Akdelp-- Istill hoping and praying for you! Give us an update when you can....

We-- I am so sorry you are going through this. There is nothing worse than others that are pregnant around you and the guilt you feel for not being happy for them! UGH! I am truly sorry you are dealing with this. I hope you got to go home and cry....cry as long as you need to. We are here for you.

AFM-- lining check went well. It is 9.1 right now and that really good for me. I am waiting to hear from them for further instruction. Guess the 12mg of estrace is working, although I am an emotional disaster and spent most of my night crying. I am ready for the transfer!

[Julia73]

Neffi! So glad your dosage was ok! Awesome news about the lining! Keep it up.

[WeHaveHope]

UPDATED 10-21-11 @ 1:28pm EST. Please let me know if I have missed anyone or if I'm missing any updates. Sending you lots of xoxoxo.







UPDATE NEEDED
Melinda72-ER 9-12-11
Kendra_n_Michael-estimated ER 9-20-11


Becca-u/s 10-21 FET 10-28-11
Amanda1979-FET Oct/2011
Kerribell FET Nov/2011
Blessed143-FET scheduled for November 3rd
Tess69-FET Nov/2011
Kala0704-FET Dec/2011
Olim78-FET Nov/2011


Tamera-11/2011
Kiminsh-Fall/2011
Alwaysangel-Fall/2011
Sunshine1576-Fall/2011
Lyd10-Fall/2011
Anton-Fall/2011
Fruit-Fall/2011
Krrice28-IVF 10/2011
Jasmin-Fall/2011
Cheri76-Fall IVF
LauraN-Nov/2011
Neffi211-ET scheduled for 11-2-11
Bebesperanza-Fall/2011
Catdempsey-Fall/2011 ER end of October
Greekchick Fall/2011
Kerri_789 IVF Fall/2011
Sky7371-ER scheduled on 10-24-11
Gina1976-will schedule appt w/RE in several months for 1st IVF
Hopefulmommy-Nov/2011




Kerpupples-on BCP for cycle Fall/2011
JenMink55-Start BCP on 9-14-11 for Fall IVF
Leorira-On BCP for FET 11/2011.
Rosie84-On BCP for IVF Oct/Nov 2011
Outlaw927-started BCP on 10-7 for 1st IVF attempt Fall/2011



Lauren319-Fall/2011
SamanthaRae21-Fall/2011
Julia73-Fall/2011




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Blueeyedreamer-PUPO on 19-13(2 hatching blasts). Beta 10-23.
Jen8675309-PUPO on 10-14(2 embies). Beta 10-27.

RESULTS

Fvrogers-PUPO on 9-22-11 (2 blasts). BFP 9-30 Beta=57, 10-3=290
Akdelp-PUPO on 9-22-11 (1 expanded blast) BFP 10-3 Beta=205, Beta 10-5=575
Tuffy4u-PUPO on 9-24-11 (2 blasts). BFP 10-3 Beta=205, Beta 10-5=519, early u/s twins
K8ielovett-PUPO 9-19-11. BFP 10-3 Beta=953, Beta 10-6=3403
Toniaa-PUPO 9-24-11(2 blasts). 10-6 +HPT, No Beta waiting for u/s
Counsel13-PUPO(4 embies). BFP 16dpo=470, 18dpo=2060
Bodie1011-PUPO 10-7(2 embies). 10-14 +HPT, 10-16 Beta=248, 10-18 Beta=725


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Indigofire
Kamina
Furmomma


Ninde
Sunshineandstars
WeHaveHope

[Ninde]

Ladies

Today seems to be a bad day and im so sorry there is so much pain today.

Lauren319: right funny movies - I know its all subjective but I loved "friends with benefits" "the hangover" and "bridesmaids".your bff sounds like she is trying to be helpful but failing miserably! In terms of coping skills you sound like you have tones but what utterly absorbs you? Whatever it is try it for even a short period of time. Im not overly religious but I have a blue candle lighting for strength and protection for you and Maria and adkelp.

Adkelp:how are you? What has your re said? I cant believe this is happening. Again,like for Maria and Lauren I've lit the blue candle for you and your little one.

Maria: oh for the love of god,please tell me your colleague didnt know you miscarried this week? If she did its just cruel if she didnt its not her fault but that must have been heart breaking. Have you gone home? You are in my candle

Neffi: wow what a day. How are you doing?

Blueeyedreamer: has the spotting slowed down? It really could be implantation bleeding. Are you ok?

