my heart and soul goes out to you and your dh.
the next year will be hard. but remeber that ivf was hard so you are not a quiter you are a fighter so when life getsdark and you dont think that you can stand a nother second remember that you did have a miracle and that you are not alone.we are all here for you . tracey is a very wise woman. take her advise.
poems prayers family and friends and god is what has helped me.
at times i thought i could not breath any more and that how could anyone ever understand. but go threw and read back from the children have been taken up to haven. there is alot of help there. i wish someone would have thouoght of babies loved and lost before.
i my first mc was 22 years ago. i have never for gotten my first and the first year was the hardest. i dont have anything to remember him by, ecept for what is in my heart. with my twins and our son moses we have lots of photos thanks to ivf and the once a wk scans..
i am so thank ful for that.
here are some poems that have been sent to me that have helped me
A HEART OF GOLD
A heart of gold stopped beating,
Two wonderful eyes are at rest,
God broke our hearts
To prove to us
He takes only the best.
God knew you had to leave us,
But you did not go alone;
For part of us went with you
The day He took you home.
To some you are forgotten,
To some a part of the past,
But to those who loved and lost you,
Your memory will always last
I'm going to tell you something
I hope you'll never have to know
I'll tell you how a heart can break
And tears can constant flow.
I lost my baby boy you see,
An angel in my eyes
God chose to take his hand one day
And led him to the skies.
But please do not forget my child
He was a person too
And forever he will live
Inside of me and you.
So, please don't ever tell me
That time will heal my pain
Because not even time
Can bring him back again.
Just tell me he is happy
In that land way up above
He's snuggled in an angel's wings
All wrapped in mommy's love.
I closed my eyes and prayed to God today,
I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard him say,
A Mother has a baby, this we know is true,
But God can you be a Mother when your baby’s not with you?,
“Yes you can!”, he replied with confidence in his voice,
“I give many women babies, when they leave its not their choice,
Some I send for a lifetime and others just for a day,
And some I send to fill your womb but there’s no need to stay.”
I don’t understand this God, I want my baby here,
He took a breath and cleared his throat and then I saw a tear,
I wish I could show you what your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile with the other children and say,
“We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear,
my mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mom who had so much love for me,
I learned my lesson very quick. My mommy set me free,
I miss my mommy oh so much but I visit her everyday,
When she goes to sleep, on her pillow is where I lay,
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear,
Mommy don’t be sad today, I’m your baby and I’m here.”
So you see my dear sweet one, your children are ok,
Your babies are here in my home and this is where they’ll stay,
They’ll wait for you with me until your lesson is through,
And on that day that you come Home they’ll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother,
It’s the feeling in your heart
It’s the love you have so much of, right from the very start.
These arms of mine are still empty,
It's been far too many years.
I can hardly keep them hidden,
The heartache and the tears.
I am waiting for you, sweet angel
To bless my life, my heart, my soul.
I think I've been a good wife,
Now I want so much a mother's role.
My life doesn't seem complete.
You are not there to hold.
I big piece of my life is missing,
Your destiny is yet untold.
I see you in my dreams, baby.
Ten little fingers and toes.
You have your Mommy's blue eyes,
And your daddy's ears and nose.
When my eyes are closed I think,
Will your room be pink or blue?
And how much of my life will pass
Before all my dreams come true?
Will I ever know the joy
Of rocking you at night?
Telling bedtime stories
And tucking you in tight?
Will I ever be able to comfort you
When you fall and scrape your knee?
To kiss and make it better
At the tender age of three?
Can I watch you graduate
And drive you to the mall?
Your dad could take you fishing
And teach you to play ball.
Will you make me a grandma
When I am old and gray?
Looking back at my life,
I would be blessed in every way.
So why have I been left behind
When I have so much to give?
I would gladly show you the whole world
If you could only come to live.
Will my turn ever come?
I search my anguished mind.
But questions without answers
Is all I seem to find.
I go home every night
And fight the tightness in my chest.
The silence is so deafening
In my big empty nest.
I guess God has a plan for me
And I shouldn't have such fear.
But why you can't be in my life
He hasn't made quite clear.
I pray for you llittle one.
Everyday, can you hear?
So tell God we are ready
To hold you forever dear.
You would never go without.
We would shower you with love.
My little piece of heaven
Sent from up above.
Posted by Woppa
my e-mail is
ogr@direcway.com
i am usaly always here.
i am just headed out the dorr to get flowers for my sons grave.
please know how much you are loved and that you are never alone and when you start to feel that you are alone get ahold of some one.
woppa (elilane) tracy me dagny traci there are just so many that are here just please let us know
all my love becky
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