Sunshine: I hope your baseline goes well and im delighted your nurse is so optimistic. Enjoy the jazz

Julia sounds like a good happy day for you. Im sorry about your fight. Its really bloody tough this whole thing

Lots of prayers going out to everyone

Ninde

[blessed143]

I feel so behind in personals but please know that YOU ALL ARE IN MY THOUGHTS!!!!!!!!!

We- I am so sorry... I am thinking of you and I cant believe that your coworker showed u her u/s. I hope that she did not know what was going on with you. I am thinking of you and you do what makes you feel better even if you sit around and scream and cry. I am praying for you!

adkelp- how are you and what did the RE say? I am thinking of you and I am praying for you! I am so sorry that this going on with you and I hope that everything is ok.

neffi- I am so glad that your lining is great. I am sorry that you are an emotional wreck, seems like hormones do that.... When is your transfer again? I am so excited for you!

julia- the meds are crazy expensive and its so stressful waiting by the machine all day long. Grow follies grow!

praying for you all on here and have a great day! I am thinking of you all!

[WeHaveHope]

Ninde- yes, I eventually went home. No, my emplyee did not know. No one at work knows. It was so difficult to look at that u/s today and see a perfect little baby. And all I have to show for my last two pregnancies are a bunch of positive pregnancy test, which I threw out this morning, and some u/s at my RE's office showing a gestational sac that was "slipping" at the time they did the u/s. Oh and let me not forget the constant brownish mushy stuff that comes out of me everytime I go to the bathroom and wipe. I feel so pathetic. I just could not hold back the tears when I saw that perfect little angle in her u/s. I'm happy for her, I truly am. I just wish I could also have an u/s to show and a baby still growing inside me. I'm not pregnant anymore but still feel like I am. Constantly nauseous and my breast still feel so sore. All that, and I've go nothing to show for it, absolutely nothing. I know I must sound so bitter and it's probably because I am. Bitter and tired. Just feel like sleeping for a really long time. DH told me today that he is really worried about me. I prayed so much the other day. Finding it difficult to do today.

God, please help me, help all of us. God, please keep us all close to you. Lord, only you can heal our broken hearts.

[Ninde]

Maria: you dont sound bitter, you sound heart broken. Your body is still feeling pregnant and this discharge sounds horrendous. Do you have to go through that physically? Is there nothing that would help - surely you dont have to go through this too?

Ninde

[akdelp]

Ladies. I went to re this am. Baby looked good....however...I just passed this mass that is blood and tissue. Wait for re to call....I think its over....

[Lauren319]

Julia - day 8 of stims and just free my 2nd u/s, so it looks like we're on the sane cycle...although I'm not responding.

Ninde - I haven't seen friends w benefits yet, but it's not in DVD . Thank you for your thoughts and prayers

Neffi - ur crazy . I love it. Thank god it dose was ok.

Akdelp - ****. Keep us posted. I'll stay glued to the board. It could still be fine!!

Maria - oh hun. Good for you for going home. I so get how you feel. Hugs.

[Ninde]

Akdelp: oh im so sorry. But just hang on, maybe its bleeding that is from the haematoma. Im really storming heaven for you

Lauren319 - how do you feel about illegal downloads?
Ninde

[Julia73]

Akdelp- still praying, hoping for the best possible outcome!

Lauren- it does look like we are sharing this journey, don't give up hope!

Got my voicemail message, estradiol went from 144 the other day to 359 today, so no need to up the fsh. We go back monday for yet another e2/us.

Praying blessings for all who's eyes see this.

[Julia73]

Double post, oops.

[Lauren319]

Ninde - I felt awesome about it until got a letter from the motion picture academy telling me to stop. Hahaha. Whoops.

[leorira11]

sorry I've been such a slacker -- my family is visiting and I'm off of work, so I'm really really busy! On top of everything, I have a really bad cold. Yes, right after getting over my food poisoning last week! UGH! I'm so full of snot and just coughing & sneezing non-stop! It's amazing how a cold really makes you feel so sick!

Maria - I'm so sorry. This is so hard. I haven't had 2 back-to-back miscarriages (only one miscarriage - and always had a failed cycle or two in between my other losses!), but I can only imagine how hard this is for you. Also, so many people feel that miscarriage is a 'taboo' subject and shouldn't be spoken about, but maybe you should tell some people at work, especially the woman who is now pregnant. That way, people can be a bit more sensitive towards you and not show off u/s or baby pictures. Of course, we (women with lost babies) are 'supposed' to be learn to be okay with other people's happiness - and it's true that her healthy pregnancy doesn't add or detract from your loss - but it really is hard to be around friends who are celebrating pregnancy/birth. Feel free to avoid if you need/want to.

Christy - how was your baseline? So exciting (and terrifying) to be starting again, no? I'm freaking out about starting in a week - I'm supposed to stop my birth control pills on Thursday -- I'm super excited to start again but also sooooo terrified!

blue - I'm in Jerusalem, Israel but originally from Pittsburgh PA. A former classmate of mine from Pittsburgh just moved out to Seattle! I've never been to the West Coast, but my DH is from Palo Alto, CA and he really wants to take me out there one day. ---- did you tell your doctor about the spotting? Maybe you should get an earlier beta/us - how many weeks are you?

Furmama -- I'm so so so sorry. BFNs suck soooooo much.

Neffi - PHEW! So glad things are okay -- canceling a cycle because of a med mixup would be AWFUL! You take 12mg of estrace per day? I always take 6mg (2mg x 3/day). hmmmm..... I wonder. My FETs always take a long time (ie, actual FET is around CD25)... maybe I should be taking a higher dose? I'll ask my RE

akdelp - hoping everything is okay! Like I've said before, with my miscarriage, I had spotting on and off (just brown) and ended up with a missed miscarriage. With my boys, I had BRIGHT red bleeding - super super heavy with big clots at 6 weeks and again at 8 weeks - and they were totally fine. So it could go either way. Try to stay optimistic, even though I know that's so hard.

Julia - sounds good!

Lauren (319) --- oy. I'm sorry hon. How nuts is it that some people deal with OHSS and some people can't stim at all.... I really hope those ovaries kick into gear!

Ninde - We just watched "Horrible Bosses" and really liked it! I also watched "Just Go With It" which was cute too, but totally ridiculous and predictable. We just got "Captain America" and "Green Latern", so I think we are going to have superhero-movie week!

AFM - family leaves on Sunday and I go back to work. It'll be nice to get back to routine, and my family drives me nuts, but I'll miss them. It'll be a long time until we are all together again (and one of my brothers didn't even make this trip - I haven't seen him in 4 years!). This trip has been crazy (doing all the sight-seeing, touristy things that I never do because I live here!).

I'm getting nervous about stopping my BCP and starting the FET. I think one of the biggest stressors is this new job. At my last job, everyone knew about our IVF and it was never a problem to come a few minutes late. I also started work at 9am, and the clinic opens at 7:30 for bw/us, so I usually got to work on time. Now, I start work at 8am and the clinic is further from the office. No way I make it there before 8 and probably closer to 9. I feel bad, because I'm new there, but legally, I'm allowed to take sick time to do IVF related things. But I don't know what to tell the office. They know that I've had IVF in the past (since the 'twin' thing came up. I wear a necklace with twins on it and my new manager asked me about it since she has twins. I told her that I had twin boys who died. She mentioned that her twins were IVF so I told her that mine were IVF too), but I continued the lie that I'm telling everyone else (that we aren't trying again soon because I need to wait longer after the C-section). I'm techincally on a 3 month 'trial' period, so I really don't want them to know that I'm TTC or pregnant!

Any advice? What do you tell work when you need to be late in the mornings for bw/us?

For the actual FET, I know it'll be scheduled in the afternoon and I finish work at 3pm. If the FET is scheduled for noon or 1pm, I can fake sick and leave early. (I'm not a huge believer in bed rest after transfer. Sometimes I do strict bed rest, sometimes modified and sometimes none at all -- I haven't seen any correlation to getting pregnant! Since this job is so new, and I'm not so optimistic about this single frostie anyways, I'll rest that afternoon and go to work the next day. Sitting behind a desk isn't all that much different than sitting on the couch!)

We'll see... if this FET doesn't work, I'll need a good story to tell work during the fresh cycle that I want to do immediately afterwards --- for the FET, I'll be late because of bw/us maybe 3-4 times, for fresh, I have to go in the mornings much more often.

[akdelp]

Still waiting for RE to call me! This is nuts! I would never make someone wait this long! It's been hours!!! I had a girlfriend/cousin who is an OB/Surgical RN come over (she is the only one we have told) and has seen lots of DNC's and miscarriage remains, etc... She said it doesn't have the fetus in it, however, it could have dropped in the toilet. She has never seen anything like this and that it is for sure tissue. The blood clot looks funny too. Maybe that is the problem, the tissue just doesn't look right so something must have been wrong.....I could beat myself to death about all the options...did I mention that I "feel" great! Not emotinally of course...They need to hurry and call before I drive myself mad. My eyes hurt so bad from crying all day....I put this in God's hands but I can tell you, I just don't understand why...why me, why not me, what did I do, what didn't I do, could I have done something different, what the hell is it if not the fetus? Sorry for going on and on...going crzy over here! DH is still working wishing he could be home...I feel so bad for him.